blessed.

"Hey girly pok. Try & catch some slp if possible okie. Hv a goodnight."
"Oooobtw if you need help feel free to call me. Okayzzz."

"Toast bread with philidelphia cream cheese and scrambled eggs. Sounds yummy?"
"You're gonna be fine! Tmr you're gonna show those people how useless some of them are."

It's 3am and I can't sleep because I have a GROUP project due tomorrow to finish by MYSELF.
I would had already teared in frustration, if not for the fact that I feel truly blessed to have true friends that genuinely care (even though I don't know why one talked to me about food HAHA).

I don't mean to go mushy and all, but.......I LOVE YOU GUYS, I REALLY DO.
=)

Okay it's back to trying to keep my eyes open!

Burstdae/berfdey/beefday!

So birthday this year was celebrated (early) with family & (on actual day) the wacky bunch.
Went to Waraku de Gohan, which was really good.
Quality at affordable prices - the whole concept of Waraku deserves several thumbs-ups.
Haagen Dazs after that, and I'll probably never eat there anymore because it's so expensive! =/

Was having a really rough day/night on Wed (as you can tell from previous entry) when Sarice called me & asked me to go down for awhile because she had some surprise.
Dragged myself down (bro was like "eh don't so sian leh") and was greeted by the sight of 12 donuts with 19 candles burning brightly.
Sarice then said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" and I checked my phone - only 11.56pm, lol.
Nevertheless, we sat down & chatted till 330am.
THANK YOU Sarice, for constantly trying your best to cheer me up & always being there. =)
Oh and haha okay thanks Miss "Diane-you-look-like-Patty-lor" as well, for contributing to this donut idea.

Woke up to many sms-es, and the one that stood out was my beloved Yee asking me to read her blog.
Wonderwoman dedicated an entry to me, and I was so touched I nearly teared.
Ai niiiiiiiiiiiiiii hen duo! <3

Met Sasa, Hui and Mui in town and was shooed away by the latter two because they were writing my birthday card.
After 15minutes we set off for Grand Copthorne Waterfront for buffet!
The food wasn't worth the money, but with them travelling beforehand to the hotel and putting the cake down and then bringing it out again 3 hours later, who cares anything else? =)
Kbox after that, with us screeching our lungs out as usual.
Lubb euu 3 kukupoks veri muchxxx! =D

And of course, a huge thank you to everyone else who wished me Happy Birthday as well! Every single msg brought a smile to my face and made me a happier child. =)
Turning 19 - a huge contrast compared to last year.
I truly believe now that everything happens for a reason; nothing's a coincidence.

I mean this with every bit of my heart: that I love every one of you who has stood by me, endured my nonsensical notfunnyjokes oddmoods eccentricseriousness and made me finally realise what truly matters.
=)

Ugh.

I can't pinpoint why I'm feeling this way, since my period's already over and this can't be PMS.
I'm just feeling down, stressed, very irritable and can't seem to be the normal Diane.
Perhaps it's because of school work piling up, increasing responsibilities and annoying people?
And I'm tired of trying to please everyone, being forced to be the middle man and constantly trying to reduce the politics/tension revolving around elsewhere.

Somebody, smack me.

Pensive.

You know, I think I kinda get how mothers feel.
The whole protective "you-cannot-have-relationships-until-you're-older" thing that they always project? It's sort of happening to me, only that I'm not against anyone younger having a relationship la (and not that anyone younger I know of is attached).
It's just.....I don't know, suddenly got me thinking after reading some stuff.

Okay I know I don't really make any sense but what the heck, I need an outlet!

Unsettling.

I know I'm blogging a tad too often but what the heck, I just need to let off a whole lot of steam that's been building up.
Just read some stuff & it really befuddles me why some people just don't treat others the way they should be treated.
If one party is willing to give way, to endure, then why doesn't the other party return the same treatment?
It's so damn unfair; if only there was a way to express the full intensity of it.

And why is it that some just seem to have everything they want?
Don't get me wrong, I SWEAR I'm not envious/jealous.
It's just..........
It seems to me that they don't deserve it because their characters are seriously flawed?
BUT then again, one might ask who am I to judge.
Perhaps it's because I've been there and have experienced, to know.

