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Saturday, August 9, 2008

Nothing spectacular happened!Life is just plain boring. Gonna graduate from course soon. Well I do hope the interview ain't for nothing and I will get to where they want to send me and of course, graduate from there.
Why you highlight?
Zi Zhao I'm coming to join you! If everything goes well... Let's graduate together in Feb next year together!
Looking for black words again ar?
Today I went out with Kok. Perhaps I'm not quite awake yet I started blabbering alot of rubbish and keep getting ignored by him.
So did you see any?
Manage to spend $2.10 only on coffee instead of the usual 7. Quite proud of myself.
no?
NDP is going on now but too bad I din manage to get the tickets but nevermind. I hope next year I get to be part of the parade, not as the marching contingent but the SAIKANG WARRIORS!
Yes?
Oh well.Seriously Yuxi please get a life!
HAHAHA!
No dreams no nothing. Want to buy game, but the game I want havnt come out. Want to buy flute, I havn't secure that 1K from parents. Want to buy computer but it just aint practical to buy now. 2 years later everything will be so obselete and that will be the time when I really get the time to play.
I'm just thinking of Michelle.
Maybe I should just sleep through my weekends. Then I might not be so tired during trainings.
Why things so fucked up.
Aiyah dunno la suddenly so lost.
Why suddenly got this OCS thing.
I think I should just take it easy and go wherever the river brings me, try my best and not let them down.
Why I seem to lose control of life.
And what I need is perhaps just some motivation from you.
Why can't I have the motivation to pursue what I want.
Yes you.
And why I can't even seem to find much happiness outside.
Just some random pics...
That the only thing I see happy is being with family.

Why can't I seek refuge in friends I thought were close.
Me with Shao Ming, Chuan Xin and Alan at NYNY (AMK Hub). Dated march 24 2007. We were students back then. Shao Ming and CX are still students now, while me and Alan are men-in-green.

Why did I even consider them close.
Band frens from Rajavitnit Matthayom, Thailand. Muse festival, dated April 7 2007. The piccolo girl got crush on Kok. Makes me think of band even more.

When everything just end so awkwardly I dunno wad to do other then forget everything.
Sharon wrote this in my file. Picture dated March 31st 2007. I also wrote one for her in her file. But is I write first before she took my file and write. That makes me the nicer one, because I came out with it. Well it stayed with me till end of A's when things din go well. I sort of send it for recycling.

And All these fotos I still keep them.
Our dinner after studying session. Dated 31st March 2007. She was sick so I forced her to eat chicken one when she wanna eat something spicy. I got Nong Shim spicy mushroom. I wanted to help her make her noodles but she took mine away and made mine so in the end we made noodles for each other before sitting down and eat.Let's leave out the details, the whole thing went haywire anyway. The last time I had contacted her was last november. I just think I wun talk to her for another 10 years to come.

Although they have no meaning left for me.
Days of studying in canteen. I prefer to study alone with all my things strewn across the whole table. And I have alot of coloured pens. I just love my notes to be colourful. Photo dated june 6th 2007. And I miss studying.

Sick and tired.
Photo dated 28th december. I forgot where I was and what I was doing.

I shall just do my best for interview and crossover to OCS.
Lectures are boring. Wee Chong infamous "Sunflower Sunshine" pose. Must be a physics lecture. Dated May 10th 2007.

I shall just graduate and make my parents proud of me on commissioning parade.
Zhi Xiong sleeping. That's Mrs Heng's hand. I guess physics practical must have been boring for him too. Photo dated April 17th 2007.

I shall complete my 2 years in army and grow up.
0629 with Light stick. I think the 0 looks like pineapple. When we were still kids running around Pasir Ris park and me wearing the statue of liberty head dress. Photo dated 23rd November 2007. Class chalet at DTE.

I shall be happy from within and not get the joy from others.
Viper 02/08 P4S1 with PC 2LT Amin during POP

And I will do things by feelings.
Viper 02/08 P4S1 with Section Commander 3SG Winfred Ho Hun Boon. HAHA!

So right now, I just want you to get out of my life.
Me with Zi Zhao. He is in Tekong having field camp right now. All photos dated 9/4/2008.
Yes you.
For all the memories that I had, perhaps none is worth remembering after all.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

This video made me

smile!

LOL!

Boom de YA DaH!!

Even Steven Hawkings came out!

Suddenly this week so much things to blog. Got life aRh.LOL!

Guess I'm too caught up with the whole flute thing.

I dreamt I went to band world today

I took train from AMK station to jurong east. And there I was outside this whole stretch of shop. Band World divided itself into 3 stores, the middle one was the first one i went first. Inside was all the different instruments. There were no fixed location, everything was all jumbled up. All of them were either hung or placed on stands in glass cabinet. I found all the Altus brand scrambled throughout the store. Then I went to the shop on my right (when I'm facing the stores) There just go in, to the left is 2 Sankyo flutes seperated by 2 clarinets. CF201 and CF301. CF 201 cause 2800,301 cost 3800 but in the dream, couldn't see the price properly. It looks abit faint on a pink price tag. So i walked back to the middle store to walk around. Den I realise i was carrying a flute n fingering with it. then out of the middle one, further down to the left of the left store was this store selling grandpiano. the name start with C and its some weird name engraved on this big piece of wood. and i walked away after the staff walked towards me. No I not interested in piano.

