With Brains But No Heart

It was an "eventful" day today. Our class was half-asleep until Mr. Ingham came in for PCCG lesson today and blew his top over class cleanliness and a few other things. (Irony: It wasn't really PCCG lesson; PCCG lessons are spent as class contact time. Look like we couldn't progress from the present to even look at the future o-O)

And that had amazing effect on our class, combined with all that Mrs. Soh had said, which made her and us cry all the same, and Ms Chang's words after PE lesson.

Omg. The class actually worked together! *cheers* For once, we actually worked together to get the class clean, though the atmosphere was still quite depressing. And we did all that in less than ten minutes, record time! ^-^ I'm hoping that the class can be more united and responsible after today's happenings. I mean, it was so amusing to see Mrs. Chua's shocked face when she stepped into our classroom. "Whatever happened to our class?" Well, Jason happened to our class. And I'm happy to announce that.

Now that we know the situation better, I'm also glad to say that Mr. Jason is certainly the form teacher of 303, no less, cause he's got the ability to take on challenges like us. And control them. lol.

define Hertz

I had Chemistry test, Bio practical assessment and a lesson worth of scoldings from the Chinese teacher. Thank goodness I escaped from the Critical Reading Skills Tests today... wait. But that's tommorrow. Argh... there'a not much difference anyway.

Miss Teo is leaving us soon! Why do our LA teachers keep changing? I think Miss Teo is rather entertaining... and lenient. hehehe... get her, and you'll stand a better chance of getting higher marks. [/evil] That aside, I still think she should stay with us. But we can't change facts no matter how hard we try. Well, looks like we'll have to prepare to welcome Mrs Soh back to our class.

I pride myself in the fact that I've only received one comment since the start of this blog, approximately three months ago. HA.

And can someone please tell me what's "a" Hertz? And when used in worksheets like Class worksheet 11 (properties of wave motion) and assignment 7, is it measured in centimetres...as in something/centimetres ? I only need some more time to think, and I'll probably get it after a while, but right now there's no time and brain space to induce thinking yet.

Sleep... zzz.

We'll hide it for another day

... and so I'm vice-president now? o.O Argh... I have to get down to adapt to this new idea. Vice-pres...vice-pres...vice-pres... ah alright. >_< I surrender.

lol... since I'm vice-pres, that means that dear amah is president of the club! Woot!! *brings out pom-poms and banners* ^^

Chinese test was bad. Really, I set the record concerning the number of marks left blank. I only left three questions blank, but it just had to be the three x five marks questions. Way to go, girl. >_>

Set the "Longest Popiah in the world" record today, if you've seen us on the news. Didn't eat it, because it looked kind of... strange. Won't want to eat it, no matter what they say about the Singapore Food Industries. Popiah too "skinny" for my liking. lol... My school seems kind of free to think up of such ideas. It seems like the last record was also done by my school. lmao!

Chem test tommorrow, and CRS sometime this week. Which is either tommorrow or Friday. hmm... chinese mo xie thing tommorrow. Okay, let's get through tommorrow. Then we talk more.

Influential as influential does

(Titles are just random comments that happen to pay a visit to my brain in a particular instant. But if you think there's another hidden meaning behind them and you want to decipher them, go ahead and be my guest. ;) )

Beginning to get the hang of blogging. Blogging is more fun if you blog as often as possible >.< hehehe... maybe because it's kind of addictive...

Another day spent at home (do I even go out these days? O-o) doing nothing much. Schooling life is like that. But better schooling life than working life. I'm supposed to revise for the Chinese test coming up on Tues, but not really working. And that biology assignment is still bothering me. How long is that essay supposed to be, anyway? o-O

Well, as said, nothing much. Unless you want to count discussing traits of GEPers something much. XD

But the tests! And the assignments!! Argh. *goes off to bury self in a hole*

It pays to wake up early

Sacrifice some Internet time, and sleep early. Hehehe... it's kind of beneficial. Wake up early= feel more refreshed + seem to have more time to do homework. :D I should try to do this more often. And spend less time on the Internet.

I should wean off that habit of going to ACF! It think that is what takes up most of my time. @.@ haven't gone today, but I'm so worried that I'd miss some important news if I don't go and check.

Nothing exciting happening in my life. Unless you count not understanding what to do with the food pyramid that strangely enough, is not the revised version that LSS told us about, and it's kinda contradicting.

Oh, I saw the Tifa poster and the SHM poster yesterday. *is tempted* lol... they're aren't the real thing, but considering that I'm broke at the moment... (School Donation Fund! *shakes fist* ) Ah...I dunno. Had to abandon little Kadaj this time.

Tests are coming up, and I really should get down to studying. Need that overall 70%! But I need my Internet too. *hugs computer* Yea.. where's my sanity?

I am a little girl, aren't I?

It has happened yet again.

I got mistaken for a Sec One student!

