Step of faith

On May 15th, I said good bye to corporate life.

I would like to believe it's a step of faith as opposed to an idiotic silly irresponsible move.

I know, didn't you pray? consulted wisdom from others? you would say to me. Well yes, but for me it's never been so clear cut as opposed to others and it is only in retrospect that I see God's hand in it and there is always the sovereignty of God that I rest upon, on which even if I screw or mess things up, God is in control and He will still direct me somehow to the place He wants me to be.

So Lord as I take this step of faith, myriad of ideas swarmed my mind like flies. Every now and then I swat them off but they return. After a while, I know that life is like this. A journey, there is always uncertainty, yes we wish if only God can just speak the word demolishing any doubt, bringing clarity but hey where is the 'fun' and 'adventure' if things are always so certain.

And so Lord, I'm taking a step and a step and keep walking, knowing every step I take, I have a Father who cares for me, knows what's best for me, will never forsake me and above all loves me so dearly. In you O Lord I'm lost and found. In you are my imperfections made perfect. In you there is hope, a hope that never fails, a hope that makes life worth living in the midst of all our mistakes and uncertainty.

I have faith in You.

Wrapped up

Hi all,

Wow! It's been a while.

Many things have happened but this post is about what strucked me during prayer meeting this evening. I realised I been too wrapped up with what I will be doing like for work, how to spend my day etc. My mind seemed to be so fixated by this things that though I do my quiet time and talking to God, I need to wrap my mind more on God that is my first or utmost thoughts should be on God.

Father forgive me. Help me to think of you first, think of you during the day, and my last thoughts at night before going to sleep. Without you, there is nothing and all that I will be pursuing is vanity. Help me Lord to ever think of you first. Amen. Good nite all.

Turning point?

Dear all,

Yes, I did it! Resigned. Hopefully and prayfully it's the right decision. Am really praying that there will be a job offer in 1-2 weeks time for teaching! Yes! I hope this will be it! The profession which will utilise my gifts, which will use me, inspire me in my very being. Inspire me to life, to live fullest for the Lord since I will be doing something which I hopefully will thoroughly enjoy, stretch me, expand me, to my fullest potential!

Lord, I pray for your providence and continual guidance.

In You I rest. There is none like You.

None like You Lord. None.

Reminder

Here's a note to me to remind me when I get dull or calloused with dirt from the world or drowned with busyness or clouded with anxiousness:

Money does not matter (well the love for it)

Finding meaning in work matters (though work will be tough and not to idolise it, I know...the Quolet in Ecclesiastes said everything is meaningless)

So it's either teaching, back to full time or to anything which God our Lord will direct me to.

Help me Lord, help me.

Improve

Strangely after watching the movie Dragon ball evolution, I started thinking about choosing the right path, of righteousness and now about my work, my giftings, what do I really want to do and how do I get there?

After some thinking, bottom line is what really gets me ticking is helping people or companies to improve. To give advice, suggestions both in words and actions to help the person or entity to consider this, to change that, to do, make, implement policies, things that will alleviate a bad, depressive state to one of making lives better, profits to increase, just turning bad to good.

If that is the case, what field of work will suit me given that I've experience as both an auditor and pastor?

What Lord? Please advice. Please. Been waiting a long time. Please grant me a breakthrough and answer my cry, my plea, my desparation.

Work

Blessed new year all!

Dear Lord,

I can never thank You enough for everything. If anything, I've failed you many times, and thank You that in Christ forgiveness can be received.

Thank You that you have answered one my prayers made 2 years ago concerning 3 Ws. Well answered in the sense that at least the process has started.

This year, I pray that you will reveal to me the other W which is work. Father, you created me and know me. My desire is to use what you have given me to bring glory and honor to Your name.

Please Lord it has been so long. Some say I've gone full circle with this. Though at times I despair in this but I know You care and in Your good time you will reveal and direct me to that place of work.

You have been there for me, provided for me, and I know that You are and will continue to do so.

Indeed You are unchanging and faithful. Jesus the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Day by day I wait upon You Lord. Slowly but surely I know You will provide.

Here I am Lord, waiting,
your dear son, ron

Thankful

Dear Heavenly Father,

I'm so thankful. Words can hardly express my thankfulness for your grace, mercy and joy that you have brought me.

Indeed, it's been a long wait. But definitely worth the wait.

I'm so thankful for the gift, for the new. :)

The Lord is good and worthy to be praised!

ron

She's beautiful

In the spirit of Valentine's day, here's a poem to a ficticious lover:-

She's beautiful, she's beautiful to me
her hair, her voice, her smell,
her legs, her face, her smile.

But more importantly, her love,
her gentleness, her words,
her kindness, her discipline.

Her love for God,
her sincerity, her honesty,
her frailty, her character.

Her acceptance, her endurance,
her perseverance, her repentance,
her tenacity, her grace.

Her humaness, her spirituality,
her fire, her coolness,
her simplicity, her complexity.

Her joy, her tears,
her heart, her touch,
all that she is - my joy.

Happy Valentine's Day my love!