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Tuesday, May 3, 2011
The first time you sang a proper song for me was at AMK Hub Challenger store.
I liked it (:
30 Apr - Our first :o !! <3 Totally excited about it. Cant believe i actually did it!
Haiya! I should have waited awhile more!
Why am i so eager?! ):
You know I really want you to do it first?
Oh well, nvm.
It's already over!
The fact cannot be changed. sighs ):
1 May - The first meeting with your mom ^^
ooo. you cant imagine how uptight and worried i was before i met your mom.
Wah seh! Super nervous larrrr!
However, after the chatting for awhile,
I loosened up.
Hee :D nice bomu to chat with!
Had our dinner at Airport Aston's.
"What is we find out that we're not the right ones for each other?"
I was super scared that you'll....
You were super scared that I'll...
There's no insurance.
Dont worry, my dear, i'm 90% confirmed that we'll last long.. very long..
Why not 100%?
Like you said, there's no guarantee to anything.
The last 10% uncertainty will decrease as time passes (:
Cos you said, "How can you be so sure when it's only 4 mths since we've been tgt?"
Time will prove it to us (:
You told me lots of things i dont know.
You felt sorry and guilty for those things you did.
I didnt feel upset or angry with you.
I just cant.
That's the first time i see your eyes were red.
I guess it's about the same feeling that you had when you see me cry?
Or maybe less?
I dont know.
I just know that i do ache, and feel helpless.
Cos i cant do anything.
Thank you for telling me your feelings (:
I'm really grateful and happy that you share your feelings and thoughts with me (:
Really.
Thanks, darling ^^
I'm really happy that i actually have a very very important place in your heart.
Really delighted.
I couldnt get to sleep last night.
I kept reading and admiring the words on my phone screen.
After i put away the phone, i kept thinking about it.
I tried to sleep, but i failed... until i'm really tired, then i slept. haha!
Thank you for telling me that (:
Pig, i'm really happy to have you by my side. Really (:
GEE-ED @ 10:56 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2011
EH, STUPID.
You should cherish this moment & not think of what had already happened.
There's no point.
It will only give both of you headache & troubles & sleepless nights.
What's done is already done.
Even if it's true, it's already the past.
It's seriously a waste of time to be upset over what had already happened.
Moreover, you cant change anything.
Absolutely.
Seriously, what's wrong with you?
What to do to make you happy?
You're so insatiable.
Be contented!
Dont be so greedy!
Spare a thought for your pig!
So poor thing, stucked in between.
手心是肉,手背也是肉.
What to do?
You should make life easy for your pig (:
... by stop pondering about it and..
nothing will happen (:
JUST treat it as you never saw it okay?
(: (: (:
YEAH ^^ smile! (:
GEE-ED @ 7:03 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Sighs.. Is it gonna happen again?
What's wrong with me?
They are not YOURS.
They are free to do what they want.
Of course you cant restrict them.
BUT BUT BUT..
Weishenme?! ):
Can't i have the best of all worlds?
I'm too greedy? ):
So all singles will only befriend other singles?
I dont know.
I dont know.
I dont know.
I DONT KNOW! ):
SIGHS.
I hope the P6 incident won't happen again.
NEVER EVER.
GEE-ED @ 6:41 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2011
sighs..
I know everything must let nature take its course & not rush.
However, there's surely something bothering my mind.
I..
I guess I'm bothered by that message?
& the fact that we cant meet up often?
SIGHS.
Today, it's totally weird talking to him on the phone.
Normally, i will have a lot of things to say,
but i dont know why i dont have things to say.
Or.. I don't want to say..?
Let nature take its course.
Yea, i shall do just that & STUDY.
GEE-ED @ 7:54 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
He asked "Will you be my girlfriend?"
:D :D
okay, not gonna tell grandmother story.
but to simplify it.
I asked him "so what's our relationship right now?"
We looked at each other for more than 10 seconds before he finally said sth.
LOL
Whatever it is,
I'll always rmb tonight (:
12 Jan 2011 ! ^^
GEE-ED @ 10:48 PM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
You asked me not to wait for you cos youre not worth it.
Or was it I'm not good enough?
