Tuesday, August 30, 2005
yays! came home early after my run at the gym after work. was busy talking to taiwan just now. sighs...
today, i finally finished denise's survey!! wahaha! after 3 days, i feel so bad. who cares?! Just 9 more days to the end of IA! but guess what? today after meeting, they were asking if i can extend my stay... o_O oh my goodness. actually extending will not turn out to be a bad idea and i can stay on and earn more while i change job... hehe!
now, i gotta rush my report.. so many things to do!! argh!! Time is running out!! argh!! okie! gotta go!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:00 AM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
i've not been blogging for days! have been so tied up with work. at the end of the day just come home and fall asleep...
so many things happened this week... but anyway, it's all about work once again... everything goes back to the same thing.
yesterday went to work at lagoon. i really despised HER! argh!!
well... ching and i are good friends. and the fact that we see each other once a week and being sticky is nothing wrong alright?! by saying that other DMs have got that thingy, is just bringing your status down. so you mean to say your husband can't please you?! i'm superly pissed with her!
today i still have to see her and today is weiching's last day. anyway, lagoon is going to close for a month. i'm going to look for a new job anyway. been at lagoon for a year or so. i guess it's all enough. enough of those rubbish. moving out of my comfort zone for greener grasses... =) 3 places in mind actually. i'll have to see what they offers and make sure it's convenient for me!!
alright, IA is coming to an end and i'm pretty glad about it! although sad to leave my colleagues. but my stint in MSA has been really fruitful. thanks people!! just 2 more weeks!! time flies...
actually, glen and christina had this stupid argument which then i find it really childish. even brian (christina's sup) said that they behave like kids. i mean both of you are older than me. so please... i pray that someday they'll kiss and make up. but i don't see the possibility. God say forgive and love your enemies. why can't you guys do that? sighs...
anyway, gotta rush on my report! still gotta get to work later!! argh... life... so tired once again... Lord, I pray...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:28 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
finally, something for the blogger once again! it's the start of the new week!
weekend just passed by like that... working over the weekends was perfect! seeing th dolphins brings peace to my heart. i came home for dinner, daddy cooked crabs! yummy but guess what?! my rashes came back! Sighs, if only i wasn't greedy! haha!
Then, worked with Bingyu, Thomas, Azni and Siti. New GROs, but I didn't have to do anything! haha! so i sat there and it was pouring heavily, the more relax i was! haha!
Today, went to work and i realised that i lost my badge! sighs! i arrived in the office, turned on my PC and saw this email from the security. Apparently, some kind soul picked up my Micron Badge at Serangoon! wahhaa! but guessed what? I called the person back and... i've got to collect it at Bartley Road and I don't know where's that. It's some construction worksite too! I'm not going alone and that's for sure! but anyway, thanks kind soul! hehe!
Work was ok, trained Veron today and everything seems fine. she was telling me about Julia shifu which then i totally agreed with her. Julia and her attitude problem. sighs. enough of office politics! it's bad to bad mouth people jen! alright, alright...
I'm tired once again. I don't understand why am I so drained out today?! Today in three aspect once again. I only seem to find peace when I'm with God.
Anyway, I came home without dinner and sighs... cooked spaghetti. oh well... alright diary, i need to go look through my final report!! I'm trying to rush my final report and hopefully at least get a B. It'll be good if I could get an A! haha! High hopes, high expectations. Better to keep them low... ciaos!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:31 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Just another day! but guess what?! I had half day! wahaha! not because of anything... but I had sore eye! I had to be home as instructed by the doctor.
i went to the office this morning and carried on with Eng Eng's Slides (Department manager). Then I decided to go down to the clinic to get solution for my right eye. Approached the nurse but she said, "I think it's better that I register you." I was like o_O
Alrighty if you insist. Went up to continue what I was doing. Finally, I've completed!! Handed over to Eng Eng to see and she was pretty pleased about it. Just made some amendments and that was it. I went down to the clinic and it was my turn! Yays! Doctor said, "I would give you some antibiotics eye drops and pills." I was like "is it sore eye?" he said, "yah, I have to give you a day MC, it's contagious, so it's better to go home to rest." In my heart, I was like happy to get MC but dreaded to go home after working half way. Wasted! Sighs...
But the funniest person was Brian (Christina's Supervisor). I walked over to Costing and he said I got bitten up in the eye. What rubbish, so I walked to him and said, do you want me to pass some sore eye to you? He happily put his face in front of mine and said, sore eye will not be transmitted like that. Haha! I was cracking up, the next thing that happened was... Those costing people were telling him, "Brian, it can be transmitted like that!" whaaha! Good luck Brian!
