Nothing
Posted on: Saturday, October 24, 2009
Posted at: 5:48 PM
Posted at: 5:48 PM
song on repeat.
again and again.
my heart feels on repeat too.
the feeling keeps coming back.
i turn around, see an empty bed. the bed where you used to lie with me.
you kept it warm, you keep me warm.
without you, it feels cold.
look to my left, see an empty space by the door. the space where your luggage used to sit.
you kept my room real, you make it real.
without you, it feels so empty.
i really miss you.
i look at the notes, movie tickets, photos, it makes me cry.
why can't we just run away together?
and start our lives anew.
when you're not here,
i got no one to be with,
i got nowhere to go,
i got nothing to do.
everyday is just another day that i just look forward to sleeping again so that time will pass faster...
to the day i see you again.
i wish you're here baby.
without you here, i'm nothing.
Pain
Posted on: Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Posted at: 3:13 AM
Posted at: 3:13 AM
People say "love is pain".
I agree.
Not because I've been hurt, or am hurting.
You took the pain away.
You make me feel like I'm worth something.
You make me happy.
You make me feel like the luckiest girl in the universe.
You give me love.
The most painful thing in the world is to be apart from the one you love.
But for you baby, it's worth it.
Thank you for loving me baby.
20/20
Posted on: Thursday, August 27, 2009
Posted at: 5:32 PM
Posted at: 5:32 PM
Last night, I learnt a really interesting phrase which I'm going to keep for the rest of my life.
"Everything is 20/20 sight from behind"
When I look back in my life, I can see the mistakes I made and I realise that although I wished it didn't happen to me, but it's those mistakes that made me who I am today.
I may regret the mistakes, but I don't regret the lessons.
I love you Baby.
I miss you.
I will never leave you.
I will never regret loving you for the rest of my life.
Poison
Posted on: Monday, August 24, 2009
Posted at: 12:58 PM
Posted at: 12:58 PM
Its mid-day.
The weather today is fine. But still a little chilly.
I think I have Arthritis or Rheumatism or something. When I feel cold, my bones start to ache. Damn I feel old.
Radio News Driver's Licence due Friday.
Am sitting in the studio now, getting started. Should've done so last week already.
3 scripts and 2 pieces of audio.
I'm on a roll.
The studio makes me feel like home.
Surprisingly calm and peaceful.
Music playing to keep me in the zone.
I start to feel my passion for Radio again. Not that I lost it. I just haven't been in the studio for awhile.
Things without you slows down.
Things without you feels lost.
Without you, part of me is missing.
But I've been thinking about what Chai said.
I don't want us to be poisonous for each other.
I'm getting myself back into shape.
I'll get my groove back.
Cos' I know I want the same for you.
We know we're always with each other.
So baby, you do your thing. I'll do mine.
Cos' we'll be reunited again.
I love you Baby.
I will never leave you.
The weather today is fine. But still a little chilly.
I think I have Arthritis or Rheumatism or something. When I feel cold, my bones start to ache. Damn I feel old.
Radio News Driver's Licence due Friday.
Am sitting in the studio now, getting started. Should've done so last week already.
3 scripts and 2 pieces of audio.
I'm on a roll.
The studio makes me feel like home.
Surprisingly calm and peaceful.
Music playing to keep me in the zone.
I start to feel my passion for Radio again. Not that I lost it. I just haven't been in the studio for awhile.
Things without you slows down.
Things without you feels lost.
Without you, part of me is missing.
But I've been thinking about what Chai said.
I don't want us to be poisonous for each other.
I'm getting myself back into shape.
I'll get my groove back.
Cos' I know I want the same for you.
We know we're always with each other.
So baby, you do your thing. I'll do mine.
Cos' we'll be reunited again.
I love you Baby.
I will never leave you.
18
Posted on: Friday, August 21, 2009
Posted at: 2:11 PM
Posted at: 2:11 PM
18 more days to go baby!
It's a risk I'm willing to take, to be close to you.
I love you.
1437
Posted on: Thursday, August 20, 2009
Posted at: 11:40 PM
Posted at: 11:40 PM
I'm not ashamed of my past. My past has scarred me deep within and out. There are many things I've done that I'm not proud of.
But my past is what made me who I am today.
Today I stand strong.
Today I still have the faith that we'd last. I had that faith since day 1.
Today I know for a fact you are the love of my life.
Today I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Baby, we gotta be strong for each other.
I can't wait to see you again, to hold you in my arms, look into your beautiful eyes and tell you how much I love you and how special you are to me.
Just to wait for that day, I will be strong, for you, for me, for us.
I love you baby. I will never leave you. I am always with you, just like I always feel you here with me.
