Sunday, June 13, 2004
It's been a month since I've typed something onto this blogger. Life isn't just as good as it used to be. I thought things would be better... Working at Dolphin Lagoon has always been good, despite all the innocent scoldings and screwed up days. Friends there are cool and fun.
Today, I received an SMS from Andy...saying that Dad is going to divorce Mum. And both of us are allowed to choose only one. Once a decision is made, we're not allowed to keep in contact with each other. I didn't expect things to happen this way. I was sad. At work, only Renee saw it. All I can say is... Mum, you've made the greatest mistake of your life. Both me and Andy are having a hard time. We don't know who to choose... Why must things turn out this way? Life sucks isn't it?
When I looked back at my some of the photos we took as a family, I just broke down and cried. Never expect a happy family to soon part... Hurts in the inside... but I gotta be strong. To say that it's not affecting me is a lie...
I miss my family bonding, where everybody was so happy being together. Today, I came home after my dinner and work, searching for a soul at home, but I couldn't find one. The living room was dark, the house was in total silence.
Dad came home shortly... Andy is "hiding" at May's house. Mum's out. What exactly happened to this family? I need some distraction, I feel so empty. I need to find some peace.... In the arms of the Angels, fly me away from here... The street lights seem so dim... The neighbourhood is so quiet. All these glory and sadness, brings me to nowhere...
Lord, what am I to do? Why has things become what they are today? I hope to find some comfort somewhere...
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:30 PM
