Oh no...

Curses. I should just find a nice place to scream right now.

Everything's going wrong. It may have something to do with my computer, because I ran this unknown file yesterday that I greatly suspect that was a hacking program. O_o And then there's still homework and NYAA and the case of the missing Biology Practical WS. Not forgetting SIAs too... Chemistry Journal is due next week, which is tommorrow. WTF?

I'm going wrong as well, because I don't seem to be able to stop myself from getting distracted and then I feel so bad about that... Blogger's acting up as well, though I really hope it's blogger and not my computer. This is the second time I'm typing this entry... thanks to blogger and me not remembering to copy everything I've typed just in case something like that happens.

Wow. I haven't typed this fast in ages. I wonder what's up with me and everything today...

Koneko... =^-^=

It's going to rain.

And I haven't done my homework... erm... not really.

And everyone's gone!

I really wonder where's everybody... and what they've been doing. O_o

This term's basketball for PE. Balls have the tendency to huggle me when they see me. Ouch.

Obviously, my brain is suffering some sort of damage right now. And I don't feel quite happy about life right now. I'm alright now, but I was downright pissed with most people in NY and Singapore and the whole wide world a couple of days ago. People don't see. They just don't. Sometimes they don't feel either. It makes me angry.

'sides that, I think I'm developing this self-loathing attitude. Okay, so I'm not only pissed with other people, I'm also pissed with myself.

Aha.

Cloud's beginning to influence me. >_<

Nobody remembers, and nobody cares.

Untitled

My brain has decided to take a short vacation, thus explaning the absence of thinking currently. If you wish to contact it, please try sending your messages to The Brain's House. Thank you for listening.

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Okay okay... the brain has decided to work... >_< start of school is never good. Too many things to worry about all over again. Besides, the term's progress report is coming out soon. Sheesh! Don't want to see those red marks.. -__-

Speech! Help!! I really hope i can get through this whole speech thing without being overly embarrassed. :S nonono... certainly not a good idea. Either that, or give me more time to rant off topic for my speech so as to convince other people that i'm totally off my rockers. Or that my brain isn't home, which is currently true. Yeah... speech.

lol... a new term starts. Wish me luck.

Today...

discovery.

found a another Singaporean ff7 fanfiction writer! magnum opus...She's a future teacher... LJ account here She was on attachment to a secondary school from sometime in January to Feb, before CNY, which makes me think of Miss Wong... for some strange reason. ^^; hehehe... okay okay.

hmm...never knew that a lot of teachers in this generation are anime/video game freaks. (initial reaction: Huh? Really??!![/disbelief] Uh-oh.. what if someone sees through my fangilism in school... or Jason really knows about AC...) but I don't think I belong there. For one, dun like teaching. Erm that's not right, I like to teach. I just don't like the students. Students don't like me for some strange reason... Need something that can give me a higher level of being a freak. XD

Yup.. realised that LJ is really interesting... maybe should switch or something... LOL. LJ communities! ^^ *wants to join* woot.

Basically nothing much at all, but please do a good deed and give cloud a hug! *points at sidebar* Give the guy a hug, won't you? ;)

Track My Progress

Ha.

Went out today, for almost the entire day. So... naturally, not a lot of work done. Done with my speech, or more or less so, since it surely isn't within the time limit. (exceeding time limit)Who was the person who decided on 2 minutes speech anyway?! Is there any chance to lengthen it to 3 minutes instead? =_=

PDD==> no progress. Safe to say no progress for most people too... since they also don't really have an idea what they're supposed to do. hehehe... says something about teacher's expectations, huh?

No bro at home for an entire week! >_< miss him... sorta. He used to be away from home for nine months or so at a time, but ever since he came back i got accustomed to him being around... got to get used to the emptiness now.

Speaking of emptiness, where has everyone gone to? It seems like the whole world has something important to do that i really have no idea about. I seem to be the only person left on MSN these few days, and my forum is really void of people, and even ACF is having lesser posts nowadays. Everyone has felt that "slow down". Hope it means that some big news is going to be released soon! ^^ *coughACreleasedatecough*

yea...right. XD well, one can still hope. We all know it's near...^^

Yawn

It's hard not to get distracted. *sigh* i've been doing my PDD and speech today, but i have yet to finish either of them. -__- *sad* i'm about 60% done with the PDD (essays..sigh), while i've finished the Plan for the speech, just not down to the writing part yet.

ACF has been really quiet lately, no wonder some people have been trying to lighten up the mood and try to bring more action... lol...even the spam forum is dying. How can that be?!

More aims for the next day:
~finish the speech!
~really get the PDD done, otherwise
~do SIAs
~especially CME and Chinese.

yup.