Another 200 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Sunday, August 16, 2009
Posted at: 4:38 PM
Posted at: 4:38 PM
1. you sleep with me
2. you keep my bed warm
3. you keep me warm
4. you cover me in the rain
5. you got caught in the rain
6. you wear a long pullover from valleygirl
7. you went to carousel with your parents
8. you met stef and me at carousel
9. you went for dinner with your parents after that
10. you told me your dad likes peanuts
11. you kissed me on my cheek when your parents turned around
12. you forget to put your hand on my lap in the new car
13. you dropped your stuff at 2-68
14. you let me button your jacket for you
15. you went to the dim sum cafe with me
16. you were upset with me at dragon palace
17. you wanted to hang around alone in the city
18. you left me alone that day
19. you told me how you honestly felt in the end
20. you wipe my tears
21. you paid for parking
22. you went to the airport to pick ailin up with us
23. you have a lot of 'junk' in your bag
24. you got a new bag from your mum
25. you got hong kong drama from eric
26. you were shocked to find out people who started smoking
27. you tell me to stop saying you're pretty
28. you are pretty
29. you accept my compliments
30. you let me say you're pretty after i got upset
31. you got lost while sending your mum home from the airport
32. you had to turn one huge round to go back
33. you keep making my chip n dale kiss
34. you ask me why i'm chip
35. you met my friends in singapore
36. you stayed at my house with me
37, you stayed at your aunt's house
38. you stayed at corpthorne kings with me
39. you went to zouk with me
40. you like viceroy menthol lights
41. you paid for cab fares
42. you were ok when we slept on separate mattresses
43. you played with princess
44. you waited at the vet clinic with me
45. you consoled me when princess died
44. you let me cry
45. you helped me move my stuff
46. you helped me unpack my clothes
47. you fed me panadol
48. you made porridge for me when i was sick
49. you were happy that i ate
50. you rented hong kong dramas from northbridge
51. you passed the show to your parents
52. you watched 'harry potter and the half blooded prince' with me
53. you didn't mind when i fell asleep during that movie
54. you watched 'ice age 3' in 3D with me
55. you didn't laugh at me when i wore the 3D glasses
56. you always ask me for my nail clipper
57. you clip your nails by the dustbin in the kitchen
58. you always ask whether Tigga came back
59. you poured too much food for Tigga
60. you were sad when Tigga ran out
61. you played with Pappin when he came
62. you are not impressed with shrek
63. you comforted me when i failed my driving
64. you are confident that i'd pass the next time
65. you push the trolley in coles
66. you remember to lock the doors in the new car
67. you went to perth mint with me
68. you bought a love coin for me
69. you ask me for my zodiac in the shop
70. you went to caversham with me
71. you didn't mind missing the shows
72. you pat the animals
73. you took pictures with the animals
74. you were scared to feed the deer
75. you didn't mind missing the koalas
76. you fed me hungry jacks fries in the car
77. you stood on the 'vibrator'
78. you watched 'my life in ruins' with me and the rest
79. you didn't mind watching a movie you watched before again
80. you ask me to apply for the student edge card
81. you watched 'the proposal' with me
82. you accepted my proposal
83. you didn't believe me about the 'free gift'
84. you didn't mind it wasn't romantic
85. you watched 'public enemies' with me and jacelyn
86. you were afraid of some of the gun shots
87. you told me it was johnny depp
88. you wanted me to watch 'overheard' with you
89. you watch it with me
90. you made sure there were subtitles
91. you said the actor is very handsome
92. you told me he's not the singer i thought he was
93. you told me they look alike
94. you offered to help me wash the toilet
95. you washed the toilet
96. you cleared the litter box
97. you gave me a outgoing passenger card at the airport
98. you wrote lines for me
99. you gave me your malaysian address
100. you didn't mind the choker broke
101. you went to burswood to see people gamble with me
102. you told me about the daniel story
103. you advised the guys not to lend him money
104. you played mahjong with me, cat and ki ghin
105. you didn't win at all the first time
106. you won the second time
107. you teamed up with stef
108. you didn't mind her blurting out your cards
109. you offered to let her play
110. you wore the purple dress when i ask you to dress nice
111. you always dress nice
112. you sold your text books in the guild shop
113. you helped cat buy the text book from your friend
114. you watched me play basketball
115. you didn't mind when i didn't score any shots
116. you went for your jab
117. you wanted me to be there
118. you were surprised i was there
119. you told me it doesn't hurt cos i was there
120. you slept in the car while driving to rebecca's uncle's house
121. you slept with your mouth open
122. you helped massage my legs
123. you wiped my perspiration off my forehead
124. you didn't mind when i stank or when i was dirty
125. you said you'd still hug me
126. you said you'd still hold me tight
127. you said you'd do that no matter what
128. you went to kardi tavern with me and the rest
129. you didn't mind not going kardi during your last week
130. you would rather play mahjong
131. you played poker with us
132. you lost at poker
133. you felt bad when i paid for your losses
134. you brought water for me
135. you kept craving for bubble tea
136. you bought bubble tea in the city
137. you returned the hong kong series on time
138. you fed me fish crackers in the car
139. you attempted to pull me out of bed
140. you always want to play 'catching' with me in the flat
141. you would forget to close the door
142. you dyed your hair
143. you went to see belle's dog
144. you gave her dog treats after she did a trick
145. you played circle of death with us
146. you drank coke
147. you didn't mind me drinking that night
148. you put me into bed
149. you meet me after class
150. you went to aqwa with me
151. you were surprised at your farewell party
152. you kept asking me how i invited people
153. you thanked me for it
154. you consoled stef when she cried
155. you took pictures with everyone
156. you got 2 bottles of wine
157. you thought you lost the white wine
158. you played question game with us
159. you shouted that you love me to everyone
160. you didn't mind me putting cake on your face
161. you don't wear your glasses when you are on a flight
162. you cried the morning you had to go
163. you had to go
164. you liked the scrapbook
165. you didn't understand why i gave you a compass at first
