Wednesday, February 07, 2007
my oh my... this goes to show how long i've not updated my blog. for almost 2 months!?
well, life's been going on smoothly for me so far. so it's still not too bad. im struggling with assignments and tests :( no great chinese new year this year. sighs.
i was on 2 days MC which ended today, back to work tomorrow. had sore eye. hehe! don't expect me to meet up with guests with my red and swollen eye. which i actually did on sunday. not too good. it kinda got worst yesterday. itch so badly! stupid eye! and my nose started running in the evening!
went to class today and everything went on smoothly. actually, i'm kinda worried for biz finance. cos, failing the test is equivalent to me failing the whole module, so i can't even fail the tests! what the hell? like totally bad la! gotta work hard for it.
having MA and audit test this coming friday and saturday. sighs. stress level hit high again. when will everything end?! 2 years 2 years... when will the 2 years end?!
anyway, i've gotten my bonus! whee! more money, more shopping! hehe! oh well, i've got no time to go shopping really, so just save up the cash for future shopping! =)
gotta go really soon, needa catch more rest and that's what i longed for!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:08 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
Whee! I'm on 2 days MC! haha! I shouldn't be much happier cos it makes no difference! I can't walk for too long nor stand! what the heck?! ahhhh... i hurt my tender that links my muscles to the calf... my feet is blue black. oh well... don't ask me if I had sprained it or anything, cos i can't recall if I had. Doctor said it might be a split second kinda thing that I don't realised i did sprained it. I'm on medication now and will be on medication even though the swell might have gone down after i get back to work. whatever it is, i just want it to recover before i go to KL and genting this weekend!
Whee! KLCC Aquaria just called me this morning while i was still in dreamland... they managed to secure the last slot booking - dive with sharks on 25th Dec for me! ahhhh! departing on 23rd Dec night, arrive early morning in KL, 24th Dec by 6am and off to Genting (hopefully it doesn't rain) for a day trip then back to KL for my dinner and meetings. Dec 25th my dive! whee! i can't wait! hehe! all the shopping to do @ sunway lagoon and back on the 26th. sobs sobs. what a short holiday i have over the weekends and xmas season, at least better than nothing. =D
then the next holiday would be in February! gotta speak to catherine (director of guest services) bout my leave approval. that's gonna be a long break of 10days! canada, here i come! finally! ahhhh... i'm loving it! skiing! sight seeing! ahhh... so many nice things there! & visiting so many friends there too! lalala! as one gets older, life gets better! why? cos you get the spending power and the freedom to get anywhere! it feels good to be 21years old! haha! =D
now, gotta work extra hard the next semester already. =( as the days past, i get more worried. it seems like i have really touched my books. sighs. =( i don't really wanna continue studying. when will i be done with this degree of mine?! 2 years... tough years to get through. i thought time flies, but it doesn't seems like it when it comes to studies. oh well. pretty dreaded i might sound, but it's the truth. i just want that freaking piece of paper which says i've finally graduated, that's all i care for.
anyway, i'm just enjoying the rest of my holidays and working days for all i care. just keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that some kind souls would write good comments bout the concierge team and of cos our names. what's the point of throwing out business cards but nothing in return. my dear guests, don't just focus on the team @ the hotel that provided you guys with good services. without us, you can't get your limosines too! and we're the one who receives you upon your arrival in Singapore before getting to the hotel.
enough of those said, gotta do some cleaning up then maybe start packing for my KL trip! else no time already! whee!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 12:49 PM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
whee! life's been alright so far...
yesterday was my off day. sunday and monday. what a great time! =) i'm loving it! i went for zouk out! wow wow whee! i had fun! although i didn't stay for long, i need something to chill me out. Zouk out came just in time. wasn't feeling too good those past few days, yet i still put on my fake smile. i'm just praying for the best out of my life.
well, everyone meets failures, that's when you learn to be strong. never give up spirit! lead a life full of inspiration jenn! life still goes on despite bad falls. =)
i can't wait to go KL on xmas! whee! holiday here i come once again! ahhh... after xmas, im looking forward to feb! canada here i come! please take me away from this stressful city!
what drives your life?
i observed that the basic motive for success is the driving force of envy and jealousy!
the man without a purpose is like a ship without a rudder - a waif, a nothing, a no man
i really love this! so people, live your life with a purpose, don't be a no man. be someone whom people look up to, be someone driven in life, be somebody!
sometimes, i look back @ life, thinking what have i really achieved in life. it's almost towards the end of 2006, here comes 2007. sighs, when you age more, time flies. hehe!
year 2006 what have i achieved? i haven't been doing much this year to be exact, now that i start to reflect.
