Omerta

i cant ask the questions i want to ask
a blank wall
a dead end
unsure
hesitant
undecided

i cant do the things i want to do
i shouldnt..cant..

too frightened
too filled with fear
what may happen
what may not
sigh

its almost the end of the first week of sch
and surprise surprise!
im screwing my sch work ALL up
big surprise huh
lots of crap has happened
and with less and less debate there really isnt much point in going to sch
i remember last term
every single boring second
or agonising lesson was spent browsing thorugh scoresheets
formulating jg cases
thinking abt strategies..
now..
blank
dead end
like that other thing in my life

3c 3s and a little bs on the side
its time to take back whats rightfully ours
you and i both
time to claim that victory
plant that flag
and dash across the white line
for the grandslam
remember the face of defeat
and never face it again.
God willing.

take a little ride on the yellow submarine
take a little turn into the abyss
fall a bit
crumble a bit
then sink sink sink



Jhamat Sometimes

posted by S @ Thursday, June 30, 2005 0 comments

soon everything that meant so much to me
will cease to become anything but a memory
but i dont want you to pass into that oblivion
between the lands of the living and the dead
flitting in between dreams and reality
please stay
in a place where i hold you so dear
please dont pass into memory
like so many before.

and so school begins
hcs coming up
projects to hand up
assignments to complete
overdue hw to scramble through
yep
sounds like school again

my most serene moments
nus
- at the law library, engaged in deep thought about law. oblivious to everything.
- at the chairs downstairs, reflecting.
- at the chairs next to the deans office, dreaming.
acsi
- late nights after duties or at slack camps, sitting at the space frame
- outside 3.15 after exams
-alone at the db8 room b4 FOA mcing
home
- on my bed, listening to frank
- outside on the chair, playing a slow sad spanish tune
- downstairs next to the TT table.
nz
- walking through the forest path
sentosa
- taking a ride on the monorail
- sitting on the beach waiting for them
the esplanade
- early in the morning with the meanie and terence
- late at night when things slow down
the ACM
- alone.

my most serene moments
may we all have peace.

different
or not?
i wish..i knew more..
i wish..i was more familiar
but what are wishes
but hopes of the foolish?





al hafla-the party

posted by S @ Monday, June 27, 2005 0 comments

ITS OVERRR
WOOHOO
OVERRRR
june act 2005
is
finally
over.
yepp
its been a crazy 6months..
or should i say 1..heh
it wasnt that much of a success
some of the games were a drag
but yeah
i guess overall it was fine!

and as usual when things go right...thanks are in order!!

SEBnPAUL- thanks SO MUCH guys. you people took over when we were overseas and really buffed up an understaffed committee! NOTHING could have happened without your help!

arnav and quek- cheers! its been a longgg way, one more to go and we'll be freeeee!

jin, wesley, chen ming, paul, nataniel, dhanesh, adriel, yeang, szu, hadi- thanks so much for helping out with all the menial, random and boring stuff today! tying strings...colouring transparencies....pasting pink stuff on mirrors! thanks guys!

council and s4s- for helping!

yep, hope i mentioned everyone here!

ahhh..such blessing indeed

oh well

posted by S @ Friday, June 24, 2005 0 comments

ka-ching
ka-ching
+2
undeservedly?
perhaps

welll hello hello
its been quite an awfully long time since i updated
bout a week or so
yep
church camp
rmun
*cough
june act
*cough
blood and thunder its been an awfully good wk 2 and wk 3
heh

church camp
truly
the only meaning to life is death
and vice versa
sometimes
i wonder
i just wonder
will it end?
can i bear it?
i need a change
something different
something new
a sentosa of another sort

then theres rmun
best delegate
best diplomat
two honourable mentions
kickass gi joe performance
stupid indian messages
and...
YO CUP NIGGA! YO CUP!!
hahaha
thanks guys

first of all the bfg hoe
- for mentoring me, for giving me the rundown on stuff, for giving me the opportunity to take the floor and whack! thanks so much...that glass thing i have truly belongs more to you than me.

the indian
- ruin the USA's clean name will you! DIE! haha, thanks for everything dude! wldnt have been half as fun without you!

prawwwn
- thanks for loaning your house..warhammer..y the last man...haha, the list goes on! looking forward to your return...and THE RETURN OF THE SAMS

augggg
- howdie cowboy! thanks are as usual! haha, super flirt powers eh!

tian en, justin, the craw, mcclure
- thanks for the support dudes! AMENDMENTS!!

the other ac chaps
-thanks for making this journey complete!

the delegation from the UK!
- alessa and val..was great fun working with you two! thanks for everything!

