It seems like AC has gained some sort of silent fame over the past few months.
You don't see or hear any outright media publicity, but start walking around the more promising places around here and you would be amazed at just how many shops decide to show AC. In public. No kidding.
I name three off the list, with some help from erzi: MMM,IMM and now Concourse. Had the shop at Concourse shown AC a couple of weeks earlier, I probably would have seen it. But of course, it's a good thing that I didn't see it, otherwise it would have revived my withdrawl symptoms. Bishie dosage, no matter how small, is certainly not good in such situations.
Besides, it's fair enough that I got a tiny dosage yesterday. If only I had an extra 70 dollars, the ability to understand Japanese, and the time to finish Final Mix. I hear Showdown of Fate calling out to me. It's time I got some pills to stop the flow of all the nonsense in my head.
But at least now I know that Final Mix does exist in Singapore. Just that it's not for people like me.
That asides, I am greatly amused by the number of people whom I've noticed have easy-to-remember user ID numbers and the like. It's either that, or that I only remember seeing those because they are easy to remember. If you ask me about mine, I'll just say that it took me one afternoon to remember the numbers... in the wrong order. Oh well.
I'll keep trying.
The inspiration river has been running rather dry lately. I'm suspecting it may even be freezing over. I blame it on the weather. The cold can get to the brain, too.
And it's not fair that inspiration has learned to travel as well, since I've found out that being there doesn't mean that it will stay there.
And no, mental chains don't work. Same thing with insults and threats.
Monday, November 28, 2005
Monday, November 21, 2005
unjustly...pointlessness
The Chrno Crusade anime does not do the orignal story justice!
Terribly disappointing...
to do all that to Rosetta, Chrno, Joshua, Remington and Aion!
I probably sound like I'm ranting incoherently, but really...!
Today was the last episode even though I remember checking the tv guide, which said the last episode is tomorrow. But it also means that my calculations were correct; I got back from WEP just in time to watch the last episode (and to feel disappointed). I think I finally understand why there are so little Joshua and Satella fans.
Even though Rosetta had an early death, she and Chrno had a reasonable amount of screentime. And done quite a bit of laudable things. Azmaria is going to feel so lonely from now onwards. >.<
Terribly disappointing...
*sticks to the manga- my choice!
Terribly disappointing...
to do all that to Rosetta, Chrno, Joshua, Remington and Aion!
I probably sound like I'm ranting incoherently, but really...!
Today was the last episode even though I remember checking the tv guide, which said the last episode is tomorrow. But it also means that my calculations were correct; I got back from WEP just in time to watch the last episode (and to feel disappointed). I think I finally understand why there are so little Joshua and Satella fans.
Even though Rosetta had an early death, she and Chrno had a reasonable amount of screentime. And done quite a bit of laudable things. Azmaria is going to feel so lonely from now onwards. >.<
Terribly disappointing...
*sticks to the manga- my choice!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
ambivalence for tommorrow
In advance, but I think I'm pretty sure what I'd be feeling this time tommorrow.
Somewhat looking forward to the steamboat dinner. Just not wondering what will happen after that.
Somewhat looking forward to the steamboat dinner. Just not wondering what will happen after that.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
one year later, I'm still a little girl
I had thought of trying something out. And just look at this.
This is getting somewhat disturbing. Can this thing read minds or something? o-O
Oh well, on another note, WEP is ending in three days, and it is overlapping the WCG! Not that I'm planning to attend the WCG, but I want to head over to Suntec just to look. It's not everyday that something like that is held in Singapore.
Anyway, I've learnt to appreciate my precious half to one and a half hours of Internet everyday. And I think I'll have to write shorter entries just to cater to this type of lifestyle. Congrats to me, because I've gone from sleeping on buses to sleeping on trains. It's a higher skill to sleep on trains, you know. ;)
I've also found out that it's good to keep the childish side of your brain. Just note though, 45% is enough. you don't have to preserve all your childishness. It's what delivers your creativity and humour. Without it, life is going to be boring. With too much of it, there's not much reasoning going on in that head anymore.
Don't ask me what this has got to with WEP, because I do not know any more than you do. I only keep noticing why we are "xiao mei mei"s and why they aren't.
Lol. New nickname. Xiao mei mei!
Never saw myself so young til now. Makes me realise a lot of things, when coupled with WEP.
Maybe that's the real rationale behind it.
| Your Birthdate: August 19 |
 You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October |
This is getting somewhat disturbing. Can this thing read minds or something? o-O
Oh well, on another note, WEP is ending in three days, and it is overlapping the WCG! Not that I'm planning to attend the WCG, but I want to head over to Suntec just to look. It's not everyday that something like that is held in Singapore.
Anyway, I've learnt to appreciate my precious half to one and a half hours of Internet everyday. And I think I'll have to write shorter entries just to cater to this type of lifestyle. Congrats to me, because I've gone from sleeping on buses to sleeping on trains. It's a higher skill to sleep on trains, you know. ;)
I've also found out that it's good to keep the childish side of your brain. Just note though, 45% is enough. you don't have to preserve all your childishness. It's what delivers your creativity and humour. Without it, life is going to be boring. With too much of it, there's not much reasoning going on in that head anymore.
