up and down, and all around...
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
mood: cheery
listening to: rolling in the deep - adele
...that pretty much means going nowhere doesn't it? 5 plane rides in less than two weeks, and here i am. again.
cross-roads....cross-roads...left? right? down the middle? back? or perhaps staying put at this perpetual cross-road? that's a choice too, isn't it?
a lot of my indecision stems from the fear of making the wrong one. if you don't decide, you can't possibly be wrong, right? ha. the irony.
i'm rambling....oh, yes i am.
but i'm still chirpy though =)
ah, the human soul...heart...we're nothing but walking contradictions.
silent, but not indifferent
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
mood: down in the dumps
listening to: that man - hyun bin (secret garden OST)
i'm feeling pretty low because of work. but i'm happy too. not because of work, but because of what i believe is a critical turning point in the history of my country.
it's hard to keep silent, even harder to be indifferent (as much as i'd like to be) at a time like this. the personal turning point for me was this... after my sister related her account of the bersih 2.0 march over dinner with my parents, and we all indignantly scoffed at the blatant lies propagated by the mainstream media and the "right wing" political what-have-yous, i said to my parents in my usual disgruntled fashion,"f*ck this shit. let's migrate. really. would you guys think about it?"
and then...this is what my father said, "don't worry. things will change."
"things will change" - three little words from my dad. and it was all it took.
my dad. the ever-cynical-disgruntled-critic of malaysian politics and politicians, typical of his generation. he's been griping bout it since he was a wee lad, eating char koay teow in penang!
well if it's good enough for him, it's good enough for me. hells yeahs.
of crystal balls and building walls
Friday, July 01, 2011
mood: contemplative
listening to: -
an old friend remarked recently,"you're like a little version of pink" (the artist, not the colour dumbass! =P) apt? i don't know....you decide.
anyway, i've also been told recently that the reason why i've not found a special someone is because i keep my hair long. which means to say, that for some reason or other, all the forces in the universe jointly believe that i look crap with long hair. hah! i happen to like my long hair (especially of late due to the discovery of a new-burn-a-hole-through-your-pocket-treatment that i discovered) thankuverymuch.
so what should i do? let the stars dictate my fashion sense (or lack thereof) for here onwards, all for the sake of finding someone? i don't know. i am ashamed to have to admit that i'm even contemplating cutting my hair short because of this. sigh* but this seemingly endless cycle of rather unfortunate run-ins with idiots over and over again is tiring me out. seriously. and while going it alone has its perks, it would be nice to have someone to lean on to...especially now.
so....to cut or not to cut? to chop or not to chop? now is THAT the question?
*puzzled*
