Omerta

you knave
mangy cur
foul creature
daring to step so near to the sacred place
away with you
disgusting beast
to have hoped to even try!
to have dared to ask permission from the guardians
foolish thing
do you not know you will NEVER
be granted your wish?
away with you
*smacks dwarf with the flat of sword*

o tempora o mores
kill me now.
*dwarf trundles away*

yes
its china redux for me
stomach flu back again
and its back to plain pasta
oat sqaures
and cracker biscuits
bleh
heh
jg week
its gonna be an exciting friday!
for the first time..no stress!
;)
thanks anyway

oh
did i mention?
audrey hepburn is
the prettiest movie
start
i've ever
seen

it was funny that day
how the french screwed themselves up for nothing
can u imagine
they were so close to the try line
so close!
and a knock on cost them the try
sigh
a simple knock on
poor technique
poor training
a loust attempt by all standards


funny face

posted by S @ Monday, March 28, 2005 0 comments

..
i really wish
for my little dreams to come true
i really wish for a repeat of that day
such
bliss.
yet
i falter
in my steps
as logic and cyncism come creeping in
whispering first
then shouting
drowning out my heart
which path to choose?



prof higgins

posted by S @ Saturday, March 26, 2005 0 comments

i shant gush
i guess
its kinda weird
and
yeah
but
grief
you
are
amazing
im still reeling
in shock
that i actually know you
appearance
attitude
conversation
absolutely amazing
and here's where the logic machine clicks in
what about chracter?
do i really
know
you?
no.
i don't
which
leads me to the next logical conclusion
its fake.
all fake
all artificial
all but fleeting.
curses
for once
i'd like it to last
just once
you know hows it like?
to hear an instruction
you know you ought to follow
for your own good
yet
not everything you
WANT to do
is for the best
desire vs sense
who will emerge victorious?
i pray its desire
yet i know
it has to be sense
how queer.

on a side note
i think its preposterous
that teachers in some schools
read blogs
and summarily scold or punish their students for what they write on it
how can there not be a dichotomy between school and personal life?
is there no distinction?
im all for teachers acting as mentors and advisors
and its not wrong for a teachers perception of a student
to change after reading some vulgar or candid language posted on his/her students blog
but to rebuke?
worse still
to punish?
thats just plain silly
its almost tantamount to a teacher punishing
a student because said the f word at home.
for heavens sakes
stop interfering!
and those poor students out there..
dont censor yourselves
your teachers have no right!
grief.

posted by S @ Sunday, March 20, 2005 0 comments

its been a great holiday so far
hmm
lets see

monday
prefect camp talk
i realised how indoctrinated ive become
how used to regulation
its impossible to get it out of my system now
hm
so probably wont quit then
it would be too
queer
yep
slept a bit
hiew came over
and
space debates!
haha
nyjc
spoke out of position
was alright i guess
anyway
went out for dinner after that
hm
yeah
was..fun..

tuesday
training
a real slack one might i add
hm
returned home..
slept for about 4 hours
yeah
woke up to watch teen titans
and justice league
stoned around till 2am

wednesday
worked a bit in the morning
went to samy's curry
burnt my tongue out again
im sure the patrons of the shop
will distinctly remember
a young chap
dressed in an all black shirt
sucking an ice cube too big for his mouth
gasping
and hopping around like a grasshopper on drugs
anyway
went to sentosa after that
was incredible fun that was
sham is random
really random
rallied up with hiew
at dhoby gaut
caught the lemony snicket thing
rather good
but..somewhat lacking plotwise
then again
the book wasnt much to begin with
but yeah
ate a whole lot at pizza hut
ahem
played uncle.
haha
quite a fulfilling day
quite

today
spar with sngs
arigato!
haha
weilin and rebecca as jap as always
went down to guthrie house
with weilin and aug
caught a bite
hiu tung joined us
studied
*cough*
yep
studied
very fruitful i must add

yeah
its been
an interesing holiday
pondering...
issues
cogitating as druggie would say
to be or not to be
thats always the question isnt it?
such proximity has brought..
a certain sensation
a quick beat of heart
your smile
your charm
your laugh
simply perfect
flawless in every aspect
in any angle
at any time
thats what worries me.
too familiar these symptoms are
symptoms of passing emotion
of youthful fallacy
in other words
of something shallow
nothing deep
and that hurts more than anything else
knowing full well
that what we might be able to share
is something so fleeting
so senseless
its better off not going there at all
of course
my argument is based on an underlying assumption
a
presumption perhaps
presumption built upon
words
buit upon
daydreams
and those at night as well
to be honest
it is logic and knowledge that hurt the most
the common sense
that instructs me to contradict my heart
that commands me to obey my mind and not my senses
its a pity
i guess
sigh
a no?
probably.