Guilty By Design

title of this post? A phrase that has seemed to have caught my attention today. erm no, yesterday. The yesterday that was only 10 minutes ago. Yup, that yesterday.

I have to get down to really do my homework and stop being so addicted to the net already. >_< argh... slacker syndrome. Problem.

I'm trying to do my PDD right now, but the essay seems to be failing miserably. Even the short 300-word-at-most one. I wrote most of the things I thought I should incude, but even that has earned me only about less than a hundred words. Added in some quotes, and it became more than 100 words. I still don't think my answer is dealing with the question.... which comes to the real problem. I don't understand the question at hand! Frustration at 6 minutes past midnight. Yup, real sad.

SPECS SLIM? hmm... never heard of that during lessons before. Went to check it out and it turned out to be a loooong analysis for texts. Must try to finish it by tommorrow(eh? no, I mean today)! Plus that speech that had not been bothering me until I decided to read the rubrics for grading and the components in a speech. Who ever knew that a speech contains so much? Not to mention ours is supposed to last not longer than 2 minutes. 2 minutes speech. Sounded easy at first, but now no. -__- *sigh*

Ganbatte!! Get PDD and Speech done by end of today! That sounds weird, considering the fact that I'm going to sleep really soon.

~~~still yet to get that three words (look at title) out of my head. They seem rather appealing... in a sense...hahaha... the next thing you know, I'll be renaming my blog... let's just see what happens. XD

What Do You Know

baack.... from that wittle island out there near Changi.

OBS turned out to be fun and more slack then what i first thought it would be. >_< Must be our watch... so lazy to do everything. No sense of urgency.... and almost all NY girls are like that. :P

Five days of activities, and a lot of typing to do. >_<

Day one-
Took about half a day to get to pulau ubin... afterwards it took another aeon before we got to know our watches. I was overjoyed when er zi and lao ba happened to be in my watch. ^^ got introduced to our instructor later on -Gideon, where are you?- took a watch photo and got used to the place a bit. Cleared out the store, learnt to pitch a tent and then went to learn capsizing. Capsizing! i sure didn't look forward to that. Strangely enough, because i didn't look forward to capsizing, i volunteered to be the first pair (with lao ba) to capsize. Irony...

Almost died crashing into the rocks because ZZ and Shermaine disappeared when they were supposed to recue us after we capsized... lesson one: never rely on ZZ and Shermaine to rescue you! >_<

Had an outdoor dinner that evening.... hmm... and that's about all i remember.

Oh, and there were freaky noises in the middle of the night when we were sleeping in the tent...

Day two-
started with little activities like the one with the log and trust fall... later we hiked to the second campsite which was this very very deserted place with no toilets! >_< And wild animals. That stole some things and messed up our camp. Thank goodness i didn't lose anything. Built a raft. It sank later in the quarry. Went into the quarry on pretense to test out the raft, came out to carry the raft parts back to the shed, went back into the quarry. Bathed in the quarry. Everyone did that. I seriously don't think the water is clean water anymore... XD

had a -rather- good dinner under the stars, though we had a lack of flashlights, and thus could not see our food properly, attended briefing for the sea expedition the next day. didn't understand the route because i) not enough light ii)instructor was blocking the map anyway. Cleared up a bit, and i left the mess tin outside the tent on a piece of rock. >_< lol... forgot about it until the next day.

what else... mm... attended a couple of mass peeing sessions. Don't want to try that ever again... -__-

Day three-
Sea expedition. Kayaked for about five hours, was dead tired after that. I don't know how some other watches managed to kayak 9 friggin hours. We took the route cutting through the island, and at first they said that our route is harder because we have to travel through the swamp. eww...swamp. Thankfully, we were punctual and only kayaked through the river at high tide. I didn't need to get out until we reached the road, where we had to carry our kayaks over the road. How i wished the store there was open! It said cold drinks for sale! T_T I was glad later that i conserved my energy at the begining of the expedition kayaking slowly through the river. I really need those saved energy later when we were out in the open sea.... er... not very open sea, since bother sides were islands, but spaced rather far apart. Kayaking isn't supposed to be very tiring if you kayak for a while, because you're supposed to rely on your waist strength. However, later on, even your waist strength gets used up. LOL... XD

haiz. Kayaking=fun! but then don't like the waves....and they don't like us either. They love to go against us! >_< And we rebel as well.. haiya!

