bucket list

>> Saturday, November 19, 2011

suddenly decided to create a bucket list for myself. please don be mistaken that i'm writing this because of someone or anyone, but i am really sick of myself living an aimless life for so long. i need to have something to work towards!!!

(list to be updated periodically, and also for myself to keep a record!)

1. work abroad, outstation for a year or so! i would LOVE to live, cook, sing and indulge in myself (can't do it in singapore, too expensive to feed myself alone)

2. work in events for 6 months minimum. initially i told others that i will give myself a year or two but based on the latest survey, pple who are in the PR line are the unhappiest workers. i want to be happy but i need to "fulfill" my 'dream'. so i will suck my thumb and try even though it might not be pleasant and the money is horrible.

3. skydiving! hahaha yes! for a person who is super scared of height. i wont bungee jump cuz bungee = alone, skydiving = have instructor!

4. travel, visit nature. after my US trip, i really think nature is so beautiful and bricks and mortar are so bleah. hope to visit as many wonders of the world as possible!

5. i'm going to sponsor a child soon and i hope i can sponsor as many as i can. not trying to be noble or what but i hope these little things can help to redeem some karma points (and also hope that good things will happen to my family). i seriously don't think the sponsorship can make the world a better place, i'm not that powerful haha.

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random thoughts

>> Monday, November 07, 2011

just bitch with my sister about my BIL. i hateeeeee to gossip but i can't help it.

anyway, the US trip could have gone better but i'm still very happy that my dream came true so fast :) the trip also help me to realise what i want and i hope i can fulfill it soon!

looking forward to my 2nd/3rd/4th/5th US trip! I LOVE TRAVELLING!

and on a random note, i think my future husband (if i ever get married) will be a lot older than me. perhaps 10 or more, but i wont mind because i reallllyyyyyyyyy cannot stand pple with childish mindsets. they just turn me off completely.

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health is wealth

>> Thursday, October 13, 2011

i have been contemplating whether to blog about this for almost a month. perhaps i'm too tired to carry on fighting, i finally decided to write about it now (despite the number of things i have to complete).

i brought my parents for their full body check up about 2 months ago because my dad (who is one of the most stubborn person on earth) requested for it one fine day. obviously, my sisters and i were elated because he is so initiative for the first time! naturally we included our mum as well (all along, my mother is more health conscious than my dad).

the entire examination at raffles hospital was far from acceptable. the staff were lost (most were trainees) and no instructions were given to us prior to the checks. the incident which left me fuming was the CT scan.

one of the senior nurse/manager came up to me and asked if my parents have taken their medication and to my understanding, my parents were told not to consume anything (including liquid) 8 hours before the blood and urine tests. therefore, my answer was no and to the nurse's surprise, my parents are supposed to eat this special medication to slow my parents' heart rates so that the CT scan can be accurate. it should be consumed 30 minutes before the CT scan and my parents were rushed to the examination room even though it was barely 10 mins after they took the medication. everything was in a rush and the nurse even asked my parents to run with her -_- i was so shock and pissed that i told the nurse off when it was their fault, and what kind of instruction is that to an elderly couple IN A HOSPITAL.

totally **@^#&*%@&^%#^$#%^@$^%!@@%@!(

my mum looked so tortured as she came out of the examination room. she was so drowsy and weak from the medication and the nurse DID NOT mention anything about the side effects. i was so angry because imagine my dad, who needs to drive, suffered the side effect as well (and even if he had them, he wont say it. how DANGEROUS grrr). it was so dangerous but they didnt inform me before hand.

is this acceptable from a hospital which is reputable and charge sky high medical fees? obviously NOT.

then it came the doctor. she was SO unprofessional and rough with my parents (my dad is also one of the roughest person on earth so imagine my dad also thinks that she is rough, HOW BAD DO YOU THINK SHE IS). i shall not describe the process but i have never met a doctor so lousy before. even my bo-chup family doctor is better than her! because of the doctor, my parents didnt feel at ease at all (which causes them to be more nervous, which is not good).

anyway, those are small incidents which i can let go because i doubt i'll ever return. the thing which has been bothering me is the results of the health report.