Don't ask me what this has got to with WEP, because I do not know any more than you do. I only keep noticing why we are "xiao mei mei"s and why they aren't.
Lol. New nickname. Xiao mei mei!
Never saw myself so young til now. Makes me realise a lot of things, when coupled with WEP.
Maybe that's the real rationale behind it.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
things to consider
I nabbed this from Bao.
And why does this sound so similar to what I've previously read about Arieses in general? o-O
| Your Birthdate: April 1 |
You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet. You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily. Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail. You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details. Your strength: Your supreme genius Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity Your power color: Gold Your power symbol: Star Your power month: January |
And why does this sound so similar to what I've previously read about Arieses in general? o-O
Saturday, November 12, 2005
getting around to doing things
I've finally created an LJ account. It seems that I finally gave in to temptation. lol.
I've been eyeing the LJ communities, fellow LJ friends, LJ cuts, memes, and icons for a long long while. Things you can do on LJ but not on blogger. But after traversing around the LJ compound, I find that Blogger seems easier to configure, and not as overwhelming. I love both, but in different ways. At least there still exists my TagBoard over here. ^-^
It's certainly not like I'm going to abandon this place.
The thing is, what sparked me off to investigate LJ further are the problems that keep surfacing here. Even now, there's something weird bugging me, because either my computer has something against blogger, or IE does. IE keeps shutting down whenever I step into "xxx.blogspot.com" and it happens for almost all the blogspot links I have. Especially mine.
Oh well.
At least there's a 1 in ?? chance that it works. Which is how I post comments on the tagboard. I can also try to post before IE shuts down, though that's a little more difficult. I'm thinking that it has something to do with the pop-ups that keep appearing.
If anyone can shine some light on this problem, I'd be happy to listen to what you have to say. These irritating technical problems happen to me all the time. I seem to be a trouble-magnet on the net. I've just got over the posting problems at ACF, and now this. o-O
I should be on my way to enjoy the weekend. Til later.
I've been eyeing the LJ communities, fellow LJ friends, LJ cuts, memes, and icons for a long long while. Things you can do on LJ but not on blogger. But after traversing around the LJ compound, I find that Blogger seems easier to configure, and not as overwhelming. I love both, but in different ways. At least there still exists my TagBoard over here. ^-^
It's certainly not like I'm going to abandon this place.
The thing is, what sparked me off to investigate LJ further are the problems that keep surfacing here. Even now, there's something weird bugging me, because either my computer has something against blogger, or IE does. IE keeps shutting down whenever I step into "xxx.blogspot.com" and it happens for almost all the blogspot links I have. Especially mine.
Oh well.
At least there's a 1 in ?? chance that it works. Which is how I post comments on the tagboard. I can also try to post before IE shuts down, though that's a little more difficult. I'm thinking that it has something to do with the pop-ups that keep appearing.
If anyone can shine some light on this problem, I'd be happy to listen to what you have to say. These irritating technical problems happen to me all the time. I seem to be a trouble-magnet on the net. I've just got over the posting problems at ACF, and now this. o-O
I should be on my way to enjoy the weekend. Til later.
Friday, November 11, 2005
today is typo day
It's just one of those "I'm disorientated, brain currently not in use" days. Thank goodness I didn't need to do much typing today.
The work got more physical this time. Just let me do this sum before I explain what I've been doing for 6-7 hours.
31 x 4 + 73 x 4 x 2 = 708?!
Dear me. I've been stamping 708 pages of drawings today. @_@ I wonder whether I'll get muscle aches tommorrow. <_<
But the good things about WEP is that I get a place with good food. My mum claims that I've been advertising the food everyday after I get back home from work. Heh, I'll get around to writing a list of recommendations once this is over. Then I'll find one day to go out with everyone for a feast. ^-^
As for feelings about WEP...
I was kinda right. It took four days to get over the lack of anime and such. At least I no longer find it so hard to stare right at the clock when it reads anything past 6pm. And I didn't use the time I had free to slack, even when I had made slacking preparations beforehand. Seeing everyone else busy makes you kind of guilty, I guess.
I didn't manage to find book 8. The stupidest thing is that where I once would do anything to get my hands on 7, I decided that 8 was more important today. I saw 7, but I didn't buy it. Money is saved for 8. So no distraction for the time being.
I still miss everyone overseas.
The work got more physical this time. Just let me do this sum before I explain what I've been doing for 6-7 hours.
31 x 4 + 73 x 4 x 2 = 708?!
Dear me. I've been stamping 708 pages of drawings today. @_@ I wonder whether I'll get muscle aches tommorrow. <_<
But the good things about WEP is that I get a place with good food. My mum claims that I've been advertising the food everyday after I get back home from work. Heh, I'll get around to writing a list of recommendations once this is over. Then I'll find one day to go out with everyone for a feast. ^-^
As for feelings about WEP...
I was kinda right. It took four days to get over the lack of anime and such. At least I no longer find it so hard to stare right at the clock when it reads anything past 6pm. And I didn't use the time I had free to slack, even when I had made slacking preparations beforehand. Seeing everyone else busy makes you kind of guilty, I guess.
