Omerta: 2003/11

Thursday, November 27, 2003

broken
shattered
this had to happen.
its all me.
if i didnt assume back
there.
if i didnt bring it so far
im sorry
but thats probably no use
destroyed
why me?
not now..
not ever....

just give me a chance

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

she's back
is she?
a swirl of confusion
a precipice of chaos
a dark gate waiting to be opened
i thought i closed that door
ever so long
ago
now it threatens to break apart
at the seams
i closed the door when
what was inside
was pure fantasy
lacking logic
and substance
a fairy tale not come true
is it the same now?
has it changed?
will it change?
is this something more
is this something
greater than i expected?
i dream about it.
the last time that happened was
3 years ago.
that scares me
that i can be so susceptible
so easily assaulted
that 4900N
can be easily reduced to nothing
i feel so strange when im near
i feel so awkward
what to say?
what to do?
i am truly traumatised
haha
retribution?
what a strange way
and shes actually right
or is she?
deeper down the valley
of emotion
holds something unknown to me
and now i travel there
but i am confused by
the darkness
i found something.
but is it what i seek?
yes?
no?
i STILL don't know

whazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzup

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

you know
the all blacks tend to tackle in pairs
so as to ensure tackling efficiency
if a winger comes breaking down the flank
one player will do a makeshift tackle
to slow him down momnetarily
before the other comes in with the
low hard drive
to push the winger back
same in life
we cant tackle problems alone
the most we can do
is take in heads on and slow it down a bit
so
to ensure efficient problem tackling?
get the best tackling partner around
God.

strange analogy came to me as i was
praying during the vbc prayer walk that day
weirdness
i found another bypasser on someone's blog today
left him a challenge as always

ah well

oh dear oh dear.
its 1am
tomorrows theres church
but i gotta get this off my chest
really.
argh
so many things
first
theres them
bleh, how can i talk to one and then the other
and not let the other know the full story afterwards
talk about caught between a rock and a hard place
sheesh
then theres him
here we go again
its gonna be the whole cycle again
i just hope it stops here
if not itll be pri schi redux
and anything but that must happen..
crap
so crapped out now
can someone shoot me?
please?
just wait till after this commercial...
*black humour laughter track comes on*
i die.
i die.
i live?
only if i run away

if i had wings i would fly(away to somewhere else with someone)

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Rugby/Drama/Steaming/Computer Camp rocked

Night One Thursday
Adriel was the first to arrive
followed by john
we spent the night just slacking at my room
and playing a few songs
haha
when john and i hit everyday
adriel started jumping.
my dad joined in.
nuff said.
haha
jacob was feeling
'heady'
so the wachowski brothers came late
real late.
of course
adriel spent his time
with idle, senseless
calls to kristy and caryn
extract."i am a lizard..."
well
i do believe the rest of the night
was spent in utter drugged out-ness
poor aramis knocked out at 4
john and josh fell asleep
at 5
together.
jake and i stayed up till 6.30 fighting the
'big shit'
no, its not what u think
its a game.

