princeton

as i perambulated on the charming morning campus of princeton at 6am, the chirp cool air filled me with a renewed vigor and it seemed to subtly diffuse out the negativity "chi" that has accumulated in me as the semester goes on, just as how chaos would develop in an unmonitered system. and today, i could feel my inner self getting more aligned and oriented to the state before chaos. and at the same time a part of me was happy that finally i woke up, and not slept, at 6 am.

This trip is a short but necessary trip to bring myself out of the bubble of wesleyan to see the world as it is. it's like a quiet get-away to a faraway land. and as always, it's lovely to meet back good old friends, in person or via skype =) The overly short stay at princeton greatly limits the possibility of me grasping the beauty of princeton at its fullness. nonetheless, after the visit i feel more intellectual and more focused. this semester i haven't been mindful, and i haven't been living life as balancedly and meaningfully as i had wished. nonetheless, it's been exciting, on-the-edge and full on my every aspect of my life other than the academic.


on a final note,
thanks miss R for hosting me =) will find you again when both of us are more awake.

Same truth, more light

If you thought that I had disappeared from the face of this world, you may not have been too far from the truth. It has been a while since i last penned down my fleeting thoughts concretely. As i cogitate at this moment, looking through what have been happening in the past, i found myself to to be still the same person as before, but with new and further perspectives and sentiments. just as i believe that in an intellectual, philosophical or spiritual pursuit, the journey is often a cyclical trip around the same truth or in between polar ideas. yet in each new trip, you see the same idea with a newer pair of eyes, and you would have a different grasp and understanding of it.



"Same Truth, More Light"
- a label on Yale ESL's waterbottle







to a very close friend(s) of mine:


Our hearts may feel sad
but it's more sad to not feel anything


at least now i still feel a tinge of sadness holding the pieces of my shattered heart in place.



this slight touch of melancholy lingering in my soul reminds me that i am still a vulnerable human being. reminds me that i still care about this friendship. but i ain't sure how long i would still feel. there would come a time, when this once beautiful friendship(s) fades into the far corner of my memory. leaving behind an erased past. and a blank future.

i don't want this to happen, but it's heading to this end now. may we find the faith and strength to change the direction.





this post looks very blue, but things are really getting better now. i am enjoying myself here very much and i am really comfortable with myself (as always :P) and the life and friends here. i just wish i have more time and willingness to explore out of my comfort zone, and embrace the unlimited possibilities of a college life.






at last,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ET ET ET ET ET CHAN ERN THENG ERN THEN CHAN WHO ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS. (dont forget our jackie cheung concert, will let you know whether i can go soon)

thank you ET,
1) for bringing me to the world of dota T.T
2) (can't think of any other thing)


but yeah, even if you are busy or what, dont forget that you are an amazing person and friend (even though i am more amazing)


P.S. richard i love you.
P.P.S. gaylouz i love you all