166. you read my message
167. you then understand why
168. you cried while reading the scrapbook
169. you cried at the airport
170. you hugged me very tight at the airport
171. you didn't let go of my hand
172. you start to talk like nigel
173. you know i will ignore you when you do that
174. you will still do that
175. you talk normally when i ask 'WHAT' very loudly
176. you talk normally when i ignore you
177. you changed your hard disk of your laptop
178. you ask for the pictures we took
179. you called me when you touched down at the airport
180. you called me before the plane took off
181. you told me you will never leave me
182. you will never leave me
183. you tell me you trust me
184. you trust me
185. you ask me to take my medicine
186. you don't want to worry for me when you're not physically with me
187. you agree we're only physically separated
189. you always lose at thumb wrestling
190. you went to little caesars with me, jasmine, terence and angel
191. you had a bite of the chocolate dessert pizza
192. you let me lie on your shoulder in terence's car
193. you scold people when they scold or bully me
194. you will grind your teeth
195. you say funny things when you sleep
196. you will always be with me
197. you are my everything
198. you cannot leave me
199. you are stuck with me for the rest of your life
200. you know i will love you with all my heart and soul
2. you keep my bed warm
3. you keep me warm
4. you cover me in the rain
5. you got caught in the rain
6. you wear a long pullover from valleygirl
7. you went to carousel with your parents
8. you met stef and me at carousel
9. you went for dinner with your parents after that
10. you told me your dad likes peanuts
11. you kissed me on my cheek when your parents turned around
12. you forget to put your hand on my lap in the new car
13. you dropped your stuff at 2-68
14. you let me button your jacket for you
15. you went to the dim sum cafe with me
16. you were upset with me at dragon palace
17. you wanted to hang around alone in the city
18. you left me alone that day
19. you told me how you honestly felt in the end
20. you wipe my tears
21. you paid for parking
22. you went to the airport to pick ailin up with us
23. you have a lot of 'junk' in your bag
24. you got a new bag from your mum
25. you got hong kong drama from eric
26. you were shocked to find out people who started smoking
27. you tell me to stop saying you're pretty
28. you are pretty
29. you accept my compliments
30. you let me say you're pretty after i got upset
31. you got lost while sending your mum home from the airport
32. you had to turn one huge round to go back
33. you keep making my chip n dale kiss
34. you ask me why i'm chip
35. you met my friends in singapore
36. you stayed at my house with me
37, you stayed at your aunt's house
38. you stayed at corpthorne kings with me
39. you went to zouk with me
40. you like viceroy menthol lights
41. you paid for cab fares
42. you were ok when we slept on separate mattresses
43. you played with princess
44. you waited at the vet clinic with me
45. you consoled me when princess died
44. you let me cry
45. you helped me move my stuff
46. you helped me unpack my clothes
47. you fed me panadol
48. you made porridge for me when i was sick
49. you were happy that i ate
50. you rented hong kong dramas from northbridge
51. you passed the show to your parents
52. you watched 'harry potter and the half blooded prince' with me
53. you didn't mind when i fell asleep during that movie
54. you watched 'ice age 3' in 3D with me
55. you didn't laugh at me when i wore the 3D glasses
56. you always ask me for my nail clipper
57. you clip your nails by the dustbin in the kitchen
58. you always ask whether Tigga came back
59. you poured too much food for Tigga
60. you were sad when Tigga ran out
61. you played with Pappin when he came
62. you are not impressed with shrek
63. you comforted me when i failed my driving
64. you are confident that i'd pass the next time
65. you push the trolley in coles
66. you remember to lock the doors in the new car
67. you went to perth mint with me
68. you bought a love coin for me
69. you ask me for my zodiac in the shop
70. you went to caversham with me
71. you didn't mind missing the shows
72. you pat the animals
73. you took pictures with the animals
74. you were scared to feed the deer
75. you didn't mind missing the koalas
76. you fed me hungry jacks fries in the car
77. you stood on the 'vibrator'
78. you watched 'my life in ruins' with me and the rest
79. you didn't mind watching a movie you watched before again
80. you ask me to apply for the student edge card
81. you watched 'the proposal' with me
82. you accepted my proposal
83. you didn't believe me about the 'free gift'
84. you didn't mind it wasn't romantic
85. you watched 'public enemies' with me and jacelyn
86. you were afraid of some of the gun shots
87. you told me it was johnny depp
88. you wanted me to watch 'overheard' with you
89. you watch it with me
90. you made sure there were subtitles
91. you said the actor is very handsome
92. you told me he's not the singer i thought he was
93. you told me they look alike
94. you offered to help me wash the toilet
95. you washed the toilet
96. you cleared the litter box
97. you gave me a outgoing passenger card at the airport
98. you wrote lines for me
99. you gave me your malaysian address
100. you didn't mind the choker broke
101. you went to burswood to see people gamble with me
102. you told me about the daniel story
103. you advised the guys not to lend him money
104. you played mahjong with me, cat and ki ghin
105. you didn't win at all the first time
106. you won the second time
107. you teamed up with stef
108. you didn't mind her blurting out your cards
109. you offered to let her play
110. you wore the purple dress when i ask you to dress nice
111. you always dress nice
112. you sold your text books in the guild shop
113. you helped cat buy the text book from your friend
114. you watched me play basketball
115. you didn't mind when i didn't score any shots
116. you went for your jab
117. you wanted me to be there
118. you were surprised i was there
119. you told me it doesn't hurt cos i was there
120. you slept in the car while driving to rebecca's uncle's house
121. you slept with your mouth open
122. you helped massage my legs
123. you wiped my perspiration off my forehead
124. you didn't mind when i stank or when i was dirty
125. you said you'd still hug me
126. you said you'd still hold me tight
127. you said you'd do that no matter what
128. you went to kardi tavern with me and the rest
129. you didn't mind not going kardi during your last week
130. you would rather play mahjong
131. you played poker with us
132. you lost at poker
133. you felt bad when i paid for your losses
