going blind

went to the optical shop today to get my supply of contact lenses. i think i am too ugly the past few months cuz i've been wearing glasses everywhere i go, simply cuz i cannot see clearly with my current permanent-and-dirrrrty contact lenses!

to my disappointment, my degree increased again. although only 25 each eye, but my left and right eye are seriously screwed.

if i did not remember wrongly..

left eye
short sighted: 175
astigmatism: 225 (almost blind!)

right eye
short sighted: 300
astigmatism: 125

the trip to tan tock seng last year, the eye doctor told me i have a eye problem called squint. apparantly i have problems concentrating to 1 particular object. it is very irritating. i don't think lasik helps! =(

total damage is $150 for 7 pairs. actually i wanted to get 1 year's supply, which is 14 pairs @ $280. but my sister's colleague can get the contact lenses for me at JB! i think i can save up to 40% if i get it in JB. *cheapossss*

going over to esther's place tml for mj! her dear mama bought a brand new mj table just cuz we are heading to her house for mj for the 2nd time! lol her mama is so sweet and cute.

i'm a little depressed too cuz the 9pm show is ending on friday! i know i sound damn lame and stupid but that show is one of my main highlights every weekday! =( anyway, the girl playing as xiuzhen in the show is my sister's good friend in university and she told me that she once had a crush on my cousin! that is like so damn random cuz i don't think that cousin of mine very attractive *lol* cuz she is quite tall and pretty in real life. i will definitely miss auntie autoss and the stupid vat!

anyway i am planning to go bangkok! anyone has any lobang for cheap flight+hotel deals? the cheapest i came across is the one by jetstar but i can only travel in july!! if possible, i want to get out of this island asap! thanks in advance peepssssssss!

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favourite song in 2005

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

[Chorus:]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Yeah

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon let's try

[Chorus]

Am I crazy for wanting you?
Maybe do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

[Chorus]

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste

I want you and your soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Ooooooo
Beautiful Soul, yeah
Oooooo, yeah
Your beautiful soul
Yeah

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i'm so sleepy now although it is barely 8pm.

never been so motivated to do something for so long already. if you still dunno yet, i passed my driving test on my 2nd attempt yesterday! double yays cuz i passed it very well! only got 6 demerit points deducted, conpared to 1 immediate failure plus 28 demerit points on my first. well, a few coincidence too. i got the same tester again! he still remembered me.. and i crapped so much with him all the way. actually i think i shld have gotten more than 6 demerit points cuz i think he repeated "eh be careful" more than thrice.

upon knowing that i passed, i called my driving instructor and told him the great news. as i promised him that i will give him a treat, i went chinatown at 12.30pm today to get the lim chee guan bak kwa for him. 12.30pm leh!! zzz!

i reached home at about 2.30pm cuz i promised my parents that i will accompany them to 'sao mu'. it was so bloody hot when i was walking home from the bus stop, to the extent that i have the urge to jump into a pool and soak myself inside!

my grandmothers' grave are at lim chu kang and when my dad turned into the cemetery, there were 2 army boys there. so poor thing, out of all places they have to guard there! stupid mas selamat. they had to check our boot and that was when i realised my dad's boot have to be opened manually using the key, instead of the button cuz i dunno what stupid thing he did to the button.

and guess what, it was pouring like crazy when we were burning the incense halfway! it was suddenly and so heavy! those high intensity huge rain droplets! (it actually took me a while to recall the proper geographical term) we couldnt proceed to the other graves so we left. and the army boys still have to check the boot! so i had to run out of the car and open the boot. i was totally soaked. my dream came true.

went to my grandpa's coffeeshop to meet my uncle and pass him some stuff. its been zillion years my dad visited the place, and he was like the superstar. everyone was vying to talk to him although i think there isnt much content HAHA. it has already been more than 10 years my grandpa sold the coffeeshop, but the tenants there are still the same people who always offer me free food! i can still remember before every cny, my family will visit the coffeeshop to 'da bao' cartons of drinks home. hahahaha. my favourite outing cuz everything is FOC and i can take whatever i want. i am a princess there! moreover i get to enjoy the 20 cents kiddy rides FOC too cuz my grandpa have the keys! so much memories there although i only get to visit there twice a year cuz it is at bukit gombak.

