Welcome Back

Taadaaaa... Blog reopen. Privatised my blog for quite some time as I was being too stressed and overwhelmed with lotsa negative emotions. I reckon closing my blog for some time might help. And, another reason for it was to avoid distraction during exam period.

I have been thinking over my reasons for creating a blog and for writing blogs. It used to be my way of releasing stress and spitting out my negative emotions which I would never tell through my lips. However, over time, as I realised more and more people are reading my blog, I tend to care about what people think of my blog and how they perceive things I wrote. It seems to be contradictory with my very own reason of writing blogs.

Now, I decided to go back to the very beginning, write what I feel like writing, don't care about what others think. Feel free to read if you want to, feel free to leave if you are being offended to what I write or maybe if you are think this space doesn't worth your time visiting.

I am trying to be happier in my own way, in my own world. Being true to myself is a first start, and it starts here, my own little world, lalala~~

That's it for today. =)

如果

如果有一天我不笑了
那是因为面具掉了

如果有一天我哭了
那是因为我累了

如果有一天我不坚强了
那是因为没办法逞强了



如有真有那么一天
会有人认得我吗？

如果真有那么一天
你们还会喜欢我吗？

如果真有那么一天
我......还是我吗？

笑久了笑多了

竟忘了为何而笑

伪装久了

久得都已忘了

自己究竟长什么样

"Single
is not a status

It is a word that best describes a person who is strong enough to live and enjoy life without depending on others"

无意间看见这个
觉得有感触
就把它拿来分享了

只是想说

再坚强的人
也会脆弱

再独立的人
也会寂寞

再快乐的人
也会难过

就是一些不经意的感受
往往让人更加难受

其实再坚强的女生

心里都住着一个小女孩

会想有依靠

会想闹脾气

会想要撒娇

会想被捧在手心

坚强不是天生的

它是在

很多的无奈

很多的打击

很多的疼痛中

被训练出来的

加油吧

所有和我一样单身的人

就算是一个人

我们也要幸福哦 ^^

Officially 15? 21?

2011.09.25
The 21st 15th 0925 in my life
Many said that 21st 15th is one of the most important birthday in life
But the anti-social me didn't plan to do anything
and so I removed my birthday from my fb profile a month ago

Thanks to those who remember my birthday even without fb notification
I had great celebration this year

2011.09.21
Received parcel from Taiwan.

那些年 我们一起追的女孩 电影原声带 +海报
那些年 我们一起追的女孩 t-shirt
田馥甄 - My Love
全民女孩Selina的地狱90天

2011.09.23
Pre-celebration due to my hectic schedule. Thanks friends for making it... =)

Please note the "15th" hehe ^^

2011.09.24

Woke up with a surprise from NCG-ians. Felt so embarrassed as I was still in bed when they were here and all of them dressed up except me (in my pyjamas). >.< 

"Unsupervised" cupcake from Yvonne

Present from housemate =)

2011.09.25

My birthday!! Decline all the "dates" as I want to save this day for myself. Went to work after having my birthday lunch and cake. Hehe...

I knew that my manager and boss planned to have a drink with me after my birthday. But to my surprise, there was actually a party with food and my other colleagues who came specially for the party. And and and, my boss specially baked me a cheese cake (it was yummy, although I don't really like cheese cake). I felt honor as everyone said he hardly bake the yummy cheese cake (even when they plead him).

Present from colleagues

Flower from Linette

Card from Boss, manager and colleagues

2011.09.26

Date with laopo ~ ~ ~

Bear and card from laopo
Aww~ ~ I love the bear so much
I am so gonna hug it when I sleep

That's it for now. Ta ta... <3

Heard good news from my bestie.

Congratulations!!!

Great present for me indeed

Now my turn to gambatte dy

XDD

要幸福哦

Reflection and Reminder

Friend is about QUALITY not quantity. I don't have many close friends, but I do have some great friends.
I must admit that I was a bit emotional few days ago, but fortunately I have some great friends who are with me.
Just drop by here to jot down something for me to remind myself, to encourage and to motivate myself.