This is the first time i burst into tears immediately
after someone said sth.
I know how it feels like to feel heart broken..
Why do you always bully me?
I..
Do you think it's easy to get over you?
You think it's that easy?
It's just as hard as how you can't get over what happened with her.
This is the first time i feel that you're a jerk.
You are.
You think you're making things better by pushing me away.
You think we're better off like this.
You think what you did was best for both of us.
You THINK. You THINK.
It's always YOU THINK.
Have you ever thought about my feelings? HAVE YOU?
You dont.
You dont even know how i feel.
You dont understand either.
YOU DONT!
GEE-ED @ 10:00 PM
Sunday, January 2, 2011
31st Dec, Friday- 7th time alone
Early in the morning, i went to send my mum off at Airport.
I admired my fav airplanes then i met him at 8am at Paya Lebar Circle Line.
We went to Kallang Leisure Park.
While outside the Stadium MRT station,
I gave him the present.
He seemed to be excited & curious abt it.
haha, so cute. just like a small kid (;
We had Maggie mee for breakfast (:
We bought the maggie mee @ 7-11.
OH & i scared him.
He jumped.
LOL, so funny.
OOPS. Im supposed to keep that as a secret :P
We ice-skated at 10am (:
Then i kept falling down.
It's his 2nd time iceskating (my first) but he didnt fall.
LOL.
Actually i fell down like4 times? only. LOL
that's a lot.
& i screamed cos a girl bumped into me from behind.
LOL :/ i landed with a THUD.
:/ UH, OKAY. embarrassing. haha!
He lent out his hands today. LOL (:
Okay.. for awhile.
We stopped after i tore my blister -.-
Then we went to buy THE TOURIST ticket before heading for AWFULLY CHOCOLATE ^^
The HEI ic is damn niceeeeeeee :D
OH. the TRUFFLES was SUPER EXPENSIVE!
7 cubes for 14+ bucks.
CHICKEN NEH NEH. that's daylight robbery.
He paid for it.
I felt bad & wanted to return him the money but he dont want -.-
yeah, cos i gave him the present.
After we watched THE TOURIST,
he suggested that we watch JUST CALL ME NOBODY.
LOL. funny movie (:
He paid for the movie tickets + the AWFULLY CHOC stuffs.
WAH. a lot.
Then we decided for a long time b4 we boarded the train to Airport ^^
We had Astons @ T1.
The VIEWING GALLERY. WAH DAMN NICE!
CAN SEE THE AIRPLANES CLOSE UP! :D
@ Astons, we had black pepper steak.
He told me things abt him & that girl.
He asked me abt mine too.
Oh, he also open up the present! ^^
At those moments, my heart nearly stopped.
Oh wait, or did it pump faster?
zzz.
Okay, shall not say abt the details of our convo,
though that's the reason why my heart nearly stopped.
HAHA.
oh, thank goodness he love the present! ^^
he seemed touched. HAHA! :D
yeah.. then we went holland village..
we walked 1 round..
LOL. we saw KUMAR..?
Ppl say he's a gay? :X
LOL, his make up was really... *speechless*
Then he went to his fren's house while i went home.
I reached home at 11pm then bathe.
& just in time for the Korean GOLDEN DISK AWARD :D
Oh, chatted with Minz on msn abt this.
She said this is some sort like a date already.
LOL. really? sighs. i dunno... ):
2nd Jan, Sunday - 8th time we went out alone
We squashed in sch for awhile.. like 1hr?
then we studied.
OH MAN. I forgot squash ball & racket.
& i forgot shower foam too -.- TSK.
After showering, i left my hairband & clip in the toilet.
WOW, GREAT JOB ZJ! ):
had dinner @ FUCHAN amk, beside courts.
We had Roasted Chicken noodles :D
DOUBLE size. hee.
OH. Then we walked around amkhub
ARGH! He kept saying "I know"
& "I really know"
:/ ZZZZZZZZ !
Okay, i think he really knows.
So i shall just wait.. and pretend not to know that he noes! LOL :X
GEE-ED @ 12:17 AM
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
24th Dec, Friday - Went out with him, jb & wk.
Yeap, we went to pool.