Day 1
besides the fact that everyone woke up at 12 plus
it was a nice morning/afternoon
had a combined lunch/breakfast
sat and stoned until 6.15 when we went off
to play...
RUGBY
not water rugby
REAL RUGBY
heh heh.
not surprisingly,
the faster, smaller pair of jacob
and adriel
took control most of the time
with poor coverage of the wings
josh and i gave them too much space
to 'wing it'
it was a constant mistake for poor, slow recycling
on our side
usually due to deep runs from opposite ends
of course
the AC duo, pulled off some magnificent stunts
like the awesome switch
dazzled adriel and jacob by switching the ball
and us
3 times over before josh broke through
the flank
of course, my fake took jacob in
while one of joshua's wide passes led
to another excellent wide line crosser
on the whole though
jake and adriel dominated
with smart play, using adriel
to draw me out
and quick ball recycling helped them alot
jacobs winging runs were too angluar to be stopped
so touch went to the comb sch.
haha
but then we switched to contact..
adriel chickened out
(on the pretext of some injury)
and it was jake vs josh and me
now that wasnt fair
so josh went over
it still wasnt fair
but it was better than nothing
well
heres the record of what we did in contact
1-the Kees Meeuws-definitely the most unstoppable move
this one had me running at full speed with my shoulders lowered
i bashed through jake and landed across the try line!
2- the Keven Mealamu- another forward try, just lowered myself even lower and ran faster. Same result. ho hum.
3- the Joe Rockocoko- ahh, this one was interesting, i ran the flank to meet josh
only to hop like a bunny and do my signature spin round, josh caught my shirt but i still grounded ze ball.
4-the Jonah Lomu-mwahaha, i ran out to the left and suddenly cut in to the right, the brothers were fast enough to catch me, but not to stop me! mwhahaa
5- the Richie Mccaw-the last one...sigh, i jogged up to them, and jake grabbed me round my neck while josh moved in for a low tackle, after three minutes of intense struggle, i was brough to the ground. by some strange chance i got up again, jake pushed me back a good 3 metres in the maul, with josh supporting, we all collapsed in a heap. then josh seized the oppurtunity to dash away with the ball on the wing
cutting his leg on the grass and crushing my nose cartilage in the process..

haha, so maybe that was a big ego, but it was fun'
we came back covered in grass and mud
and cuts. (albeit small cuts)
i got about 26
josh about 30 id say
and jake about 20
adriel got away.

Night 2
again, the night was spent stoning and steaming
nothing too interesting

day3
ahh
we all woke up late
that much i remember
haha, we all rushed to get ready
and scrambled down to sch to get josh and john
after that...
was

FISH
an RGS sec3 gep production
haha, the reason why we went was ivee!
she had a pretty lead role!
haha
ok
taking everythin into consideration
its a 4/5 rating!
haha, so as an amateur armchair critic allow me..

Acting-
5/5
woah cool, all the actors pulled off their roles superbly well
haha, ivee had the easiest time im thinking!
she was acting a role quite alike to her!
haha(he's so sweet, and kind and cute...)
there was this cool gal
she had to act as a guy
real ac quality
she could almost pass off as a real guy!
haha, yes that good!

Ambience/Props/Music
4/5
stage crew was quite professional
pretty good speed
the music coordination was top form though
the music came in at all the right times
hmm, maybe one screw up, but thats all
and thats like real good!
haha, the props were original
and very interesting use of elevated platforms
nice way they 'catwalked' out to bow too!

Plot/Script
3/5
yup
i thought the plot was ok..
as in it wasnt the crazy avant garde type
was just a plain story
keeping it simple i guess
though i personally thought that a singular theme
throughout the story would haf been better
thought some parts of the script got the plot a bit confused
and the characters were very one dimensional...
then again, nothing wrong with that..
haha

ah well
i am le tired
so i will stop here
enjoy

Thursday, November 20, 2003

hearts.hopes.aims.
are they one?
they should be.
united as a family
(we are family...
mother brother sister and me..)
bound as one
so just stand by me.

the haka mentality
the haka
is a maori
dance
involving fierce sharp actions
and loud piercing words
its very mention
stirs fear in the hearts of men
but the haka goes beyond
the ritual itself
it delves deeper into the soul
for it is a mentality
a state of mind
of pure dedicated focus
of unadultered power and ferocity
of intricate complexity and uniqueness
to master the haka
one must first
learn to be the haka
do not say the haka
do not do the haka
be the haka

All Blacks Rule
(wallabies suck)

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

now why did i write that??

in its purest basest form
the human mind is a weak thing
incapable of higher thought
unable to process complexity
disillusioned by emotions
useless in all its purpose
but the heart
how it tears apart
it holds the quintessential
being inside us
it makes or breaks
it can destroy or build
there are many hearts
hard ones
cold ones
passionate ones
vibrant ones
and the heart of worship.

scout orientation camp
scout district camp
debate camp
prefect camp
JYC 2003
what has to be the
greatest
most funtastic camp this year
Junior youth camp 2003
ROCKED
i just cant say how much it just
ROCKED
so lets be all systematic here