JS
Sometimes we want to receive. It's not a matter of being selfish or weak. It's only human nature to want more, to be acknowledged of your deeds, and most importantly to receive. They say, most of the time.. people with the sweetest smile has the saddest stories to tell. To me, they are the bravest and strongest person emotionally. Stay strong, the best is yet to come.
You've got to know that as long as you are true to yourself.. You'll come out stronger at the other end. And remember.. Don't do things to satisfy other people, do them because they satisfy you and make you a better person


JY
Nvm, u still got me, won't boycott u forever

LL
Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Don't hope too much. Don't think too much. Don't play too much. Don't sad too much. Because that too much can hurt so much.

SC
Make sure you are happy k. I just hope that u have a happy social circle.
(the rest of the conversation we shall keep it private, but that's what I need from you, thanks for supporting my decision)

And KY, TH, CS, HB, SK, and J who kept me company, talking to me during the night. The conversion might not be related to any of my problem, but by simply crapping and talking other stuffs really helps me to get rid of the unhappiness thingy from my mind.


To make a decision to give up on something that you've worked for so long is not easy. I am glad that I have a group of friends who always back me up. I've been trying hard to work on that, but my efforts were not being appreciated, was being ignored and being misunderstood. It really makes you feel bad when what you've done all this while has been treated like a piece of s**t. Instead of tiring and humiliating myself, instead of letting it affecting my emotion, I've decided to let go. It might make people think I am mean, but at least now, I am true to myself, and I can live in a way I want to, and I am happier in this way. I feel really relief after making the decision. I think I've made it right. There is always trade offs in live, this time, I decided to trade off something that was meaningful to me once, in return for a happier self.

True friends are those who stand by your side when you need them

They need not be the one you know for the longest time

=)

随手写写

开学三个星期了，可是心情却还是停留在假期，每每打开书读了几页后，又会忍不住开始看戏，结果看戏进度超前，学习进度零  =.=


话说，上星期三，本小姐还真的是受不了我家了，又脏又乱，看了都烦，真不知道过去几个月我是怎么住的。其实，平时我不是不打扫啦，只是选择性的打扫，一些我自认没碰的地方，就是不甘愿做
不过，人的忍耐真的是有限度的，我可以忍受乱，但是决不可以脏。我对一些事真的真的很讲究 （比如垃圾和厕所）结果隔天，就买了手套，新的清洁剂，刷子等等，花了一个晚上（大概四、五个小时吧）把厕所，厨房，和大厅打扫得干干净净了，像新的一样 *还闪闪发亮呢，LOL* 虽然花了一个晚上，虽然到一半的时候已经累得快没力气了，虽然隔天腰酸背痛，但是打扫后的效果比我预想的好超多，害我好骄傲哦~~ ♥


只能说没打扫（我说的是彻底打扫，不是随随便便敷衍而过的那种）还真不知道打扫的辛苦。现在本小姐继续努力，尽我所能得让我家维持现状：厕所一积水就拖干，厨房已开始有点脏就抹，餐桌一乱就整理 *累* 维持比打扫容易，不过本小姐不知道会继续到什么时候，只能说，谁叫我爱面子呢，没办法忍受让外人看见自己家乱得不三不四。之前朋友要来，还真的打死不让他们来，毕竟真的脏乱得连我自己都看不下去了。现在谁要来，尽管来，不过应该只限这星期，可以维持一星期，很不错了耶，哈哈

又话说，我在某一天换了blog 的 template，结果不会 sign in =.=  不过还不错啦，我喜欢，嘻嘻

其实很多人都觉得我是所谓的大小姐

不会作家事兼生活白痴

但往往我能做的比别人多

只能说

谢谢我爸妈把我教好

爱你们哦

无

灰灰的天空
灰灰的心情

淡淡地思念
淡淡的脸孔

轻轻地收起
轻轻的黯然

默默地守护
默默的角落

随写

今天
就是想写些东西
没什么
就这样
掰

Expecting the unexpected

I Love My Life =)

Finally I am back after months. I think I should have changed my blog title into "the abandoned corner", haha. Anyway, I am just here to have a brief update about what has happened recently. Complete story MAY be available depending on my mood, haha...