I didn't manage to find book 8. The stupidest thing is that where I once would do anything to get my hands on 7, I decided that 8 was more important today. I saw 7, but I didn't buy it. Money is saved for 8. So no distraction for the time being.
I still miss everyone overseas.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
the missing pieces
Truth to be told, WEP is alright.
But due to my obsession over CC coupled with the Lack-of-speaking-to-friends syndrome, is becoming rather bad. I haven’t had a heart to heart rant over issues for a long while. Besides, everyone seems to be gone, save for mat. *sends mat a rabbit-shaped cookie*
After three days of wondering what this feeling is, I’ve finally drawn an analogy.
WEP is like Maple.
Maple is like an unfated relationship. It starts off good, only after overcoming some sort of mental barrier and physical barrier (i.e. client and patch probs). In fact, I was a bit skeptical at first, but I soon took a liking to it. It continues well, with some minor problems in between, nothing that couldn’t be solved within a couple of days.
But soon after, something interferes, and this relationship gets broken up. I don’t know what went wrong (and I still don’t) and nothing I did helped. Nothing others suggested helped, either. But I still have the obsession and it goes on for four more days before I got over it. Even then, there still exists that strange feeling of emptiness and something that I suspect is like withdrawal. Hm.
WEP is similar, because I’ve recognized that feeling as the empty and withdrawal combination.
Empty, because I’m missing so many people and so many things right now in my life. I don’t even have the time to surf the net or practice the piano as I used to. I want to find someone familiar to talk to, but there aren’t any most of the time.
There’s so much temptation going on. I can use the computer and the Internet, but I clearly remember instructions mentioning something about staying away from the Internet, because it is not part of work. One thing down that I can do.
Only now do I realize how much I need my songs and playlist when I’m in a place where work is supposed to be done seriously. No wonder I’ve always needed music around whenever there was homework to do. Especially stressing thing like Bio.
Besides, I am seriously deprived of talk. I can’t even talk to myself without being heard. And I can’t stop myself from thinking of CC and such even during work. Which makes it the painful experience it is now. At 6pm, my brain just shrieks “I’m supposed to be at home!”. And I usually leave the area after 6. These are the components of withdrawal. I just need something to distract me…
Remind me again why we have such bad pay?
Oh well, at least the experience with the people are good. I have been enjoying the bit about the office society. We even got them to pay for our lunch for the first day, and drinks on the second, and lunch again on the third. I’m getting more and more guilty by the day.
So after the skeptical feeling about WEP, it proceeded as it should, until obsession quirks kicked into action, which was rather quick. And that was probably when I began to act weird and get sad over WEP. In addition to the obsession quirks, there’s also the fact that I didn’t speak to any of my friends for four to five days…. And missed CC for five days… missed laoba for a week… and have not been able to rant properly for a long time.
The thing different about this is that it may take quite a few days to get over all the “missing”. It’s a temporary breakup with my liketodos. I’ve got nobody I can bother with my ranting, anyway. Don’t think rants are able to travel to places without Internet access. Air fares must be stunning.
Since I can’t do anything about WEP or letting off from work at a time where I’ll be able to reach home at 6, I’ll just have to live with it. It shouldn’t be that hard, actually. It’s just a thing about initial stages. You know, that it’s hard to get used to the new way of life during this time.
I hope I’ll be able to do something new, because I’m going to get nightmares of Excel if this continues any longer. In the matter of three days, I’ve gained approximately 20 hours of Excel experience, probably slightly lesser than that.
And I have to say, I hate formatting things with passion. Things like rearranging stuff in tables in Microsoft Word are tedious. It has always been like that. Because Word’s tables are a bunch of nasty guys which don’t do what they are told to.
Still, there are still 7 more days of WEP, and 2 more to the weekend. I don’t know what to do about the pictures and the report, but I’m not looking forward to the photo taking parts. I just want the chance to slack again.
So many things I want to do, but now certainly no time to do them. At least I’ll learn to love school after this.
But due to my obsession over CC coupled with the Lack-of-speaking-to-friends syndrome, is becoming rather bad. I haven’t had a heart to heart rant over issues for a long while. Besides, everyone seems to be gone, save for mat. *sends mat a rabbit-shaped cookie*
After three days of wondering what this feeling is, I’ve finally drawn an analogy.
WEP is like Maple.
Maple is like an unfated relationship. It starts off good, only after overcoming some sort of mental barrier and physical barrier (i.e. client and patch probs). In fact, I was a bit skeptical at first, but I soon took a liking to it. It continues well, with some minor problems in between, nothing that couldn’t be solved within a couple of days.
But soon after, something interferes, and this relationship gets broken up. I don’t know what went wrong (and I still don’t) and nothing I did helped. Nothing others suggested helped, either. But I still have the obsession and it goes on for four more days before I got over it. Even then, there still exists that strange feeling of emptiness and something that I suspect is like withdrawal. Hm.
WEP is similar, because I’ve recognized that feeling as the empty and withdrawal combination.
Empty, because I’m missing so many people and so many things right now in my life. I don’t even have the time to surf the net or practice the piano as I used to. I want to find someone familiar to talk to, but there aren’t any most of the time.