Anyway, right after the doctor, I went up then Valerie was telling me that Mui Kiang was looking for me. So I went to her office and she came out with 3 pieces of paper. Could you help me with this and put it in a foil? I was like o_O wanna go home also cannot... sighs. So I told her, I can complete it for her but I've got sore eye, I can't make any amendments if I were to do it for her. Still, she wanted me to do it. Ok, up to her. I'm just an IA.
I skipped lunch with friends and stayed in the office doing those slides. Managed to complete ALL of them and left them an email saying I'm on MC and left at 1400hrs. Wished Constance all the best and I'm pretty sad without her around... my chocolate friend! sighs... she's moving on to tobacco company and guessed what?! Her bf proposed to her already!! What lucky girl... =)
Came home taking the train and ate my lunch. Cut my nails and painted them with the new mochacino! wahaha! I like! mamamia!
Had a good nap and woke up, had my dinner. Well, I guess that's the end of my day! I wanna go catch a movie actually... hmmm... see how it goes! Have got to work tomorrow, don't feel like going though. I'm losing passion at Dolphin Lagoon. Sighs.
Still, these few days, work at Micron has drowned me so much... So totally drained...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:11 AM
Friday, August 19, 2005
I can't imagine what these people are thinking?! I worked til 1830hrs today! wahaha! So hardworking eh? Well, i have so much to do!!!
First thing in the morning, I had my meeting with 2 Department Managers (Han Leng and Mui Kiang), Denise (my supervisor), Julia (Shifu) and Veron (she'll be taking over petty cash, travel claims and Concur soon!! but why when I'm leaving?! Sighs!) Surprisingly, from 0930 to 12 pm, I didn't fall asleep! Instead, I was so awake! Had so much to discuss and laughters and all. And they were arguing over the colour of the concur flag! haha! So I came up with this... yellowish orange. haha! Well, colours on the projector and computer screen looked different.
Then I went for lunch. After lunch was when the nightmare started! Oh my... I just sat down and Constance came to look for me to give me the data for the PowePoint Slides which I'm supposed to do. Sounds easy eh? PowerPoint Slides. But you're so wrong! Oh my, the graphs they require was like... o_O I had to sit down and think so hard. I know just by going to excel I can key in data and get the graph done. You're so wrong again! I've got to go through so much financial data! I went bonkers!! Woohoo...
While I was doing, Han Leng came over! "Jennifer, I need your help, could you help me do up some PowerPoint Slides and presentation? I need it in an hour's time." my eyes wasn't o_O it was O_O both eyes opened wide. What can I say? So I walked over to his place and he showed me and explained what he wanted. Gees! Why is everyone doing graphs that's so difficult?! Argh! Driving me nuts again looking at those datas! BUT, I managed to complete his in an hour's time as required. I sat down to think, why is everyone looking for me to do things for them?! Glen and Christina is not transparent alright?!
So I continued with Eng Eng's Graphs... Still struggling. Apparently, stress level went up til I couldn't sleep. I knew they need all these graphs for Mark Helveit's visit. So I stayed til 1830hrs and left the office for dinner. Came home feeling really tired!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:30 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
had my dinner and decided to update my blog early. thought tonight i would sleep early.
well, today was an extremely busy day for me! i did the testing in the early morning. Denise came to look for me to do another testing for those engineers and sales people. That was the first interruption in the morning. Then halfway through, Constance told me Beeyong needed my help with the invoices. I've not been helping her for days. Because I was so busy with Concur. Sighs... With all the petty cash and travel claims daily, it's enough to drown me. On top of that, the travel claims today was like WOW! indescribeable! Then halfway through, Julia came to look for me. We're supposed to run payment today. So i had to check the petty cash vouchers and batch listing. So I had a tea break, went up. I just sat down on my chair for a while then Beeyong came to look for me. So I helped her with the invoices. I was doing invoices halfway, Eng Eng came to look for me. Saying she needs my help for tomorrow to do up a presentation for P11 and FY04. sighs. Tomorrow morning I've got meeting from 0930hrs to 1200hrs! I pray that I won't fall asleep! I'm fainting...
Decided to leave on time today as I was having this headache. Sighs...
came home and had dinner with dad. Apparently, I think mum went out. While i was taking the rice, Dad commented something... You're growing skinner each day and you still don't wanna eat much. Well, Dad is right, I went to the gym to weigh myself just now. I've indeed lost 2KG! sighs... There's nothing I can do. I don't seem to have much appetite nowadays. I don't really enjoy food as much as before. I guess I'm just tired in all aspect - emotionally, physically and mentally. I didn't realized that I lost weight, how come dad notices that? Indeed a dad and I'm a daddy's girl.