134. you brought water for me
135. you kept craving for bubble tea
136. you bought bubble tea in the city
137. you returned the hong kong series on time
138. you fed me fish crackers in the car
139. you attempted to pull me out of bed
140. you always want to play 'catching' with me in the flat
141. you would forget to close the door
142. you dyed your hair
143. you went to see belle's dog
144. you gave her dog treats after she did a trick
145. you played circle of death with us
146. you drank coke
147. you didn't mind me drinking that night
148. you put me into bed
149. you meet me after class
150. you went to aqwa with me
151. you were surprised at your farewell party
152. you kept asking me how i invited people
153. you thanked me for it
154. you consoled stef when she cried
155. you took pictures with everyone
156. you got 2 bottles of wine
157. you thought you lost the white wine
158. you played question game with us
159. you shouted that you love me to everyone
160. you didn't mind me putting cake on your face
161. you don't wear your glasses when you are on a flight
162. you cried the morning you had to go
163. you had to go
164. you liked the scrapbook
165. you didn't understand why i gave you a compass at first
166. you read my message
167. you then understand why
168. you cried while reading the scrapbook
169. you cried at the airport
170. you hugged me very tight at the airport
171. you didn't let go of my hand
172. you start to talk like nigel
173. you know i will ignore you when you do that
174. you will still do that
175. you talk normally when i ask 'WHAT' very loudly
176. you talk normally when i ignore you
177. you changed your hard disk of your laptop
178. you ask for the pictures we took
179. you called me when you touched down at the airport
180. you called me before the plane took off
181. you told me you will never leave me
182. you will never leave me
183. you tell me you trust me
184. you trust me
185. you ask me to take my medicine
186. you don't want to worry for me when you're not physically with me
187. you agree we're only physically separated
189. you always lose at thumb wrestling
190. you went to little caesars with me, jasmine, terence and angel
191. you had a bite of the chocolate dessert pizza
192. you let me lie on your shoulder in terence's car
193. you scold people when they scold or bully me
194. you will grind your teeth
195. you say funny things when you sleep
196. you will always be with me
197. you are my everything
198. you cannot leave me
199. you are stuck with me for the rest of your life
200. you know i will love you with all my heart and soul
Another 100 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Thursday, June 18, 2009
Posted at: 5:09 PM
Posted at: 5:09 PM
1. you planned a candlelight dinner for me
2. you wore a dress i've never seen you wear before
3. you trust my cooking
4. you always ask if i need help when i cook
5. you didn't mind me cooking for cat and ki ghin
6. you went to newport with me again
7. you dragged me to the dancefloor at paramount
8. you had becardi 151 at metrocity
9. you went to look for your friends in metrocity
10. you got jealous at metrocity
11. you refused to sing a love song for me in the city
12. you didn't mind not sitting beside me at lunch that day
13. you are cutting down on your smokes
14. you stopped buying your own pack
15. you ask me if you can smoke
16. you don't mind me smoking still
17. you argued with you sister
18. you were pissed at your sister
19. you cried on my shoulder
20. you hugged me while crying
21. you told your dad to disown you
22. you put the phone aside even when your dad haven't hang up
23. you called him back when i told you to
24. you let your sister use the car
25. you reserve the car for me
26. you agree that my room is messy
27. you want a dog
28. you you laugh when i tell you why we're not getting a dog
29. you tell your sister when you need the car
30. you went for a movie with Jie and Khai
31. you told me you darkest secrets
32. you felt uncomfortable telling me about your past
33. you thought i was upset when hearing about your past
34. you were reassured when i told you i was not upset
35. you understand that i love you for who you were and who you are
36. you made a video for me
37. you made a video listing reasons why you love me
38. you put the song 'it is you' in the video
39. you got stef to help you with the video
40. you put up the reasons why you love me on your blog
41. you are counting down the days till you arrive in singapore
42. you call me from perth
43. you switch on your table lamp when i told you to
44. you thanked me for packing your table
45. you liked the way i arranged your shelf
46. you vacummed your room
47. you are always concerned about my hand
48. you like my new hair cut
49. you like my new highlights
50. you ask me if i want you to dress nice
51. you went to the rise with me
52. you were beside me when i was fined
53. you wanted to go with me to pay the fine
54. you followed me out of the court
55. you agreed to leave me alone
56. you wanted to look out for me from far
57. you met belinda in metrocity
58. you gave stef advice
59. you use my heater
60. you watched 'honey' with me
61. you watched 'december boys' with me
62. you let me fall asleep half way through that movie
63. you fell asleep after i did
64. you sit by the bed to wait for me
65. you always ask if i wanted water
66. you went for dinner with me, Jie and stef
67. you were not well at newport
68. you were stuck in the toilet
69. you were very pale
70. you told me you're ok as long as i'm with you
71. you know i'm always with you
72. you understand when i cannot call you
73. you ask me to go out with my friends
74. you want me to enjoy myself
75. you called me from ikea
76. you thought shayma's nephew was a girl
77. you asked me to pinch his cheek for you
78. you want to see my dog
79. you saw my dog on webcam
80. you skype with me
81. you know i want to see your pretty face on webcam
82. you wave to me when i say hello
83. you let me take pictures of you through skype
84. you tell me not to put up the pictures on facebook
85. you folded a star with a rubber band
86. you let me sleep for 10 more minutes
87. you call me when you receive my texts in the morning
88. you apologize for not being there
89. you are always with me
90. you hold me tight at night
91. you know i'm always holding you tight
92. you went to the agency to ask for your flights
93. you wanted to buy your tickets at the agency
94. you used Jie's credit card to pay first
95. you didn't want to use your dad's credit card
96. you take care of my macbook
97. you water the flowers i gave you
98. you tell me you were never this in love
99. you say i take things easy
100. you call me 'baby'
i love you baby.