We played basket shooting in arcade cos the pool havent open yet.
Then i scored 201 alone :P
& the machine sot one.
We tapped once only.
Then came out can play 12 times.
then it keep adding the number of plays until 33.
LOL.
I think it's the christmas present given to us by the arcade (;
haha
OH, he's behaving weird today.
I think something's bothering me.
My intuition tells me that he's upset over sth... that girl?
He seemed to feel better after we went toysrus.
LOL. We saw his fav, SPONGEBOB!
But it's in bad condition & costs $22.95
Actually thought of buying for him,
but the condition of spongebob wasnt that great,
so i disposed that thought.
At night, i chatted with him on msn & told him to cheer up.
Then he told me lots of things, without himself realising.
How cute.
That's great
that means he's being a little opened up to me.
We can be great pals (:
27th Dec, Monday - 6th time we went out alone.
I asked him to study + squash.
Cos i thought he wanna squash when he asked me out to eat gelato icecream.
We've decided to eat gelato on 31st Dec.
Last minute we cancelled the squash part,
cos his mom dont allow him to squash due to his flu.
We had POPIAH at an old hawker centre.
IT WAS VERY NICE ^^
Then we studied at Queenstown Lib.
Had Mac for lunch.
He showed me lots of places where he spent his days last time.
The area is like so compact,
with all kinds of stuffs & places.
His pri & sec are just walking distance from him house.
the Lib too.
LOL, cool.
We had lots of fun studying too (;
This is the first time i saw him frustrated (abit?) over integration.
HAHA.
I felt that too when i was doing integration.
It made me worked up!
ARGH!
hahahaha!
We went Redhill hawker for dinner at ard 8+
I ordered fishball meepok while he had some noodles i think.
OH NO, my memory's failing me.
While we were sstudying, he's sms-ing her :/
He's really gentlemanly!
He will walk nearer to the road & let girls walk inside.
He feels bad cos it's 9+pm & by the time i reach home,
it will be around 10pm.
Seriously,
no guys will behave like him.
Not any guys that i met.
:/ but..
sighs.
HE'S TAKEN.. (though he said he doesnt have a gf..)
YA RIGHT. LIKE I BELIEVE ):
GEE-ED @ 1:01 PM
Monday, December 20, 2010
20th Dec, Monday - 5th time we went out alone.
We squashed in the morning with Madeline.
Daniel is supposed to come, yet he didnt...
We had lots of laughter in the court (as usual...)
& yeap, once again Madeline went off early.
:/ so left the two of us.
Okay, this time it wasnt as awkward as the previous time.
We continued squashing after Madeline went off, until 1+pm,
then we played a game of Monopoly deal.
We bathed after that.
We went to eat Bakuteh cos he wanna eat.
So we went to Toapayoh.
He had his bakuteh while i had my tomyum youmian.
We had Koi after our late lunch.
Then I thought it was too early to go home,
so i proposed we go somewhere else.
After a longggg discussion, we decided to go Esplanade + Marina Square.
We took MRT there.
We went Marina Square & window shopped.
I learnt a lot from him today.
He mentioned a lot of things that i've nv heard of.
He also brought me to shops that I've never been into.
LOL.
We went to shop @ JohnLittle.
We bought Ritter Sports dark choc :D
4 for 11 bucks.
So 2 each. yeah! ^^ DARK CHOCCCCCC ! :D
We went Esplanade after window shopping.
An event was carrying out there.
I wrote my wishes for 2011 on a piece of glitter paper.
I dont want to let him see cos im gonna write about him.
But he said, he will eventually see what i wrote when i hang the paper on the lamp.
Sighs, so i dont dare write those things that i really wanna write.
I merely scribbled, "Yeah! ^.^ I'm here @ Esplanade! :D I hope 2011 will be a better year. Studies and everything else! & I'll be able to get into uni! :D I hope h will know & accept. :D"
OMGee.
I know I'm playing with fire.
I know maybe he'll think that maybe the "h" is referring to him.
ARGH, WHY DID I WRITE "H" INSTEAD OF OTHER ALPHABETS!
I dunno... ):
I'm in a rush to write finish cos he keep disturbing me & wanting to see what i wrote on the paper.