Lose more weight also good... I've not been exercising recently. Probably tomorrow after work, I'll head down the company's gym to jog. That's provided I don't feel drained out at the end of the day. I can foresee how busy I'll be tomorrow... I don't wanna think. Think I'll go meet KL later for coffee. Sighs... Thought of staying home to rest. But thought, I should just go out for a breather...
God, help me there... and I pray for Christina. She's been having a hard time... And all these while she's been really strong fighting against her sickness. So carry her through Lord.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 9:47 AM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
well... another day from work again... finding it hard to just settle down to work now. 3 more weeks to the end of IA!!! woohoo! Today, we celebrated Doreen's retirement. I felt a little sad. Everyday she would smile and me and ask how am I. Always scold Glen for bullying me at work. Poor Glen. But we're the best buddies at work together with Xinyi.
I've been listening to songs today in the office. It keeps me going. Else, I'll be falling asleep at my table. Been auditing petty cash and travel claims and also not forgetting my testing. Sighs. Seems like a never ending job. Sometimes, I wish everything would end, please end soon. But what am I going to do when IA is over. I've got no motivation to go back to DL to work.
Frankly, DL is sucky now. Maybe I'm getting a little irritated with one person's attitude. My eczema is flaring up too just like weiching! So stupid! Argh! Went to the doctor, but she said at my age, if I'm still not alright, then it's going to follow me for the rest of my life! =(
Anyway, I'm just thinking of shopping. I thought for so long I've not really bought anything. hmmm... Thought of a new pair of blades. Solomon or K2? thought of getting the top, a bottom, nail polish, shoes...etc. Then again, i suddenly lost everything to shop.
Sighs, maybe all I need is rest again... Being home early and everything seems fine once again. In my safe enclosure...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 9:44 AM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Well oh well... what another day!
I managed to complete the souvenirs for doreen and constance. another one for xinyi and canneth. oh well. nice to see couples getting together. i hope they last for the lifetime. =)
i'm still as tired today, which i don't know what's wrong. i'm so tired... so tired emotionally, physically and mentally. everything is still in a mess. argh... what happened to me?!
i got home for dinner, spent some time with my parents. i find peace in my room. i don't wanna get out to see the outside world. i just want to stay right here. where i feel safe. whereby i don't have to face anyone or any commotion out there.
IA is ending in another 3 weeks. i'm working hard on it. at the end of the day, i just hope my grades will improve. oh ya, i've gotten my scholarship! gotten the money but i don't feel like spending it. i think it's like so pointless to spend now. maybe just save up and i'm waiting for my micron pay this week! Glen was telling me that they would run payment this week as 22nd happens to be a monday and they're going to run the payment before monday! yays! i can't wait... i've gotten my dolphin lagoon pay too. it's peanuts, but still, something right? i mean i can't find any passion in working anymore. in fact, i'm not finding any passion in anything right now.
sighs... maybe the lost soul is still somewhere out there... i'm tired...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:41 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
what a weather... i feel like sleeping so much! yawns! i'm rushing on my final report...
to be truthful, i'm kinda losing passion at work. not because i don't love the dolphins anymore. not because customers are mean. probably because GROs now are so different. and one particular person that has made life at work more miserable. not to name anyone.
Sometimes, i find it so hard to be working with other GROs. Maybe they find it equally difficult to work with me. Well, life goes on.
Anyway, once again. I just want to lead the carefree live. Whereby nobody will bother whatever I do. What is going on in life. Been listening to hillsongs these few days to ease my mind and find peace. I think I just want to be back with God. Just want to share my life with God so much. He doesn't leak secrets and he heals! No one touch my heart like He does, cos there's none like Him! He knows exactly what we're going to do next and he answers prayers! For all the times I've backslided, He remained faithful and always will.
I want to find the lost soul. The person whom I was. So that I wouldn't hurt anyone. As much as IA is coming to a close, I dread the day it would end. Ironic isn't it? Well, at least working gets my mind off things. But I know what I'll be doing. To be truthful, spending time with family is a great thing to do. Even though it's just a dinner! I just did that. Maybe as I grow older, my aspect of life, love and everything changes. The world is changing each day, so am I.
I guess as much as I say I'm ready for lots of things, I guess I ain't ready at all. So now, I'm doing what I'm suppose to do. And that is to go back to God once again and let Him mould me to who I was.
I love this song...
Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour.
