happiness

it does not escape my notice that a number of my friends wish to be happy when asked about their bdae wishes.

i can't help but wonder why. After all, our wishes sometimes do reflect on what we don't have.

Is happiness such an elusive state? or is it too transitional for human to fulfill his insatiable desires?
or is the so-called happiness that we are heading to not the one that we want? or is it that we wanted the wrong things?

our society is so advanced in technology and material standard of living. We are much better off as compared to our forefathers. But still, why are we still not satisfied? why are we still not happy? Since the beginning of human civilisation, we are adament and even relentlessly persistent in our pursuit for that elusive happiness. Yet, have we found it?

Have YOU found it?

I haven't.

Do You Already Know Right from Wrong?

A Dharma teacher caught one of his students stealing red-handed. Upon the insistence of the other students to expel the repeat-offender, the teacher replied as-a-matter-of-factly, "Even if all of you were to leave me, I will not ask him to leave - because you already know right from wrong, but he does not. If I do not teach him, who will?" Hearing that, the thief was at once touched, falling to his knees in repentance... followed by the other students.

Did the other students really know right from wrong? Obviously not completely. Reason is Wisdom only when it goes hand in hand with Compassion. How right can we be if we simply abandon those who do not understand they are wrong? What if they make more mistakes which harm themselves and others? What if they influence others to make the same mistakes? The ones we feel compelled to shun are often those who need our help the most urgently. It is the responsibility of those with more Compassion and Wisdom to awaken those lacking these qualities, for it is difficult for them to awaken themselves.

The Buddhas taught, "Avoid 'evil', do good, and purify the mind." But "evil" is not any person; it is that which corrupts him at the moment. The real evil to avoid is our inner roots of evil - our greed, hatred and delusion. While the thief was guilty of greed and delusion to have stolen, were the students not guilty of hatred and delusion when they condemned him?

unhappiness

it has been a week of unhappiness.
irresponsible bio s members. downright disappointing bio result. the realisation of my predicament. the pathetic dinner turnout (for which i missed band sectional :S). a loss of direction and momentum in life.

and now,

even angel cried


what a sad world it has become.

when i am hyper and charged-up, i think that the world is nothing short of wonder and beauty, and feel that it would be sad to leave this world so early.

now i feel that there is nothing in my life, in this world, that i can look forward to. The future might just be the culmination of the miseries and sufferings in my life. In a society where trust and love are over-rated, i feel no desire to live on.

But no i am not on my way to suicide, though losing purpose to life, i feel, is akin to living dead.


"I need to find the lighter for my cigarette of inspiration. I need to find the key for the ignition of passion. I need to find glue for the stamp of happiness."
- this quote might be crude and unpoetic, it aptly points out what i need most now.

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Your wise quote is: "Love is life.
And if you miss love, you miss life" by
Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your
life. If you have it or not is another matter,
but it is in your eyes the most important
feeling. You tend to be a romantic dreamer and
want you and your love to have that kind of
perfect love that you hear about in fairytales.
However that can be hard to find, but it
doesn't mean you are going to stop looking.


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have faith, my fren

had a nice chat with elaine today abt life, society, education. about the necessity of our education at this stage, and what's the purpose in life. it's always good to converse such stuff with her :)


and it is sad to know all the sad things of my frenz. it constantly reminds me of how screwed this world is, and Buddha's really right, life is full of sufferings. and we men are only constantly seeking enlightenment, to free ourselves from all these struggles.

And in our paths, we muz keep faith.

to elaine: have faith in your belief and you will be ok. stay true to ur heart
to eugene: have faith. and fight like a soldier. all the best
to timo: have faith. and live strong. the world will be a better place
to teck: have faith in flying and the things u're doing. you will make it
to b1: have faith. stay sweet. the world will be beautiful
to et: have faith. but pls start picking up now :P
to zc: have faith in ur competition. other things 顺其自然
to yanni: have faith in urself for comp. and stay focussed in the belief in team
to yuling: have faith. the world will be as beautiful as your heart
to priya: have faith in biomed. dun see it as a competition but a challenge, to ur path to being a doctor. and i am damn sure u'll be a good one


and

to diego: have faith. though the road ahead is unclear, believe in yourself.一切随缘



to everyone who has hardship and struggle: have faith

伤心,是因为心真的被伤了.
Heartbreak is literal..the heart, where my soul seats, has collapsed. As a result, my soul is unsettled, my energy unfocussed. no wonder my disjointed flow of thoughts and fleeting spans of concentration.

under the veneer of all the activities (outings, chalet, BTII, bball...) that i have been occupying myself with, it has not changed the slightest. All the activities served only to distract me. the wound has not healed, and lies even deeper inside.

during the activities i am too occupied to think and reflect. But when i'm free now, i discover that my life has no drive. in another word, i see no drive in life. it explains the hollow and empty feeling i've been feeling when i am not doing anything.



now i am officially a hollow man. there's no fire in me. no fire, no life.

i can't change the past. I have no idea over my future. And now i have no control even over my present self.


"There are 2 things: the actual & the ideal. to be mature is to see the ideal and live with the actual"

A story

A boy, having grown up and gone to the city to work for a year, came back to his hometown to visit his family over the year end. Thinking he'd seen much of what people and human relationships were like, he began to wonder if his life ideals were still plausible.

As the world goes, right is only in question between equals in power, while the strong do what they can and the weak suffer what they must. Fate is unfair and fortune does not necessarily favour the brave. Love is blind and trust is not always rewarding. The rich get richer the poor get poorer. The more he thought of how bitter the world was, the sadder and angrier he became. What purpose and drive remains? Where was the beauty he dreamt he would live to see in life?

He thought of his friends. He thought of sacrifice. He thought of the experiences and memories that he considered noble. Yet they seemed fleeting, only to flash in and out occasionally in his life when the opportunity for such arose. Yet the pain of the bitterness of the world was everywhere everday, gone only when one turned a blind eye. Ignorance is bliss he thought. The more he thought, the more confused he became. Suddenly, he was in the doldrums yet again. His views of life were in a whirl.

So it was then, he found it apropos that he was to see his grandfather at home. Sitting at the fireplace, his grandfather sat in his rocking chair, as if watching the world pass by in the flames. Time seemed to freeze for him. Carefree and seemingly enlightened of the ways of the world. Anticipating this was where his answer to all those questions lay, the boy walked up to and sat next to his grandfather. His heart started pumping faster, suddenly unsure of how to phrase his question. With so much to ask, to find out, the words were choking up his throat and just couldnt come out. Here sat his epitomy of all that was righteous and honest in the world.

He finally said, "Grandpa, I've seen much of the tragedies in the world the past year. And now I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One wolf is vengeful and angry. The other is loving, forgiving and compassionate. Which one will eventually win the fight in my heart?"

His grandfather took and sip of his tea and placed the cup down on the table gently. Thinking for a while, he turned around and answered, "The one you choose to feed."

------the end-------

Time is slow for the waiting, swift for the fearing, long for the grieving, short for the rejoicing. But for those with faith, time is eternity. What do you believe in?

Beyond spirit

已與世長逝的"Beyond樂隊"主音歌手黃家駒，在一次電台的訪問中，曾經說過：
「當我老去的時候，如果有一個人對我說，他是聽我的歌長大的，那我就已經心滿意足了。」



"beyond 是 一 個 信 念, 是 一 個 堅 持, 是 一 個 對 生 命 的 承 諾"


"谢谢伴我长大的Beyond,谢谢教我生活理念的Beyond,谢谢给我奋斗目标的Beyond,我会继续的努力下去,Beyond永在心中"