In any case,
this is EXACTLY why I say I want to go overseas and work once I graduate from NP.
I'm seeing and experiencing more of Singaporeans' ugly sides that I just want to get away from everything and everyone.
That being said, it's not that I don't know that there are uglier sides of the world lurking in the dark and waiting for me to see them for myself.
It's just.........
I'm feeling so uncomfortable that I can't seem to release the clench.

What happened, really?

Get your act together.


Dear X

For the longest time that I've known you, you've always been the same.
Procrastinating is what you're good at; accomplishing something good is so damn rare.
I've lost count on how many entries you've written, or how many times you've tried to convince yourself that you'll FINALLY pull yourself together.

Why is it that you just don't seem to truly learn from lessons of the past?
Or are you just waiting for someone to fling you down 5 flights of stairs before it resonates in your brain once and for all?

Are you going to let another precious year slip past yet again?
You're no longer 13, where time seemed to crawl slowly.
Time's a wastin'; please, please, PLEASE do yourself a favor and start living a proper life.

Love
D

Glooooooomy.

Such a bleary, dreary day.
Called my lau ma zi just now when she was at work and asked her what she wanted me to cook for dinner. She said she wanted to order Macs for dinner because the weather has that "sighsosiandon'tcookla" effect on people.
Dialed Macs number & the guy told me "sorry ah, due to bad weather conditions we cannot deliver now. Call back 1 hour later can?".
=(

SO with that, I decided to improvise and cook CP Shrimp Wanton beehoon for my mom and porridge for myself.
Lol.

I'm so glad I'm stuck at HOME (read: comfortable & happy living in genuine warmth) now eating instant food and not in BJ eating instant plastic. =)

Oh and I realised how important it is to have food supplies at home!
This is to ensure you have something to eat on such a bzzzz night, haha.

I AM REVERTING BACK TO THE LUM NUA SELF AGAIN!!
Scheiße.

Berfdae.

Hmmmmm okay for my dear friends who have been asking what I would like for 20th November, listed below are some stuff you can consider getting for meeeee:

#1 500XL Desktop Speakers (whoever who wants to get this for me, please contact me by 10pm tonight! Thankssss)
#2 My choice of a working desk from Ikea (More important!)
#3 A rectangular-face metal watch
#4 Chocolatiere Electric Chocolate Melting Pot + Simpsons Donut Maker (lol seriously at the bottom of my list)

I can't think of anything else much already, but if anyone wants to contribute ANY amount to "help-Diane-achieve-her-needs&wants" fund I'll be veryyyy happy as well! =)

Fund set up for:

* Driving & Pilates lessons
* Archos 7 & Nokia 6600 Flip

Rarbeesh!

My 23kg carton box (full of stuff that I sent back from China) arrived today, meaning Sailor Squee is back!
I was joking to my brother that maybe I should give him a Chinese name, since he lived in China for 1/2 year.
So, say hello to Sailor Si1-qu1-yi1!
Lol.
With that, my Bayjeeng chapter has finally ended.


Was reading around online & it got me thinking how I haven't met any guy who can make me blog about him in this way:



Okay that whole mushy paragraph up there took me 15 minutes because it's so hard to type stuff like that when you don't have an actual other half! LOL.

But yeah you get what I mean. I haven't met anyone who can make me truly genuinely mean every single word up there.
It's quite comforting actually, finally realising that I haven't met that "someonewhoknowshowtoloveme,withoutbeingtold".
This means he's still out there & time will telllllllllll!
Hahaha. =D

Was feeling quite blue the past few days but somehow after watching Crayon Shinchan & Southpark & writing all these rubbish just now, my mood has brightened considerably!

# You are my soy sauce & I am your sushi.
# I couldn't be a cup of Camomile tea when my Camomile teabag was missing - until you appeared and turned out to be it.
# My life stank until you appeared as my socks, fitting into my shoes perfectly and taking away the odour.
# I was a bruise that couldn't heal until I met the perfect ointment - you.
# I am the hair clay that keeps your hair up, and you are the belt that keeps my shorts from dropping.

AND

1) You are the chocolate chip, I am the dough
2) You are the char siew, I am the bao
3) You are the prata, I am the egg
4) You are the kaya, I am the butter
5) You are the bread, I am the cheese
6) You are the frame, I am the lens
7) You are the battery, I am the handphone
8) You are the toothbrush, I am the toothpaste

Hahahahahaha I could go on forever!