aiyaks.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
mood: befuddled
listening to: -
was going through my old posts (again). and i must say, i think i used to write better (and more often too). i guess constant practice is required for those that are not gifted in this area...
in hindsight, where my ever-failing memory has worked, the recollections are rather amusing. in hindsight.
and the truth shall prevail...
Friday, September 23, 2011
mood: sigh
listening to: california king bed - rihanna
the truth has an uncanny way of revealing itself in time...whether you go in search of it or not. and i don't know about you, but in my world, that's God speaking to you and telling you things you may not want to hear but need to.
bizzare....and yet...not quite.
thoughts...
Sunday, September 18, 2011
mood: confused
listening to: -
read between the lines and behind the lies.
the dichotomy of good advice: trust your instincts, but don't act on impulse.
looking for life's "reset" button.
down memory lane...
Friday, September 16, 2011
mood: happy
listening to: skyscraper - demi levato (?) (it's on the radio :P)
funny how something as simple as a smell can bring back a flood of memories. i caught a hint of you yesterday. made me want to pull him closer just so i could settle myself back to the time when you were the one who pulled me close and i could just lean on your shoulder and rest.
but ofcourse i didn't.
"eh, can come a little closer ah? i just want to travel back in time for awhile." next thing i know, i'll probably be committed into some institution with "believes in time travel through smells" scribbled onto my file under "reason for admission:".
but time travel is possible, isn't it? even if it's through the sights and smells, and only to the past, buried in the recesses of one's overcrowded mind.
it counts... right?
anyway,...after everything, and everyone - no one else has come quite as close as you.
the inevitable...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
mood: indecisive
listening to: -
...yup. so it's finally happened. an entire month gone without a single post. bah.
not for the lack of trying...ok. fine. i didn't try very hard at all. but i've been travelling so much, ze brains have had no capacity to churn out anything consequential, nor witty, nor whatever. the heart was willing, but the mind was not. hrm.
so..........(*looks awkwardly around*) how's the weather? :P
that's common isn't it? to have nothing to say to someone after a long period of absence? and this awkward silence is often punctuated further if you had previously been very close...however, over an extended period of time, you both mutually inwardly acknowledged that your respective paths were gradually headed in different directions and thus began the unspoken prolonged parting of ways via a chain of missed calls, postponed appointments, wrong timings, "wished i could be there but can't (or won't)" and whathaveyous...all leading up to the awkward moment when for whatever reason, you are both thrown together once again.
that's the worst. and in my case, particularly so, because i hate awkward silences, and i feel the need to fill the sonic gap with jibber-jabber...and often, this means saying whatever comes to my mind without nary a thought. and of course, this is a recipe is for....yes, you got that right....disaster. won't go into the details right now....but trust me, there's a story or two to be told here ;)
anyway, what else is new? i'm still at crossroads. hopefully i'll make a turn some time soon. "hopefully" being the operative word here.
till the next post, i shall leave you with a little snippet which i thought was quite clever of me today :P yes, i gloat. so? it's my blog. i'll gloat all i want :P
with reference to my inability to mask my emotions:
p: i hope you haven't commited any crimes!
me: if not having a poker face was a crime, then i'd be a repeat offender.
=D
ok fine, it's not great. i'm pms-ing. indulge me.
(don't you just loveeee the universal excuse of pms? :P)