There’s so much temptation going on. I can use the computer and the Internet, but I clearly remember instructions mentioning something about staying away from the Internet, because it is not part of work. One thing down that I can do.
Only now do I realize how much I need my songs and playlist when I’m in a place where work is supposed to be done seriously. No wonder I’ve always needed music around whenever there was homework to do. Especially stressing thing like Bio.
Besides, I am seriously deprived of talk. I can’t even talk to myself without being heard. And I can’t stop myself from thinking of CC and such even during work. Which makes it the painful experience it is now. At 6pm, my brain just shrieks “I’m supposed to be at home!”. And I usually leave the area after 6. These are the components of withdrawal. I just need something to distract me…
Remind me again why we have such bad pay?
Oh well, at least the experience with the people are good. I have been enjoying the bit about the office society. We even got them to pay for our lunch for the first day, and drinks on the second, and lunch again on the third. I’m getting more and more guilty by the day.
So after the skeptical feeling about WEP, it proceeded as it should, until obsession quirks kicked into action, which was rather quick. And that was probably when I began to act weird and get sad over WEP. In addition to the obsession quirks, there’s also the fact that I didn’t speak to any of my friends for four to five days…. And missed CC for five days… missed laoba for a week… and have not been able to rant properly for a long time.
The thing different about this is that it may take quite a few days to get over all the “missing”. It’s a temporary breakup with my liketodos. I’ve got nobody I can bother with my ranting, anyway. Don’t think rants are able to travel to places without Internet access. Air fares must be stunning.
Since I can’t do anything about WEP or letting off from work at a time where I’ll be able to reach home at 6, I’ll just have to live with it. It shouldn’t be that hard, actually. It’s just a thing about initial stages. You know, that it’s hard to get used to the new way of life during this time.
I hope I’ll be able to do something new, because I’m going to get nightmares of Excel if this continues any longer. In the matter of three days, I’ve gained approximately 20 hours of Excel experience, probably slightly lesser than that.
And I have to say, I hate formatting things with passion. Things like rearranging stuff in tables in Microsoft Word are tedious. It has always been like that. Because Word’s tables are a bunch of nasty guys which don’t do what they are told to.
Still, there are still 7 more days of WEP, and 2 more to the weekend. I don’t know what to do about the pictures and the report, but I’m not looking forward to the photo taking parts. I just want the chance to slack again.
So many things I want to do, but now certainly no time to do them. At least I’ll learn to love school after this.
Monday, November 07, 2005
the proper dosage
I have so many things to learn, and one of them is that life always comes in bite-sized cookies.
You can never put too much of it in your mouth, because it just happens to be that irritating size where you just can't. One at a time fits the best, though.
I used to think that getting a job was a good idea, but now, I begin to realise how much I'll lose with just that change.
More gains, more losses.
Simultaneously.
And it takes a while to get used to the way that certain type of cookie tastes. I know some are sweet, others chunky, some more that know how to melt in your mouth.
I try to understand what it means by getting mature and not whine about everything you're not happy with, but it also takes real experience to do so.
I'll have to learn to live with the two hours of life I'm going to get everyday in the future. Far, I know, but I'm sorry that I need more time and preparation. I really am.
Besides, I want to know how some people can live so well even with that two hours (or so) of life supplied constantly, excluding weekends.
No service during weekends, so you don't need to bother about where's all your life draining to, or how fair it is in exchange for money.
So we live 2 days out of 7, which may not be a bad thing, but unfortunately I see it as one.
They say "quality over quantity" and before I know it, I really wish for someone to demonstrate how this is possible in the situation called living with worth.
I never let this issue go, but I know people who seem wise to me, and it's not even like they know it. I wish I'd stop talking about this matter, and you probably do too.
I never fail to be amazed by how fulfilling life can get, when I look at it sitting down, through something called a computer screen. That is to say, as I remind you, that the life in question is not mine. But no doubt I hope that I do learn something, and in turn, help to improve mine.
Who knows? It may work.
You can never put too much of it in your mouth, because it just happens to be that irritating size where you just can't. One at a time fits the best, though.
I used to think that getting a job was a good idea, but now, I begin to realise how much I'll lose with just that change.
More gains, more losses.
Simultaneously.
And it takes a while to get used to the way that certain type of cookie tastes. I know some are sweet, others chunky, some more that know how to melt in your mouth.
I try to understand what it means by getting mature and not whine about everything you're not happy with, but it also takes real experience to do so.
I'll have to learn to live with the two hours of life I'm going to get everyday in the future. Far, I know, but I'm sorry that I need more time and preparation. I really am.
Besides, I want to know how some people can live so well even with that two hours (or so) of life supplied constantly, excluding weekends.
No service during weekends, so you don't need to bother about where's all your life draining to, or how fair it is in exchange for money.
So we live 2 days out of 7, which may not be a bad thing, but unfortunately I see it as one.
They say "quality over quantity" and before I know it, I really wish for someone to demonstrate how this is possible in the situation called living with worth.
I never let this issue go, but I know people who seem wise to me, and it's not even like they know it. I wish I'd stop talking about this matter, and you probably do too.