OF LIFE
Life has been pretty hectic for the past two months. Assignments, exams, NCG and work have occupied most of my time. I was forced to abandon my beloved drama, fb and blog, to cope with all these(sounds pity? =p). Nevertheless, i enjoyed all these, since I am a workaholic!!

OF WORK
Stopped working for three weeks ady, as my shop closed for almost a month for winter. I am trying to enjoy my break now, but I do miss working (and the pay and free ice cream, hehe)

OF NCG
NCG started just after my shop closed, so I can channel all my energy and efforts on it(luckily). It was really stressful for me in organisig this event as it is the biggest event I have ever organised. Also, the department I am in is one of the most important and stressful departments. Luckily all went well, although there were three players being sent to hospital, and some minor minor problems that I've encountered. Of all, i was quite disappointed with Malaysian Night as i was being chased away from my seat and being abandoned to the very isolated corner. I just don't understand why i deserve this kind of treatment after so much hard work and also the help i've offered to the department. Anyway, it has been commented as the best NCG ever. I am proud of it. Never regretted joining this team although i was really sick after that(have sexy voice as a return, lolz)

OF NEW ZEALAND
Went NZ after NCG. It's a really great trip, relaxing and fun, not to forget the breath-taking scenery. I did not manage to travel to many places, just dunedin and queenstown, and so, i don't mind going again, as it's a must go country, i would say. (ps, might talk about it more when i got the pictures)

OF HOLIDAY
Last week of my holiday is all about drama and outings with friends. I'm loving it. <3
and ya, mummy starts worrying about my future as i am still single right now. It's so hard to find a boyfriend now since all nice guys are being taken by my friends *wink*. I enjoy being single but sometimes still hope to have my somebody. Let time decides. I am not gonna simply fall into a relationship, just because i want to find a boyfriend. I don't wanna regret. =)

That's it for today. Gonna go out with my friends soon. Wrote this when I am enjoying my coffee in Melbourne Central alone. I love my iphone, hehe.

Random thoughts

Life has been pretty busy recently
Marathon of meetings day by day
Piles of assignment due
Work commitment
and so does co-curricular activities commitment

Working in groups have been a very normal thing now
from assignment to committee stuff.

What I really feel is that
It's really hard to get good teammates
who work in the same tune as you
who are helping you when you need them
who will considerate you when you are unable to split yourself from different commitments
Thanks Moo, Liying, Wanyi and Brandon for being such a nice groupmates of mine.
I am really grateful and I seriously appreciate that.

But life's ain't smooth
There will be some unfortunate time
when you get some shitty partner
who keeps creating trouble and leave the mess for you
who try "not" to create more jobs for you
who find excuses and ask you to cover their commitment
who are not aware of their own responsibility and job
who takes advantage of you
and who drives you nuts and make you lose your temper

I am not saying I'm a good partner/teammate
but I tried my best to keep to my deadlines
I tried my best to fulfill my commitment
I might not be perfect
but at least I tried my best
and I can confidently say"yes, I've put in efforts"

Life is about luck
Be it lucky or not
accept it and challenge it
I believe there will be people seeing my efforts
I believe my hard work and my efforts will pay off
I believe I will be a better person after enduring it
I gotta believe in myself

Fighting!!!!

喘口气

话说
我最近真的有点很忙
刚刚帮朋友填个问卷
其中一题问我一天呆在家多久（睡觉时间除外）
2小时？3小时？
天啊，还真是少得可怜
不过庆幸现在有一星期的假
虽然有很多Assignment， 还有test
至少我有时间休息了

又话说
本人最近运气还真是背的可以
倒霉事烦心事一件一件找上门
还以为一下子就会过去了
结果一下子就两个星期
根本就是在考验我的耐心
就在我真的很烦很恼的时候
脑海里就一直浮现以前学的名句精华
天将降大任于斯人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，行拂乱其所为
就当作是安慰自己，也顺便勉励自己吧
（现在才发现，原来名句不是学好玩的）

