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okie, im here to blog again..Thanks to annoymous ahhaa.. 'force' me to blog.. hahah hmpf... oki la i not angry with u k, so nice of u to be my loyal reader :P

hmmm..God been great.. i was dry and He spoke to me. Though i know that some part of me is still quite dead but i believe soon i will just get back my passion :) PTL.

I have been having this vision in my mind for sometime le, i think i know what He meant and it was confirm today during cg today and also during the leaders meeting :)

So the whole of today is cg, which was refreshing :) and lunch hahaa... and of cos cgl meeting.

to you:
i dunno if u gonna read this.. and if u know who u are. i jsut want to tell u that we need to grow up. It is for the better for things to turn out this way. Let God lead and reign in our lives, may it be ur personal pray. that He will heal you and may he be real in your life. Till we meet or even talk i hope we will be different.. that God will be around, that things just change..im waiting for the day, if God to allow us to become frends again. Sorry for the things i've done.

Studies..

Dear God,
Guide me and teach me
in the ways it is best for me

Grant me wisdom and discernment i pray
i want to be a pure as a dove
and wise as a serpent

Grant me strength to move on in life
to communicate with ppl
and to grow to maturity

God God,
i know you will guide me as long im willing
so take me dear Lord i pray

Reveal more of ur purpose for me
more of my destiny dear Lord
Teach me how to glorify You

God i would like to further my studies too
teach me how to plan my life
my finances and time

dear God,
i need blessings from you
i want to bless others too

Use me God
Fill me
Mold me

hug my frend each day God
at times when life seem tough
show them the reality of Yours

Manifest ur presence Lord
And i cant wait for the day
till we see face to face..

AMEN!!


im tired God, but i dont want to give up..

long..

hheee..hey loyal readers :P im finally blogging happy??

yawn..tomolo working earlier shift..so not sued to it.. cos if u all didnt know i have been working 11-7pm everyday for sometime le..:P and this piggy is getting 'piggier'(if there is such a word) hahaa... BAD BAD..

just finish this pizza biscuit, i hope i dun get a soarthroat u know, if i do i lose my voice my life at work will be terrible...

today very touch.. mykids sang 'lao shu ai da mi' hehee..it was suppose to be a teacher day performance but they sang la..then look at me..so sweet..*touch* wanna cry le hehee... these kids are real fun to be with but also real annoying hahaa... than they were so happy that i went early today hahaa..:P

Hmmm...recently quite a few things happen hahaa... yeah lo i also dunno where to start.. got ups got downs la..but well i believe all things happen for a purpose la yah... nEtTa u gotta learn and grow up yah...

oh ya and ermm..im changing job soon le, i pray that i will meet nice ppl along the way and ppl to trust at work to guide me...:) read a blog entry from my frend.. i agree about sharing upward and downwards, meaning to ppl older or younger..sigh wat to do life is like that...God i need wisdom and discernment:)

dear God, u are my only treasure, i cant live without u... teach me to cherish you and nv let u go or down.. i love you Lord. :)

yeah its fri.. *clap clap* hehee.. so happy tomolo no work, but but but.. i gotta wake up earli cos i got training to go... so sad cant zz and be piggy..sob sob.. :(

think i gonna exercise tomolo.. RARE rite haha.. shh.. going with Mich la... see she motivate me to exercise haha.. i wonder if it is going to happen :) I do hope so, cos my stamina super horrible u know, for those of u who knows me, u know how lazy i am rite.. :P

work been challenging... my kids are getting REAL disobedient haha.. sob sob.. and i cant control them. but some i can la... hahah i think i scared one of this kid, that usually he dun listen to me now he very 'ting hua' hahaa... yeah lo.. today he cry.. xing tong.. but yah lo.. Lord i pray for my kids, touch their lives and show them ur love, they need it.. :)

hmm.. dunno wat to blog le hahaa ..tataz

faith we ask..:)

At all times we will praise Him
His praise will be in our mouth
when the road seem toughand the going become difficult
Trust He will carry you through

We ask for faith to grow
We say we will obey
When trials is put into our ways
we falter

let not our heart take over us
let not our emotions run over us
for honour and glory
belongs to Him forever

clearing..