I never fail to be amazed by how fulfilling life can get, when I look at it sitting down, through something called a computer screen. That is to say, as I remind you, that the life in question is not mine. But no doubt I hope that I do learn something, and in turn, help to improve mine.
Who knows? It may work.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
still hanging around
I think I'm not supposed to be here, but oh well.
I have to wake up early tommorrow, because of WEP, which also translates to "2 weeks of no sleep". I sort of believe that WEP will force me to give up my 1:30am sleeping schedule, simply because it will otherwise blackmail me with sanity. Or I'll just get eye bags again. Hmph.
WEP also means that I'll not be around all day, until I get home sometime in the evening, or at night. And I'll miss ten consecutive episodes of Chrno Crusade.
No fair.
Ah... and there's also the whole report thing. Pictures, pictures... sure I'll deliver them.
I worry whether I'll have the time to eat, since well, I take a long time to eat. Not a very handy skill to have at the moment. T_T
An overall whiny, brooding post. Haven't been feeling in a good mood lately. I'll just sleep and hope for some good cheer tommorrow morning. (like having a good dream tonight... ^-^)
Sorry, I quote from Soubi, but
I have to wake up early tommorrow, because of WEP, which also translates to "2 weeks of no sleep". I sort of believe that WEP will force me to give up my 1:30am sleeping schedule, simply because it will otherwise blackmail me with sanity. Or I'll just get eye bags again. Hmph.
WEP also means that I'll not be around all day, until I get home sometime in the evening, or at night. And I'll miss ten consecutive episodes of Chrno Crusade.
No fair.
Ah... and there's also the whole report thing. Pictures, pictures... sure I'll deliver them.
I worry whether I'll have the time to eat, since well, I take a long time to eat. Not a very handy skill to have at the moment. T_T
An overall whiny, brooding post. Haven't been feeling in a good mood lately. I'll just sleep and hope for some good cheer tommorrow morning. (like having a good dream tonight... ^-^)
Sorry, I quote from Soubi, but
Training begins now.
Meme
I steal this meme from Mat, though I wonder why so few memes ever come this way.
1.Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?
Interestingly, nobody's. Not even my EZlink card is in there. So... unless you want to count the President's picture on the money notes, no one.
2. What time do you usually go to bed?
With school, preferably 2200-2230hrs. For holidays, 0130 seems pretty frequent. That's just not supposed to become a known fact.
3. What was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
Burned a CD containing Chrno Crusade episodes 5-8. (amah, where are the rest? 9_9)
4. Who are the people you always meet the most?
Family (only my mother, in this case.) Otherwise, classmates.
6. What's on your mind right now?
How shitty the situation is because WEP starts tommorrow and my parents keep on fussing over that fact. Also wondering about coping with the lonliness because people are going/have gone overseas for EOY programs, which leave my friend community rather empty.
8. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?
Do I want to know what this question is asking about? (Though I'm sure I know pretty well who wants to have fun with me o-o)
9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
Not a movie fanatic.
10. When was the last time you went out?
About an hour ago. For lunch and to buy stationery.
11. Who do you hate the most for now?
Tell me about the hating process.
12. When was the first time you slept alone?
So long ago I have no idea when. Well, probably when I was 11, because that's when I got my own room.
13. What do you wanna do for now?
Escape from the fact that WEP starts tommorrow and I do not look forward to starving for two weeks.
14. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
Visit the net-dom. I try to do that everyday. Plus paying a mental visit to where my bishies reside. (Yes, I do that everyday. I am serious.) And no, reading books and studying are not everyday activities for me. Everything else are done on an irregular basis.
15. What could piss you of?
Being maligned. (I hate this with passion.)
Not getting to do what I really want to do.
Getting fussed over like a little kid.
Being told rudely that something I did or said is wrong.
Very noisy places. And people.
Some of the things mentioned on the floating column on the right side of this page.
16. are you an animal lover?
Sure thing. You don't know me if you don't know that I am an animal lover.
17. Colors that make you happy?
Lots. But more importantly, it's what these colours make up that make me happy.
18. Most fav thing in your room?
Too many to mention. My room is my treasure trove, and all my stuff are kept here. This is the equivalent of asking me what is my favourite thing. I like my computer (or rather, what it does for me) but I have to good reason to believe that it hates me. Of course, there's Snowy and all my favourite dogs. ^-^
19. What was the last thing you bought for your room?
Bought for my room? If this is talking about decoration, then I think it's my BC poster, though I bought that in March, after considering for 2-3 months.
20. Any instruments in your room?
None. Unless you want to count the recorder that I used during the primary school days. I think still remember Aura Lee.
21. Can you cook?
You won't want to find out.
22. Miss someone?
Laoba! And now erzi. *sniff* I want them to come back soon. I send love to you all!
23. Plan to buy something?
Refer to wishlist.
24. Are you satisfied with your life now?
Hell no.
25. Do you like seafood?
Hey, I like seafood. But too bad I'm allergic to prawns.
26. Breakfast or dinner?
Weekend breakfast, weekday dinner. ;) Though I would choose luch if there were such a choice.
27. What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Bread. Almost everyday.
28. Did you eat breakfast today?
Yes, and immediately followed by lunch.
