It's sad when.

You feel a gap between your loved ones and yourself.
You work 6 full days a week, go out with friends once in a month and limit your spendings to the minimum but yet you still don't seem to have enough money.
Your eyes, which you regard as the only physical attributes that are worth being proud of, grow smaller as time goes by.
Your bloody knees and the soles of your feet start to fail on you.
Your ability to dream every damn night about stupid irrelevant things which result in lack of proper sleep for the past 7 years.
You morph into a person you aren't exactly happy to be.

I know I'm still young, but...

...I don't like to feel unsure about how my life is going to turn out.

Last year, I was so darn sure that I want to work specifically in the hotel industry for many many years and slowly rise up to a managerial position.

Months back, I suddenly (thought) I had a great entrepreneurial idea and wanted to start up my own food business.

Then I reverted back to wanting to work in the hospitality industry (hotels, f&b, you name it) for many many years and slowly rise up to a managerial position.

Now, I'm thinking of abandoning the idea of studying uni next year and going to a culinary academy to learn some proper culinary skills.

I might be an indecisive person (sometimes debating with myself over the stupidest things like chocolate or maple syrup), but when it comes to my career path, I'm not being ridiculous.

It's really not easy to overcome the barriers of risking and gambling with your options.

Hmmm.

Just read some random blog and I suddenly had the urge to blog again.
I mean, even if no one reads my blog that doesn't mean I should stop blogging right?
I don't know about you but I personally find blogging a good way to communicate with myself, to clear my head and sort of pi-li-pa-la everything out in one space.

Anyway, I finally caught some past Singapore Idol performances on YouTube.
Didn't catch a single episode on TV because I have night classes on Wed (it's on Wed right?).
Is it me or most of the contestants are of mixed ethnicity?
I wanna have their voices tooooo.
Mine is not..."thick" enough? Or husky. Or powerful. :(

I think it will be quite fun to start a band with some friends. Not for performing, just for some good jamming sessions.

I have this odd feeling stuck in my throat since I woke up. It's like as though I swallowed a bug while asleep. Roar.

Oh and stereotyping isn't a good thing, but it's hard for people not to stereotype when a large group of people with something in common behave the same.

Merry Christmas!