anyway, i am super paiseh at the coffeeshop cuz every chair i sat became wet. there is this ah ma staring at me after i stood up cuz i think she suspected i pee. i didnt lah. it was the rain =(

journey home was horrible cuz nothing can be seen on the road! it took us about 1 hour before i see familar roads when it normally only take 30-45 mins. my dad even asked me to drive lor, but he declined immediately after i ask him to pay for the $120 fine as there is no triangle plate in the car.

need to sidetrack abit...

you guys must have heard about the tragic accident along north south highway. hai. i believe it is just one of the tragedies that occured everyday and there are many others which we have no idea. maybe this is a wake up call to all of us, to treasure our lives and people around us. tell someone how much they mean to you today!

wah, sudden change of emotions. emo_galzzzzzzzzzzzzzz@hotmail.com

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6 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME:


1) i can't swim

2) i cannot stand narcissism

3) i am very chirpy around strangers but very quiet when i am with close friends

4) i hate to think what to eat when i'm at home. so i always buy the same food at the coffeeshop near my house.

5) i must eat chocolate everyday

6) i really love staying at home everyday!


I tagged: everyone who i linked on my blog. hahaha. that's not alot right? (kana forced by nasirah to do this, so pple who i tag must do it cuz i have the power to do so!)

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congratulations to president ma ying-jeou! may he bring lots of prosperity to taiwan so that when i visit taiwan the next time i will feel safer!

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relationship for thought

you know you really love him when..

you are really angry when he do stupid things
you are praised by his family
you are always daydreaming the 2 of you together
you want to buy so many things for him
you are smiling ear to ear when he sms/call/msn you
you cannot wait to share the things he does for you with your friends
you received unexpected, small, cheap little gifts regardless of what it is
you are SO jealous when you know he is/going to be with someone else


it took me 3 years to FINALLY come up with this.

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jiejie must have felt that i am going to slip into a depression soon so she dragged me out of bed to eat sushi and watch movie with me the whole day.

and another sister wanted to jio me for mahjong.

went for some kopi yesterday at serangoon. my sister's friend also suspected i have depression. maybe i shld join SDU to make more friends, suggested by kims toh.

i need to be more expressive.
i need to be less analytical.
i need to be less practical. (it rhymes)
i need to think lesser.
i need to be less vulgar.
i need to be engaged in more activities.


too many heartbreaking things going on lately, too many things i think about lately. too many things i daydream lately, too many things i hope it didnt happen lately, too many mood swings lately, too much online-shopping lately, too much "just in singapore" videos lately...

i need to tell someone something badly. but, i do not have the courage to do so. it's not about getting rejected, but embarrassment.

/added

I'm waiting by Your door. says:
you're like a piece of tofu
I'm waiting by Your door. says:
just a nudge and you break
I'm waiting by Your door. says:
please fry yourself in deep oil to become a stronger tofu!
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...
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give me the batter lah
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WAHLAOS
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kns
I'm waiting by Your door. says:
tmr than Give you


i'm going to be a strong tofu!

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just caught leap years. not too bad. charmaine has successfully took over kim's role as the ambassador of 'yi ba bi ti, yi ba yan lei'.

i love the quotes shown in the movie, anyone has any idea where to get them?

and stupid charmaine tan made me CRY SO MUCH at hougang interchange, so much that i need her to give me tissue. kns.

oh ya, qi yu wu's name in the movie was 'KS'. i couldnt help but link it to 'KNS'.

