Recently, I just received my academic result and was really happy.
I was delighted because my overall GPA increased and it seems to have given me some hope for entering into a university.
However as I look back now it all just seemed like a dream. The improvement on my GPA was not able to ensure me a place for university. I know that I really wanted to further my studies.
I know that I wanted to be like my elder sister going to university and making my parents proud.
I have this feeling that I will not be able to enter into a university. Although I have tried hard and put in all the efforts to ensure a good grade, it just seems that the dream of entering into a university is just a far-fetched dream. A dream that will not be realised.
I have been waiting for letters sent out by the local university. Universities like NUS & NTU, but each day as I goes to open the letter box, the disappointment that I gets just rolls up to be a ball of sorrows. Right now, I have decided to put this dream of mine behind. I know that I have to move on. I know that even if i held onto this dream it will never be realised. Therefore, now I am moving on.
Seems like I will have to start searching for job and stop being a bum at home. I received a call from my lecturer this morning. Telling me that I should apply for the university of Sterling. This is because with my current grade, it would help in ensuring me a place for this university and even if I was not accepted by the local universities, I will still be able to study. However, this really is not what I wanted. My lecturer also told me that with the current grade that I am having it is almost impossible for me to enter in the local universities other than SMU. I am really very depressed! No one can help me. Many a times I prayed to the lord, to the buddha but it seems that my prayings were not heard. I wanted so badly to enter into NTU, I really wanted to go NTU to further my studies because the courses that are really attractive to me.
Since none of my prayings were heard, it is time for me to stop expecting for any miracle to happen.
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Wednesday, July 16, 2008,11:57 PM
What's Wrong?
Today, my clique played the ANGEL & MORTAL game.
This is already the second week that we exchanged prizes. & I have a feeling that it is you.
I cant reveal yet, because our deadline is 30th July.
Thanks ANGEL for those gifts. I really like and love it.
Anyway just to help my friend promote:
My friend has an online shop that sells great clothes and bags.
Anyone interested please go to this webpage:
http://www.weheartvintage.blogspot.com/
I really loved the things there. It's cool.
So anyway, back to my topic,
erm had my calculus result back, I scored A but no feeling leh.
Maybe is because i had my international business test earlier then think that i will not fare well so my mood not so good.
I feel confused? what's wrong with me? Am I waiting for anyone?
Waiting for that someone to just say what he/she thinks?
I am waiting for an answer?!
Just forget it! I think I just concentrate on my studies now.
TESTS/EXAMS/PRESENTATION
and sing K with gay gang, then have outing with KIM, DIANA, VANESSA & MS LIM,
& I must not forget HAVING STEAMBOAT with the CHEERS people (CANDY, HUIMIN, MEIQIN, BRENDA, CHUNHUA & ETC).
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Saturday, July 05, 2008,2:27 AM
TEP Award
Although I did not managed to attend the award, but I am sure it was fun.
I know that if i had attend, all my memorises during TEP would come back. Maybe I might become teary because there were times of joy, times of "suffer" and times of mistakes.
No matter what, it was a good experience, it was an experience that I will never forget.
Everything that I gained from it, from the learning to friendship made.
I will be uploading the videos of the TEP Award taken by Pei Yu, soon. Look Forward for it.
Since it is kind of late I shall end here first.
Will update soon.
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Tuesday, June 17, 2008,5:32 PM
Updates on my LIFE
Now I am having my 2 weeks holiday.
This is already my 2nd week, and I will be busy doing projects and studying for tests.
As for the 1st week, I have been busy with my work @ the INDOOR STADIUM.
There was an AVIVA game, @ the indoor stadium, where I worked as a CHEERS member again.
This is my 1st external roadshow that I helped out. Finally, this time there was a pay, although rather low. $5 per hour.
@ this event, I took some photos on my camera and others were taken by the management. So I will be uploading the few photos that I have 1st, then will upload the others when I received it.
Below will be the photos. Anyway, just want to say THANKS to those friends @ the roadshow that I known. U PEOPLE were great, very happy to know everyone of you.
Above are the 2 group photos that my camera has taken. But it is not the complete group.
This is Shi Rey. A nice gal (1 of the CHEERS In-charge)
These are 2 great Friends that I known: Jannah & Farhana
This is one of the cashier there.We alway take bus home together.
This is my section mate. A pretty lady.
As for these 2, MY NYP friends. CLOSE MATES. HUI MIN & CANDY
This is one of the guy that I knew @ this event. His name: Shahnawaz.
So that's the end of the UPDATES.
For more information, tune in next time.!
CHEERS
wendy!!:)
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Saturday, June 07, 2008,3:32 PM
My only 2 days rest!
Haiz now is the start of my holiday.
But it seems like I only have 2 days to enjoy.
Next week going to be a long week. Need to work for the whole week, but i think it is going to be fun. will enjoy myself there.
The week after, erm i guess need to do project the whole week already. really hope to find some time out to go shopping or just gathering with my friends.
Jia you! Long Way to go!!!!
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Thursday, May 08, 2008,1:30 AM
TEP result out! :) or :(
The TEP results are out.
All the times in CHEERS & EMRS have finally paid off.
However I still find sad. Because my classical did not do very well.
I had hoped that my classical would get an A too.