I know for sure
All of my days are held in your hands
Crafted into your perfect plan
You gently call me into your presence
Guiding me by your holy spirit
Teach me Dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through your eyes
I'm captured by you Holy callings
Set me apart
I know you're drawing me to yourself
Lead me Lord I pray
Take me, mould me
Use me, fill me
I give my life to the porter's hands
Hold me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the porter's hands
I guess this is what I need. Each day, I'm starting to spend some time with God. Just telling him my problems and what I'm going through each day. All I need is for Him to forgive everything that I've done. Forget my sins, my wrongdoings. He would understand.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:21 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
work ended and here i am at the close of the day... i'm so totally drained. I'm feeling more and more tired each day. perhaps working 7 days a week isn't a good idea. health is getting from bad to worst. i know it, but i still wanna continue this way.
tomorrow am working again with ching, thomas and rudy! thomas is finally attached! cheers! =)
Stephanie is that DM tomorrow! How much I dread going to work when I know I'll be working with her. That's a fact I won't change.
Today work was fine. Just that I was having menses cramp. I didn't quite like it. I was feeling moody... worst than ever! Grrr...
After work, went dinner with San, Felicia and Ching. Cramps isn't going away and I'm feeling terrible! Brrrr... I'm so tired. So tired mentally, physically and emotionally. Sometimes you just want to be alone and fall back gently... I turn to God for the truth, the light and everything that I ever needed. Just to find that lost soul of mine...
Good night diary...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:54 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
i'm so tired with everything that's running through my mind. i guess all i need again is time alone.
i had a great time with colleagues having lunch at park royal hotel. it was farewell for constance and doreen. well, i'm going to miss both of them so badly. doreen nearly tear as she was giving her speech. i know how she feels. just 4 more weeks and i have to part with those colleagues again. mixed feelings.
didn't know finance people can be of such fun people too. took lots of photos with them. thanks for making my stay at Micron memorable. although each day and each time i dread to go work and everything. i know i'll be fine.
friends out there, thanks for being there. but i'll be fine. take care.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:50 PM
Friday, August 12, 2005
finally, i'm home early and able to blog...
i don't think life's been good. so many things that happened recently. suddenly, i feel that i need to break away from everyone. my loved ones and friends. i just want to be alone and be who i was before. Before making any decisions, i've made many mistakes in life.
i feel the distractions around me. i'm slowly breaking away from everyone. i need time alone.
IA is ending soon and everything is coming to a close in a month. i'm kinda looking forward to it.
i'm not having sufficient sleep each night. i'm praying to sleep. maybe i'm just in lost world.
i don't need any advice or anything, but i just want to be alone. maybe that's about it...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:27 AM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
finally! something for my blogger! yays!
well, tomorrow's national so happy advance birthday singapore!
thank God it's the public hols tomorrow... i'm so tired! i can't take it any more! went to the hospital to visit my friend today and she looks alright. will pray that everything goes on fine for her. i think she has been really strong as a matter of fact.
i fell asleep in the office today! argh!! right in front of my computer screen! so i've decided that to make things easier, i woud head to the washroom and sleep! wahaha! came out 15 mins later feeling refresh once again!
my eyes are closing already! i need to rest!! tomorrow i'm going windsurfing!! yays!! make sure i don't fall into the water, which is so impossible! wahah! but i'll try! with great perserverance and determination! woosh!
okie diary, i gotta go!! good night!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 1:21 PM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
finally! i've arrive in the office early and decided to just write something fast of the few happenings in life...
recently, actually nothing much happened! oh well... work and work, on the road to build up my health again and i hope everything goes well...
went to the gym after work on tuesday with glen and xinyi. i somehow felt proud... not exercising for 3 months and still being able to run at a constant pace and i jogged 3click. right, it sounds stupid right... BUT i've not been exercising! it's an achievement. soon, i had to stop, ankle was hurting. =S darn!
hmmm... somehow, i guess life's pretty unpredictable. christina was running a fever the yesterday. when friends kept making fun of her, i had to keep quiet. i can't defend for her. i felt bad. she didn't want anyone to know about her illness. i shall hold it back. i think she's strong. she really is. =) keep it up.
IA is coming to an end in another 5 more weeks. i can't wait, yet hate to leave. dislike the feeling of having to part. i guess somehow, memories will always stay... =)
it's thursday! the long waited weekend is nearing... i can smell it... mamamia!
ok, i gotta get to work!!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 11:02 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
finally i've got the chance to pen something down again!! sighs... yesterday's weather was good for sleeping and i wasn't feeling too well too... so didn't head down to work...
today, weather was hot like crazy and i was at work. i'm quite drained out from work actually... but just wanted to update my blog... my colleagues were asking me to update it...
sighs... nothing much happened at work, just that stupid security that was lazy, so i purposely made him work! wahaha! today is his last day! thank goodness... i hope the next one will be good...
i'm too tired to continue... good night diary... am looking forward to national day for windsurfing...
parents are back from HK with bro and all... wee! am just thinking about wake boarding...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:35 PM