:D

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a conversation i had with tinawu. guess what is the topic we are chatting YOURSELF. (hehehehe)

TINAWU says:
wah i quite shocked i tot u wld sae charmaine/rach/kaiwei
TINAWU says:
hahaha
TINAWU says:
kan bu chu wanlin oso

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wanlin u xia dao lor
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kan bu chu right
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but when u kan dao u XIA DAO
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rach kim n wanlin all big one

TINAWU says:
HAHAHAA

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then rach always say wanlin damn big
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we don believe
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(sec 3)
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then got 1 time we go swimming
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we force wanlin to go
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then we all WOAH
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since tt day we don dare to look down on her
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don kan bu qi her

TINAWU says:
im sorry wanlin
TINAWU says:
kaiwei sae u oso v big

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wahlos
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wahlaos*
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where got
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smaller than them la
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rach very big also

TINAWU says:
shld haf known u all earlier
TINAWU says:
although i kinda doubt tt mine will be big too even if joined ur clique HAHAHAHAH
TINAWU says:
i ask charmaine to tell me her secret
TINAWU says:
she sae pour boiling water


those who guess correctly, sorry but no present. :D

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You can visit here if you wanna know more. wahseh. crap lor can come up with such a idea to cheat more people's money!

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bend it like cruz beckham!

:)

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wahjong rocks! add me at pings7! HEEHEE!

driving test tml when it is practically raining like FREEEE these few days! hope it wont rain too heavy tml before 12.30pm! LOL!!!

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i'm very very short-tempered these few days and my sister is complaining. but i cannot help it when:

1. i am maligned
2. my mother is forever saying how lousy my step-grandmother is
3. my mother is forever complaining how pitiful my uncle is but she is not helping him
4. my sister and bro-in-law are saying how bias my mother is, as if my mother forbids them to enter our house
5. my sister is saying that i don even call her when she moved out. but then, did she even call home? besides i have nth to tell her.
6. i don understand my driving instructor's instuctions and keep repeating the same mistakes

:(

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this is avril lavigne's wedding ring and wedding band. THE BLING IS PROBABLY BIGGER THA MY EYE BALL! *screammmm*

anyway, her wedding album is so pretty! and this is like the first time a (famous) couple can be so open about their wedding ceremony.

well, check out here if you wanna view her sweet wedding!

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a tough week ahead of me, for the fact that i am taking my practical test on thursday! =( big setback for my today cuz i mount kerb twice in a roll at obstacle number 26, my cursed number for now and a series of mistakes outside ubi.... well i really hope it will be better. i had about 70% confidence during my last driving lesson. now it is probably 10%.

anyway during my horrendous driving (just before i suffered the setback at obstacle no. 26) i saw someone so familiar changing seats with her instructor and that person turns out to be miss loh! hahaha!

after driving i am supposed to go bedok to make deposit for a macparty celebration for my uncle. (you might be "huh" why am i organising a macdonalds party for my uncle. but he is not that old, he is just 23 going on 24 but he cannot live on his own. a long story which it is sad for anyone to hear about it, so i shall not even mention cuz i will be affected too.) coincidentally i saw miss loh at the bus stop so we chatted quite a while, boarded the same bus and continued chatting until my sister met me on the bus. somehow, my sister found miss loh to be familiar. maybe cuz they were in nus taking the same course in the same period.

talk to miss loh about so many things, like mr naresh, miss poh and violent ng (i dunno she is a miss or a mrs for this case) have already left. and wong mei lin is still there. lol. i also asked her about the a levels result.. blah blah blah.. and we were wishing each other good luck cuz our driving tests are coming up.

this week is pretty tough cuz things in a family got a little messy and my friendship with my friend has turned so bad to a point where i dunno how to handle it and choose not to do it after a while. i can only say that, that night i was not in the best mood too and i am not the best person to have a conversation with and i threw my phone somewhere... and i had to call myself to find my phone.

may the bad things go away. GO AWAY GO AWAY!