surprisingly, my dad (who is obese and usually associated with many diseases but he only has a few) was in a clean bill of health. my mum, on the other hand, have some minor heart and lung abnormalities and was told to visit a specialist asap. the more worrying fact is that my mum has a small lump in her breast, about 1cm in diameter.

with all the things happening in school now, the lump is definitely the last thing i want to hear and this is also the reason for keeping the secret for a month. i do not want my friends to worry because as a matter of fact, they cannot do anything but it will add to their worry and i hate that. i know they care but personally, i think everyone has enough in their minds. thus, i choose to keep it within the family.

i accompanied my mum to the breast specialist at ttsh yesterday and the first diagnosis was quite positive and i am really thankful because i can see the relief on my mum's face. however to assure that everything is fine, i have arranged for another appointment for ultrasound and xray when i am back from the states. it is a load off my mind for now at least.

because of all the incidents that occur this semester, i am even more thankful for what i have in life. i couldn't ask for anything more.

to some, i might have become someone without dreams or passion and no longer the person they use to know. but, i have definitely become a much happier person because to me, living the moment is the most important but hardest lesson in life.

till my next post, i wish everyone the best of health.

/ps: i hope everyone reading this can keep it private, esp my family members as my mum doesn't want anyone to be worried for her when nothing is certain :) and yes simon, i won't mention any of the above to sarah (no link) haha

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modern family

>> Monday, October 03, 2011






















totally describes how i'm feeling now. just that i'm IN the toilet bowl.

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sadz

>> Saturday, September 24, 2011

i have to type something here before i explode and die.

i'm really very angry at my sister for taking everything for granted - the love and concern she receives from her family and friends. it is SO tiring to constantly check on her when she jolly well ignore all the calls when the world is worried about her.

i am really very very very very sick n tired and today is just one of the days i cannot tolerate and told her off. which resulted in her being angry and sad + cry infront of the family + went to her friend's place + not contactable even though it is 12am + my parents cannot sleep cuz they are worried.

I JUST HOPE MY SISTER CAN HAVE A BIT ONLY SELF-DISCIPLINE AND CALL HOME OR BE HOME EARLY.

i'm really very very tired.

very.

why pple don't learn? why are we like that?

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>> Tuesday, June 28, 2011

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internship: so far

>> Sunday, June 19, 2011

originally i intend to post this on facebook, but i think it will offend almost ALL my friends so i think it is wiser to post it here :)

tml will be the 6th week of internship and i'm actually quite surprised at how fast time passed! for my past temp jobs, i'll always complain or mourn every morning i have to wake up for work but not this time. maybe because my expectations for many things have changed.

from the feedback i gathered from my friends, those who are upset are all unhappy with their job scope; about how their companies abuse them or overlook their capabilities. photocopying and scanning documents are demeaning them. i was like, really?

most of them feel that their companies are not granting them a chance to make a difference, to contribute to the company directly. although i tried to imply to them that we are just interns (n indirectly cheap labour), we shldnt expect them to really nurture us.

then they became more upset, refuse to take a step back and agree with me.

so i would like to post a shout out to my friends after the internship: you are just an intern. interns are cheap labour. suck it up!

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The Royal Wedding

>> Sunday, May 01, 2011

We've all witness how grand and beautiful the ceremony was.

But I have to tell you it is those little things (which we won't know otherwise, thanks to lip readers!) that made the wedding even sweeter :)

My personal favourites~








As Kate traveled to the Abbey with her father,
Michael said, "You look beautiful. It will all be amazing. You’ll be fine. I’m proud of you."













Kate and her father were greeted by the Dean of Westminster who told Kate, "I want to reassure you it will be alright, we are all on your side."













After Kate made it to the alter with her father, William said to her, "You look lovely, you are beautiful." William then jokingly said to Michael, "We were supposed to have just a small family affair."












As Kate and Prince William rode in their carriage to Buckingham Palace Kate said, "I'm so happy." William then said, "Yes! Yes! It was a beautiful service. It really was. It was amazing. I’m so proud you’re my wife."











They were so happy and relaxed as they made the trip to Buckingham Palace. William said, "I hope I remember. It's mad, it's mad! Oh my goodness it's really loudly here."