OH WELL.. in the end he still read everything :/
I dun think he will know anyways,
cos i'm not gonna let him know it even though "i wrote i hope he knows" on the paper...
When we're walking to the bus stop,
he asked if i know how to get to the mrt station.
Of course i replied that i know... cos i know he's tired..
I dun wan to "force" him to escort me to mrt station..
But he said that he know i dunno how to get there..
but in the end, we still went to his bus stop & looked at the buses available.
Yeap, found bus 133.
However, at the time, his bus arrived.
I asked him to board the bus, but he dont want.
OH WELL :/
Then my bus came.. & i boarded the bus.
On the bus, i looked at him, but he was looking in the other direction.
Sighs.
I've been thinking too much again? ):
But sometimes.. when our gazes met, i see sth in his eyes.
I dunno what.. but.. maybe he's got a littleeeeee feelings for me? :/
I DUNNO LAR.
I dunno why i wrote that "i hope he knows & accepts."
ZZZ. NOW WHAT? TRIANGLE? 3rd party?
NOOOOOOOO. IDIOT. u're making urself an idiot ! & a relationship spoiler ! ):
GEE-ED @ 8:54 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Suddenly, the memories that we had tgt surfaced in my mind...
These memories belong only to us (:
28th Nov, Sunday - Yes. It's the first time we went out tgt.
We squashed in the morning,
then we took 105 to Toapayoh to have lunch at BK (:
He help me ordered swiss cheese, his was double bacon.
He asked the person not to add ice in the drinks,
cos i told him earlier in the court that i had big auntie.
He's such considerate guy.
Even i, myself wouldn't have thought of that.
We took 143 to Vivo to eat Dark choc ic @ basement.
We got scolded by a weird auntie,
"Why you dun believe tat man when he tell you the bus is here?"
LOL.
On the bus, we talked lots of stuffs & laughed (:
@ Vivo, he treated me cos he lost the bet to me (:
He treated me 2 flavours - i ordered dark choc & belgium choc icecream (:
He ordered dark choc & tiramisu icecream (:
He ate slowly cos he's got sensitive tooth. haha.
I touched his hand to let him feel the coldness.
He brought stuff to study but in the end didnt get to study.
29th Nov, Monday - Squash outing.
Girls present - Crystal, Rae, Madeline, Yinlin, Vivien, Jonea, Corliss, Shuting and me.
Boys present - Chris, Kh, JB and Daniel.
We cycled in the rain, YEAH ^^ NO SUN BURNT. hee.
Madeline fell down & hurt her knees. ):
She bled non-stop, with plasma oozing out too.
He waited for me as i was the last.
Yes, if it's any other girls, he'd wait for them too (:
He's just that nice, and gentlemanly.
This is the first time i use that word on him.
I fell down outside the bike shop.
That's dumb and embarrassing.
Cos my bike bumped into his and i hurt my hands.
Thank goodness, it's just a small cut.
I wouldn't let him know that i'm hurt.
But he knows i'm hurt and was guilty since then.
& kept asking if i was alright. HAHA (:
Yes, it hurts, but i was really fine (:
I dun think he believe my words though. :/
8 Dec, Wed - This is the 2nd time we went out alone.
Yes, we squashed, then we went to eat at Toapayoh.
We took bus 105 & met his auntie.
WOW. WHAT GREAT LUCK -.-
Then he chatted with his auntie & totally nv talk to me.
Then i heard sth abt dinner... aiya. dunno lar.
After we alighted, he asked,
"How arh? my aunt saw us. Later she go tell my mom how?"
I sounded & looked worried, "Huhhh.. then how?"
He laughed, "Haha! Just joking! My mom very open one. She already knew i like the girl for 5 yrs. Everytime I go out with her. I just say I'm going out with her lor, then my mom will only ask me what time i will come back home. just like that only. "
Then we ate at a coffee shop.
He treated me Rojak.
I think he loved Rojak, but i think it wasnt really to my likings. HAH.
We studied at the TPY Lib.
He cant concentrate & keept looking around.
He said a guy in ORANGE kept looking at us & that he walked 1 big round just to look at us.