-i finally graduated in my diploma in accountancy which i was struggling for the past 3 years
-i'm now still struggling with my degree in accountancy which i don't even know if i had choosen the right course
-i managed to get my diving license and went around exploring the underwater world
-i finally managed to leave that freaking place for a better working condition! not that i don't enjoy working @ lagoon, i do, but it's the people that sucks! how sad...
-i let go of a 2 and a half years relationship of which i think i made the right choice, no doubt he really treated me nice, but there was a turning point in my life. im sorry.
-i got into shangri-la hotel, which i think was something for me as it's the first time working as a hotelier and i managed to grab the job as an airport concierge. somehow i think God is helping me, at least with this job, i could work and study, more flexible hours.
-i finally got confirmed @ by shang
-i finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet, finally found the one who makes me feel complete
-i finally went through all the hardships with him
-i finally got my dopod!
- i made new great friends
- i finally celebrated my 21st birthday and i had all the liberation in the world! thanks daddy & mummy!
these are not even considered achievements. faints. what on earth was i thinking about? and these are the things that i've really done over the past 1 year? what a shame! shall set my 2007 resolution soon!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:01 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
been such a long time since i posted eh? yeap... not really into the mood of blogging my life nowadays. just wanna live it to the fullest.
everything seems fine so far. just sent renee off the other day. wanru was with us. we had a good chat. heard bout what's happening @ lagoon nowadays. some times i thank God that i've left that place, but i miss the animals. i really do. some times, i have the thought of going back to lagoon. oh well...
it hasn't been stressful for me @ work these days. i'm enjoying it @ the airport. probably with the good friends/colleagues i have @ work makes life great! =) thanks Ayu and Hairi.
got my results today. ahhh.. not as good. im really struggling. in fact, im really thinking have i choosen the right course to be studying? lawrence told me, do you want to take a course whereby you score all the As and yet the degree is not as recognised? or struggle with a course and in future still have a job? i asked him "with the lousy results, you think people still wanna employ you?" isn't it back to square one? it's a little bit hard to accept facts, cos they hurt. and now, it really hurts. argh! the easier way out? or the difficult way out? =S
just let me enjoy this coming zouk out first then i worry.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:42 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
so now what... thanks doc. i got nothing to say.
haven't quite eaten, slept or anything...
something's wrong with dad's spine. he can't walk. i think back on those days whereby dad had stroke, he went through the 8 hours operation. doctor said either he make it through or die in the operating theatre. fine! dad was strong. he learnt how to walk again just like a baby.
now, 2 years down the road, you're telling me there's something wrong with his spine. you can't operate him. why? cos it's too near the nerves, if one mistake it could cause him to be paralyzed. dad's willing to take the risk. BUT neuro scan came out and you're telling me that the blood vessel where they had that freaking 8 hours operation on him is clot up again?! thanks to you surgeons! then what the hell was that 8 hours of life and death for? now it's clot up again? so the chances of getting the second stroke is equally high. in addition, the more you can't operate on dad, cos you guys told me that he'll DEFINITELY die in the operating theatre. i hate you guys, you lied! you lied to me! don't tell me things that's not gonna work for my dad. and you're telling me that dad's old and it's not safe. Fine, i accept that fact, cos he's already 60 years old.
so, when you said paralyzed, there was still hope. now you guys are telling me that death is involved. i thank you people for being truthful to me. tell me how's dad gonna bear the pain, to walk, to do alot of things.
i held on to the faith that dad is recovering fast. he learnt to walk and all. God's playing a game on me! all you want is dad not being able to walk? i rather i take over his place, let him be happy for the rest of his life. please... why must you do this to dad? WHY?!