thank you for loving me.
2. you wore a dress i've never seen you wear before
3. you trust my cooking
4. you always ask if i need help when i cook
5. you didn't mind me cooking for cat and ki ghin
6. you went to newport with me again
7. you dragged me to the dancefloor at paramount
8. you had becardi 151 at metrocity
9. you went to look for your friends in metrocity
10. you got jealous at metrocity
11. you refused to sing a love song for me in the city
12. you didn't mind not sitting beside me at lunch that day
13. you are cutting down on your smokes
14. you stopped buying your own pack
15. you ask me if you can smoke
16. you don't mind me smoking still
17. you argued with you sister
18. you were pissed at your sister
19. you cried on my shoulder
20. you hugged me while crying
21. you told your dad to disown you
22. you put the phone aside even when your dad haven't hang up
23. you called him back when i told you to
24. you let your sister use the car
25. you reserve the car for me
26. you agree that my room is messy
27. you want a dog
28. you you laugh when i tell you why we're not getting a dog
29. you tell your sister when you need the car
30. you went for a movie with Jie and Khai
31. you told me you darkest secrets
32. you felt uncomfortable telling me about your past
33. you thought i was upset when hearing about your past
34. you were reassured when i told you i was not upset
35. you understand that i love you for who you were and who you are
36. you made a video for me
37. you made a video listing reasons why you love me
38. you put the song 'it is you' in the video
39. you got stef to help you with the video
40. you put up the reasons why you love me on your blog
41. you are counting down the days till you arrive in singapore
42. you call me from perth
43. you switch on your table lamp when i told you to
44. you thanked me for packing your table
45. you liked the way i arranged your shelf
46. you vacummed your room
47. you are always concerned about my hand
48. you like my new hair cut
49. you like my new highlights
50. you ask me if i want you to dress nice
51. you went to the rise with me
52. you were beside me when i was fined
53. you wanted to go with me to pay the fine
54. you followed me out of the court
55. you agreed to leave me alone
56. you wanted to look out for me from far
57. you met belinda in metrocity
58. you gave stef advice
59. you use my heater
60. you watched 'honey' with me
61. you watched 'december boys' with me
62. you let me fall asleep half way through that movie
63. you fell asleep after i did
64. you sit by the bed to wait for me
65. you always ask if i wanted water
66. you went for dinner with me, Jie and stef
67. you were not well at newport
68. you were stuck in the toilet
69. you were very pale
70. you told me you're ok as long as i'm with you
71. you know i'm always with you
72. you understand when i cannot call you
73. you ask me to go out with my friends
74. you want me to enjoy myself
75. you called me from ikea
76. you thought shayma's nephew was a girl
77. you asked me to pinch his cheek for you
78. you want to see my dog
79. you saw my dog on webcam
80. you skype with me
81. you know i want to see your pretty face on webcam
82. you wave to me when i say hello
83. you let me take pictures of you through skype
84. you tell me not to put up the pictures on facebook
85. you folded a star with a rubber band
86. you let me sleep for 10 more minutes
87. you call me when you receive my texts in the morning
88. you apologize for not being there
89. you are always with me
90. you hold me tight at night
91. you know i'm always holding you tight
92. you went to the agency to ask for your flights
93. you wanted to buy your tickets at the agency
94. you used Jie's credit card to pay first
95. you didn't want to use your dad's credit card
96. you take care of my macbook
97. you water the flowers i gave you
98. you tell me you were never this in love
99. you say i take things easy
100. you call me 'baby'
i love you baby.
thank you for loving me.