Whoa... let's get things stright. I'm a senior. S-E-N-I-O-R. Eh, I know I'm short and all that, but please, I'm not a Secondary One student! <_< Do I really look that young? o_O

I'm kind of sick of this whole "look too young thing" and looking "studious" etc. I have observed that people don't really care about my existence, because I always happen to be the "friend's friend". What does this mean? Am I too quiet? o.O I hope not... I talk too much, I think. But then I tend to talk to myself.

I've basically lost hope about NYGH. Is it me, or is our level really slack? Erm, not everyone, but most people... you know... attitude problem. They talk too loudly, and overexcited screaming screeching certainly does not agree with my eardrums. T.T

Sports Meet thing today at Yio Chu Kang. Got lost on the way there. (I don't travel to the North side very often, thank you very much. The school bus driver didn't happen to know where the stadium is, either.) Sunny weather, talkative and uncooperative crowd. Watched brilliant runners like Amanda and Shi Ting (and Shan Ru. She broke so many records!). Ah... kind of miss 204 right now. We used to be the ultimate sports class lol. *evil*

Got plenty of tests coming up next week and the week after. I'm not sure that I'll study enough though. Maybe that slack syndrome has gotten to me...

My new hobby: charity work

Beware. I'm going to start angsting. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Angst angst angst.

... seems like I'm the only one in class who actually cares about cleanliness. Or the classroom for that matter. And it seems like nobody does duty, 'cept me. It seems like that. I knew I didn't really like this class. >_< Or maybe everyone's just too busy.

Hey, I'm busy too.

o.O

So now I think that:
i) I'm a "guai" little girl (who has nothing better to do). And dutyfully does her part for the class.
ii) I'm a dumb little girl who doesn't know that I'm just wasting my time this way. And effort. I mean, nobody even knows or notices the difference for that matter. Save for the teachers.
iii) I'm both a reponsible and stupid girl at the same time.
iv) I'm not a little girl. I angst too much.

Now I know why people have said that kind people are stupid people.

That aside, it's much better now that we've sort of cleared up the misunderstandings... It had been bothering both sides at some point, and it's good to finally get things straight. Lol... I'm no more a stalker! Er... wait. Have I ever been one? O-o

Why is it that the "good-at-a-certain-something" people all know each other?! Eh.. the most scary examples are the fanfiction writers. It's such a pity that I don't write fiction. I just read. And I don't RP either. What a pity. Perhaps it might be more of a pity if I just had been approximately five years older. And don't sound(either consciously or unconsciously) like a really little girl yet to grow up and get a life.

I don't have a life right now. Heh.

Cheers.

Now more things go wrong

Okay, so my bad luck streak is over, but now there's another problem. Strife seems to be misunderstanding some things. Hm... how should I clear this mess up? *thinks*

Shall just use the straightforward method, if I see her.

And the past day has been spent, not exactly doing homework. I should buck up.

Activity on ACF = very little. Because there's been a lack of news-- again!

Seen the cows around Singapore lately? I think they're veery noticable, provided you see them in the first place. lol... I saw two fields of them the other day while heading for Toa Payoh. Moo-moos! Hehehe...

Yup, pointless summarising of stuff happening lately. With typos, probably.

Decisions

Learnt a few stuff over the week... or two.

Wait. Let me get this straight. Jason's from Trinity? hmm...ah... unfariness! It's such a nice place... >_< *wants to go too* Cambridge is so very nice; I wish I can have the chance to study there too. >_< But now there's a whole lot of problems with deciding what I should study in the first place. I like too many things for my own good.

...Problem. T_T

And there's the fact that my interest change, especially when teachers change. Teachers are very influential on my interest. But there are some interests that don't change. Hehehe. It all depends.

I'm beginning to dislike the people in my school more and more. They have quite a number of bad habits, and I just don't approve a lot of stuff they do and say. T_T On the other hand, there's also people who I like, but not many. -_- Sometimes, I feel so jealous but angry that other people have the abilities and certain qualities that I wish I had, but don't, and they just don't put them to good use. If I had those abilities, I certainly will use them and concentrate on developing that strength.

That's why I always like to ask, why don't people see?

Actually, there's a lot more that people don't see.

And why do I like ranting off into more pessimistic stuff? O.o

Okay... what else? Oh yes. Jason, I challenge you to find my blog! XD Altough if you're reading this then that's not valid anymore lol. I doubt that you've found it so quickly though. XP But if you're reading ths, then you should know something. I want your Xbox!!! Okay, But I won't exactly have much use for it. :3 But it's nice to steal yours. hehehehe. >:3

Pessimism

Don't be such a pessimist. Don't be so stressed. Don't! Don't! Don't!

I should keep repeating that to myself, otherwise I'll really become very pessimistic. (Where's the joy in life? O-o ) Oh well, I have to deal with things as they come. There are many things... especially if you're thinking on the homework side. SIAs i barely have time to think about, much rather do something about them. Right now it's all assignments, worksheets and files maybe.

Even with all these going on, I still need ACF! @.@ Must be addiction... see everyone's leaving ACF due to "busyness" and it must have something to do with the lack of news too. BUT!! Lately, AC news have been picking up. I'll just have to wait a few more days for the SE conferences to begin. Hopefully , they've finally decided to say and do someting about AC. :D Yea... hopefully.