the delegation from TANZANIA
- heh..nuff said

the delegation from russia
- (thanks in russian) to natasha and partner!

the delegation from india!
- grats guys, you two were feaarsome opponents. blood and thunder, i still have no idea how you guys swing things so fast! twas amazing skill indeed! *salutes

sith master
- for the advice offered

mr tan
- though you of all people will probably never read this, thanks for giving me the chance!

and yes
that was it
awfully fun
i wld do it again
anytime
;)
with everything
yes
inlcuding
the fertiliser from SIAM
haha
ok
im being mean
but yes
twas irritating indeed


it was great
every moment of it
and yeah
i still dont know if youll like it..
ah well




please help me stop wasting my own time!

posted by S @ Saturday, June 18, 2005 0 comments

on behalf of.



church camp.
june 8-11th
undoubtedly the highlight of june
save for RMUN,MONOPOLY ETC.
which means its not much of a highlight.
but no matter.

inevitably,
reflecting on this years camp,
summons recollections of yesteryears..
and placed in juxtaposition bring up
a host of differences.

yet.
the company i was in remains..
and so have joys and the pains.

well.
go-kart.
kayaking.
bridge.
cluedo.
taboo.
table tennis
squash.
rugby.
tennis.
futsal.
and adriels bed.


certainly.
the resort itself fell short of even
my lowest expectations..
but i was able to derive some fun,
and PLEASURABLE MEMORIES EVEN,
thanks to the fantabulous company i was in.

no thanks of cos,
to the food, which brought to mind
my stint in CHINA,
and DUH.
i fell pray to another bout of stomach flu
AND
it did not help that our toilets decided to revolt
SIMULTANEOUSLY.
and FLOOD WHENEVER FLUSHED.
a pity,
we did not think to use ARAMIS brand toilet bowls.

thank god too,
i had the presence of mind,
to avoid the go-kart course.
a miasma of catastrophe it was.
and i have no regrets keeping a distace,
at which i was nonetheless, repeatedly endangered


SHAME! SHAME!


in contrast to last year,
meetings were attended punctually,
and we actually awoke in the MORNING.
discipline.
benefits of living with my parents.

ZIP! ZIP ! ZIP!

*"sam are you being rude to ur parents?"



"yes."






bridge.
ALTERNATIVE MEANS OF COMMUNICATION
during bridge games.
these do not include names of the all blacks team.
keven.~
and for all airheads,
names of ur favourite snacks are prohibited.
OREO!

in addition,
BLUFF.
is a card game, where lying is the norm,
but cheating to such a mammoth extent
defeats the purpose of the game.
these include,
*using johns laptop of record rivals hands,
*stuffing cards into the seats.
*conveniently placing ur last card in the deck
*using cameras to video the cards in question.
*(pertaining exclusively to myself,) PLACING MORE THEN THE STATED NUMBER
OF CARDS INTO THE DECK.


all these,
debate was not forgotten.
me and josh had spar too =)
CENSOR LADEN?
legalization of soft drugs?

*SIDE NOTE.
thankew to mikey,
for the video cam!
OOOH THE MEMORIES.



quite a fair number of lines we have coined too..
tho not original, now will be monumental.

" THE BLAZER!"


"ITS THE SMELL!"

"i'm bored. lets rape adriel"

"to adriel's bed"

and a personal favourite,

"JOHNS A FRUIT!"

"blood and thunder"


i have also realised,
a strange affinity i have with a certain BED.
when sweaty or STICKY or DIRTY,
it is my PLEASURE, to wipe this GRIME,
onto this CERTAIN BED.
of cos.
the irony , is that it isn't MY BED.
so.
blood and thunder upon the occupant,
whomso reposes upon IT.


COUGH aramis COUGH




but still.
when i'm down to one last breath,
i WILL look back on these times.
when downtrodden and up to my knees in shit..
I WILL LOOK BACK
against rain and storm,
despite trials of all forms..
WHEN I'M ON THE BRINK OF DELIVERANCE..
i will look back .
and i will sae,
"those were good times."

good times indeed.


*josh,adrielaramis,jacob,fruit.gale,meimei,tays,etcetc.
thankew.

had an interesting convo one of the nites.
third i believe.
5 people i will meet in heaven.
if it was so, and assuming it was.
WOULD I MEET YOU?

STILL.
a welcome break,
and a happy interval,
before i turn once again to my hectic schedule,
ex.
the politiking,backstabing,and bitching in R * mun

but a schedule i nonethelss enjoy.

*side note.
adriel reads more than john.
why?
cos he reads comics.
and dosent a picture tell a thousand words?
john dosent read comics.
which we of cos hence conclude,
that johns motion of " i read more than adriel"
MUST FALL FLAT ON ITS FACE.



