R

I met R this evening,
a single man in his 60s.

I had dinner with him, talkative he was, I guess it comes with age,
telling me about a myriad of things, from how he came to know Christ and about
the politics in his previous church, his encounters with porn and stories about it.

As I sat there listening to him, a fear suddenly hit me, oooo will I be like that when
I grow old and am still single.
I became frightened, desparation to get married seized me.

But then I relax, such thinking is not Christian, stop it.
this is his lot that the Lord has given him.

So whatever the Lord has for me, I too must live joyfully in it, even singleness.

I came back, praying for R.

Guilty

As I walk, I see them, then I'm reminded what have i done?
I should be sharing the good news of our Lord Jesus to them.
When was the last time I shared?

What happened to the fire?

Guilty, I only did the least I could. I prayed for their salvation.
Praying that God would raise someone, someone of their kind to share.

O Lord I pray for their salvation. Amen

I cry

I cry
when i think that i hv
no w...., no w....., no w........

I cry when i watch a scene in a movie which reminds me
of what's it like to hv family, to hv someone to love and be loved

I cry thinking of all the wrongs i've done in the past
could this be then a curse due to past transgressions?

I repent, i cry, i say sorry, Lord
knowing in Jesus Christ my sins are washed away.

made new, made whole again, i feel refreshed,
daily i read His word, it speaks to me, so clear, so powerfully,
it cuts through my heart.

Oh Lord I wait, I wait in you,
I trust, I take refuge in you and no other,
not in man, not in others, not in myself but in you and you only.

I cry....with hope that you will answer.

He is here

Ah peace overwhelms me
it comes over me
knowing my God is with me

this peace so sweet
this peace so comforting
this peace it sweeps over me

my Lord my God
please provide
i wait, i trust, i look to you.

I feel peace for He is here.