Passionata... I'm still very very very sorry! >_< I feel so guilt-ridden right now even as I am doing my Passionata entries. *sigh* what to do? Nothing much I can do at the moment. Just reflect and try harder.

Need my songs to help me relax. *tries to relax* Argh. Now we deal with the problems.
Bio -> what is thta whole fermentation thing about?! I don't understand. Seems like everyone doesn't either.
Chem-> why am I forgetting the easy bits? Like about covalent and ionice compounds... Perhaps I need more sleep.
Phy-> think I'm beginning to like Physics. hmm.. this shouldn't be considered a problem. unless it gets linked to what I am going to study in the future.
Math-> Ah... properties of circles... this one is closer to what I like to do. ^^ but I can't remember the properties for the life of me... maybe I need even more sleep.
Chinese-> Shan't comment. Will make myself miserable by doing so.
SS-> yea.. right. The test tommorrow, and I haven't studied. One word: die.
LA-> I try. They don't see. Ok. Try harder. End of story.
PE-> hm... another one that I shan't comment. Deal with things as they come...
CCA-> Earth Week coming up. Another die die situation. 6_6
Piano-> why don't I have the time to practise?! noooooooo.....

oo.. there's still more, but I shan't continue... the list is getting long. @-@ I'll review them another time.

And so ends today's rant.

concerning sincerity and ability

What can I say? Busy...

Sheesh, I survived yet another week. April 8 was supposed to be one heck of a day, but then deadlines shifted, ... so I was left cleaning up the classroom. ^^;; I wonder whether anyone will actually notice any difference. I don't think so. Ah.. but that's me.

Haven't slept well for the past week. I slept around midnight everyday and there was one day when I slept only at 1 am in the morning and woke up a little later at 5+ to go to school. Life hates me. Why isn't there time to do stuff I want to? With all the talk on developing our "passion" and all, the irony lies where time is concerned. We don't have time to do things that we want to! Not to metion there's still those SIAs that I haven't gotten time to think about. o_O

And talking about passion... gomen gomen!! I am really very sorry for getting that lousy marks for my speech. It's a disgrace! I really didn't want to degrade you all by giving a bad speech. I will try harder! But I need a second chance. I will do better! Otherwise the problem may not really lie with me... I'm not sure. Don't worry, I will still show full support for you all! My undying support, and love!

*at this point, people think that Drax has gone insane, talking to an unknown audience*

Nyah... I still feel somewhat ashamed about the speech, and I REALLY wish to do better. I don't know what went wrong, but it's always like that. The more effort I put into doing something, the more others do not see it. Life is more or less something like that for me. I mean, I simpy wished and wished and prayed that I could give a good delivery of my speech, even after pacing around the school at 7 in the morning everyday just practicing it, plus recess, sometimes, too.

Unfortunately, effort doesn't mean reward. Perhaps reward lies in ability. Even after changing and beta reading my speech for about 7 times, maybe it doesn't matter, because it's all about ability. There people who probably settle with their second draft or third one, and scored well. They have gone appreciated. I clearly haven't. I'm trying really hard for Chinese, but I simply can't remember things well. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough, but I like to wonder why sometimes people can achieve great things by only giving their 50%. I wish I could do that.

Maybe I have. In previous years. Did I really give it a lot of effort in my maths? I don't know. But this year I'm beginning to see that effort goes unnoticed. Rather often. I am absolutely obsessed with my passion. Maybe I lacked in ability to show that. I wish they didn't record the whole thing down. I can't get over it. I should have put in more effort, even if it still goes unnoticed. I wonder how many people are actually obesessed with their passion in class. Isn't that supposed to be a passion? I see a problem with myself though. Despite the obsession, I haven't gotten my Passionata ready. Why? I don't know.

It sems like I don't know a lot of things.

Isn't everyone the same?

Conspiracy

Hahahaha... I didn't know there was so much conspiracy going on. I knew that amah had something up, but I didn't know that even Strife and Clorith had been bothered. O_o ... what have I been missing out?

LOL...Chocolate buffet at Fullerton on Cosfest? I think I will consider that... but I probably won't be eating too much. XD I want to see Strife in AC costume eating choclates!! XDXD

I didn't present my speech yet! I highly doubt that I will have time to practice my speech over this weekend. It's been a long week of bad luck as lots of work, but I think it's alright today. ^_^ May tommorrow be even better!

Oreo cheesecake... wow, who ever ate that before? eh... not me. I've really been living under a rock. Yup, sometimes I'm like that... but sometimes not. =D

Happy Birthday to me. Yay, I'm one year older now! >_< LOL, I'm kinda touched that someone actually made a birthday thread for me. Thanks spice! ^^

~need to complete:
> Physics SIA
> Maths assignments 1 & 2
> Chinese poems
> Chinese Assignment(writing)
> Chemistry 5.1
> EL File cover
> SS SIA
> more.. I shall not continue in case it frightens me....actually, it already has. =_=