i was clearing my table and cupboard as i flip through stuffs that i have.. hmm.. so much dust hahaa... admist it saw a few things which brought back memories.. i dunno why i still keeping it... reflecting on the past and looking at it makes me upset.. haiyozz...

yeah lo.. how silly i was and sometimes i still feel i quite silly la haha.. :P yeha lo.. flip through this on off diary i wrote AGES ago... saw the caps hehee.. yupz.. yupzz... sob sob.. hahaha.. at times it is so contradicting yah... hmm okiez... forget about these stuff ba..

oh yah i thinking on whether i should go study my diploma in counselling nxt yr.. haha.. hmm i think i will la... but i wonder is it too rush?? yeah lo.. hmmm okie ending here.. tataz

National day!!

happy national day:) May singapore continue to prosper. May our governemnt lead the nation properly. May they have so much wisdom in everything the do and may they be touched by God :)

well well.. went out just now.. hehhee... had a gd time catching up with my frend. I just realise, she really mature le.. :) very outspoken now and confident in herself :) I thank God for her in my life, though we dun meet often but when we see each other we really enjoy each other heee.. yeah lo.. as i reflected back on my life i realise i have grow much.. this is bad arghzz... oki im gonna grow haha :P Lord teach me to be sensitve. 3 yrs ago i said i wanna go,3 yr later i feel i didnt grow much.. BAD BAD!!

sigh... guess wat.. my emails in this particular email account i have is DELETED. sigh, i think i too long nv login that account kanna ceased. When i try to login they say activiate my account.. arghzz... i dunno issit too long nv login, i also cant rem how long nv log in.. i very sad.. there are many many msgs inside that i still keep. Sentimental purpose.. :( ppl no longer send email to that account le, but still i kept it cos of the mails.. arghzz.. heart pain.. anyway i can get back the mails ??

Hmm.. but on the other hand it might be for the better... sigh...

hmm..

went FOP yesterday.. for the benefit of those who duno what is FOP, it is festival of praise..hahaa.. well starting i was quite bored cos i didnt even know the songs and i felt everything was too hype out.. as i look around i saw ppl worshipping God admist the worship and i pondered. I look at my members and saw how they worship God, i wondered many many things...
During sermon, i was really distracted. I just couldnt absorb what the speaker is saying. But somehow throughout the FOP, before it i felt that im going to meet God, and i saw a vision of myself.. when the preacher came, he has this aura with him, i dunno how to explain.. than as i was saying i just couldnt concentrate... admist it, the only impact that was left was this question he asked. " what is ur revelation? have u found it?" He asked a few times, and each time he asked i felt something in my heart.. yeah lo... to cut the whole entry short haha :P At the end of the FOP God spoke to me la.. and i really thank Him...

Than came today, heart of Worship, the same word revelation came again.. hahaa... oh my goodness.. and same thing He spoke to me.. hahaa i giving summary hor.. :P yeah lo.. u all got qn than ask me lo.. hhahaa yeah lo..

A time for everything
a season for ups
a season for downs

a season of disappointment
a season for love
God is in the midst of the season

i thank you for the season
and u have truely shown Your faithfulness..

sigh...

yo surprise to see me here rite.. this lady blogs once in a while and now she is blogging frequently for the past few days hahaa.. clap clap... :P

hmm... work been fine... enjoy myself with the kids but stress too cos its working life.. but well i guess i have to learn yah. now so small if i face prob how to overcome bigger company.. watever.. i feel so tired... think i having mood swings again oh no... if u are tired of hearing me with my mood swing u beta stop reading now oki.. haha :P

lalaa.. u know i know this person, always say duno de... than she seem to have alot of things in her mind to tell.. she know she has to find the right person to tell but always end up choose the wrong person. In the end, because she trust the person too much and always think childishly at the end of the day give wrong impression...sigh...

what will u do if u have such a frend ah?? hmm.. i also dunno how le for the person... hmmm.. interesting.. well well...

i feel poetic nowadays hehee.. keep got the mood to write poem.. shall i write one again?? but hor.. paiseh la.. my poem always not very poem hehee..