昨天晚上收到一封信
一封预料之外的信
让我超开心的
希望这是运气转好的开始
霉运快快走，好运快快来 XD

人都是贪心的
我承认我也是
但我的贪心是胆小的
想得到却不敢奢望
我的贪心是理智的
想得到却还是会客观的分析
因为不敢想  所以
得到时  心是雀跃的
（虽然当时累得没办法太兴奋）
我想
当一个人把所得到的东西
当做一份礼物
而不是理所当然
生活会快乐许多
不甘心会减少许多 

今天很幸福

因为可以

晚晚地起身

忙忙地工作

慢慢地洗澡

闲闲地上网

乱乱地写blog

好好地休息

今晚不读书!!!!!

^.^

我想你了
心情不好时
总是想起你
想向你借时间
想向你借肩膀
想向你借耳朵
想向你借安慰

我要回家

刚回到墨尔本
从峇株到吉隆坡的车程
从吉隆坡到墨尔本的飞机
已让我精疲力尽
好不容易躺在久违的床上
却发现自己已毫无睡意
突然好想我家的床
突然好想我家的人
突然好想我家的狗
突然我好想家
突然我好想再回家

在墨尔本不到两个小时
我开始想家了

I will be back soon

Wow, time flies... I'm gonna reach Malaysia in less than 24 hours time.
Have been counting down the time since Wanchee they all went back.
The four days wasn't too long since I'm working every day(due to the fact that our shop is seriously short of staff). I got excited every day when I finished my shift as it signifies the end of a day, especially when I am working the night shift. My colleagues said I am constantly 'high' this week (as in very nice to customer, lolz) and hyperactive. My diet plan failed terribly as I get an ice cream after every shift, four huge ice cream continuously because I will be away for around 5 weeks, and these four ice cream are my five weeks' quota, haha.
Today, apart from the huge ice cream, I had a big slice of choc cake as well, as today is one of my colleagues' birthday. My another colleague and I bought a cake for her. $22 per person, that's so expensive, I am broke after I paid for it, haha... Anyway, I am more than willing to buy her a cake(as present as I dunno what to buy for her) since she is one of my 'shifu' in the shop, helping me this and that, teaching me whatever she knows. This is most probably the first and the last birthday cake I can buy her since she is leaving for work in March =(

1am now. I should be lying on my bed now since I need to wake up early to go to the airport tmr. But.... I think I am too excited for it, and I can't sleep...
I think I should stop now before I get crazy, muahahaha....

ps: I din change my Malaysia number, feel free to contact me ya.... see you guys around... =)))))

07.01.11

今天是 07.01.11
还有八天就要回家啦
原本是以普通的心情看待这一天
随着时间逼近，也开始期待了
除了可以见到好久不见的家人朋友们
还期待我老爸要买给我的礼物
只能说我老爸是超级宠我的老爸
听说我要自己花钱买某样东西
就自告奋勇外加坚持要买给我
至于是什么东西就下次再公布咯

在墨尔本不到一年
却觉得自己离家好久了
好多东西都不一样了
有人诞生
有人逝世
有狗失踪
有狗逝世
有人买屋
有人搬家

很期待回去
很想知道家人亲戚过得好不好
很想看我的家乡变成什么样了
很想吃我爱吃的
很想去看电影
很想去购物

很多事等着我做
而我却只有大约五个星期
一定要好好利用这次的假期
Fighting!!!!

挥别 2010

晚了几天的一篇
因为最近忙着看戏
耽搁啦
大家  新年快乐哦

2010 年算是我的丰收年
虽说不能一整年都顺利快乐
但今年的我得到很多

2010 年，特别的一年
第一次出国念书
第一次一年没回家
第一次在陌生的地方找路
第一次工作
第一次半工半读
第一次不靠父母养活自己
第一次靠自己的能力存钱
还有很多数不尽的第一次

新的生活
新的体验

希望2011年也是顺利的一年
希望把学业搞好
希望能存多多钱
希望身体健健康康
希望把人际关系搞好
希望家人平安快乐
Yeah!!!