Although I knew that I did not do well enough for my customer service module,
I had hoped that a miracle will appear.
I always pinned high hopes on getting a GPA of 3.7 & above,
But now my dream has been shattered.
The best that I can do is only 3.6..,
I really feel sad to know that no matter how hard I try I will never get 3.7
I know that I am greedy, and I admit it.
I really hope to go to a local university. It means alot to me.
I hope that I can @ least maintain my grade of 3.6..,
so that I will still have the chance of going to the university.
Now that times are bad, I really want fulfill my dream of going to the uni.
& hope that by the time I graduate from uni, I will be able to find a job.
I guess I should take the PSC scholarship, @ least to secure a job.
Quite depressed!
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Saturday, April 12, 2008,5:07 PM
不愛拉倒!
不爱 拉倒拉倒 不需要
温柔安慰拥抱止痛药
你有 多好多好 不重要
太多选择等我挑
可恶的嘴角 不安的笑
温柔的词藻 感觉不到
说什么个子小 你也不算太高
胃口变不好 心情浮躁
别转弯抹角 我受不了
说星座配不好 一大堆的问号
不爱 拉倒拉倒 不需要
温柔安慰拥抱止痛药
你有 多好多好 不重要
太多选择等我挑
可恶的嘴角 不安的笑
温柔的词藻 感觉不到
说什么个子小 你也不算太高
胃口变不好 心情浮躁
别转弯抹角 我受不了
说星座配不好 一大堆的问号
不爱 拉倒拉倒 不需要
温柔安慰拥抱止痛药
你有 多好多好 不重要
太多选择等我挑
让开 让呼吸变好分开 沙漠变绿草
原来 没有你打扰世界会那么好
不爱 拉倒拉倒不需要
对你一哭二闹想上吊
你是 伤我不了要知道我的智慧比你高
Rap：够了别说 不要啰嗦 我的耳膜都快听破
都是你错 不要辩驳 不要回头来赖我
什么难过 并不难过 不过换个人再爱过
杯子弄倒 大腿烫到 小小惩罚算你赚到
不是懊恼 那是骄傲 绝对不会被爱打倒
还你手表 不爱拉倒 吃块高卡路里蛋糕
谁不爱我 我还爱我 生活一样够美够火
根据星座 你不会好过 永远都会把爱错过
不爱 拉倒拉倒 不需要
温柔安慰拥抱止痛药
你有 多好多好 不重要
太多选择等我挑
太多选择等我挑
太多选择等我挑
**PS: This is just a song lyrics. Just sharing with you guys this song.
<<不愛拉倒>> from <<原來我不帥 OST>>
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Monday, January 28, 2008,10:42 PM
Things I wanted to do
There were plenty of things I wanted to do.
Like:
I wanted to blog on the 26/01/08.
However, I was too tired and went to bed.
It is kind of late, but I still hope that I'm still in time.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :) JAE JOONG!!! :)(:
I totally cant believe that I found another friend who has the same birth date as JJ.
Totally unexpected.
My stopover @ EMRS is coming to an end, & frankly speaking, I will miss the times there.
I had fun, & got to know more people.
From the whole TEP, I came to know of many other business course people.
I am glad to be able to know them. They are nice people.
THINGS TO BE DONE:
Saturday: My sister's 21st Birthday party
By Sunday: Complete my PERSONAL & SUMMARY REPORT of EMRS.
04/02/08 - 10/02/08 : MY BREAK TIME!!!
No school!!! HAHA :)
05/02/08: Going to learn ways to bake the LOVE LETTER & BEE HIVES biscuit.
Many things to be completed.
All the way, Wendy!!! U can do it (:
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Monday, January 21, 2008,1:04 AM
Memories
Today, I am feeling very emo.
There has been a phrase running through my mind:
"As strong as I may seem, I am an emotional person."
I was watching a korea drama, titled: 感谢.
The story line evolve around a little girl who contracted AIDS by a careless doctor.
The life that she is going through.
It is a touching show.
Today was the finale & her great grandfather died.
The scene when her great grandfather died, it brought back many memories of my grandmother.
Below are some things that I want to tell her:
婆婆，我是敏良。您还记得我吗？
您在天国还住得开心吗？
我非常的想念您，我好像见见您。
我想念您的体温，我惦记您的微笑。我也忘不了您的香味。
我知道您在天上保佑我，也知道您能听见我的祈祷。
只要让我知道您是幸福的，我就会很高兴。
I know that my grandmother will be able to see this paragraph.
I will always keep u in my heart.
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
Friday, January 18, 2008,11:34 PM
Thoughts ~~~
Whenever I am sad, I hope to confide to you.
However I am always afraid that I would disturb you.
I was afraid that you would never reply.
Whenever I wanted encouragement, I would hope to hear from you.
However you always seem far away that I wasn’t able to hear.
Patience has a limit, how much more could I wait?
An empty shell on the sandy shore.
An empty soul within the mind.
Came the waves and off it went.
Filled with love that never ends.
Life was tiring without your concern.
Life was interesting with your conversation.
Life was meaningful with your understanding.
Happiness was everything, when you were here.
Recalling the fun times we had.
Deleting unhappy memories that led to tears.
Learning to live a life without you.
It was never easy, for I need to forget.
>>Na3dinE blogged.>