29. Do you recycle?
It's my responsibility, but I wish there was a recycle bin here near my house so I won't have to lug things to the school to recycle.
30. Do you have a laptop?
Ask me that 5 years later.
31. What's your favorite fast food?
Swensens or Mos's fries.
32. Cats or dogs?
Dogs. Of course.
33. Salty or sweet?
Sweet.
34. City or country?
The best would be country with a good Internet access.
35. How do you prefer to spend your holiday?
With being able to do everything that I want to which I hadn't had the time during school days. Just my luck that Maple isn't working for me anymore.
36. Is kissing normal for your age?
That would depend on the person you ask this question to.
37. Are you athletic?
6 years ago, maybe.
38. Do you swear?
Refer to past blog histories.
39. Would you ditch your friends for a date?
Since when would I face such a situation? Well, it depends on who the date is.
40. Do you have your own cell phone?
Yes, but it's not with me. I use my brother's phone. (FYI: My bro uses my mother's phone, and my mum uses mine. Strange I know.)
41.what do you wear to bed?
I wear the same few sets of clothes to bed, which I supposedly labelled "pajamas", but do not resemble "pajamas" one bit.
42. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
Maybe sometime long ago in history. Not telling, because I can't remember.
43. Coke or pepsi?
Coke? I don't drink cold drinks often.
44. Sugar or spice?
Sugar... because they give sugar highs... which in turn are essential for fangirls to work properly.
46. Do you like to read for pleasure?
I haven't read a book since June... or maybe TBD. But I love reading proper fanfiction.
47. Do you care about getting good grades?
To answer this truthfully, I'd say yes. Because the perfectionist in me keeps nagging about it.
48.Have u ever fallen sleep in class?
Probably. But I usually try to sleep before class or during the bus journey home. I need to listen during class, no matter how boring it is, but whether anything goes into my brain is another matter.
51. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
I suppose so. More than most, at any rate.
52. Do your parents trust you?
I think they do. Or I hope they do.
On second thought, maybe not.
53. Would you trade places (in life) with your best friends?
No, I like it the way it is, now. Even though I said I hate life. But I think I would hate life more after trading.
54.Does your best friend get on your nerves?
Certainly not... but maybe there are special occassions. (I suppose even I get on people's nerves sometimes.)
55. Do you tell your mom everything?
Not everything, but most. (Thing like bishie obsessions should be kept secret as far as possible, unless I want to land myself in some kind of mental hospital. Along with other people.)
1.Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?
Interestingly, nobody's. Not even my EZlink card is in there. So... unless you want to count the President's picture on the money notes, no one.
2. What time do you usually go to bed?
With school, preferably 2200-2230hrs. For holidays, 0130 seems pretty frequent. That's just not supposed to become a known fact.
3. What was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
Burned a CD containing Chrno Crusade episodes 5-8. (amah, where are the rest? 9_9)
4. Who are the people you always meet the most?
Family (only my mother, in this case.) Otherwise, classmates.
6. What's on your mind right now?
How shitty the situation is because WEP starts tommorrow and my parents keep on fussing over that fact. Also wondering about coping with the lonliness because people are going/have gone overseas for EOY programs, which leave my friend community rather empty.
8. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?
Do I want to know what this question is asking about? (Though I'm sure I know pretty well who wants to have fun with me o-o)
9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
Not a movie fanatic.
10. When was the last time you went out?
About an hour ago. For lunch and to buy stationery.
11. Who do you hate the most for now?
Tell me about the hating process.
12. When was the first time you slept alone?
So long ago I have no idea when. Well, probably when I was 11, because that's when I got my own room.
13. What do you wanna do for now?
Escape from the fact that WEP starts tommorrow and I do not look forward to starving for two weeks.
14. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
Visit the net-dom. I try to do that everyday. Plus paying a mental visit to where my bishies reside. (Yes, I do that everyday. I am serious.) And no, reading books and studying are not everyday activities for me. Everything else are done on an irregular basis.
15. What could piss you of?
Being maligned. (I hate this with passion.)
Not getting to do what I really want to do.
Getting fussed over like a little kid.
Being told rudely that something I did or said is wrong.
Very noisy places. And people.
Some of the things mentioned on the floating column on the right side of this page.
16. are you an animal lover?
Sure thing. You don't know me if you don't know that I am an animal lover.
17. Colors that make you happy?
Lots. But more importantly, it's what these colours make up that make me happy.
18. Most fav thing in your room?
Too many to mention. My room is my treasure trove, and all my stuff are kept here. This is the equivalent of asking me what is my favourite thing. I like my computer (or rather, what it does for me) but I have to good reason to believe that it hates me. Of course, there's Snowy and all my favourite dogs. ^-^
19. What was the last thing you bought for your room?
Bought for my room? If this is talking about decoration, then I think it's my BC poster, though I bought that in March, after considering for 2-3 months.
20. Any instruments in your room?
None. Unless you want to count the recorder that I used during the primary school days. I think still remember Aura Lee.
21. Can you cook?
You won't want to find out.
22. Miss someone?
Laoba! And now erzi. *sniff* I want them to come back soon. I send love to you all!
23. Plan to buy something?
Refer to wishlist.
24. Are you satisfied with your life now?
Hell no.