lines on the floor
brings back memories
memories of the past

mistakes made
happy and bad
memories flooded in

things of years
things of recent
things that seem simple yet not

sun and the moon
times of the day
it all happened

thinking it is over
action done
but it was nv meant to be

to live a pure life
to live one to glory Him
is broken once again

fear not for the past
and look towards the future
life goes on...


haiyozz... why am i writing like this.. so depressing hor.. hahah opppsss... lalalaa... well well... jsut thinking hahaa...hmmm..what should i type.. should i end my entry?? u know i dun like guys i hate them hahaa... opsps so not me to say that rite...

oki sorry ERASE...
i like guys and i love them.. hahaa.. :P oppss... so weird.. oki nvm forget it hahaa... u know frends come in and out of our lives.. those that u thought will last nv last, those that u tot could stay pure and u jsut really treat the person like ur siblings didnt last.. why are human so difficult to phatom.. why can we jsut have a pure relationship?? hmm its so weird.. i rem i read this bk, "women are from venus and men from mars" we all think so differently.. but cant there be exception.. when they both come together jsut purely frends.. and jsut treating each other like a brother and sister... how i wish i have a real brother and a younger sister... i guess this wun happen.. hmm watever... tataz.. :P

i've learnt that..

i've learnt that God nv fails
That He is simply just so great
We need not worry about the words we use
or how we phrase our sentences
or what is on our mind

i've learnt that human do fail
that we are all indecisive
and we are nothing without Him
that we need to watch what we say
and we need to be aware of our actions

i've learnt that i really need to grow up
and i've always said i wanted to do so
i've learnt that i need God to teach me
for no human being can really do so

i've learnt that i need to watch my words
and my actions and thoughts
not to mislead or not to tear down

..........

the earth rotates
and it bring dust to dawn
the thoughts rotates
and it brings blank to many

many come
many left
its life that move on

a wrong move
a wrong action
a wrong idea given

a lesson learnt
a pain felt
its time to put it into action

a mistake nv to be forgotten
a dilema that happens
many change
many different

its life that move on..

superstar

Manage to catch Super star by accident. This lady here jia lart rite.. Super star so long already i now just started to catch it.. hahah.. and to make amtter worst.. i dun even know when is Super star haha... until today :P oppsss... paiseh..

I kind of like Jun yang, like wat the judges said, he is 'nai kan' i think not only that.. i feel he is that kind look le nice, look more nicer hahaa.. and to aid him, his voice is nice too.. haha i dunno la, this is my first tiem watching so from wat i see la k... maybe im wrong...
Than heard from Takashi that Weilian is visually impaired... oh my goodness.. i thank God for his courage to even go up to the crowd and do his best. I pray that may miracle happen and God heal him for his eyes...AMEN :)

Back ache now.. oppss hhaa :P yeah lo.. today end up nv go for staff outing.. last min many cant make it.. hahaa.. so they going to change it to next week :P oppss... and i cant make it hahaa.. yeah lo...

Friends

Friends walk in and walk of our life. You taught me that in life we have to accept that ppl come in and out of our life. I slowly come to realisation that indeed at time i have to move on when such things happen. We will have to face it and let things happen.

friends are someone whom u start to bond and slowly trust. When such happens, sharing takes place. And if it feels we might feel cheated or hurt. Well well it is always a risk, sigh wat to do.. thats life ya..

I want you to know that when ur my friend your remembered. We might not even contact anymore, but i will still rem you. I thank you for the times we have and i love you :)

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wind blowing
laughter in the air
voices in the midst

thoughts running
past reflecting
present in the midst

memories present
flashback happens
confusion arises


Life is beautiful

yawn

so sianz... somehow just dun feel like talking.. wanna be alone.. hhehee.. :P

hmmm... lalallaa... work today been different i feel... suddenly very they very noisy.. i think like usually i can tolerate their noise.. today i cant hahaa oppss.. yeah and i feel i cant seem to control them.. sigh.. lallaa

headache now... hmmm.... wat to type.. like dunno wat to type..
hahaha.. okie i shall end :P