Pre camp prep on fri-
turning up at church at 4
i slacked around a bit
and started attaching the nametags
mundane stuff
josh and i got hold of petrina's
minature rugby ball
heh heh
well, after some packing up
it was off for dinner at pizza hut
pretty cool
just ate and chilled out
then i went home
cos i was still sick

Day1- yammers, christians, romans=fun
was at the church gates bright and early at 7am
only to find them locked
in the end i woke everyone up
with disturbing handphone calls
heh heh
dumped my stuff and went to haang
the next few hours involved a whole lot of
equipment carrying and grunt work
so ill skip it.
of course
the novel moment was when we threw
the bloody eyeball at pet
to elicit a loud scream
heh heh
the first of many more to come

the ride to the campsite was lame crap
jake and i did the airline commentary
nonsense
hope you people liked it
haha.
we arrived at the campsite with a bang
the rest was the usual
unloading
unpacking
and lunch
the yammers came
and things began to get interesting
we played a series of competitive station games
the comm sent in a swing team to balance the team
harhar
we won every game
(cept one)
har har

of course
the night games were a blast
the Jesus game
jake, ivee jie, ben the man and me
set a boundary up
of course
raveen joined us midway
and thats when the havoc started
we started it all off,
when jake started sprinting
and raveen and i screamed
"its Jesus, get him!"
of course
the whole lot of goons were completely baffled
in the gloomy night
so a whole lot of ppl started chasing him!
so jake!
in the 2nd round
i reprised jakes role
only i got dragged down by
some enthu camper
only to jack em all!!
mwahahhahah
ok.
im sure the campers
and pretty much everyone
at palawan beach that night
heard a resounding warcry
break the chill of the night?
im sure they were startled
when the fearsome
cries of ancient maori
long gone
echoed through the night
it was the ultimate haka.
no restraints, no recognition
just plain haka.
hoo boy.
of course it was only
"serious constipation"
to uncle sin chee
but nevermind him.

ahh
who can forget the first night
it was a tough night on us guy comm members
what with shaun corrupting all of us
with
"success" jokes
and ben sending us rolling out of
our beds
when he starts to laugh at shauns joke.....
an hour after he told it.

Day2-Amaaazing race
yup
the big day
we all got up early
(fairly early)
set out with nat and shine
we stuffed the ladder into the monorail
and headed for our station
kristy and shaun came to pick me up later
of course
shaun wanted to rent a bike
kristy walked
so...
we ended up grumbling our way back
haha
halfway through kristy began to regret
walking
thankfully
unc anthony pulled over to give us a lift
to our station
so we met up with
ivee jie
and ben tha man
we were basically stoning the whole day
so we went back to camp
finished off lunch
and headed for segment two
BEACH GAMES

we were all reluctant at first
being so tired and all
but soon we were waist deep in the sea
i was determined not to get wet
but it was inevitable
i threw myself in
to prevent the shame of getting thrown in
by the crazy old men(guo liang, justin, john kok)
anyway
it was a crazy blast
just drenching everyone
of course
"mrs hiew'
and company were after my head
but hurrah!
musketeers (cept one...)
to the rescue!
reinforcements drove the scoundrels back
the whole comm just loosened up
after that
just steaming in the water
oh yes
i must mention
if u guys noticed ben lim
the quiet ri swimmer in charge of food
im sure u would have thought
"nice quiet chap
must be shocked to be thrown in
with the likes of shaun, both joshuas etc."
oh how LITTLE u know of him
the transformation mainly took place here
josh , pet and jas were trying to
get adriels pants off
and innocent ben suddenly blurted out
"looks like fun"
and rubbed his hands.
case closed.

