the gypsies are always right

no drama needed.

hmm. i've been avoiding this blog.
mainly cause i dont feel a need to blog anymore.
or rather i cant be bothered.
my life is as uninteresting as a sack of potatoes.

also i think i've found a new ranting place.

just to spice things up, i think i have a new sense of focus.
but that focus seems to die off so easily.
and the worse of it, the source of focus is ignite by envy.
green fuel as i like to call it(in my mind).

besides feeling rather undetermined and not good enough for the important things in life,
i feel like a big blob most of the time.

things i should look forward to,
my b'day's chalet,
my b'day,
flea market,
money,
drinks with pals,
and and and and and and.
nothing.

i realise that this random post is just a way to distract myself from my work.
im so full of excuses.

A must!

Have to watch this! Have to.

Seriously.

An indie film by RJ Cutler that documents the legendary Anna Wintour, the editor in chief of Vogue. The film won 3 awards in the 2009 Sundance film festival.

I have an obsession.

I am possessive.

I cling onto things like an eagle grabbing onto its only meal.

You're a cad

So now you want the whole world to notice that you've come around,
Now you expect,
We'll see how you're really so much better now,
But I know the truth, I won't waste my youth

On a cad and a bounder, a dog and a cheap
All the lives that you've had, all the hearts you eat
You're a rascal and a rove, a villain and a crook
Still I tug at your line, I'm a fish on your hook

I should be better, but I'm worse...

What's the point pretending that you could be a better man
Just give in, since you always end up right back where you began
Still I know the truth, but I have a sweet tooth for a...

Cad and a bounder, a dog and a cheap
All the lives that you've had, all the hearts you eat
You're a rascal and a rove, a villain and a crook
Still I tug at your line, I'm a fish on your hook
You're rash and you're hasty
You're reckless with my heart, still I wait by the phone
I will never get smart

I should be better, but I'm worse...

[Still I know the truth, but I have a sweet tooth]

For a cad and a bounder, a dog and a cheap
All the lives that you've had, all the hearts you eat
You're a rascal and a rove, a villain and a crook
Still I tug at your line, I'm a fish on your hook
You're rash and you're hasty
You're reckless with my heart, still I wait by the phone
I will never get smart
I should be better, but I'm worse...

Illuminatis.

Zomg. Its tomorrow!
Let's go!

PS: I got a feeling it won't be as good as I expect it would be

Morning wood

The first thing I touched when I woke up in the morning was my laptop.

I started the day with potato chips, coke, cigarettes and lily allen to perk me up.

My life is as stale as the bag of chips that I got bored of.

I believe in karma.

Isn't life unfair.

You're judged by merely glances and a few non-crucial attributes.

Please dig deep and not be shallow.

Lesson learnt, don't wear your heart on your sleeve.

Lesson to be learned, the saying be assertive applies to everybody and that includes myself.

I am so drained.

This is a week of trauma, emotionally as well as physically.

wtf x 100000

when i thought everything went well,
but i came to realise i screwed it all up.
its like this piercing pain that i want to get rid off,
but its here to stay.

is it paranoia, or is it just a sense of realisation.
if i could do it any differently, i would wear something else.
and not carry that bag, or have that shaven.

the six sense is tingling hard.
i am so bloody screwed.

ps: im not gonna fucking give a damn anymore because at 2.48am
i realised i am beating myself up so badly and for what?
it has already been done, and it has already been like
that since friggin' 2005.
If im not gonna start now, im not gonna start ever.

okay a drink is very much needed, right. about. now.

Reminiscence.