As Marianne has told you, we are
lucky today to talk about our experience on the Trek a few weeks ago. We were
blessed to be able to participate with our youth in this, feel an amazing
spirit, and walk where the Savior walked.
We spent lots of time planning for
the Trek. One of the things we were asked to do was find a name of someone who
went on the Trek and walk for, or in honor of, that person. The person I chose
was a man named Levi Savage. Levi was returning from a mission to England, and
a well known frontiersmen, so he was asked to help lead one of the last hand
cart companies to Salt Lake. When they were setting out from Iowa, Levi knew
that it was too late in the year to go, and that the companies were not
equipped or strong enough (there were many more women and children to men than
other companies). He actually spoke up at one meeting against going, telling
people strongly that they were going to suffer if they decided to go. I
sympathized with this. I didn't understand, at first, why these people would
head out on a trek that seemed so ill-advised. However, as I learned more about
the circumstances these people were in - many were completely destitute and had
no way to survive the winter unless they were in Salt Lake, I realized that the
only option they had was to press forward and have faith that it would be okay.
Though Levi Savage was against the
Trek, he realized the importance of it and told the people that he would go
with them, help them, and even die with them if that was what was asked. He did
accompany the Willie handcart company the entire way, helping and saving lives.
I admire his faith, and would like to think I would have been strong enough to
make the same decision if I were in his shoes.
One part that Marianne left out is our
transportation to and from the Trek site. When Trek stories are told, this part
is not really a highlight. The same for the original trek - we focus on the
trek over the plains, and don't think much about how they came to be gathered
in Iowa and ready to cross the plains. Most of these people hoping to find
Zion, were converts from Europe. So, by the time they were ready to start
pushing their handcarts over the plains, they had already been traveling for
months by sea and train to get there. They had spent lots of money, their life
savings for many of them. They endured cramped, hot and stuffy conditions just
to get to the point to walk 1000 miles. Our bus ride was nothing like this, but
we did get a small glimpse of it, because our bus ended up not having a working
air conditioner. Let me tell you, this modern convenience is incredible! The
ride back was especially bad - we had to stop at gas stations to buy ice for
the kids to put on their heads and necks. The bus was a great time to get to
know each other better, and to catch up on several years of Mormon Cinema. It
was actually tons of fun.
Obviously, the women's pull was a
powerful experience for many who went on the Trek. Both Marianne and I were
very moved as we participated in it. I'd like to share some of my thoughts and
perspective. But first, I need to set the stage a bit. As we were preparing for
the Trek, many people who had gone before, President Gage in particular, had
warned us that this would be one of the most spiritual experiences we had ever
had. He even went as far as to warn us that we would cry, more than
once... I listened to this with a bit of
skepticism. I knew it would be great, and that I would probably feel the
spirit, but we had done some church history tours before, and so I thought I
knew what was in store for us. Let me tell you: he was right. There was not one
dry eye as we participated in the women's pull, including mine.
So, the women's pull happened rather
late in the day. We had been treking for several hours in the hot sun, with
very little relief. Our family had four
strong, older boys, so we hadn't had to exert much effort to keep our cart
rolling and running smooth. However, we
only had three young women in our family, and one of them was sick for most of
the time we were there and actually rode on a cart most of the way. We had just
finished lunch (and refilled our water so that we were carrying a nice heavy
load) and could see a big hill in the distance. At that point, the very first,
small cloud of the whole trip, covered the sun. I thought it was a "Trek
Miracle" (which our family had been watching for - a little in jest, but
also finding the hand of God many times), but the cloud quickly passed. As we
came closer to this "hill" it became apparent that it was more than
just a hill. We were heading for a small mountain. I dismissed the thought that
it would be the site of the Women's Pull because it was just too big. I was
wrong. When we came to the base of the hill, we stopped for a water break, and
then they called the men away. I frantically tried to make sure my girls were
prepared. I made them drink some water and find their gloves. And then, half
jokingly, gave my wife a good luck kiss. Then said goodbye. I knew it was going
to be difficult, but the spirit of the moment had not hit me in full yet. But
then, after just two or three steps away from my wife and my daughters, I
started crying for no reason. So I quickly pushed my sunglasses closer to my
face to cover the tears and save face a little bit, but the tears just kept
coming. As I kept hiking up this hill (by far the steepest and longest we
climbed), I kept thinking about how, at
one point in the Saint's history, 500 men were called away from their families,
and then far, far more got called away to serve missions. I kept thinking how incredibly difficult that
would be - whether in Salt Lake, in Nauvoo, or on the plains, because you would
have no idea what was going to happen or if they would be okay. Life is
unpredictable, children grow, illnesses happen, and a man called away from his
family for years at a time would have no guarantee that he was leaving them
safely. I imagined it felt as though one would be leaving with the realization
that they could die, especially if he must leave while they were crossing the
plains. As I kept climbing, the
realization that Marianne and the girls would not make it up the hill
overwhelmed me. Three (because of our sick daughter, who did, by the way, walk
up the hill - but definitely didn't push) were not enough to push that heavy
cart up the hill.
We kept walking and walking. The
hill had a saddle in it, or a spot that it leveled out a little. I thought that
we would stop there, wait for the ladies and help them the rest of the way.
But, we just kept climbing. I tried to spot the top, thought I did, but as we
came to that spot, it became apparent that there was yet another tier to climb.
