I have kind of forgotten about blogging hahaa.. Thank Takai for reminding me to blog. hahaa but what do i blog about. Wat's up with my life huh?

ok.. my aircon broke down and i have been sleeping in the heat for the past few weeks.The weather is getting hotter and my room somehow traps the heat. And if u didnt know i sleep with my blanket even with the fans on, so inevitably i perspire. Thus, resulting in not sleeping well for the past weeks. Somehow i just kept waking up. No idea if it was due to the heat or wat. Somehow i seem not to be really zzing, my mind seem to be working.. yeah lo

So now at work. I have actually something to do but i cant seem to focus at all to think. sigh...

Feeling tired and abit 'seh' now.Thus decided to read a book.

My application for my studies is still in progress. Somehow im half excited to get their reply. Well well.. i might start enxt yr instead due to bank loan issues.. but well i dunno la. somehow i think i still will start this year haha.. contradicting huh :P

shall blog another time.. :P

I think i have extreme mood swings nowadays haha this is bad. I cant seem to think well.
I wonder how long can one tolerate this swings of mine. Many a time when i swings, i caution myself that even when im in bad mood, it doesnt give me the right to hurt ppl feelings. But well.. haiyoz

I just feel pressured, so much that i cant breathe. i know that there are many out there who have even more than me, well all these i have are just peanuts. God help me.

Sometimes i just need a warm hug and a shoulder to cry on. someone who understands me, someone who is willing to be there literally.

I know all these will be over soon :) Cos there's gonna be a rainbow soon.. yeah :)

i miss those times when i use to touch on the fader and tweak the knobs.
I never know how much i really enjoyed it till now when i stop doing it

I miss those times when shifu make me recoil cables but later 'xin ruan' cos i do too many times
i miss those times when we just 'nua' at audio room or 'cheong' to set up for audio stuff
I miss those speakers that is so heavy, that i nv manage to carry it
I miss the baby speakers(bose) hahaa.. which im suppose to carry at least that but always lazy to carry
I miss that big and heavy cable bag that is my usual companion when we do events

I miss church system when i use to cause it to 'smoke'
I miss the times when YS just started and the team were so small yet united with the same goal
I miss the times when we had training but i always dozed off as it was theory sessions
I miss the setting up before rehersal and the sound check which i used to dread
I miss the microphone which i use to conduct sound check with which i prefer to use my natural voice rather than it
I miss the knobs which i used to tweak and explore with which brings me joy and fun
I miss the hassle of keeping stuff when all has left
In all i really miss them :)

Arghz my head hurts. I dislike this feeling. As it hurts it start of with pain and slowly become numb when i seem to not feel anything, and all around me seems like a dream. I will be weaken but no one seem to understand as i dunno how to expres sit too.. haha oh my..

Sometimes it just bothers me, i dun believe i should live with this headache so often as my life should be filled up with other more useful stuff. arghz.

im just waiting for time to pass now for time to end work... i feell ike just resting now but cant.. haiyoz :( nvm.. going to church alter, shall just enjoy soaking myself in His songs :)

I miss the sea, the breeze and the wonderful waves. Here's a few pics that was taken in phuket. I really really like sea. I can just sit there and just stare at it. Relax and hear the waves. Too bad singapore waves not as big and sea not as clean as phuket. But still doesnt mean i dun like the sea in sg. hahaa..

patong beach

Gail,me,Jack

sis and me

our first dinner, TOM YUM SOUP!!

All i need is transformation from within...
All i need is to have and understand more love of Him
All i want is ....

Im feeling comfortable now as i finally remembered to bring my jacket. :) and the temp. now is 23 deg hahaa... i wonder how long this temp. will stay :)

I thank God that in the midst of the doubts of work and pressures, He showered me with love and pick me up. I was feeling kind of low yesterday but during worship at NCC He picked me up. Once again He showed His faithfulness and gave me a picture that left so deeply in my heart. A picture of me as a little girl learning to walk but keep falliing, but on the other end, with wide open arms He pick me up and wants to carry me and wants me :) Thank you Daddy. hugs

Than in the midst of work today, as i was reading a book,it truely encourage it and moreso, He really knows me so much and love me so much that not only He want to encourage me a little, but simply he encouraged me abudantly. He made me realised that when im discourage at work, there are still ppl at work that really show concern to me :) really touched.

Thank you Lord..

i came across this quote:
Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.

It really serve a reminder that many a times when things matters but i kept silent and how it 'ate me up' and i feel so depressed. Thank you for this reminder :)

There is another quote, but i dun quite grasp the whole idea nor understand it. i pray that He will revel it more and more to me.

Patience is the red carpet upon which God's grace approaches us.

Im freezing, with the aircon behind me which is 16 Deg and that have been increase to 18 Deg now.. But its still so cold.
Silly me, brought my windbreaker home for washing and forgetting to replace it with another jacket. So now i have to freeze here.... In comparison to my collegue's corner, my corner is the south pole. I can rear polar bears lo... and my beloved sup. still find it warm at her corner. I think we seriously should consider switching places. *freeze*

I think i getting more empty headed. I overslept for work yesterday. Forgetting to wind my alarm. I cant beelive it lo. I was woken up at 930am by an SMS and for a moment i wondered wat time it was. nExt i asked myself if i have to work. Than i realised i was LATE...arghzz... so no choice la. took half day time off. Cannot beleive it, i wasted my time off like that... But since i took time off, i shoudnt get it wasted rite? So i continued my beautiful sleep hhaa... :P

Yes im back from phuket for like 2 weeks. And guess wat, i got sun burned even though i didnt sun tan and there was much sun when i was at the beach for a short period of time. And i didnt peel till like now. SLOW REACTION!!

Phuket is filled with roxy and billabong. And im so disappointed as the girls there dun seem to wear sports wear. So to my disappointment, my hopeful awaits of FBT did not come through. FBT sports wear for males there are not fantastic too. TERRRIBLE!! Ok, than u must be wondering rite, roxy and billabong sounds good, can get some surfer shorts or something. but NO!! the shorts are super short and those surfer shorts are all for guys. *faint* i was as close to my ideal short. So sad. But im glad i manage to get a white skirt there. Finally. been wanting to get a denim material skirt but always can find it white or either it is TOO SHORT or too LONG. Now i manage to find one that is not too bad :) *satisfied*

I know this post is super outdated hahaa.. but am sorry, as the lazy bug was getting at me for awhile. hahaa..

Updates updates.. I thank God for allowing things to slowly happen. I have finally applied for Monash Social work. Am waiting for reply and meanwhile i need finances hahaa... bad bad.. *broke* i need to marry a rich husband hahaa.. or probably it will start raining money for me. I think im getting a little cranky already.

Yes, God will provide for me, the money will appear la :) hahaa...

Gonna meet some ppl later at work, arghz i dun like it. Dun like to meet ppl that i dunno... I not that friendly u know hahaa... *shy* Stupid bugs, dun eat me up with my fears. i should eat u up instead. ..