Endless Promise

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Personality test

Well, recently I just play with the new personaility test in a supermarket dairy fridge. The test goes like this: If you can choose any drinks in here free, what will you take.

It doesn't matter what you choose, it matters how you choose it. For me I can't settle down on what drinks i want. I can drink all drinks. This applies to how you cope in relationship in real life too. I cannot' settle down on what I want. All seems good to me and all seems nice to drink like the drinks. The packaging may not be nice, but it taste good or the packaging is nice and taste good but not as healthy or beneficial to human. Its the same thing. I don't know who I want. In my life there are many girls which come across me. They are good and I think our charater match but somehow I just ponder around and explore around. That explain why am i not attach now.

Everytime my grandma come to Singapore, she will ask whether i have girlfriend a not. Everytime my mind will skip a bit. And answer: don't have. No people wants me. But this time round she make it worst by adding this. How come don't have, your cousin also have already. So poor thing. Well maybe no one wants me really.

I just don't know what i want. Everything seems good. When I finally decide on what i want its already too late. Is either the person is attached or the person don't like me. So the more this kind of things happen, the more I scared to get in love. Well Love is beautiful and I know. Is not that I have high standard or what. But those girls who attract me and make me keep thinking of them are always high in demand.

Now I know what and who I want. But so how ? First we are of different class. Second, she got many suitable. 3rd she is friendly to all, 4th she has someone whom she like. I don't like this kind of feeling. It like you finally choose a drink and when you are about to drink it, the drink spilled over on the floor.
Everday, everynight I am missing you. I will treasure it. I will bring it wherever I go. Well adult relationship and teenage relationship is so different. For teenage relationship, you will dream of dating with your dream girl or dream guy. But for adults, what really matter is whether you all have common interest and whether when you all are married, you all will have the happiness a not.

You boyfriend or girlfriend will be someone ordinary. It isn't the prettiest girl on the world, but to you they are the prettiest. Realationship in the adult stage is also very materialistic. When girl gauge a guy, they will judge whether is he able to support the family a not. Is the guy able to provide her with the sense of security.

Well afterall its just complicated. Tell me what to do. Show me whats my future and don't torture me with guessing game. I have weak heart, I cannot play this kind of game. What I need is companion, what i need is mental support, what i need is just someone to talk to. What I need is someone whom can share my joy and woes with me. I no need a very pretty girl. I no need a very gentle and elgance lady. All I ask for is the chemistry. Althought my dream girl have to be someone who is gentle or elegance, but all these is not important at all. Love is blind.

I will treasure it like a treausure.

posted at [10:08 AM]

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

NCC DAY Parade 2007

If you are bored by constant blogging about NCC, I am so sorry but you have to bear with me. Because NCC is part of my Life . It something which I feel so proud of myself. Its somewhere I found pride, fun, sense of belonging, friends and an area to display and be myself.

Last Year I once make a promise that I will work hard to ensure that my Unit keep is not complacent about our results and will continue to work hard. The Outcome of the BUC is the reason for me to stay on and strive harder to get the best. This year, we finally get the overall best. So this goes to show that my effort do pay off. Of course to the cadets and officers. They work hard too. So my sincere words to my dear clts who work hand in hand with me, Chee Meng you are not forgotten, Adrian , Perry , Kar How, Snr Chee Kaur , Snr Steven, Snr Zhi Yong, Snr Wee Hock, Snr Elvis, Snr Luis , Snr Hadi. Your efforts have finally paid off in the presence of me and on my hand. But without the pioneer setting up laying down the foundation, Fuhua won't be like this today.

So today is NCC day parade. I shall skip some details and go into some worth mention parts. Afternoon the sky is dark and the wind is big. While doing the slow march my flag is flying. And is really big sia. Then we really is praying the sky won't rain. Cos droplets of water have been dripping. But the sky is especailly kind to us. Thank you whatever god for clearing the sky. Today slow march is okie. Hopefully I did well... Mr Chia keep going up and take award take until hand numb. Go on stage 4 times. Take uber many plague and trophy.
Post parade still need to go up stage and take all the certs and Gold unit plauge.

I think is really an achievement for me and the school. We are able to get such and achievement is not by cheating... You must really see how hard we work. The boys, the CLTS and the Officers. It not like you just open your mouth talk we will be the best scold cadets they become good boy then you will be best unit. So for those people who is doubting our school unit, please feel free to come down our training and visit. But of course you must attain approval first. Everyone in Fuhua NCC is an assets and we treasure them. We really is put in our hard work and we deserve more than anyone else.

A lot of people congratulate me. But the person I wish most to share the joy with me did not. Well what to do. So I don't feel a full fletch of honor and joy.... But the feeling is there... Hahah...

Happy NCC DAy people ! :)

posted at [7:31 AM]

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Thursday, July 05, 2007

Donate Blood

So i finally donated blood. Due to some objections by the religious thing. I were told that my blood is royal and should not donate and pass to other people. But who cares. Maybe I might save for rainy days. Touch wood. :X

So hows the experience of donating blood. At first i was all right. Pok asked me whether i want to donate blood a not. I without hesitating and i agreed. When i reach the conventition center, I was told that I have to test my veins first to see whether it is suitable anot because I am a first timer. The red cross or nursing people started to play with my hands because there is no nurse free to attend to me. So what I did was to let them feel my veins. Then when the nurse came she found the other vein and everyone started touching it as thought I am the guinea pig.

After that we have to grow through stages at stations to clear. Doctor check, iron test where they staple my finger. Then was the final one.

I sit there quite long again before the nurse attend to me . Then after that the needle goes in. Its just a bit painful(needle pierce your skin of cos pain) Then after that there is no more feeling already. So once its conacted I can see the bag of blood filled with my blood. Its quite cool actually. Then the worst part is here. When you arm is so numb because it don't have blood, the nurse call you to keep squeeze the stress ball. Then its super sour sia. But have to keep squeezing. So once done I am suppose to sit there and wait for the blood to stop flowing.

Then wear i finally stood up. Its like wow. The world is spinning. My right arm is weak now. And i realize i should have given them my left arm to draw the blood. Hopefully sunday I don't drop the NCC colour. Then i was given milo to drink. Free flow:x But okie lar I only take 1 milo and 1 fruit juice to replenish my iron and minerals.

Hmm... I am feeling the way i am feeling 3 years ago. Poor me. Don't tell me I have to spend the rest of my life alone. Tsk Tsk

posted at [10:52 AM]

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