Blackout again...

Hmm..this time blackout again... nto my work though but Singapore.. haha...well.. actually i didnt know..i was on the way home than was wondering how come so dark only dunno why until Jean called me and told me.. thank God.. well.. church blackout too, but after i left hhaa... didnt know until korkro told me too :) wow.. thank God.. u know the blackout was at 10pm and around 10pm i took the lift from church to go home :P yah lo... hmm but interesting la.. :) Than when i reach home daddy say my hosue jsut now blackout too hehe :P yah lo..

Yeah!!

yeahh she fine la... but still worried.. know after this incident think she sti,ll scared la.. wll ma haiyoz.. hope she wont have any side effect on her injuries.. and that the scars wil be gone soon... miss her so much :) last nite she say she wanna eat kfc.. hehee but got no time to buy for her... yeah.. today she say she gonna discharge le :) this entire week very busy dunno how le.. hmm see how lo..

well.. i think i pmsing.. or i just realise i now is msing le... :( at work somemore... stomach pain ah... hehee... hmm.. so paiseh have to take from frend..well..dunno is i mood swing or wat.. been feeling frustrated, irritaed easliy and like very low self esteem... Have been really notti... dun wanna talk to God like that.. i miss Him but i refuse to tal kto Him.. worst than my previous time modd swing..arghz...

Accident...

i was shocked when i heard it... reALLY.. I couldn't believe it.. why would her mum call me when their supose to be in m'sia at this time, and even ask for a big favour... Than irealise... something bad happened.. thy met with an accident. Beatrice is injured. Hit her head and bleed but is oki... now just feel weak. Bethia (her sis) is still unconscious, in ICU... oh no.. but her parents are oki.. but very worried upset...
Praying for them.. its her shock.. i still cant believe it.. last nite i was msging beatrice and she said she didnt feel like going really.. she miss me alot.. and i felt that i will miss her alot too.. really.. and i dunno why i had this feeling to pray for journey mercies.. and now...............

Its another weekend..

well... went to work today though it sat... did my databasse.. so happy im finishing it soon u know..really very happy.. faster than i tot... well, than went home.. after last nite IPC i jsut felt this joy in my heart. When my parents nag somehow i felt happy.. thank God :) well.. wanted to do potATO salad today.. than potato cook too soft cos i buysy hheee... so end up make mash potato salad.. well didnt taste as nice.. arghz.. after that than realise i keep forgetting things.. i forgot to add bacon chips and my prawns haiyoz :( but mummy dunno why she came and talk to me about my sala.. than tot we new stuffs...
end up we spend some time together making fried mash potato salad ball haha.. quite fun.. initially quite gross and tough .. cos we were trying to fry it without coating it with egg hehe :P really enjoyed my time with mummy.. :)
than suppose to go beatrice house but didnt, cos alst min than realise got dinner with family, fathers' day celebration la..haizz.. hehee but enjoy steamboat.. yummy tom yum :)

oh yah went lunch with parents too hehe.e. yummy :) yeah ...

Blackout

Hmm...i was looking at the computer than suddenly it just switch off. Was surprise for a moment than i was like OH NO!!! my database. I didnt save at all i think.. :( Well.. was having a headache then.. so also good chance for me to zz :) Somehow i felt that i knoe there was smthing going to happen before the blackout, but i thought probably cos i was having a headache lo :) Hmm.. well anyway the blackout went on for about 1/2 hr, in between i doze off awhile, when i the power came back i was feeling better already... but somehow though the short time of dozing off i think i fell into deep sleep. Ppl msg me on the fone i was to otired to reply or anyhow reply :P yah lo.. hehee...so fun after so long suddenly esperience blackout again.. haiyoz... dun understand why will blackout. Asked the collegue is blackout often they say nowadays quite.. hehe :P

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Sitting here in front of the Pc, hearing the music that is going on in FM93.3, im feeling very confused. Many many thoughts and feelings. I feel anger, feel disapointment, feel happy...just confused... heard something from a friend. It is really beyond imagine.. I'm angry with the person attitude... im upset that she nv tel me anything.. haiz... i need to control myself.. remember that let HIm be i ncontrol.. wat past is past... i should not bother le...

Thoughts...

As i sit in the room
I tot of him,
I guess from the start we were never meant to be
It all strated wrongly
total wrong
I couldnt imagine
how silly i was
how childish that i ever thought
i just want to start life anew
never thinking of him
reminding myself that TODAY
i made a choice
today i finally sort my thinking
today that i realised
i have never love him truly
it was all infactuation
all on the wrong basis
or just purely immature
I pray that i will never do it again..
i won't love so soon
cos i never love him in the first place
true love......

lalaa...sleepy..