esh
verbal garbage that
anyway
salaam




akhbar

posted by S @ Thursday, March 17, 2005 0 comments

morning everyone!
ive just wasted this entire day!
haha
yeah
butt
its been
say
rather fulfiling?
yeah
yatta and all
good movie back at night and
yeah
i guess...this is day 4 of relaxing!
but
say
lets just leave one more day tomorrow ;)
haha
strangely enough
i feel totally awake now
totally on
hm
right..lets see...8 hours of sleep
if i sleep at 3..
ill wake up at 11...rush down to sentosa maybe?
haha
perhaps
like aramis said
its all a dream
all life is a dream eh..
yeah
well
i guess id better make good use of this strange working bug
off to chinese then
huzzah!



kaupane

posted by S @ Wednesday, March 16, 2005 0 comments

to infinity and beyond! mobils turned aviators.ironically one day before space debates. on the 'Fairchild's 5th flight (it crashed the first four) it did a barrel roll, sailed across the goalposts crossbar, picked up the speed, went up to about 35 metres height 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

et go home 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

athos, porthos, blank space for aramis, king louis, d'artagnan 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

ze gang 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

flight 450 preparing for take off 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

i wonder what he's doing up there.. 

posted by S @ Sunday, March 13, 2005 0 comments

sebastian koh
well
how to start describing sebastian?
haha
perhaps his own words at the end year camp
would be best
"hi, im seb. im Da*n fast."
haha
x cntry runner
runs a 2.4 k like he took a morning stroll
one of our set prefects for the top dogg position
popular with the girls
(especially that rv girl? michelle is it? dang..)
haha
did i mention he' gay?
anyway
thought a little introduction would be good
cos im quoting

when there's this expectancy of you to do it. to win something. to bring home the title.don't you think as the defending champion. as the rightful owner... you should fight for your property. fight for it with all your energy. fight for it with all your heart and soul. fight for it with all your life and all you are worth.. for it's yours and rightfully yours. do not let others take away from you what they do not own. guard your property jealously... it's your. remember they are stealing it away from you. and that's evil.so when you think about those evil infidels attempting to snatch what is yours, always remember that you have what is rightfully yours and fight for it with your dear life.
Nothing is over until you have said it is





thanks seb

posted by S @ Saturday, March 12, 2005 0 comments

right
i keep trying to delete the previous entry
but anyway
i think its a misrep on my part
was feeling really angry at that point of time
so i guess seeing some hints of an insult just took me over the edge
probably didnt mean it the way i interpreted it
yep
so i retract my entire last entry
:)

crack
we broke today
first time we got a split
and it went to us
whew
really God blessed
could have gone to UWC...really could
sigh
just so much to thank Him for..
yet..i repay so little to him..
i must start paying it back...
its only right
anyway
thanks jack!
-couldnt have done it without you!
thanks seniors!
-thanks for coming down to spar us AND watching us even after the cruise!
thanks club members/juniors!
- yep, thanks for support guys!
thanks michy, alessa, valeria, michelle, terence, weilin, rebecca, vicky, christine, lee mey, yk and co
-thanks for coming down! haha..dont know if ALL of you were supporting us ;) but thanks anyway
thanks mike, adi, josh
-superb chairing as usual mike. haha..thanks alot!
boom
so we;re through
to the quarts
whew
can we make it?
let time decide.



praises

posted by S @ Friday, March 11, 2005 0 comments

hyuck
mobils production one
"MILF"
censored.
heh
i thought it was really funny
haha
censored!
hilarious!
honestly..no resentment towards ivan at all
totally could see where he was coming from
but it was hilarious!
censored!
haha
truth be told
the alternate plan
*might
have been better than the original
haha
anyway
rock on success
here's to more brother haikel!

haha
anyway
life has been alright
everythings
as normal
hmm
anything interesting?
cryptic to say..
eh
not really
several questions tho
1. If God is all powerful, can he make a rock that He Himself cannot lift?
-now..somehow there's a circular argument behind this..cant quite see it though
hmm
2. Say you were transported back in time to the early 1920s and you meet adolf hitler, a young hitler who hasnt committed any crime. would you kill him?
haha
i would
anyway
where was i?
oh
well
nothing doing
hm
bother
uwc this fri
sigh
got to make this run count
one last sprint to the try line
yeah.

