long holiday

okiee im back.. sorry for not updating for sooo long hahaa... or to Takashi, lazy hahaa..oppss..how u knoe ah?? anyway here so update what i did for Xmas period this season hahaa..

The busy weekend start on the 22 dec :P At I'll be home for Xmas. To brief you what is it about, it suppose to be a cluster Xmas party, evangelistic hahaha but i dun think many non-believer came hahaa.. but i believe we did had a great time there with all the wierd games :P Didnt take alot of pic as my phone not that fanstatic lah aha... to viww the pics.. go to my cg blog hahaa..


than 23dec, we had xmas party at work :P
than at night i went to sis house to stay.. hahah.. so here's what we did and what happen...

24 Dec 05

Cookies baking session, all thanks to "brainless chua' which is my sis, she bought vanilla flavour instead of vanilla essence, now the cookies not as nice haha..

mixing all the ingredients

putting on gloves( so that our nails wun get dirty not for hygiene purpose haha"P)

putting the cherry to make it look nicer

ready to bake

baking in progress

its ready!! yummy :)


25 Dec 05 - went to church :) had extreme backache and shoulder ache:(, thanks to Tiger Balm rub, manage to zz for a whle

26 Dec 05- slack slack slack, cant zz, cos shoulder still very painful.:( , still using Tiger Balm rub :P but still cant zz..

went out with Eldest sis to eat dinner, hahaha... and cos the pain was unbearable i finally went for massage. first time hahaa.. the pain was ease for 1 hr and that it came back again.

27 Dec 05 - Woke up at 5am as i haven been zz well due to the pain, despite constant tiger balm rub :( wanted to go home to find my bed and pillow to zz hope it will help but i didnt.. :( so the whoel day i was quite groogy.. cant laugh as i laugh it hurts so much, its this sharp pain oh my...

Thanks to second sis, at nite 3am, as i was finally zzing on the same bed with her, she realise i couldnt zz, she woke up and gave me a massage with full of tiger balm rub for 1 hr hahaa.. than i manage to zzz... finally felt tired.. hahaa...

28 Dec 05 - day trip to malaysia, with the pain hahaa.. but at least abit better. The pain wasnt there as second sis gave me this 'go you' is western medicated plaster, with the painkiller drug in it that ease the pain but very shoulder was still very 'suan'. hahaa... but at least could enjoy mysel, till late noon the drug stop working and pain came back again, thus we decided to go for massage hahaa... :) oh my within 2 days i had so many massage.. hahah first time in my life.. :) Didnt take any pic in M'sia but we went to the still developing Danga Bay, nice place, nice view.

thanks to the massage, the lady is quite nice u know... but its quite surpruising in m'sia at a chinese massage place, this lady did not wear the uniform that all others wore there... she wore a Christian t'shirt, i was like wow.. didnt get to talk much to her as she was concentraing in massaging me, after that massage at least i felt better. pain was subsiding..

and in conclusion, just when i tot what happen wat cause so much pain, could it be cos i very long nv do house work and exercise, thus baking the cookie in progress cause my back and shoulder to have so much muscle ache and pain, and wondering also whether is it the pillow or bed that im sleeping on causes so much problem, i found out.....

RESULTS: 1) not enuff exercise

2) bed cum pillow too soft

3) * shy* PMSing hahaa..

the lady was wondering how cum after so long the massage i still feel so 'suan' and than she asked hahhaa... so mystery solved...

so this is how i spent my few days... finally back in SG.. at home with my bed and pillow.. and today at work hahaa... my back feel SOO MUCH beta.. hahaa

i thank God for these few days, though with the pain i really enjoyed myself and relaxed ahaa....

tata for now.. long entry huh :)

Here's some pic after so longg.. thanks to shifu my bluetooth is fine :P but but.... it was part of my blurness that cause it not to work.. oh my... *bang wall* hahaa

Teacher trying to 'rara' the kids to play the 'kongpang'

'Kongpang' boys

Soccer time

Oh you know i dyed my hair hahaa... seem like everyone kind of shocked u know hahaa... cos after sooo long i dyed it and even change my parting hahhaa.. i like it, just that my hair gets wavy again.. sob sob :P

Going to cluster "i'll be home for xmas" tonite... hahhaa...Gonna be a time of food, games and gathering... i pray that there will be non-beleiver among us(it is suppose to be evangelistic) hahaa... and that they will enjoy His people:)

Thank God

It was truly a whole of refective day yesterday hahaa...

was busy at the home, though initially i have to admit that it was screwed, games we plan didnt work out, and we couldnt get in control with the children there, and worst with my youth, So irritated of them not being initiaitive and stuff. But i need to add that in the midst of the irrtating they brought me, im glad i was there and i enjoyed working with them, both youth and children.