Another 100 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Saturday, May 30, 2009
Posted at: 4:44 AM
Posted at: 4:44 AM
1. you drink coffee
2. you won't drink coffee when i told you i won't kiss you
3. you loved the reasons i wrote in hospital
4. you pin up the post its notes i wrote for you
5. you pin those notes on your notice board
6. you wrote me reasons why you love me on your blog
7. you study for your exam
8. you are studying taxation now
9. you stayed up with me all night in the library
10. you watched mulan 2 on youtube
11. you smiled when i told you to
12. you woke up late
13. you wished me luck for my test
14. you got drunk last friday
15. you cried when you got drunk
16. you felt bad you couldn't stay in hospital with me
17. you paid for parking
18. you bought me fries
19. you haven't finish copying my songs
20. you won't stop kissing me
21. you like sour sweets
22. you fed me hello panda biscuits
23. you were almost late for your chinese test
24. you went for your chinese test
25. you helped call shawn about the house
26. you studied with your friends in the library
27. you went for japanese food with me
28. you don't like spring onions
29. you can be quite picky with food
30. you asked khai to help plug in your laptop charger
31. you bring your laptop to the library
32. you talked to me online though i was beside you
33. you asked for an extra ear piece from rebecca
34. you forgot to tell angel rebecca had an extra ear piece
35. you messaged nigel to ask him to bring an extra ear piece for angel
36. you drove back to take your contact lenses out
37. you went back to the library after that
38. you offered to pick nigel up from o'connors
39. you offered to drive him home
40. you ate the nugget i fed you
41. you made porridge twice in a week for me
42. you make the best tasting porridge
43. you always ask if the vege is cooked
44. you always forget what you want to say
45. you always say 'good question'
46. you say that whenever you can't answer a question
47. you also say that when you're unsure
48. you clear your throat
49. you sent shayma off with me
50. you want to go to singapore
51. you wanted to surprise me in singapore
52. you ask me to dress nice on monday
53. you lent angel your converter
54. you borrowed the electronic dictionary from your friend
55. you went to your friend's house to pass her notes
56. you attempted to look for your friend at subway where she works
57. you always eat the tuna sandwich at subway
58. you eat your subway sandwich with honey mustard sauce
59. you ate jacelyn's curry
60. you eat the porridge you cook with korean chilli
61. you don't want me to sit alone in the library
62. you always shower before you eat
63. you pin up the reasons i wrote for you on your notice board
64. you introduced me to your high school friend
65. you went to sexpo with me
66. you went in the sex train with me
67. you went to visit vanessa with me
68. you bought chocolates and magazines for her
69. you tried to help nigel with his calculator
70. you always look out for my piercing
71. you get irritated when your ex calls
72. you speak to your ex in cantonese
73. you eat caesar salad
74. you fed me gummies at the sexpo
75. you offer to take over the wheel
76. you text me when you hear sirens and know i can hear them
77. you would assure me that you're with me
78. you prefer hugging me than stitch
79. you watched "she's the man" with me on my laptop
80. you watched 'shallow hal' with me on my laptop
81. you taught me how to make french toast
82. you let me beat the eggs
83. you let me melt the butter
84. you wash the dishes after meals
85. you ask if i like your waist
86. you ask if i saw you in a dress
87. you want to give up on your taxation
88. you didn't when i told you not to
89. you finish the coffee in your flat
90. you have 4 empty plastic bottles on your table
91. you took my heater
92. you use my heater
93. you pull the hand brakes up for me
94. you cringe when you see my bruises
95. you make sure i got space on the bed
96. you respond when i call you 'baby'
97. you got no preference on what pet name i call you
98. you tell me i'm awesome
99. you are awesome
100. you are my beautiful sexy love!
Disappointing
Posted on: Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Posted at: 1:56 AM
Posted at: 1:56 AM
today,
i found out the truth about people.
it's disappointing.
but i know for sure
that no matter what happens,
i'd still go the distance for you all.
cos' when i don't,
i'm not myself.
and life's too short to be someone i'm not.
but i truly believe,
that one day,
you'll all see the difference i make.
i found out the truth about people.
it's disappointing.
but i know for sure
that no matter what happens,
i'd still go the distance for you all.
cos' when i don't,
i'm not myself.
and life's too short to be someone i'm not.
but i truly believe,
that one day,
you'll all see the difference i make.
thank you darling,
for standing by me.
Posted on: Sunday, May 24, 2009
Posted at: 2:21 AM
Posted at: 2:21 AM
you are the light beyond the darkness
you are the warmth beyond the cold
you are the laughter beyond the cries
you are my hope beyond my helplessness...
thank you darling... i love you.
you are the warmth beyond the cold
you are the laughter beyond the cries
you are my hope beyond my helplessness...
thank you darling... i love you.
That's It
Posted on: Friday, May 22, 2009
Posted at: 1:24 AM
Posted at: 1:24 AM
5 pills every morning.
driving me nuts.
the worse thing is,
no matter what i swallow,
nothing changes. nothing will change.
the pain still stays.
it never goes, it never leaves me alone.
now everytime i close my eyes
everytime i sleep
i'm haunted
drips
needles
syringes
pills
machines that never stop beeping or making annoying noises
the plug that weakens my hand
the ambulance
they haunt me
they scare me
i'm tired.
tired of pretending that i'm ok.
tired of pretending i don't feel the pain.
tired of telling myself things are going to be ok.
tired of thinking that it will heal.
i fall asleep alone
haunted
and wake up realising
i'm still alone
that's it.
i've given up hope.
no more pills.
just let the pain kill me. now.
.
driving me nuts.
the worse thing is,
no matter what i swallow,
nothing changes. nothing will change.
the pain still stays.
it never goes, it never leaves me alone.
now everytime i close my eyes
everytime i sleep
i'm haunted
drips
needles
syringes
pills
machines that never stop beeping or making annoying noises
the plug that weakens my hand
the ambulance
they haunt me
they scare me
i'm tired.
tired of pretending that i'm ok.
tired of pretending i don't feel the pain.
tired of telling myself things are going to be ok.
tired of thinking that it will heal.
i fall asleep alone
haunted
and wake up realising
i'm still alone
that's it.
i've given up hope.
no more pills.
just let the pain kill me. now.