Hmm... after lunch again.. so sleepy.. well todya office kind of quiet... Y didnt come cos off... L mc.. so kind if quiet.. hhee.. today have to to Y's job , take over her than i kind of blur hhee.. my databse stil lgot alot ah, my concentration spent like gone already. Well.. last nite stomach pain dunno why le.. like cramp but not, thir PROBLEM is hor, it is not even that time of the month or nearing it.. Hmm.. earli PMS?? hehe... well... i miss the time i spent with R and G. Somehow we seem very distance already. Wonder when we will be back to the old times...
Didnt go cg yesterday too.. haven been going at all.. somehow i dun feel close with the ppl there, feel very akward. Well, timing and day of cg quite bad too.. so nv go.. i'm looking forward for a time when im so comfortable wit heveryone..:)

Its sunday...

Well.. had ava duty again today.. was actualyl quite upset with myself.. somehow i couldn't hear as well as i could anymore.. i was very careless too. .can u imagine i forgot to on the foldback speakers until jean told me :( arghz....sometime i just feel i was not up to it to be a assist :( well.. worship was abit cold to me today.. dunno issit i nv do properly.. haiyoz... but give God glory.. must let God do it ma... *says myself* yah lo..than went to a friend, H's house to help set up LAN card all that, cos wnana set up network at home.. oh no i really dunno how to do u knoe, even i study b4:( haiyozz.. well.. but i really had fun trying to lay cable for H. H's live in landed property so lay cable up at the attic, there very dusty all that than hace to take precaution only step on wood planks and not others cos if not the attic will collaspe.. quite scary cos at times i step at the wrong plc.. than u can hear like its giving way .. :P
But really really enjoyed.. thanks man !! :)

Revival meeting

Well.. today teach Beat maths... haiyozz.. hope u learnt soemthing ah... well.. enjoyed myself today.. than went to church for ava duty.. haiyozz.. was kind of lazy to go actually... but dunno why le... when i went there i felt very cold inside.. like my heart wasnt willing to speak to God... The speaker was good but at times i dunno what he talk le.. dunno is tok to fast or wat.. well.. i was amazed at his miracles that he shared that only God can do it.. than had so called alter call session... was really touched at the reaction of everyone.. at sometime when the speaker speak i nearly teared.. but than well i stop.. i think of i on duty hehe :P yah lo.. thank God... i miss you u know.. i miss the times when we spend so much time together .........

Its another day again..

Well... morning past.. now noon le.. nothing much at work today... today boss S return us our suggestions.. he kind of disapprove lo.. think he saw S suggestions than kind of spoil market.. so he return us with alot of red pen markings and questions..so we have to do it again... well yah lo... i was like huh wat to elaborate.. wanna see wat i wrote again?? hehee...


Problems faced: - much unnecessary information
- Files not named properly, not organize
- Found out that most data are also saved by previous attachment students
Results in insufficient hard disk space


Suggestions: 1) Appoint a person to take charge
- The person must definitely have knowledge of computers. At the same time it is advisable that the person have been in the company for sometime so as to ease the checking of data, as he/she is more familiar with the files.

2) Responsibility of the person
- He/she will first inform everyone in the company that have saved data in the computer that there will be this designated time where by sorting and deleting of files be done. Seeking understanding of all and asking those who need the files in the computer to inform he/she
- On the day, he/she will than try to sort the data, as he/she will more or less know whether the data is necessary. Than, he will once again inform everyone that it is done. He/she will than remind everyone to be responsible on the data save in the computer and remembering to delete the data when it is no longer in use to save space.
- At the end of everything, the person will defrag the computer to allow the computer to once again work at its best again.

3) Reminder for everyone
- A poster can be put up to remind users who uses the computers to be responsible and to erase their files when no longer in use.



Long rite... yah lo..

CG Meeting...

today Eliza came.. very happy u know..really hahhaa... been a long long time.. so eliza you must come more often k :P ... well.. today we shared on our parents, haiyozz at times parents quite irritating hor hahaha.. but well they our parents ma.. jia you k.. must tahan together hehe.. yah..
had quite a bad day initially, dint wanna go cg too.. cos dunno how to share with them such a topic.. but thank GOd :) in the end i really enjoyed myself.. though got abit of mood swings :) will share more with them when the time is ripe.. but i pray that they will all share too.. looking forward to that day :)

Office Politics

Well... office politics.. how do u view office politics as... i always feel that if we all have 'liang xin' with God it shouldnt happen.. but i guess it aint so.. today.. i finally felt it..