day three was the day where we packed our things again and hiked a shorter distance to the third camp. The Resi camp! *glomps the camp, i don't know how* They had Cold Drinks there!! *gulps down cold drinks* but then by dinner time there, i had started to feel more than a little dizzy... *sees stars* almost fainted.... X/ but i was alright after that. The cold drinks must have helped. ^^

Had solo night walk later on... it was real good. There is absolutely nothing scary about it, save for the construction site. >_< Construction sites are scary even when it's not dark. The distance to walk was really short, and intervals were rather frequent and you would usually find that you'll catch up with the person in front of you, or the person after you will catch up to you. That destroyed part of the "niceness" of the solo night walk. I hoped that they would ask us to stay by ourselves for like 10 minutes or so, and enjoy the sounds of the night. ^^ Of course that didn't happen. I was disappointed that nobody seemed to take the night walk seriouly. Very few people seemed to have really thought through the things they've been through, the meaning of everything, when they had the chance to be really alone in the dark woth nothing much distracting them. The moment they saw their friends, they just started talking. Where was the time for real reflection? People need to learn.

Slept in the tent again, (hey it's the resi camp and we still have to sleep in the tents?! Oh well, not as if i didn't expect it.)

Pretty good day with fine weather. :P

Day four-
Had a good half a day (good food is what matters!) where we did more high element types of activities. Rock wall experience was good, and i don't want to remember what it felt like on those darn-shaky-single-logs-that-did-not-have-anything-else-other-that-itself-for-me-to-grab-onto-to-steady-myself. And we weren't supposed to hold on to the wires?! humph. And someone blast gideon for crashing into the already-not-stable-at-all structure when i was i-don't-know-how-many-metres-high-up-in-the-air-and refusing-to-budge-an-inch-more-because-i-was-damned-friggin-scared! Now i know what i hate. I hate things that are really really REALLY shaky. Nope, i'm not afraid of heights, thank you very much, but i'm afraid of that thing moving! Understand? Good.

Hiked back to the first camp, and everyone sort of gotten a bit blue. >_< had to start packing up because we were leaving the next day. *sob* ZZ infected some of us to start singing An Jing during dinner, i'm not sure why, and we infected the other watch to sing along with us. Why did we sing a sad song when we shouldn't be feeling so sad? We should at least try to be happy right? So sad...

nevermind. Quote BiQi:

"Rubby rubby, rubby rubby, rub, rub, rub!"

XD

Day five-
Simple. Washed the tents, packed everything neatly, and got prepared to leave for home. -__- started really to miss that place. *sniffles* we hanged around with our instructor for a bit and had a small sharing session as well as a signing-in-Gideon's-scrapbook-session. Another sad day... I miss camp! Was rather awake during the ferry trip and bus ride back. Was still rather awake when i reached home and ate lunch and unpacked a little. Watched FMA episode #3. Thought it was nice. Laid down on the sofa to rest a while. Ended up sleeping all the way until past 9 pm. Refused to eat dinner, waddled my way to my bed, plonked down and slept until about 11am the next day. O_o wow... i slept for about two-thirds of the day away... and i didn't even send my brother off for his three-week trip to Thailand for the Army at the airport! :'(

It'll be another three weeks then.

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Sunday 13 March.

--> Anime @ ACM!! ^^ i saw a tablet! A tablet!! want want want want!! But will never get. Ah.... i shall just stick to asking for a scanner then. scanner! scanner! scanner!

Rika sings very well! wah... Pro!! you know a pro when you see one!

Manda also another pro! i'm just surprised that she didn't know her works got exhibited... LOL... seems like we know more than she does. XD

and i shall remember to steal the mags from melesa....

buried...

>__< so busy nowadays, i haven't got a real good time to sit down and read fanfiction!! -__- blame it on my re-addicting to FF.net . Now i keep thinking about fanfiction... lol... and of course, i cannot neglect ACF! (which i have these past few days...)

erm. lemme see..... what do i have to do?

immediately: Bio prac

hols and long-term: piano hw, EL, PDD, all SIAs

hmm... short list but lots of stuff to do... -_-

Anime @ ACM next week, still have to confirm meeting times...

Oh BTW, It's really really cool listening to AC with surround sound type of thing. Went to MMM (megamultimedia) today and the moment i stepped in i thought i heard a very familiar voice saying a very familiar line.

Kadaj!!

Aww.... it's was that past in the trailer where Cloud fell off Fenrir and Kadaj was walking around him and calling him a traitor in front of all the children. ><
what's wrong with kadaj?! Cloud's a nice guy! *biasbiasbias*

what else? oh... still got packing to do... have to pack (and perhaps label) my things tmr! got to get ready for OBS!

need to jiayou for OBS!!! ...mobile..mobile..mobile....omg.

*will be missing for approx 5 days* XD