Firstly, the youth. The youth are mature in fact, but youth are youth yah..when with their frends it is nonsense, esp when the majority is guys, hahaa... u will know what they will say. Beat them ah ahhaa... But ican see that they enjoyed themselves too. There was also a few volunteers that came to perform, there were the comical one, that brought laughter to everyone. I really thank God for them. :) THough most part of the games plan didnt work up, and it ended up with socceer hahaa... im glad we pulled thru.. i hope we didnt leave a bad impresison huh... :P

the children. Well well.. the children are quite rowdy and some even wanted to pick up a fight. It brought me memories to the time i was working at SCC. hahaa... so i jsut elft them be for wahile, while one go one corner to cry, one ignore me hahaa... it will blow over soon la.. but towards ending when i see them laughing and enjoying, i feel really glad about it. i thank God for putting me into the SCC, i beleive there was a purpose, and hey, now it had help me into handling kids better :) I thank God for WS, who guided me when i was at SCC hahaa,,,

Than went to church for debriefing, i thought about things in the camp that had happened. But i very glad and i thank God for allowing me to come to a point where i know that i canot do anythign without it, it is when im helpless that i see Him :) After that catch up with C. I thank God that in the midst of sharing i was able to get in touch with my own feelings, and reflect on how God blessed me with so many things. And how He has been so so faithful, even when im not. That nothing can separate us from Him.:) C, i hope that whatever i have said, the sharing have ministered to u. i also dunno why i share, hhaaa... but i beleive God will be ur guide ya :)

Was super tired le hahaa.. but i really wanan thank God for so many things hahaa.. i thank God for kor, that He uses him to guide me and even without him answering me, he made me think and get in touch with my own feelings and the realisation that God is awesome deep down. I just wanna encourage u that, even at your low time, when u feel discourage and stuff, press on, cos after this u will see a Rainbow :) It show His faithfulness, that after the rain even in the midst of it He is still around. Time path seem dark, and trying but draw strength from Him yah.. in Him we have confidence and in Him we lay. :) You know the song " You make me lie down in green pasture, you make me wanting for nothing, you are my shepard you are saviour you are my lord" :)

This entry kind of lengthy hor.. hahaa.. too bad if u are reading this hahaa... hope it still gives u the interest to read more :)

Wat else should i blog hahaa..
oh yah.. to clear all the misundestanding for ppl who jsut read my recent entry, and ask me weird qns like, issit for my bf issit for so and so... Heylo ppl, i think u all new to my blog la thats why hahaa... but to clear that entry... if it is misleading...

that msg to you, is for someone dear to me. Not a guy though. but anyway be it a guy or girl, we are perfectly alright. not that u all think of. so pls do not anyhow assume yah :) My entries are written with my truest thought not something wild or things yah :) haa... but still thanks for showing concern, but on the other hand pls dun jump into conclusion, and next i will hear alot of unnecessary rumour. hahaa..
And to add, i know this blog is in the internet world, which means i cant stop anyone from reading this, but kindly if u would like to link me, pls ask for permission yah :) thats all for now hahha...

Camp..

Back from camp and working now..

Hmm... wat should i comment about camp.. Well i thank God that i didnt fall sick. For those that know me, i usually fall sick during camp. This yr i didnt. And i didnt even fall sick over the water at m'sia which taste horrible. That few fell sick because of that. Really thank God for that.

I thank God for revealing and letting me feel how painful is it for Him to see his children hurting and coming back to Him.

Beside that camp was ok... dun ask me how was it cos i dunno how to comment. Not to say its boring or wat, but i guess i grow out of it, or probably cos i felt that i didnt belong. im glad my cg members had fun... im glad that at nite they went to each other bunk to talk, without me though haaa... :P

Games was pretty ok, some were new, some were games played b4... My camp group was ok... i beleive they tried la, tried to belong tried to had fun... the girls shared abit :) Im glad that you all enjoyed yourself and was able to share :) i think given more time, more in depth will be done

Sermon wasnt exactly new, as i had a crash course with J before the camp. SHant comment more on the camp and feelings..