COP at night was ground breaking
besides excellent worship
it was a really great first COP
for the CM kids
really woke everyone up

well
later at night
was just chaos
everyone was just goin mad
not that anyone really cared
(except the two AUSTRALIANS)
((hiss..booo))
the comm gathered in the gals room
for some sharing and jokes lah
so while 'mat' men josh and ben
were up to their antics
i upped the scream factor
by creeping above kristy
and freaking her out 3 times
by dangling a name tag on her head
(she thought it was a lizard)
we were soon chased out
so the mat men returned to their korner
soon the guys dorm was turned into
the...
DRUM ROLL
mat korner
noodles
sweet wrappers
cards
water bottles
littered the ground
as the brudders
smoked their
marlboros(or salim)
played their mat guitars
and just talked rot lah
i was the first to knock out at two
the rest of the mat gang
CLAIMED they knocked out at 4plus

Day3-Finale
i woke up still thinking they were still
playing cards
but realised we were
goin to be late
for worship
oh well
the projector screwed up
so that was a waste
cos for once
i guess the team was playing well
it turned out to be more of a concert
than worship
thats never good...
but oh well..we learn
so thats pretty much it

some stuff is a bit hard to describe
like ben's transformation
from quiet innocent young man
to insane dirty old man
he's one funky RI guy
he's by far the coolest
raffles chap around!
if raffles were filled with guys like him
then...
raffles would turn into ac
so nevermind.
hhaha
jk only

and of course
shaun, the cool guitarists
we never knew he knew how to play...
THE ARMPIT
yes ladies and gentleman
our good shaun lai
may be top of his class
when it comes to guitar
but he's just the highest
mountain
when it comes to making
farts with his armpit
yessiree
he can ditch the guit now!

of course, jane's, kristy's, caryn's and bernie's
inane fear of lizards
jolene's and nats fear of the dark
(take note people)
and well.
you really dont want to be in jasmines dorm
its not safe.

well
my cut finger is really hurting now
so i guess ill stop here
Jyc2003
veni vidi vici

kristy......theres...a....................LIZARD! haha

Thursday, November 13, 2003

scones
im sick
flu redux
i thought i got my immunity from
the darn bug
after the last time
when i came close to death
looks like i was wrong
missed prac today
tomorrows double practises.....
remain doubtful...
all will be revealed tomorrow
if i dont get better
ill stay in
relegating worship for jyc
bleh
scones

wanted - one miracle, fully operational, no strings attached

Sunday, November 09, 2003

and im back...
from outer space
walked into here to find you
with that look upon your face
should've changed that stupid lock
should've made you change the key
bum bum bum...

yup
to the great multitudes fantastical screaming
delight
im back
and to the evil slunking minority's
agony
im back
so face up.
haha

yup
phuket was..memorable
the shocking service standards
(i've never had someone open the door
for me before)
(( i raced for it but the concierge beat me to it))
(((what can i say)))
and of course
the incredible shock of the pool users
when they saw a rugby ball
torpedo 30m up and hit a coconut tree
3 times.
haha

sat was slaaack
worked a bit in the afternoon
and of course
watched the..
ALL BLACKS VS SPRINGBOKS
quarter!
harhar
a slightly disappointing
performance from the men in black
alot of oppurtunites they turned over
due to stupid handling errors
shouldnt have happened..
anyway
kudos to excellent lineouts(for once)
and a scrum that actually held out
against the boks pack!
was surprising
oh
i can name a whole lot of players now
Ali Williams
Reuben Thorne-flanker
Richie Mccaw-flanker
Jerry Collins-no.8
Justin Marshal- scrumhalf
Carlos Spencer-flyhalf
Doug Howlett-Wing
Joe Rockocko- Wing
Brad Thorn
Chris Jack-lock
Kees Meeuws-prop
Keven Mealamu-hooker(yes.)
Mils Miuliana-fullback
Leon Macdonald- Centre(in, out?)
Aaron Mauger-Centre
Tana Umaga-Centre
Daniel Carter-flyhalf
Taine Randell
J.LO-wing
heh heh

well
comm meeting after that
bunked down at jac's place after that
we held a military tribunal midway
here's a record of the proceedings