I went for breakfast with Y during working hours cos mummy nv make bread for me... i always see H go and eat, and see others too... so both of us went to eat.. who knows that boss S wasnt happy.... Before i went he asked me about my database.. he wants me to tansfer to him but said that do it when he isn't around.. so i told him ok...
When i went for brakfast he came to look for me... He couldnt find me and he wasnt happy. When i came back L told me tha boss S is looking for me.. so i was like oh no of all times...

Well.. i went to look for me.. he told me in a rather stern way that he wanted the data to transfer now..and he even ask me in a 'sacarstic way' canteen long queue hor.. alot of ppl.. i was like err.. yah.. abit lo.. :( well.. so when i transfer datat he was asking who is coming on sat to work so i said Y said she wanna come..
You know what he said??? he said come is to work not come to eat.. so i replied jokingly.. cannot eat breakfast ah.. so he was like breakfast??? haaa.. haizz..so was kinda upset

Went back to my desk that time.. i ask L, wat time did boss S look for me?
She said 5 mins before i came back.. i dun really believe her but i kept quiet... than collegue P came after sometime... as i was toking to Y about wat boss S said... P was saying... no la.. boss S look for u about just after u left.. he was quite impatient keep asking for me a few times.. i was like huh.... wondering to myself .. how come L say one thing but P say another.. who is saying the truth?????????


Than cos boss S gave us this 'assignment' to wach write a problem face now at the office about anything and suggestions to improve it.. was kinda surprise.. so at the end of the day he came and he ask me to get the rest of our colleugues suggestions...

Everyone haven write so i was like oh no keep hurrying them but i was very veyr slow.. :( well... collegue S than said haiyozz each one write a piece of paper and give lo.. so i was like huh ok lo.. so all along while i was hurrying everyone S kept quiet.. than i asked her ehh u write la... than she said.. oh i did le hand in le.. i was likehuh how come?? hand in together ma... so she said hand up le...

after awhile P came with the paper S hand up and said ehh i found this on boss S table.. so i was like "ehhh S urs ah.. wow.. type out somemore.. u best lo.. nv wait for us just handup still type nv type together for us.." so she said haiyozz same ma.. i free nothing to do so tye lo. so i tried to take the paper to read she took it away.. than like walkk off using her fone... so i said wait for us lo.. she wasnt happy i guess.. i dun get it why??? she is also a christian u know..

why somehow i manage to read her suggestions.. it was fantastic.. even give 5 S to solve the problem.. was impress but at the same time like felt why she nv tell us or wat.. it was obviously that she didnt want us to read it... :( yah lo... eventually we did all hand it up together though...

When i gave boss S he was quite stern and he said in hokkien "why nv give me earlier.. than ask me a few qn than i left le.. " hmm.. think i type too much le... ...































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Arghz...

No scolding stupid

No attitute problem

No feeling upset

No feeling insensitive

No feeling horible

No self demoralising

No feeling childish

No throwing tantrums

No mood swings

Haiz.. why am i feeling this way...

Sorry...

After Lunch :P

ehehe... today so paiseh.. i was sitting on my chair than try to pull myself holding the 'pillar' to bring myself abit nearer to the computer... guess wat?? the pillar casing came out..so loud hehe :P than my Collegue E luff than say wah.. the pillar wanna kill u ah... heheh *paiseh* yah lo..went to Thomson Plaza for lunch ...ate 'ban mian' not nice u know..so salty hehhe horrible :P yah lo.. thats all for now :)

Ohno...

Oh no... i dunn why this few days i getting very cranky... my computer spoil..today finally came new one so happy.. really.. last nite when to Lileen house to stay really enjoyed myself with her company.. miss her :( hehee.. hope she miss me... my day today quite good till just now.. quarrel with mummy over the computer.. new computer but it auto restart.. think is my modem... haiyo... irritating modem.. it is the same modem than cause my laptop to be cranky.. haiyozz.... :) i wana love... i starting to feel hatred u know...:) Love... i love my cg i love them.. :)

Hmmm...

COmputer have been down.. cannot update till i forgot wat happen.. but i guess i have become numb to my work life and him. Nowadays i see him i just smile and do my work... he scold me stupid or wat or critisize me i also keep quiet... he got say like u cow or smthing... i just smile lo... haizz... yah lo.. but i think i starting to feel inferior at times keep thinking i really stupid.. God!! help me ....

Collegues Part 2

Today my collegue quite nice i feel.. suddenly have diferent impression of him... i was busy with my database... than i see him so free.. so i ask like wah so free ah... than he say errr no... than he ask why... than i ask him help me do database.. he was like saying pay me la than i do for you.. i was like rubbish.. than he k la.. so he helped me in the end.. but i think he really tried his best.. though got a mistakes in between la hehee... but really he was of great help.. thanks man :)