Back at work today, time seem to pass quite fast huh... until now than it starts to dread. Im going nuts with the Ambassador thing hahaa... im just not prepared and things seem so mess up.. oh my.. how to conduct training... i guess i have to push back my training le.. looking at the calendar, i realise that i got no more time.. bad bad..the webby is on its way.. and gotta rush it thru as targeting to set it off on 1jan06, stress.. its more or less done, but dunno why it just doenst seem to work on my computer at work.. which is bad.. haha.. things start too pile up.. though i seem slack but is just cos i dunno wat i need to do hahaa.. anyone wanna help me haha..

oh yah my bluetooth is still not work, and guess wat... i can send file to my hp but my hp cant send file as it cant detect haha.. interesting huh..


Im going for a haircut soon hhaaa.... dun ask wat pattern cos i will just go there and tell the person do watever she wants.. hahha i wonder what i will look like..

Suddenly feel like eating durian. was chatting wtih my colleague on durian and i suddenly felt hungry haha...

Oh ya, it has been confirmed that a hug really work wonders.. :) esp the hugs from my girls. Thanks Rina for the hug, i think u were shocked when i broke down huh..hahahaa...
Thanks Beat too.. i just needed a shoulder la.. hahaa... but it was abrupt..

To you: Im waiting for one day when u will let me into ur life, to pick up the pieces with you. though at times i ask u u say u dunno, i wonder whether if u really dunno or u dun wanna tell me. But still, i wanna assure u that one day when u wanna let it open im here. Just like i say, i really love you, that even if u dun love yourself i still love you no matter wat k :) I guess there was this defense machanism in you, which u dunno how, and each time i meet you, we connect through the spirit, dun need to say and we understand. And i really hope i feel it.. :) hugs

To Glow: i thank you for making the effort during camp to bond. I see the extra effort you all make to say hi to me each time u pass me... :) May the shoe bag remind you on running the race, and keeping it in place, and it is not the matter of trying is letting go and letting Him
....

Upset..

im feeing depress.. hahah wat a word to use :P

just been disappointed la.. it seem abit small to feel depress but i beleive we all have the right to feel upset cos God gave us feelings, no matter how small the matter been.

Cell been upsetting..God i really need you to show me your way. FOCUS!! i need to FOCUS!!

didnt work today, took sometime to rest at all. B came over, its been long. Hey Glow girls, i wonder if you all read this, but i jsut want to tell you, if u all want to come over also can de leh.

yupz... oh heard my work plc hamster ran away.. :( 3 of them. Result: one died at the mouse trap, one nearly died but was saved, the other missing. sigh.. so fast.. well well.. i hope the one that survive will be fine.. suddenly tot of melon, ginger and snowy..there were my hamsters.. yup.. but they are no longer around le..

Going for camp soon. Somehow i feel weird.. realise that im aint group to my cell members , zz also not.. abit weird lo.. myabe it could be for the better also la..

The sun rise and set
the moon rises to the sky
as i watch the box
i was distracted

i know there was smthing on my mind
And my heart felt heavy
tears trickled and i felt horrible
i coulnt stop and i didnt allow it to happen

I doubted
i doubted myself
I doubted on many things
and i decided to stop doubting

and there was a pause..........

ticktick..

TIck tick tick, as the sound of the clock goes... im waiting for 4pm to come. Cos the parents and kids will be coming hahaa... feeling dizzy haaa dunno why... :P

i wanna zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... just finish lunch and im full!!! hahaa... u know my bluetooth at home cant work, so sad le thats why i always say wanan post foto but nv post :( sob sob.. shifu wanna come repair for me hahaa..

Today morning was kept busy doing stuff, finally so hard working rite.. and yes yes i know, after lunch i start to slack... just cant to stop and think properly about my training module and other stuff... hhaaa...

Sometime i wonder, my blogging are rather random huh.. u must be bored readin this, bcos is like just reporting about my day haha.. but TOO BAd.. if u are bored u can jolly well stop reading.. bye!!! :P

For those that have been my loyal reader, and not bored.. clapclap.. thanks for being so supportive hahaa... pls tag if u do read k :)

Just was was browsing the newspaper, and C and i was commenting on how to world has changed. Drugs are becoming more and more common in the news or rather the news start to become more and more liberal on the reports. well well.. sigh...

This week been great, though i have been out everyday of the week in the evening.. hhahaha RARE oki hahaa... manage to catch up with people and today gotta go Turf Club. Is 'ma chang' oki, dun think i goign there to bet.. im going there to see horse hahaa... no la, its the open house like that for Turf Club, so there is bazzar, food fiesta etc there... so im bring the kids and parents there.

Im just feeling so fidgity now i dunno why... arghzz... cannot sit still le.. bad bad:(
ok i shall end here... if i suddenly have any random topic, i shall continue writing... :P