Still, our leaders kept going. At this point, I was feeling some frustration
and anger at the leaders guiding us up the hill. I thought that they could have
made their point, and then let us help the women get our carts up the hill. I'm
sure there were some members at that time of the pioneers that felt those very
same feelings. Why would the Lord ask such a difficult thing? Many of us feel
those feelings now. However, the reason the Women's Pull was so huge and
powerful was because it was difficult. If it was easy, it wouldn't have meant
nearly as much.
Finally, we made it to the top of
the mountain. I turned around and could not even see the women. I could only
imagine what they were doing or how they were faring. I could picture my wife
and girls inching their way up the mountain.
While we waited for the women to
climb the mountain, President Leis talked to us about the divine roll of women.
These beautiful, strong, faithful women that we are so lucky to associate with
and to cling to. Then, we waited silently for what seemed like forever.
Finally, the first handcart came over the ridge. It was the leader cart, and
they seemed to be doing fine with their lighter cart. But then, there was a big gap to the next
cart that was being pulled by young women. As they passed, we removed our hats
and stood on either side of the trail, and had to just watch as they struggled
up the last portion of the mountain. After a few carts passed, my family
finally came into view. I noticed immediately that there was an extra person
pushing our cart. No, not an angel, but a angelic helper. I realized, when I
saw that, that we aren't meant to be alone and struggling. The church has
organizations and resources to help us as we climb our mountains. Our works
alone may not always be enough, but there is help. Like my wife talked about,
the Lord with provide. Sometimes, an angel will push us along, but far more
often, help comes to us from the people around us.
After all the women made it to the
top of the hill, the men gathered and sang the song Emma just sang, Army of
Helamen. I love the power this song gives to all of us, to know that we have
God behind us that we can do whatever he asks. After the song, we got to be
with our families again. I hurried to Marianne and gave her a big hug and tried
to tell her how much I love her. She was sobbing, which made me cry even more.
It took a while before we were all calmed down enough to drink and rest, and
then finally, unbelievably, we were able to carry on.
The last day of the Trek was
something unique to Marianne and I. It was our 11th anniversary. What a way to
celebrate! Although maybe not the most romantic thing, being on our third day
without a shower, it was certainly inspiring. One of the reasons the early
saints were so anxious to find Zion was because of their conviction about the
temple. They longed to be able to go to the temple, make covenants with God,
and be sealed to their loved ones. As Marianne and I celebrated, I was very
grateful for the covenants we had made together, 11 years earlier, and so glad
we will be together forever. The temple is worth every sacrifice.
I'd like to turn from sharing
experiences now to a thought I have pondered. That thought begins with a
question: Why? Why, if these people were
being faithful, did God let such tragedy happen? First, the obvious answer was
that it strengthened those who endured it. The trek to Utah changed lives.
Those who suffered knew their Savior and never lost their faith. Second, I believe that the church as a whole
was strengthened because of the trials of the Willie and Martin Handcart
companies. As soon as Brigham Young and the members in Salt Lake heard the news
that there were two other handcart companies still on their way, they had a
rescue party prepared the next day. The members in Salt Lake sacrificed possessions
and family members to go out into stormy, cold weather to help strangers who
they knew needed them. And finally, I believe it happened for our sake, so that
we can read their stories and have these experiences to help our own
testimonies grow.
So, why do we go on the Trek? Why is
it so important to remember the challenges our pioneer forefathers endured? I especially wondered if it really meant so
much to me, without any related ancestors on the Trek, as it did to Marianne,
who has a whole book of pioneer stories on both sides of her family. There are
many answers to this question, but let me use some of President Hinckley's
words to put my thoughts together.
"Can a generation that lives
with central heating and air conditioning, with the automobile and the
airplane, with the miracle of television and the magic of the computer
understand, appreciate, and learn from the lives and motives of those who had
none of these and yet accomplished much of tremendous consequence?
In the environment in which many of
us live, there is need for reminders of lessons learned in the past. In our
times of abundance, it is good occasionally to be taken back to earlier days,
to have our minds refocused on the struggles of the early Latter-day Saints. Oh, how much is faith needed in each of our
lives—faith in ourselves, faith in our associates, and faith in the living
God."
We need and can find faith in
ourselves as we learn about the pioneers. They had traveled from the Missouri
River, taking three months to cover the distance we cover in two hours by
airplane. We can find faith in
ourselves as we do difficult things in a creative, positive way with our eyes
on God.
We need and can find faith in others
as we learn about the pioneers. Our pioneer forebears worked together for the
common good. I am profoundly grateful for the essence of that spirit of
helpfulness which has come down through the generations.
And finally, we need and can find
faith in the living God as we learn about the pioneers. They regarded their coming west as a blessing
divinely given. The power that moved our
gospel forebears was the power of faith in God. It was the same power which
made possible the exodus from Egypt, the passage through the Red Sea, the long
journey through the wilderness, and the establishment of Israel in the Promised
Land. It was by this power that our gospel forebears left Nauvoo and the
beautiful lands of the Mississippi to travel to the shores of the Great Salt
Lake.
Theirs was a vision, transcendent
and overriding all other considerations. When they came west they were a
thousand miles, a thousand tedious miles, from the nearest settlements to the
east and eight hundred miles from those to the west. A personal and individual
recognition of God their Eternal Father to whom they could look in faith was of
the very essence of their strength.
I know the faith the pioneers had
can be ours. I bear witness that I felt the spirit and power of God. I know He
loves us and I know He lives.