SAM.




compiled and composed
by adriel.
no offence.

posted by S @ Wednesday, June 15, 2005 0 comments

today was a fun,activity-filled day.
was at somewhere at 8 this morning
for lee meys birthday party.

aft that,
went for vickys birthday party.
in her preeety house.
made a bet with hiu tung for 100 bucks,
that i cld get across the pool on that chair

was halfway across the pool when i mistakenly
believed that i had made it.
in a fit of elation, i raised my hand in joyful jubilance
AND PROMPTLY FELL IN.
so there goes my 100 bucks.
owell.

met mikey,alessa,valgoh,michsham,
john auggie and sommore i cant rmb.

wanted to go to town to meet christine
to watch a movie
but arriving there, we discovered that she had left
hence, we trooped back to my residence,
where we then engaged in sweaty,exhausting
rounds and rounds of...
monopoly.

on my team:
me.
mikey
AL.
shuan.

on the opposition:
kal
john
valerie
SHAM.

johns team went bankrupt
and BLAME JOHN FOR THAT.


i was staring at..
no not her..
but my $$$$$
500 imperial credits.


oh dang it my computer is not fixed
still.
it is SCREWED I TELL U.
and hence i cant play those games.
i so love to play.
owell.
it is FATE.

no matter.
i content myself,
doing pushups on the floor.
adrenaline rush.

adriel is over at my house.
imagine me being stuck in the car
with aramis for 5 hrs tmr kills me alr.
adriel rocks.


* i like to eat tissue paper.

i had heveanly roast adriel
for dinner, boiled in hot oil
and served in salad.



to anonymous
how many times must i state
that such cowardly comments
will NOT be dignified with in-depth reparte
i do not see the need to entertain such comments
nor to justify myself.
but if thou posses within thee,
a minute quantity of guts,
i CHALLENGE you.
to come up with a logical accusation,
based on grounds OTHER than your perceived
understanding of how i work, or behave.
and when you do so,
i will deem it fit to respond with my reasons and rebuttal.
till then, i suggest you keep your slimy little comments
to yourself, or i will sue your pants off.


hello
this is the real sam speaking
should have been rather obvious
yes
well
was fun today
surprised fairy at vickys house
and i lost a hundred bucks and drenched
my fathers pink shirt
pride comes before a fall
truly
haha
yeah
lunched with the guys
the ij girls came down later
mll christine deserted us
so we monopolised for 5 hrs
with the dark side
mich chang, sean tan, alessa pang and myself
truimphing over the light side
cow, val, the sham and poor john
well
cow begged for charity
and sham
well
sham was sham.
thanks for the game guys

anyway
to our mysterious anonymous chap!
adriel has done a rather good job
surprisingly
buuut
thats not how i would reply
:)
haha
he's right
im not going to reply in depth
buut
thats cos im too tired
just curious though..what was your purpose in doing that?
Infuriate me?
Get attention?
haha
if so
you've failed!
its rather hard to get me really angry
last time was jay
and that was for 5s
now the LAST TIME
i got angry
i thrashed the house
ah yes
was rather..
uplifting
broke the fan
the drawers
a bit of the hinge
ahh yes
anyway
ill leave you with this anonymous
shakespeares romeo and juliet
" Do you bite your thumb at me sir?
Do you quarrel sir?
Because if you do sir
i serve as good a man as you sir"
thou wouldst be safer confronting me with sword unsheathed
than pen in hand
or better yet
with the spoken word.
ah
i truly relish a challenge
salut anonymous
do come again
life is ever so boring..
without challenges like these
though..it isnt really a challenge..
the gauntlet is on the floor
pick it up if thou wilt





i did get something, twas not that

posted by S @ Monday, June 06, 2005 0 comments

so im home
in new zealand
i visited edoras, the capital of rohan
i ate lots of lamb, beef, mussels
i watched three full matches of rugby(and bits and pieces on the side)
i became a crusaders fan
i jumped out of a plane at 3658m
i slept for 12 hours every day
i walked against 60kmh winds
i endured -22 degrees with two layers of clothing
i found out about all black legends
and i grudgingly admit
it was fun.

twas great playing again..
all over again
i miss the game
i really do
ive missed out on so much in life
its almost not worth it
almost ;)

i believe in the red blue and gold
i believe in the legacy of 119 years
i believe in the flag that rallies a people
i believe in a team, not of 5, but of hundreds
i believe impossible is nothing
the best is yet to be



L17W1-2 you

posted by S @ Sunday, June 05, 2005 0 comments