25. Do you like seafood?
Hey, I like seafood. But too bad I'm allergic to prawns.
26. Breakfast or dinner?
Weekend breakfast, weekday dinner. ;) Though I would choose luch if there were such a choice.
27. What do you usually eat for breakfast?
Bread. Almost everyday.
28. Did you eat breakfast today?
Yes, and immediately followed by lunch.
29. Do you recycle?
It's my responsibility, but I wish there was a recycle bin here near my house so I won't have to lug things to the school to recycle.
30. Do you have a laptop?
Ask me that 5 years later.
31. What's your favorite fast food?
Swensens or Mos's fries.
32. Cats or dogs?
Dogs. Of course.
33. Salty or sweet?
Sweet.
34. City or country?
The best would be country with a good Internet access.
35. How do you prefer to spend your holiday?
With being able to do everything that I want to which I hadn't had the time during school days. Just my luck that Maple isn't working for me anymore.
36. Is kissing normal for your age?
That would depend on the person you ask this question to.
37. Are you athletic?
6 years ago, maybe.
38. Do you swear?
Refer to past blog histories.
39. Would you ditch your friends for a date?
Since when would I face such a situation? Well, it depends on who the date is.
40. Do you have your own cell phone?
Yes, but it's not with me. I use my brother's phone. (FYI: My bro uses my mother's phone, and my mum uses mine. Strange I know.)
41.what do you wear to bed?
I wear the same few sets of clothes to bed, which I supposedly labelled "pajamas", but do not resemble "pajamas" one bit.
42. Ever had a crush on a teacher?
Maybe sometime long ago in history. Not telling, because I can't remember.
43. Coke or pepsi?
Coke? I don't drink cold drinks often.
44. Sugar or spice?
Sugar... because they give sugar highs... which in turn are essential for fangirls to work properly.
46. Do you like to read for pleasure?
I haven't read a book since June... or maybe TBD. But I love reading proper fanfiction.
47. Do you care about getting good grades?
To answer this truthfully, I'd say yes. Because the perfectionist in me keeps nagging about it.
48.Have u ever fallen sleep in class?
Probably. But I usually try to sleep before class or during the bus journey home. I need to listen during class, no matter how boring it is, but whether anything goes into my brain is another matter.
51. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
I suppose so. More than most, at any rate.
52. Do your parents trust you?
I think they do. Or I hope they do.
On second thought, maybe not.
53. Would you trade places (in life) with your best friends?
No, I like it the way it is, now. Even though I said I hate life. But I think I would hate life more after trading.
54.Does your best friend get on your nerves?
Certainly not... but maybe there are special occassions. (I suppose even I get on people's nerves sometimes.)
55. Do you tell your mom everything?
Not everything, but most. (Thing like bishie obsessions should be kept secret as far as possible, unless I want to land myself in some kind of mental hospital. Along with other people.)
Saturday, November 05, 2005
I'll never lose faith
I post this because I feel the absolute need to rant.
Gackt is not going to take over Sephiroth's position!
I simply will not accept that as any fact at all, even if it's going to be the truth.
Yes, I speculate, but the similarities between that costume of his and Sephiroth's are absolutely, downright offending.
I link, link , and link, and refuse to find this good news.
Maybe I'm being too serious about this matter, but really, since when has SE decided that their going to do things according to the market?
I want back the quality that was of the old games. Not just something that sells, I want something that's good. Something tells me that AC was something to get them money, anyways. Something to cover up the mistake that was TSW years ago.
I don't find this funny. But maybe I just need to cool it.
Hopefully, Project_G is not taking over Sephiroth's position. No one will, for a long while yet, and especially not Gackt.
Fullstop.
Gackt is not going to take over Sephiroth's position!
I simply will not accept that as any fact at all, even if it's going to be the truth.
Yes, I speculate, but the similarities between that costume of his and Sephiroth's are absolutely, downright offending.
I link, link , and link, and refuse to find this good news.
Maybe I'm being too serious about this matter, but really, since when has SE decided that their going to do things according to the market?
I want back the quality that was of the old games. Not just something that sells, I want something that's good. Something tells me that AC was something to get them money, anyways. Something to cover up the mistake that was TSW years ago.
I don't find this funny. But maybe I just need to cool it.
Hopefully, Project_G is not taking over Sephiroth's position. No one will, for a long while yet, and especially not Gackt.
Fullstop.
inspiration draw out
I've been lacking a lot of inspiration lately. Where exactly is the inspiration source when you need it?
And I suppose it's normal to receive sudden bouts of inspiration at 1am in the morning, or later.
Or so I've heard.
And I find it strange that there so much difficulty in me publishing or writing any bit of drabble I actually have stuck in my head because I find it embarrassing to no end.
I keep thinking of the good works I've come across before, and that never fails to make me stop in my tracks and think, what am I doing?
I'd readily bet that that's the perfectionist in me speaking.
Right now, I think I'm in need of another entity to counter that unwelcomed voice. Why do I always feel embarrassed to do things simply because I know that I'll never be the best? People are supposed to have freedom, right? Besides, I know I can be better than some others I know of.
But when that perfectionist speaks, all else is forgotten.
I need to overcome this.