IT show this week. i'm lazy to go but i need to get some things. hai. the images of squeezy walkways to suntec, the sardine-like mrt, people-mountain-people-sea exhibition halls are not very appealing to me. i'm not that geeky to squeeze and wait for best buys.



and this is what cheered me up for a moment. enjoy :)

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for entertainment purposes only

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I AM NOT DEPRESSED. I JUST NEED TO BE EMOTIONAL SOMETIMES.

well you know, i actually cannot sleep (when i laid down at 7.15am and it is 8.05am now) cuz i am having so much thoughts in my mind after watching tonnes of friends-related videos.

i chance upon this great website which has so many videos for me to download and keep it because youtube doesnt have them. and well, it is heartbreaking to recall how bad my friends-hangover lasted back in 2004.

well, i only started the whole series in 2004 (lol) due to my good friend eamonn, who is a great fan and owned all the dvds. so everyday after school, i will go home immediately and stick my eyes to the tv while having lunch. it lasted till prelims i think. i've never watched tv so hard in my secondary school days!

okay, anyway that is not what i really want to blog about. if this entry is dedicated entirely to friends, i think only 1 or 2 people can relate to the whole matter so i shall not bore you guys to death. i appreciate and love friends from the bottom of my heart discreetly =)

as i was saying, i was downloading videos from this forum and there is this particular one which i am really sad about. it is oprah, and the guest is jennifer aniston speaking 1 month after her divorce with brad pitt. it is so depressing to watch that clip not only because i am a pro-jennifer and anti-angelina fan, but because from the clip and those i watched earlier i noticed the drastic difference in her facial expressions. i mean, when she was blissfully married, i can see that her smiles are deep and directly from the heart. she is glowning and gorgeous but that particular oprah video, she looked awful. i spotted so many winkles, dark circles, not-so-good-but-better-than-my complexion.. it is just saddening!

watching that video makes me think so much about marriage and commitment. in the interview, she talked about how she coped her life w/o brad, how she overcome divorce and how she stayed strong.. and i put myself into her shoes. what will happen to me if this terrible thing happen to me someday? can i cope it well? (hai i am so pessimistic lol)

a divorce is not like a break up between a couple. you have to answer to the world-family, society, friends... the stress is so overwhelming. it doesnt really matter to me if a person had 10 breakups, but with 1 divorce i think i will remember him/her forever, and i think this applies to alot of people.

lol. the thought of it happening to me really terrifies me even though i am single and only 19.

as much as i hate to talk about what happened in my relationship here, i must say i am actually scared to get attached again for whatever reason. maybe because i have grown from my experience and definitely understand what is the meaning of love more and i want no mistake about plunging into the next one.

singlehood for close to 4 months, i've been rotting at home other than going to school and driving lessons. less than a week ago, my sisters were begging me to stop rotting at home. i told them i love staying at home and i hate to go out cuz of the crowd.. and they are worried that i am having depression or what. I AM REALLY LAZY!

i'm lazy to..

1. squeeze with the crowd
2. walk aimlessly
3. organise an outing
4. ask another person out
5. keep in touch with other people

okay, i sound a little depressed lol.

and you know what made me a little sad the last week? well, i believed some of you received my sms regarding the bodyshop discount which stanley told me to help him out. i am more than glad to help him because i've always made use of ben and him (haha) to get the wonderful discount and i think i shld really lend a hand when they need help. going to town on a saturday is definitely not a thing i love to do but i went there solely just to get the $700+ worth of stuff. i was home by 3pm! i didnt mind the trouble really but i am a little hurt when my dear friend told me it is so lame to carry the stuff back and having to collect the money individually.. to me, that was totally not lame at all but lending a hand to other people who needed it! but well, i'm just so glad stanley and ben managed to hit their sales target although what i've spent was just a small percentage compared to what they had to hit. (3% i think)

wow. it's been so long since i wrote some serious and proper entry. i feel so light suddenly. ummm.. i am growing again! (hopefully vertically not horizontally)

ps: to emphasize again, I AM NOT DEPRESSED. I JUST NEED TO BE EMOTIONAL! LOL

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A MUST WATCH! LOL

EDISON SCANDAL VIDEO!

well.. not R(A) definitely but it is a string of videos put together.. cast includes edison, gillian, cecilia and nicholas..

WATCH IT LAH! (but it is in mandarin)

http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/11403295-1258760847.html

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i spent $714.40 in bodyshop today.

in less than 2 hours!!!!

all thanks to... the miracle of 50% discount!

but out of the $700+.. less than $50 is my stuff. lol!

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