After sharing their first kiss for the crowd, William said to Kate, "I love you, let's give them another one! One more kiss, one more kiss. OK?"








For more, see here.

I know many don't give a damn, but my sister and I have been long time fans of the British princes and Princess Diana. So, my sister and I are really happy for them! :) I wish them all the best and say no to divorce! haha!

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TRAVELLLLLLLLLL

>> Friday, April 22, 2011

i need to get this out of my system so here it is!

i want to travel for a considerable period of time before entering the workforce! problem is, where and how?

choices: work and travel USA or europe tour
when: upon graduation
duration: at least 2 weeks, or 3 weeks even better! max my airtix since a round trip would cost at least 1.5k

pros and cons (usa): might not be able to attend convocation if i go for work&travel, but i get to experience staying abroad for 3 mths!
pros and cons (europe): no source of income!

problem: no potential travel buddy now. not even one. i saw this famous student tour online (STA travel) that many students actually do solo trips! but i've not done a solo trip before... so shld i challenge myself and go ahead for such a long solo trip? it really sounds vvvvvv interesting but i would really hope someone would go with me. but then, the trip wont be cheap ($5k at least) so.........

i'm still unsure if i'm going anywhere this summer after internship. everything is so expensive so i rather spend everything on my graduation trip and not spend twice the amount.

I NEED (at least) A TRAVEL BUDDY TO DISCUSS THESE ISSUES WITH MEEEEEEE

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hiatus

>> Sunday, January 23, 2011

hello to whoever that still reads this blog!

haha. even i am amazed at how long this hiatus has been. actually, i'm not that emo that i gave up writing. i'm really lazy and twitter has taken over my life.

but because i just had a cup of coffee at 12am and has been energetic since, i decided to update my few friends who still check on this space :)

the incident has happened for more than 2 months and gradually things have returned to normal but it still requires major adjustments to our lives. my sister rented out part of her apartment, my room underwent a makeover (to make room for 2 beds + baby cot for ethan)..

my sis is still adjusting her life.. not easy but everyone is definitely trying. however, it gets frustrating sometimes when my sis doesn't listen to the advices from pple closest to her but rather she heeds advices from friends :( we're still trying our best but we cannot expect everything to turn out the way we want. that's life isn't it?

on the topic abt life, i gained a whole new perspective earlier when i was watching the latest episode of desperate housewives. the story is about people who are undergoing kidney dialysis treatment and basically waiting for a transplant. in many occasions, one would rejoice if a suitable donor is found because it is the end of their misery. however, is it really the case?

one of the patient actually commented: "how can i be positive about living? i am waiting for death, not mine but someone else. only when they die, then i can have a chance to live. so is it really worth celebrating when i get a transplant?"

i agreed with what he said and it is not something that i've thought of before. i think it is so true (although a bit pessimistic). it is so cruel to think it this way but that shows how wise the man is. totally blew my mind away.

okay end of emo stuff. time to talk about myself.

school has started for 2 weeks and currently i am busy with the thesis topic. basically i need to set a topic so that the faculty can allocate a supervisor for me. i really do not wish to be stuck with some lousy lecturer (to be honest, my faculty has so many lousy lecturers and only less than 5 acceptable ones) for a year and therefore i "restricted" my topics to be the research interest of the "better lecturers". i just hope that i get who i want! hahaha! *fingers crossed*

recently i also started tutoring again, for xx's ex-students. it is good money and something i am looking for but i have to read up since i didnt touch math since 2006! damn scary i know. when my student ask me about matrix today my mind went blank! haha! but i'm glad the steps came floating back slowly.. hahaha.

for now, i'm happy that with the income i have. i can pay off my insurance (yes i have finally gotten 1 because i realised the importance), in addition i am 1 step closer to grad trip! (at least not all my savings will be gone) *double happiness*

nothing exciting in my life right now. no bf and also no potential ones. please leave a message here or sms me if you find any suitable candidate for me. HAHA sounds so despo only.

i'll end my updates here. as u can probably guess my life is very mundane and it will only continue for the next 1 year (at least) with thesis overtaking my life. HAHA.

till the next time i cannot sleep :)

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