Haha. -.-
He received a call, & seem to be cautious not to let me overhear his convo.
I cant hear anything cos i was listening to music.
Sighs, shld be his gf....
At 6.30pm, he packed his stuff.
He told me, "I'm going first, you can continue studying here."
I was really disappointed.
WHAT?! HE'S GONNA LEAVE ME HERE BY MYSELF!?
Then i said i was going too.
He said he's going to the toilet & ask me to go first.
Once i reached the outside, i dunno where to turn to.
Cos i dunno the way to the MRT station!
OKAY. I smsed him.
Then he came down & led me there.
But his spd was fast.
Even though i asked him to give me the directions & i can walk there by myself,
he refused to stop walking & continue leading me.
I knew he was rushing for sth.
Then he asked, "How you know? You eavesdropped my convo?"
Sighs.. Nope. i didnt.
My heart sank to the bottom. sighs.
OH, ON THIS DAY, I SAW THE MSG.
TSK. THE DISTURBING MSG, THAT WASNT WRITTEN BY HIM.
But i still dun understand why he saved that msg in his msg thread.
This explains 1 thing, he dun believe Rae & her explanations.
SIGHS. Better dun let him think tat i'm interested in him.
13 Dec, Monday - The third time we went out alone.
We played pool from 10.43 to 1pm.
Yeah. He shld sleep early the night b4.
Cos he's totally blur that day.
He mistook the yellow stripe ball for the white ball. LOL.
I laughed till my stomach aches.
Oh, i accidentally touched my mouth with the tip of the stick -.-
He laughed, "How was it? Taste nice?"
LOL -.-
Then his white ball also flew out of the table twice.
LOL.
I lost to him ): 7-4
HAHA!
We had lunch at Astons.
We had a curry puff each b4 Astons.
Then we bought Koi.
While waiting for Koi, we went to tour around SPORTSLINK.
After that, we went back to sch to squash.
At the court, some idiotic student councillors used the glass door as mirrors -.-
LOL.
HAHA. & their dance steps were weird !
OH, that's where he spilt his Koi -.-
We were both tired after a few matches.
One J2 big sized senior kept playing with us. -.-
Then i bad mood.
Then.. that J2 went to rest.
After awhile he came back.
KH's tired & asked me if i wanna play with that J2.
I just went in & trash him.
Yeah, bad mood. Give him no chance to retaliate. tsk.
After i made him run like he's nv run b4, he went bak to CO room.
Then Kh & i played monopoly deal.
I lost all the time! -.-
TSK TSK.
Then we had dinner @ J8.
He had his fish noodles while i had my ice kachang.
Then i asked him abt him & that girl.
Then i realised they've been tgt for 5 yrs already.
sighs.
All i could do was sighing inside and acting natural on the outside.
15 Dec, Wed - 4th time alone.
We didnt plan this.
Today Reaiah, MAdeline and I are supposed to squash.
Then Reaiah cmi. So left me & madeline..
Then KH had private training with coach alone cos Daniel ps-ed him.
Okay.. & madeline left early -.-
So left me & KH alone.. tsk tsk !
We had bridging briefing today at 3.30pm.
When madeline said she's gonna leave, i wished for her to stay!
then.. there's this 3 min of awkward silence..
Then he finally asked me if i wanna squash.
Then i agreed.
& so we squashed! :D
After that, we played monopoly deal.
YEAH, HE WON AGAIN ):
Then, we went to bathe & went to Mac @ J8 for lunch.
He ordered McSpicy while i had Double Cheese.
We had a good laugh at 3.30pm!
We're late, then he has last mouthful of burger.
He put into his mouth.
Then I said a few sentences.... no reply from him.
WHY? Cos he's chewing!
So i laughed hard, "This is the first & only time that you cant rebut me!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
We both laughed hard.
I laughed till my stomach hurts & teared -.-
LOL.
Then we headed for the briefing.
Later at night, we chat on msn.
Only then i knew he hasn't laughed so hard since NCC..
haha!
Glad to know that ^^
BUT...
sighs ):
with so much fond memories & fun we had..
it's even more difficult for me to let him go ! ):
OH NOOOOO ):
GEE-ED @ 8:45 PM