Lawrence asked me not to ask so many WHYS. i can't help it. i just need reasons. i just want explanation. can anyone give it to me. how frustrating it is for me. ARGH! just kill me will you. everyone's saying i must be strong. i went through this before, why must i go through it again? I said it's not fair, they tell me nothing in this world is fair. but dad had his fair share of having to go through the pain 2 years ago. spare him please. that's all i ask for.
just leave me alone people. at times or rather now, i rarely wanna talk to anyone. just don't irritate me. i just don't wanna repeat my story of what's happening.
in life, i can't lose anything, but NOT daddy.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 3:54 PM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
dad's hospitalised again.
can't walk due to spine problem. what now? God is playing games with me again? why must it happen for the second time? isn't it not enough? give me reasons, i just wanna know why. i lost sleep. i lost interest in talking to others. if i lose dad, i lose everything. just as simple as that. so stay strong dad. cos im slowly losing it also.
posted by Jenn Tan @ 2:47 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
whee!! finally i've got the time to pen down my thoughts again!
phew! the long waited 6 months semester has passed! exams are over! didn't perform quite well this time round, so im keeping my fingers crossed. seriously, it's not easy to work and study. in addition, im working shift work! im kinda afraid of the next semester where projects start rolling in. im gonna be so dead. how well can i really perform? =S God, please help me. 2 years ain't an easy road. whatever it is, im gonna PLAY hard this one month before the release of results! I've tried my best, God will do the rest!
woke up at 10am to pack my room, with all my notes and books all over my study room! gees, not under this kinda room condition can i work! haha! now it's clean! books and notes are all in the cupboard! *winkz* organised my reports, everything in place! makes me happy! =)
work's still fine for me so far, no complaints except for the sucky roster that im having. at times, i think, is dayang going against me or what, why is it that i get sucky roster. i get back to back shift still and covers most of the B shifts. isn't it sucky? oh well, it's ridiculous! i'll see how this whole month's roster goes and when it's time, i have to strike, i will! oh yes, i've gotten my confirmation letter! oh wow whee! haha! =P welcome to the shangri-la family! ;) don't know how long will i stay though. haha! what a joke eh? i just got confirmed, biz card are printing, uniform in the making and then im thinking of leaving.
anyway, it's been really busy these days, hotel is running crazy as well i guess. ayu was saying that "don't you think dayang knows when is the busy and non busy timings? why is it that the 3 of us always get the sucky timings?" oh well my dear girl, then don't you think that i've got sucky roster too? at least you guys aren't that bad. now that hairi is back, i thought it's supposed to be better. but next week, one back to back shift. what the hell?! but the day she gave me a back to back shift is the day that i kinda needed it, cos it's keith and clarice's wedding in the evening, so i need the morning shift. oh well, let it be my luck then! be nice and in return you'll get lots more! =)
now coming back to life, i've got lots of things planned! my diving trip, my xmas shopping, my overseas trip next year...etc. lots to mention, all in my dopod! hee! amazed by what dopod can do? yeah, you better be! haha! enjoy mobility! =P but this stupid mobile seems to hang alot and this morning i can't really answer the phone, it just kept ringing but that vibrating tone, pretty spastic! maybe it's just my luck AGAIN!
you won't know how much i enjoyed my bath last night anyway, it seems like a long time since i had a good bathing time! haha! shampoo and conditioned my hair, body scrub, body foam, finger and toe nails scrub, facial scrub and foam wash! ahhh! i literally fell asleep on my comfortable bed and soon fell asleep! it seems like i've not slept for days! i love that feeling!
now, exams are over, it's also time... to redo my room! whee! new speakers, new furniture! oh, forgot to mention, i've finally gotten my card pounch! whee! after such a long time. there's just too much shopping a lady can do and it's never enough, i figured. i wanna revamp my wardrobe too! sometimes i think simplicity is good enough, at times i like to be sophisicated. they always say, "don't try to understand a lady." we're too complicated creatures to understand guys, just go with the flow! =P
zavier called me yesterday! wah! i thought somehow you've disappeared already you know! haha! she called to ask me out. sorry, can't do so, gotta work. hey, no point having a status with her if you already put a stop to the relationship. what's up with the status thingy? forget it. and i'll see ya at keith's wedding next week! =) get to see the rest of the GROs again, which im NOT really looking forward to it. just miss some people, that's all. and LIJUAN! are you actually gonna attend the wedding too? drop us a SMS k! hope to see ya there!
posted by Jenn Tan @ 4:58 AM
