Missing Him

Karson loved to clap his hands

The black circle is going to be a picture of Karson.

It's been 6 months already since he left us but someday's it feels like yesterday. It's been really hard to learn how to live without him! Everything is still in the same place and I just can't bring myself to put his machines away. When I hear a high pitch sound it still makes my heart rate increase thinking for a split second it's his alarms going off . I think about him a million times a day and just wish he was here and healthy.

Catching up

Sorry it's been so long since I last posted. I guess I have let the grieving consume a lot of my time. I have so much to post about so I will be updating my blog often.

First, I have to talk about Hadley. She turned 7 on April 16th (the same week Karson turned 3). We are so proud of her the strength and faith that she has. It definitely hasn't been easy for her, she too is going through the grieving process and it is a slow process. She has been struggling with anxiety so we have taken her to therapy and I pray that she will be able to one day be rid of it permanately. She just misses Karson so much. He was the one that could comfort her the most just by me wrapping his arms around her. I remind her all the time that Heavenly Father is slowly sewing our hearts back together. She is so cute this one night as I was tucking her in bed she told me that she could feel Heavenly Father sewing her heart. Most of the time she thinks he's with her. She'll set him a place at the table or buckle him in the car. She takes him where ever she goes . I hope that Hadley will one day be able to help other kids that are in her same situation.