Judge(me)- we stand in court today to determine whether or not Jacob Hiew does or does not like ***.
The prosecution(Josh)- Members of the court, from the multitude of secretive smses, protective enclosure of all messages from *** and constant denials, it is clear that the defendent(Jac) is guilty
Jury(john)-hear hear!
Judge(me)-*fervent claps*
Judge(me)-what has the defendant have to say for himself?
Defendant(jac)- huh?
Judge, Jury, Prosecution-SIGH
Judge- well, since you have nothing to say, answer some questions
Defendant-what?
Judge- First, DO U LIKE ***?
Defendant-nooooooo
Prosecution-HE LIES!
Judge- I AGREE, BRING THE BELTS
Judge- *begins to flog defendant with belt*
Judge- next question,DOES *** LIKE YOU?
Defendant- huh?
Judge- BLASPHEMY *flogs defendant somemore*
Prosecution- answer yes or no!
Defendant-or.
Judge-MISERABLE SCOUNDREL *hands another belt to prosecution*
Judge, Prosecution-*begin to whip defedant, alternating*
etc. etc.
haha

well
today was
WET
haha
the 'peanuts' were revealed to the world
and the unbelievers were converted!
SQUIRT
haha
got real wet
THANKS PET
"too bad lah!*scream*"
(sound familiar?)
haha
well
great weekend to be back
real lovely
tomorrows training
SOMEONE ORDERED FULL UNIFORM
FOR HOLIDAY TRAINING
REALLY CLEVER
I WONDER WHO THE PERSON IS

nuff said

Sunday, November 02, 2003

going on a journey
to the tip of the iceberg'
heading out to sea
right to the edge of the world
flying away
moving out
charging ahead
time of reflection
time of change
will i come out stronger?
or just broken?
will i be paralysed by reality?
but what is reality?
how to find it?
my quest for Him
how far have i strayed?
now
i go
to the ends of the earth
to find Him again
to find what i lost
to be free
to be alone
to be me
mercy
grace
power
strength
hope
love

goin on a journey
faraway
setting sail for lands unknown
what will i find?
flying off to places undiscovered
diving into solitary confinement
all alone
just me
the sun
the sand
the sea
and the ball
visualise the game
run the race
and just fly away
run away to the island
of phuket.

away from 3rd to 7th
till then folks!
S.Cheam

1.2 Mark
Nick A
Nick E
Small "boey"
son of a gun (gan)
yozuki paul
lameness nigel
chris wei liang!
weiiii laaai
j.han
mak wei yang
teng siong
brandon
soong
j.zhang
kevin
huang
ben seah
ngaged yeo
chew zhi wei
john wong
ming hao's bro-jia yi
jit
thana
liu ZZ
yuan hao
jack jake
khoo the *%$#@!
PYT
chin san
roche, glen
lua the alex

its been a wild wild year
a memorable beginning to a new era of my life
well .2
as much as you guys have been a great pain in the neck(A**)
you guys have been great as well
the whole lot of you
no regrets
whatsoever
so, here are some, thank you notes to
several close .2 ppl

chu- yo...thanks for always chilling out and all, goin to splash when u could go to SAC and all! haha, you DO have what it takes, just beleive in yourself! well, anyway, 3 more years of debating ahead of us!

nigel the lame- thanks for enlightening me on true lameness! haha, other than that, i guess ive bullied u alot, thanks for putting up with all that!
you've been a real good friend, always helping! Keep cool, and keep winning those CS games!

khoo the %&$#@!- haha, hang ten drama ponner! thanks for always being there to give us all a laugh! all your 'fights' with wei lai, and of course, your use of *ahem* strong language! haha, see in 2.11 nxt year!

chris(TWL)- hey vice! thanks for grounding me in reality, and helping bring the class in order! might not have agreed with you on some matters, but unity through diversity! n congrats for making PL!

Zhang- Ahh, embezzle funds right! thats why class fund so little left! haha, thanks to you to, you've been a great pal! keep it goin choir boy!

gan and boey- ahh, my two fave wingers, none of you are probably goin to read this but thanks for really educating me on all things rugby wise! hey, who knows? i just might join you on the pitch someday!

and to the rest of 1.2
thank you.

Omerta