Thursday, September 18, 2008

Rebirth!

The blog is reborned again~! YeaH!

All thanks to simlifesaving.blogspot.com.

If not, i wouldn't have the time to put entries into my spider-webbed blog.

I'm currently enjoying myself as the vice-pres of simlifesaving. I do hope that the club will turn out to be one of the hot ccas in SIM. But of cos, i will want to indulge in my studies, so that i wouldn't make the same old mistake as i did in my JC days. But my JC days were fun... nothing can beat that. Haha!

That's all for now!

Monday, April 28, 2008

rain go sky clear

hee... sorry people... my mood like weather.

nvm whether i will go on my knees or not.. cos i don't care anymore.

Bye.. have fun during your holidays for UNI friends, have fun for friends who are waiting to go into UNI. And have fun for friends who are in a "i-do-not-know-where-am-i" kind of situation.

What a joke!

Hey dudes.
I wished that i could post wonderful stuffs on this blog forever.
However, this blog may be destined to be just another "sorting out of feelings" blog.
I realised how much i used this blog for sad events, compared to the good ones.
Am i really that happy-go-lucky to everyone?

I do not whether i've mentioned to you guys how much i've changed ever since i left JC.
And also the way i deal with things and relationships ever since i left NS and enter UNI.
Those that are close will be able to know and witness those changes.
From a fat guy in JC, to a fit dude in NS, back to a fat guy in UNI. So much changes has occurred to me.

Despite all the so-called changes that i've made, told and act upon.
Somehow, under some weird circumstance, i was eventually posted with the same qn
that i faced some time ago. And the funny thing was... I will truly reply the same answer to it.

Maybe Chonglong will be quite sure about what i'm talking about.
The qn was thrown to me by this girl that i held close to me in JC.
She said, "Shall we break up?" <--- something like that.. i forgotten the real exact words.
And the past non-chalant silvest did replied something like:"Oh ok then, still friends?"

While the situation may be different now, the question was not posted by the girl, herself.
It was posed by me to myself, just to see if she ever post the qn, what will the answer be then.
And to my surprise, i did tell myself again. "Break loh..."

What the heck? Aren't I'm supposed to have changed? Why did i still reply the same shit?
And I shall urge to anyone who ever post me questions like this? Cos if you ask similar qns like
this to silvest. You are most likely to be playing with fire, and the answer may really stun you.
I just really hope that she wouldn't ask this qn at any point. Cos i do not know how ugly will
the situation becomes, after my reply.

So.. to the people who drops by every now and then... here's my question to you..
Did i really changed?

Friday, February 01, 2008

One day that lasted almost a lifetime

You met me after my school.
Cooked Char Mee 100 with love for me.
You had a great hair cut.
Sent your phone for service.
A satisfying dinner.
Window-shopped Vivo.
Ended with Keppel Bay.
All took no more than 50 dollars today.
No more than 10 hours.
Just the two of us.
But it felt so long that parting was difficult.
More days like this to come.. please...

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

If you do not know why i said sorry for..

Right after the lifeguard session, while we were having a phone conversation. I was in the mrt. And initially, when i heard that you wanted me to go and pick you up after your outing. I felt so abused. I know that it was my duly obligations to send you back home safely, no matter what. But for a moment, i really felt abused. It is like you are having fun outside, and after the much fun, here comes the chauffeur to pick you home. It didn't felt right for me. So i turned you down straightaway. And you felt offended... i'm sorry.

Second matter, when i say that you have to come and pester me until i die. Yes i admitted that i did say that. But, i really want to do what i want to do. I do not want to do something that will cause you to be sad. I never will. But by not being able to do something i want to do, i will feel tied down. I'm not saying the situation is until so serious that i'm feeling tied down. I'm just saying that if you limit my choices, due to the influence of your mood and feelings. I will feel bounded. Obviously, if i got time, i will definitely want to meet you. I know it's only a soccer session. I would not want to let a soccer session cause conflict between us. Because i know i'm suppose to make you happy, and not let you sad at any moment. So i will do what it's duly right for me to do. I will choose you over the soccer session. (Because back in the JC days, people who reads this blogs all knows that i will definitely choose the soccer session after school.) I'm willing to let go anything only for you to be happy. Don't emo in front of me again. I know that i will still put on that nice mood to let you vent on. But don't abused it ok? Spare a thought for your boy here ok? I'm not complaining.. just let me blabber all this out ok? I felt darn bad now... I do not know why i suffer from mood swings like you. Maybe it's because i've been with you for too long. Needless to say, there will be some influence of you on me. I did promised myself that i will never want to blog sad things on the blog. Cos it will just make it even worse. And i do not know why i'm doing it again now. Please don't feel angry or moody after this post.. cos it's nothing. It just a moment of thought from me. I do not want it to affect you.

Last post was 2045.

Just moments later.. at 2137.

This is really freaking! She like sort of know that i really wanted some understanding from her. And she agreed to my soccer session and what's even more crazy.. she's going to watch me play. What the hell! Obviously i'm over the sky about her understanding.. but i definitely wouldn't want her to see me play.. cos i'm really not that good. Haha! But nevertheless, it was a good ending. I felt great now! Gosh.. i'm a mood swinger.. literally. Hope she join me for dinner and movie at the later part of the day too. Haha!