And when the real band world is just a warehouse that wasn't open when I took so much effort to find them at IMM. It says on the door, Non-sales warehouse. Now That is the band world I expected from my dream!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Had a very nice dream just now when i went for an afternoon nap.

It started with me in camp. But the layout of camp is very different from real camp. I shall describe the layout. Take where i face during the start of my dream to be the north. To my right, 2 stories down stairway to coy line. Then to the west about 100 m will be a road leading to the entrance of the camp. and the building is on a hill and looks like HDB building which is about 5 stories. turning right on the road is a downslope about 50m in length and the gaurd house is in the middle of the road divider. Outside of the gate are highrise office buildings with a glass facade and behind them, is supposedly to be national stadium. When entering from the entrance, the road turns slightly right with a podium just beside the gaurd house. It resembles tekong parade square although there isn't really much area in front of it. further down is a "scholl carpark" supposedly for perm stuff of SISPEC. further down, facing the north is another podium. the side of the parade square is blocked off by a wall. so u needa walk along the road to this small opening before u can enter the square and the podium.

So it started with me watching out from the corridor before going down n marching to the gaurd house. I wasn't there to do gaurd duty but to send my fren something. March there and the gaurd comm, who is this frenly aunty asked me y am i there. i told her i passing sth to my fren and she asked me for favour. Because national day is coming, they have this celebration in the square further down the road. so she asked me to guide traffic. it was in the evening then.so i took off my jockey cap. Yimin n Gwen went by me, i asked them help me take the cap first. after awhile of guiding i went to find them for the jockey cap. They say they hung it on the wall beside the podium. (remember on the right when u enter theres a podium? somehow there are hangers there) so i went to find it but couldnt. i went back to them,who are at the podium further down they say dey dunno so i gan cheong, saw one lying on the ground n juz took it. when i went back to the gaurd house, it was already at night and can hear fireworks behind the office buildings. then iraelise the real celebrations is behind n not in camp. so i marched back to camp and saw them falling in. SGT Ghanesh asked me where i went i said to gaurd house to help out.then he asked me to continue while they go for lecture which starts at 0300. i saw myw atch, it was 1800. the time just dun fit but its a dream aniway. so i went back to gaurd room. and this time it was daylight. and cars were coming in. Aunty says that we needa direct the cars to the school carpark and not further in so every driver that came in i told dem to turn right. they are suppose to have this ring on their left dunnow ad finger,the one beside pinky to identify themselves as coming for the celebrations. so i sometimes walked to the entrance of carpark. Then theres this warrant officer,master, he sitting at the entrance. he is tanned with moustache (ok almost all of dem look laiddat) and his name is yeo chew. LOL! my PC is surname yeo, 2IC is surname chew. so he was there guiding traffic while sitting down.

and then some details which i forgot.

and i woke up and ask my brother had dinner already anot and he said someone buying for us. I asked who he say dunno. i asked him wanna buy for him anot he say someone buying. ORH.

im such a nice bro i cant stand it.

Wads playing now: Yiruma-May Be

Stupid book play hide and seek with me.Kinokuniya doesn't have it, so is Borders. And I went to orchard just to get a HWM magazine.
I think I am disappointed.
Just now went out with Chiwa to study. Said I will do physics, end up doing maths for her. I still manage to do some questions, not bad at all.
Because we weren't as close as we used to be.
I think I will extend my NS just to get paid a little more.
We used to go out together, to zoo, to study,to walk around.
And I have quite a detailed savings plan although I am very confident I WILL NOT stick to it. Oh what the hell.
But right now I dun even feel like asking you out.
I will get Uncle August to see if he can make my sound card work. After ORD I will give my younger bro my sound card and speaker set. Trickle down effect. Perhaps rip my com apart and salvage all the parts to put into his com. ZNG it up and he will be one happy kid.
Because you always dun reply and make me can't plan my schedule.
Suddenly ar, abit lost. Just dun feel like doing anithing. Went for a cup of LARGE mocha today. $7 n abit regret cause drink halfway dun have the perk already. Next time I will go for small cup. Next 2 weeks in camp will be quite slack, and national day is next week. It is time to be proud to be Singaporean again.
What's happening I dunno also.
In any case, CLADYS WEIYAO JASLYN SUHAYL JASMINE MARCUS XUE YI WHERE ARE YOU ALL?!?! I MISS YOU ALL!!!!
Perhaps we weren't that close from the start.
...and the YPSB pioneer batch spirit shall live on...
I dunwan to care anymore and I just going to let it drift.
I just love to paste my face on my metal cupboard beside my bed when I sleep.
We shall see where it will drift to.
I dunno y it just feels good.
Nope I'm not going work hard to keep it.
And long-4 with socks and garters on. I dun need a blanket to keep myself warm.
Because I dun care about wads going to happen to it anymore.
2 more weeks and got allowance rise again. It's a bittersweet feeling. I want to go back to the JC days. /at least problems back then were more entertaining then problems right now. It comes from different people and not the same self.
And because I want to learn what is to let go.
ZI ZHAO YOU PIECE OF CHICKEN NEH NEH! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO ASK ME OUT?!
You will make sure i learn that.
Gortek Maiereh
My journal says alot. If only one day you get to read it, you will know how it feels for me.Chill because I fuck care already.