Friday, December 28, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Wishes
Despite my attempts at letting go, memories still come to haunt me.
It's been five weeks. I suppose any other person might have given up by now. But I keep telling myself, I am not just any other person. I must certainly be stronger than that. To have faith in myself and others.
Though hope dwindles, at least I don't cry so much anymore.
You already know exactly what I want for Christmas.
It's been five weeks. I suppose any other person might have given up by now. But I keep telling myself, I am not just any other person. I must certainly be stronger than that. To have faith in myself and others.
Though hope dwindles, at least I don't cry so much anymore.
You already know exactly what I want for Christmas.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
On the different feel of the wind on different parts of the road
There are times where one feels inexplicably happy, for nothing more than good weather and having the time to do nothing at all.
No studying, no homework, no quarrels. Just plain, simple enjoyment of the present moment. Just truthful and inquisitive miniature explorations of the environment. The school's nicer when it's emptier, in my newfound opinion.
Perfect for making discoveries of our own, and relieving memories.
For some reason I find myself relieving all sorts of memories today, ranging from those in lower Primary till more recent ones in NY. Yet before today, these same memories had been completely lost to me.
Perhaps there's something about getting less than 5 hours of sleep last night.
But it's still more likely to have been caused by that inexplicable happiness and peace, from having the right people around, the right amount of sunlight, the serenity, the bees flying around (and landing on me), and of course, having that comfortable, consistent assurance of the breeze blowing.
It's a warm embrace.
A completely beautiful one, and once again, I experience the themeless beauty of the present.
No studying, no homework, no quarrels. Just plain, simple enjoyment of the present moment. Just truthful and inquisitive miniature explorations of the environment. The school's nicer when it's emptier, in my newfound opinion.
Perfect for making discoveries of our own, and relieving memories.
For some reason I find myself relieving all sorts of memories today, ranging from those in lower Primary till more recent ones in NY. Yet before today, these same memories had been completely lost to me.
Perhaps there's something about getting less than 5 hours of sleep last night.
But it's still more likely to have been caused by that inexplicable happiness and peace, from having the right people around, the right amount of sunlight, the serenity, the bees flying around (and landing on me), and of course, having that comfortable, consistent assurance of the breeze blowing.
It's a warm embrace.
A completely beautiful one, and once again, I experience the themeless beauty of the present.
Saturday, December 01, 2007
December brings a turn
Letting go a little is probably the right thing to do now. Not only do I feel more relaxed all of a sudden, I suppose it also benefits others in whichever way relevant to their case. Fewer worries and less bothering from me. Yeah, I suppose it's the best thing to do, for now.
Impose fewer expectations on myself, and on others. It makes things slightly easier, I suppose.
At least now I won't be that disappointed when my dreams end up shattering into a million pieces.
Impose fewer expectations on myself, and on others. It makes things slightly easier, I suppose.
At least now I won't be that disappointed when my dreams end up shattering into a million pieces.
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