.
Another 50 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Monday, May 11, 2009
Posted at: 2:27 PM
Posted at: 2:27 PM
1. you didn't comment on the previous reasons
2. you have an ipod
3. you hardly use your ipod
4. you helped me decide on which ipod to buy
5. you told me which one was more worth it
6. you kept comparing the price here to the one back home
7. you felt guilty
8. you thought it cost a lot
9. you felt better when i told you i am happy with my choice
10. you said its ok as long as i'm happy
11. you don't like it when we sleep far apart
12. you would ask me in the morning why i slept so far away
13. you feel funny when we sleep at our separate homes now
14. you didn't mind me getting another piercing
15. you didn't notice my new piercing at first
16. you like my new piercing
17. you are always afraid you'd hit my piercing
18. you never hit my piercing on purpose
19. you love dogs
20. you always sayang the dogs at home
21. you tell me not to be fierce to the dogs
22. you want to own a dog next time
23. you don't like it when pappin scratch your legs
24. you always ask why pappin is so hyper
25. you passed me my asthma pump
26. you always pat my back whenever i cough
27. you will ask me if i'm ok
28. you don't like it when i mention lung cancer
29. you ask me when my assignment is due
30. you pin up your fringe
31. you say its oily
32. you put the pin in your mouth
33. you pin up my hair
34. you say my hair is not thick enough
35. you will still pin up my hair
36. you laugh at nigel all the time
37. you claim you're crazy when you laugh too much
38. you like the dancing scene from 'white chicks'
39. you watched 'hot chicks' with me
40. you needed me to explain what happened
41. you weren't paying attention
42. you know what songs to play in the car
43. you ask me if i want to change songs
44. you won't change the song when i sing a long to them
45. you like the story of the lighthouse keeper
46. you sleep with the lights off in your room now
47. you are willing to sleep with the lights off at my place
48. you didn't know i sleep without light
49. you got a call from your ex
50. you tell me you're happy with what you have now
2. you have an ipod
3. you hardly use your ipod
4. you helped me decide on which ipod to buy
5. you told me which one was more worth it
6. you kept comparing the price here to the one back home
7. you felt guilty
8. you thought it cost a lot
9. you felt better when i told you i am happy with my choice
10. you said its ok as long as i'm happy
11. you don't like it when we sleep far apart
12. you would ask me in the morning why i slept so far away
13. you feel funny when we sleep at our separate homes now
14. you didn't mind me getting another piercing
15. you didn't notice my new piercing at first
16. you like my new piercing
17. you are always afraid you'd hit my piercing
18. you never hit my piercing on purpose
19. you love dogs
20. you always sayang the dogs at home
21. you tell me not to be fierce to the dogs
22. you want to own a dog next time
23. you don't like it when pappin scratch your legs
24. you always ask why pappin is so hyper
25. you passed me my asthma pump
26. you always pat my back whenever i cough
27. you will ask me if i'm ok
28. you don't like it when i mention lung cancer
29. you ask me when my assignment is due
30. you pin up your fringe
31. you say its oily
32. you put the pin in your mouth
33. you pin up my hair
34. you say my hair is not thick enough
35. you will still pin up my hair
36. you laugh at nigel all the time
37. you claim you're crazy when you laugh too much
38. you like the dancing scene from 'white chicks'
39. you watched 'hot chicks' with me
40. you needed me to explain what happened
41. you weren't paying attention
42. you know what songs to play in the car
43. you ask me if i want to change songs
44. you won't change the song when i sing a long to them
45. you like the story of the lighthouse keeper
46. you sleep with the lights off in your room now
47. you are willing to sleep with the lights off at my place
48. you didn't know i sleep without light
49. you got a call from your ex
50. you tell me you're happy with what you have now
Another 50 Reasons Why I Love Racheal Yap
Posted on: Sunday, May 10, 2009
Posted at: 7:24 PM
Posted at: 7:24 PM
1. you are touched by my reasons
2. you said i looked serious when typing the previous reasons
3. you say you will know what i'm typing next time i look so serious
4. you feed me gummies while i'm driving
5. you ask me which coloured gummy i like best
6. you will then feed me the purple ones
7. you claim you are addicted to the gummies
8. you don't mind me taking your cigarettes
9. you spin your pen during service
10. you went to church with me
11. you are scared to go to the library toilet by yourself
12. you lied on my lap
13. you fell asleep when you lied on my lap
14. you eat the salad from aroma cafe
15. you were there when i cried
16. you sat beside me when i was crying
17. you wiped my tears away
18. you eat sausage roll while waiting for me to finish work
19. you wait for me to finish work
17. you studied at the food court with me
18. you studied by yourself while waiting for me to finish work
19. you put up pictures of you and me on your notice board
20. you took my notice board pins
21. you used my notice board pins
22. you pin up notes i write on post its for you on your notice board
23. you still keep the 3 roses i folded using fererro roce chocolate wrappers
24. you always smile back when i draw a smiley face on your notes
25. you would always draw a smiley face next to the on i drew
26. you agreed to let razeen use your car
27. you let me drive them there instead
28. you said i could take my time though razeen was waiting
29. you told me i'm your top priority
30. you didn't mind the dent in the car
31. you didn't blame me for anything
32. you said its ok as long as i'm safe
33. you told me what 'ffk' is
34. you trust razeen with your car
35. you pin up the 'phantom of the opera' ticket on your notice board
36. you thank me for filling up petrol in your car
