Thank God..:)

I really thank Him.. today, i kind of 'lost' my handphone. Had a whole day at sentosa. Tiring.. heh... and i got sunburnt... ouch.. but !~~!! the worst thing was it was drizzling.. haiyozz.. hahaa... my skin got problem ah hahaa.. well.. oki UV RAYS.. hahah :P Hmm... we play some simple games and swam around in the sea.. so gross k.. than K drop her watch into the sea. Really 'hai di lao zhen' hehe.. and we manage to find it ok.. or rather R found it haha... Than.. N scratch against the rocks and hurt herself.. quite bad... i was trying to dive from the rocks into the sea.. so fun.. than she tried.. she scared than struggle than scratch lo..haiyzoz sayang..

Well.. on the way home took bus 93!! i remember that after i replied my msges i put it into my pocket, but well it didnt :( When i left the bus, while at the steps i realise my fone wasnt with me, but i left the bus...dunno why le.. than like really found out it was missing.. was very upset.. but somehow, i jsut refuse to like give chase for the bus.. after some hesistant.. i did eventually.. and guess wat... though it was late, and the road was like empty.. when i took a cab to gave chase, the bus was so near u know :)

I was thinking jia lart ah.. how to take back, cos my frends also lost hp on bus b4.. the bus didnt want to stop haha... than at the traffic light the cab driver ask me to try to get the bus driver's attention and tell him to stop ") yeah... he stopped at the next bus stop..

Well.. so went upstair to find my fone(the bus was double decker).. guess wat ???? hehee... someone was sitting at my plc.. and holding on to my hp okie... i was like looking at him.. for awhile he didnt really notice, cos think he thought i like normal passenger. Than i peep to see wat he was doing.. and i realised, he was reading my msges.. so notti k..

So i was like excuse me.. than he like veyr shocked... than i said:" err...excuse me,that my hp"
he was like :"err..nah.." hahaha u should see his expression very funny..

But yah ... i did got back my fone..yeah thank God ya :) hehehe...lalalalaa......

Hmm...

hmm.. now in computer lab hahaa... programming lesson.. arghzz.. hehe well... sometime in life i wonder leh.. Those that tries hard to makes friends sometime dun get as many friends as those that dun try hard.. how cum ah?? well... this an interesting qn haha :P so bored... friends around me seem to be lesser ohoh dunno why.. in class i try to open up and talk but seem to be extra-ed hahaa.. but this D that im close with someone ppl talk to her and smile at her.. hmm what have i done wrong:( well.. nvm la.. get use to it ba :P

lalaa...

hmm..haiyo back ache now. Well.. but am really happy... Now sick.. sick with flu hahaa... but well.. nvm He will heal me yah... i wanna go for this conference in malaysia but dunno how to tell daddy le :P hehhee... how how?? hmm... Malaysia.. oppss hahaa..well the conference is a leaders conference la.. hahhaa... yeah.. sch was ok today.. Negotiation Skills lesson was boring haha.. than my nose stuff haiyoz... 4 packets of tissue gone :P well... but ok la overall, im glad i learn something today :P

So HapPy!!!

lala.a.. so happy.. God spoke to me today.. love u :) Well... thanks Beatrice. She gave me this chapter.. isa 30 to read :) I dunno why.. but yah God spoke to her and ask her to ask me read.. well.. i did read it half heartedly.. but to my amaze it spoke to me.. EVERY VERSE... i tell u.. it was so scary..But really thank God.. He renew me.. gave me the joy when i was at the bottom pit..thank God :)

Yes.. indeed i have been rebellious, but He is faithful and just and He want me to be back with Him :) hugs tite.. dun wanna let go le.. Dear God, continue to grow in me.. use me and let me be a blessing :) Let me glorify u yah :)

Hey...im back

Hm... im back after sooo long. Anyone miss me? Well.. for sometime i have been wanting to leave. Life suddenly seem so meaningless. Well, tired of everything, my life, my commitments, my frendships etc.. so many stuff.. jsut get so tired. Thank God :)He press on and never let me go. I didnt want to talk to Him, didnt want to do many things, and i know that thats not me but i jsut cant seem to control myself. I have bad mood swings. One moment im happy the next moment when i keep quiet, i have this sense of loneliness, emptiness, lost etc... so many... well... though now still feel it but i know its not that bad le.. at least.. Tired but still perservere.

Have been very confuse i dunno why. X msg me and told me something that i have been always wanting to know. But it turn out not wat i expected. But well.. really had to thank him. He encourage me to not look to the past and move on. Sound so familiar you know. I know i have been telling GLOW.. but i cant seem to do it. at times i feel so fake cos im not doing wat i know i should do, and want to do from my inner being, and i seem to let everyone down.. hmm... DUN GIVE Up COLLEEn... yah lo.. pray for me k.. really need it...

God spoke to me, in His words, through my friends, etc.. but i just refused to listen.. litereally.. i know i wanted to listen but i didnt.. i just shut my hearts and go to sleep. When deep down im crying to soften and open up again but i nv... God... soften it break it ...

Life...

Life seem tough sometimes...

Memories flood in as i lay on my bed
Memories that i dun think of often
Memories that are sweet
Memories that are bad

I know He will bring me through
I might not feel Him
I might not want Him
I might not seek Him
But He is around

God,
Help me
Come to me life
Let me hunger for you
Let me love you
Let me seek you
i Wan to give you my life..

Soften my heart
Let it be new again....

Thursday...

yawn.. hehhee... PIGGY!!! ok well, my day so far ok. Nothing much, been busy with church ava now quite stress so many things on my mind. Well, going to church later, got rehesal for blokes. I feel blokes won't be as gd as wat we think but well, ok i beta stop thinking. Must pray that there will be a breakthrough, that ppl will come to know Him.. yeah.. dear God i want to continue to love you, pls stir me from within Plsssss..thank you :)