to samuel loke- JUDITH JUDITH JUDITH JUDITH JUDITH JUDITH







salaam and goodnight

posted by S @ Monday, March 07, 2005 0 comments

gah
gave up writing my silly chem review
realised i jumped tense halfway

to live is to know death
to love is to have known love lost
to laugh is to have cried
our emotions
our very existence
is filled with opposites
extremities
some we'd rather never go to
like being really sad
and of course
everyone wants to say perpetually happy
but
thats life
knowing pain
the sadness
and it makes the joy and happiness all the sweeter really
like i mean
it wld be alot more fulfilling to see a
做得好！
on my chinese essay
than a well done on my lit essay
why?
its because i know how its like to fail a chinese essay
but not an english one
(thoughthat might soon change)
pah
must read more reviews and such
too much past tense in my writing
yeah
anyway
hm
what was i saying?
oh bother
i think ive forgotten
yeah
beleive i have
its awful late
well
not really
just that i havent been sleeping early recently
bah
cerems tomorrow...
mcing..blah blah..
school life's a mess
huzzah for jgs and holidays!




adieu

posted by S @ Thursday, March 03, 2005 0 comments

first and foremost
jg round three
for acs team two
has been
pushed forward
to 11march
next friday
430pm
at acjc
against UWC2
motions are out this fri
whew
we'll be the only a div sch debating next fri..
yeah
and
well
as pathetic as this may sound
PLEASE COME AND SUPPORT
sean
paul
samchan
lloyd
and myself!
its a make or break round
and ya lah..
wld be nice if ppl came i guess
haha

on a more personal note
a personal prayer request if i may
that i may walk with God
the way Samuel in the bible did
that i may follow his commandments
and obey all his instructions
to the letter
that i may not fall prey to temptation
and evil like the sons of Eli
or that i may be inept or afraid
or simply lazy in carrying out my duty
as Eli himself may have been
but that i may respond to the Lords call
that i may go running to his side just as Samuel did
and say
"Here i am Lord"
that i may be upright
righteous
honest
just
fair
in the eyes of those who know me
i know i AM a terrible example
an awful testimony
grades...
language...
behaviour..
attitude...
Lord
help me be like my namesake
help me to be a real

samuel.

posted by S @ Wednesday, March 02, 2005 0 comments

its quite funny
i complain i have no one to complain to
and then i realise that thats my only complaint anyway
haha

the more i think about it
the more improbable it is
its once more
my stark realisation
of what is probably the truth
that hurts the most
the fact that
once again
i fall for something so utterly superficial
its irritating
bothersome really
i know
i need a minder
every single occasion
whereby i
ACTUALLY WORKED
have been occasions where someone was with me
and when there was incentive of course
p6 june hols
my cousin and i..under the strict supervision of my mum
i think i did more that one week than i have ever done or ever will do
in my entire life
p6 pre psle
again
the maternal unit
forcing me to read out my science textbook
marking out my math et al
sec 1..
ok
i didnt study then
sec2 eoys
guthrie house with fairy and hamburger!
haha
and kap with seb, paul, sean, darius, john
haha
where seb and i engaged in our intellectual discussion about
perception!
lol
but yeah!
see!
the 3 instances in my life where i actually worked
all with people!
haha
thats why im on msn so much see
this single child loneliness mentality
but anyway
back to the issue
its pesky
vastly annoying
to know that
waiting is the right thing to do
that the thing you least want to do
is the most logical
sane
beneficial course of action
i know it!
its true! it really is!
and for heavens sake why did it have to be?
sighh
pity pity
pity
truth hurts
huh
hm
so many logical considerations
derived from careful analysis
and all conclusions point
to a big
no
no, it shouldnt happen
cos its not in your best interests
no, it cant even happen
cos its well..
how should i put it?
an unrealistic..assumption
but dang
its so tempting isnt it?
haha
the more i think about it
the more i laugh
i pine for someone to talk to..
if/when that someone does appear..
ill be talking about my want to talk to someone
hmm
talk about no need!
really silly of me..
yeah
guess i shall be like val then huh
attach myself to a book!
hmm..
which?
three books on globalisation?
three on politics?
one on the un?
one on democracy?
one on the mid east?
huntingtons clash of civs?
master of petersburg?
or one of 5 history books?
bah.
i have too many complicated books that are simply beyond understanding
time to hit the basics!
ah well
i guess this interesting little self conversation has
allowed to face up to reality somewhat
yep
and my conclusions?
1.always take your own advice
2.and actually do it
3.hm.

here are some interesting quotes to end off
a rambly nonsensical post

"grr...when you sleep..ill kill you...when you wake up..you'll find yourself dead i tell you!"
- szus at pb camp, who realised the fundamental flaw in that statement a second later
"shall we take cab? or taxi?"
-our dear sam eng, also at pb camp i think. cheering must do strange things to your mind
"10 a1s? woah..thats alot...but wait..isnt that bad? cos he gets 10 points right?"
-justin gunawans absolute lack of comprehension of the o lvl system. thank goodness he's in IB



normative or descriptive

posted by S @ Tuesday, March 01, 2005 0 comments