To some people, drabbles and witty comments are as easy as me churning out blog entries.
Hah. Of course I know such people.
And it doesn't help the situation.
And I suppose it's normal to receive sudden bouts of inspiration at 1am in the morning, or later.
Or so I've heard.
And I find it strange that there so much difficulty in me publishing or writing any bit of drabble I actually have stuck in my head because I find it embarrassing to no end.
I keep thinking of the good works I've come across before, and that never fails to make me stop in my tracks and think, what am I doing?
I'd readily bet that that's the perfectionist in me speaking.
Right now, I think I'm in need of another entity to counter that unwelcomed voice. Why do I always feel embarrassed to do things simply because I know that I'll never be the best? People are supposed to have freedom, right? Besides, I know I can be better than some others I know of.
But when that perfectionist speaks, all else is forgotten.
I need to overcome this.
To some people, drabbles and witty comments are as easy as me churning out blog entries.
Hah. Of course I know such people.
And it doesn't help the situation.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
warning: writing in fangirl mode
I seem to be spending more and more money lately. Just look, yet one more off the wishlist. Lol.
And I have to say, Your Eyes Only is a book with really prettiful pictures. But unfortunately, it didn't have all the pictures that I liked. But it had its share of nice pictures. I really want a big and clear version of the Loveless book 5 content page illustration. Never thought this would come from me, but Seimei deserves more fame. No matter how evil he is. People like evil characters too, you know.
Waha. Talking about evil characters. (This is going to be followed up with a severe case of fangirlitis, so beware.)
Damnit, I was not supposed to start liking yet another blond guy!
Ohnonononono. It was not supposed to happen, but it did! Which is utterly ridiculous, in my opinion. I thought I fell out of that cycle long ago?
Oh, and I think I've found out exactly why Josh has such a small fanbase. Helloo? It's the anime. The Chrno Crusade anime just ruins his reputation. Listen to my advice, and read the manga instead.
Listen to my advice, okay?!
No cheating.
But at least, even with this new obsession, I am still loyal to Cloud, Zack and Sephiroth. <33 It will take a lot more to change that fact. <33 So there.
This viscious(sp? since when have I become unsure of word spellings?) cycle of the discovery of more and more favourite fandoms is really getting out of hand.
I'll name some off the list. And bear in mind, it's only this year, from june onwards.
We have: Wolf's Rain, Death Note, Naruto, Loveless, and now Chrno Crusade. And of course my everlasting love for FFVII. =^-^= (I did put a warning regarding fangirl!mode) And something tells me that there'll be more coming right up.
Lol, like getting infected with something that comes from xiyu's direction. Certainly not the yaoi (I'm already a yaoi fan- to a certain extent), but the other stuff.
Rawr... *makes random fangirl noises*
I need book 7 and 8 of CC! The (not so) suspense is going to drive me nuts. Well, I sort of know the ending already, but something in me is screaming that is has to be different from the anime. *hopes that not that many people died in the end*
This is drax, currently in an unstoppable, incurable fangirlitis mode, signing off. I did mention a couple of times that this is fangirlitis mode, so please pardon the crankiness.
*makes more random fangirl noises*
And I have to say, Your Eyes Only is a book with really prettiful pictures. But unfortunately, it didn't have all the pictures that I liked. But it had its share of nice pictures. I really want a big and clear version of the Loveless book 5 content page illustration. Never thought this would come from me, but Seimei deserves more fame. No matter how evil he is. People like evil characters too, you know.
Waha. Talking about evil characters. (This is going to be followed up with a severe case of fangirlitis, so beware.)
Damnit, I was not supposed to start liking yet another blond guy!
Ohnonononono. It was not supposed to happen, but it did! Which is utterly ridiculous, in my opinion. I thought I fell out of that cycle long ago?
Oh, and I think I've found out exactly why Josh has such a small fanbase. Helloo? It's the anime. The Chrno Crusade anime just ruins his reputation. Listen to my advice, and read the manga instead.
Listen to my advice, okay?!
No cheating.
But at least, even with this new obsession, I am still loyal to Cloud, Zack and Sephiroth. <33 It will take a lot more to change that fact. <33 So there.
This viscious(sp? since when have I become unsure of word spellings?) cycle of the discovery of more and more favourite fandoms is really getting out of hand.
I'll name some off the list. And bear in mind, it's only this year, from june onwards.
We have: Wolf's Rain, Death Note, Naruto, Loveless, and now Chrno Crusade. And of course my everlasting love for FFVII. =^-^= (I did put a warning regarding fangirl!mode) And something tells me that there'll be more coming right up.
Lol, like getting infected with something that comes from xiyu's direction. Certainly not the yaoi (I'm already a yaoi fan- to a certain extent), but the other stuff.
Rawr... *makes random fangirl noises*
I need book 7 and 8 of CC! The (not so) suspense is going to drive me nuts. Well, I sort of know the ending already, but something in me is screaming that is has to be different from the anime. *hopes that not that many people died in the end*
This is drax, currently in an unstoppable, incurable fangirlitis mode, signing off. I did mention a couple of times that this is fangirlitis mode, so please pardon the crankiness.
*makes more random fangirl noises*
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