37. you tell me that i don't have to fill up petrol
38. you prayed with me at church
39. you stood up during worship
40. you webcammed with your parents
41. you looked for me immediately after you were done with webcamming
42. you watched 'white chicks' in the library
43. you told me you were stressed when you were not
44. you told me you were studying
45. you were actually watching videos
46. you didn't know why you didn't tell me the truth
47. you apologized for lying
48. you promised not to keep things from me again
49. you have been eating more
50. you lighten my heart whenever you laugh
2. you said i looked serious when typing the previous reasons
3. you say you will know what i'm typing next time i look so serious
4. you feed me gummies while i'm driving
5. you ask me which coloured gummy i like best
6. you will then feed me the purple ones
7. you claim you are addicted to the gummies
8. you don't mind me taking your cigarettes
9. you spin your pen during service
10. you went to church with me
11. you are scared to go to the library toilet by yourself
12. you lied on my lap
13. you fell asleep when you lied on my lap
14. you eat the salad from aroma cafe
15. you were there when i cried
16. you sat beside me when i was crying
17. you wiped my tears away
18. you eat sausage roll while waiting for me to finish work
19. you wait for me to finish work
17. you studied at the food court with me
18. you studied by yourself while waiting for me to finish work
19. you put up pictures of you and me on your notice board
20. you took my notice board pins
21. you used my notice board pins
22. you pin up notes i write on post its for you on your notice board
23. you still keep the 3 roses i folded using fererro roce chocolate wrappers
24. you always smile back when i draw a smiley face on your notes
25. you would always draw a smiley face next to the on i drew
26. you agreed to let razeen use your car
27. you let me drive them there instead
28. you said i could take my time though razeen was waiting
29. you told me i'm your top priority
30. you didn't mind the dent in the car
31. you didn't blame me for anything
32. you said its ok as long as i'm safe
33. you told me what 'ffk' is
34. you trust razeen with your car
35. you pin up the 'phantom of the opera' ticket on your notice board
36. you thank me for filling up petrol in your car
37. you tell me that i don't have to fill up petrol
38. you prayed with me at church
39. you stood up during worship
40. you webcammed with your parents
41. you looked for me immediately after you were done with webcamming
42. you watched 'white chicks' in the library
43. you told me you were stressed when you were not
44. you told me you were studying
45. you were actually watching videos
46. you didn't know why you didn't tell me the truth
47. you apologized for lying
48. you promised not to keep things from me again
49. you have been eating more
50. you lighten my heart whenever you laugh
Mummy
Posted on:
Posted at: 6:57 PM
Posted at: 6:57 PM
today is mother's day.
tribute was paid to mothers today at church.
thoughts of my mum filled my mind.
its only then i realise how much i miss her.
mummy,
i doubt you'll read this, but i want to let everyone out there know that you're amazing.
you are the most remarkable person i know with the extroadinary power make me be a better person.
i know there are times, many times, that we don't get along.
but through the tough times, you were always there for me.
i may complain a lot about things, but you must know,
given another choice to start over, i'd still want you as my mother.
i remember when i was young, i refused to go to the doctors and i hated taking my meds, though i still do.
and i would complain and complain and complain, saying how sucky it is to be me, with what i have, being born the way i am.
you didn't scold me, you didn't nag at me.
all you said was, "girl, you know that if there is a way, mummy would switch places with you anytime".
you are awesome mum.
your sacrifices for this family, for me, has not been unnoticed.
you are truly one of a kind and your love, has given me so much in my life that i would like to say
thank you.
you are one of a kind. to me, you're always perfect.
i love you mummy.
happy mothers' day.
tribute was paid to mothers today at church.
thoughts of my mum filled my mind.
its only then i realise how much i miss her.
mummy,
i doubt you'll read this, but i want to let everyone out there know that you're amazing.
you are the most remarkable person i know with the extroadinary power make me be a better person.
i know there are times, many times, that we don't get along.
but through the tough times, you were always there for me.
i may complain a lot about things, but you must know,
given another choice to start over, i'd still want you as my mother.
i remember when i was young, i refused to go to the doctors and i hated taking my meds, though i still do.
and i would complain and complain and complain, saying how sucky it is to be me, with what i have, being born the way i am.
you didn't scold me, you didn't nag at me.
all you said was, "girl, you know that if there is a way, mummy would switch places with you anytime".
you are awesome mum.
your sacrifices for this family, for me, has not been unnoticed.
you are truly one of a kind and your love, has given me so much in my life that i would like to say
thank you.
you are one of a kind. to me, you're always perfect.
i love you mummy.
happy mothers' day.
born to make YOU happy
Posted on: Saturday, May 09, 2009
Posted at: 10:18 PM
Posted at: 10:18 PM
(i don't know how to live without your love)
i was born to make YOU happy
(cause' you're the only one within my heart)
i was born to make YOU happy
always and forever you and me
that's the way our life should be
(i don't know how to live without your love)
i was born to make YOU happy
i was born to make YOU happy
(cause' you're the only one within my heart)
i was born to make YOU happy
always and forever you and me
that's the way our life should be
(i don't know how to live without your love)
i was born to make YOU happy