I can't believe most of those who take arts are already frolicking around,
so unfair!!!!!!!!
List of things to do
1. Go shopping for books (HELLYEAHIT'SBEENTOOLONG)
2. Drink coffee at cool secluded cafe while inhaling the smell of new books
3. Eagerly wait for 3rd December to come so I can go shopping at Oakham (victory dance)
4. Organize Rainbow Tea Party with Caryl (I googled rainbow party and I found out that it doesn't necessarily mean a rainbow themed party...you can google it if you want I'm not gonna say it! Seriously humans these days are sick)
5. Go for soft rebonding with Chua Limin. This is going to be interesting
6. Baking butter cookies and decorating them I MUST PERFECT MY BISCUITS
7. Paintball, I don'tcareif Nat/Cleo don't wanna do ittttt I must play paintball hahaha
8. Swim everyday I am gonna be toned!!!!
9. Make spoofy music video with friends i.e. brander jenny yuhui melissa hanissa and other people who I will threaten and blackmail into co-operating with me :-)
10. I really really really wanna watch Happy Feet 2.
11. Working IAMSOEXCITED (for now) MONEY~
12. Zouk with Jayme....and afterwards John and Snail hahaha omch omch after watching Kengsiang's 2 dancing videos I simply cannot wait
13. Letter/Card writingI can't wait to get crafty ^.^
14. Force people to write in my Friendship booook
15. Visit places that Abi and I are supposed to visit without her hahahaha since she's going to australia for like0239039032 days
16. Holidaywith Hockey girls a.k.a Team Hot babes (can we please go to taiwan to search for Ko Chen-Tung hehehehe)
17. Holiday with Recess Clique (hahaha)
18. Holiday with Keng siang + Snail + etc...
19. Go back to RJ for training once, St Nicks too (I guess)
20. Learn to walk in heels hahahahaha my RProject audition was...perfect HAHA
The list is so much longer but I don't wanna get myself too pumped up
In other news, prom dress shopping is a horror.
HAHA Since I wasn't very serious about prom in St Nicks....
as seen from my dress and you can't see my shoes but you don't rlly wanna know
I never frickin' knew lookng for a prom dress would be so hard!!!!!!!
I mean like WHAAAA'! It's so tough!!!!!!
All I know is I want bright colours :-)
I really like the yellow and blue dress (!!!!)
Hanissa's mom is positive that I am exactly like Zooey Deschanel in New Girl.
I always thought I acted very normal when I was at her house,
I honestly have no idea how she found out that I was retarded...
I am the most stupid person on earth,
a
big
fat
ruiner.
AHAHAHA I was trying to get people to chip in to share her present,
so my text went like
"hi hi hi hanissa's birthday is coming (dunno 28 or 29 hahaha can't remember), do yáll wanna share!!!! don't worry we can be cheapskate (like her!!!! hahaha)"
I sent it to Brander, Khaing zin, Melissa, Yuhui....and HANISSA.
HAHA am I stupid or what?!?!?!
The worst thing was, the first time, the sending failed.
And I had this feeling in my bones that Hanissa's name was in the send list.
BUT, being the ruiner that I am, I obviously ignored the signs and pressed send.
Hanissa received her message when they were watching new girl and she said her mom was like
"DOES DIONNE KNOW SHE'S ON TV" sighhhhh
And on Ish's birthday....I ruined the surprise too!!!!
We were all waiting at the table for Daniel Lau to arrive with the cake...
and I thought Ish was buying his lunch so I shouted, yes SHOUTED, at Rifqi
"EH WHAT FLAVOUR IS THE CAKE" cuz I was so excited to eat it, when Ish was right next to me.
Rifqi just stared at me like "WTF?!" and I turned my head and I wanted to die.
I am a ruiner.
SO REMEMBER, INCLUDE ME AT ALL SURPRISE EVENTS BUT REMEMBER TO TAPE MY MOUTH AND FINGERS TOGETHER UNTIL AFTER THE SURPRISE IS OVER.
Lastly I would like to conclude with this:
Dieting and losing weight is so difficut.
My diet labut they give you a bad throat.
Lasted a record 3 days.
And also, barbecued Satays are so delicious
I have officially parachuted from the Helicopter of Dieting and Skinnyness
into the Valley of Obesity
Labels: Clap your hands and say yeah
Friday, November 25, 2011 | 4:54 AM
are you happy now?
...
This human heart, ...
Sunday, November 20, 2011 | 6:00 AM
you have always known,
but never understood
Saturday, November 19, 2011 | 4:47 PM
I tried doing clap push-ups last night after Abigail told me she tried and failed....
After watching some hot angmoh on Youtube, I tried doing ONE.
I clapped and fell flat.
My arms are damn weak.
I am going to learn to do 10 consecutive clap push ups in time for army ha ha ha.
I wonder if they'll let me join BMT and then disappear.
But first things first, I need to figure out how to get rid of the ache in my arms in time for tomorrow.
Friday, November 18, 2011 | 4:12 AM
www.everynone.com
...
...
You won't regret it
Wednesday, November 16, 2011 | 5:24 AM
"Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big Plans. To find your perfect match, the one who completes you. But as you get you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe you're leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered."
- One Tree Hill
"You never get over it. But you get to the point where it doesn't bother you so much."
- Jeffrey Eugenides
When I was running today, I had a sudden revelation that I have never ever worked towards a goal.
I never had this desire to achieve this that whatever.
Never had a passion to push myself further.
I just work hard for the sake of working hard when I have a vague idea of what I'm good at, and settle for whatever I get for the effort I put in.
Then I realized when I begin to get good at something, I stop.
It's not conscious, not really.
But because when you get good, the expectations begin to culminate and I don't like it when you're supposed to exemplify the pinnacle of success and I'm a bundle of nerves.
I think quitting track and field that marked the start of me taking the easy way out.
Maybe not having expectations makes you happy.
We all know happiness is expectations over reality.
So does zero expectations make you infinitely happy?
I don't know, I'm not so sure whether not being results/goal-oriented is good but somehow I have this feeling in my bones that I may regret this lack of drive.
I think it might eventually lead to me burying any form of gifts that I have.
Maybe my lack of expectations is a facade, a defense mechanism that I created because I am too proud to lose.
So I can safely say that "hey I didn't want it so bad, I didn't expect to win. If it happens it happens" I'm not too sure which one it is.
But at this point of time it seems as though if I died like right now, I would have died as though I never lived.
Maybe I should embrace life with open arms and accept failure and hurt and disappointment, along with the other wonderful things.
While I was getting lost in this sea of confusing and contradictory thoughts I was almost hit on the head by a soccer ball, thank god it didn't because I have fast reflexes and ducked.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011 | 4:53 AM
A levels make me feel
...
1) Ugly (late nights and terrible skin are synonymous)
2) Fat (parents buy too much food for me whoop whoop + too many snacks from supermarkets)
3) Stupid (tell me about it)
On a side note, I love sweaters (L)
I am going to buy lots and lots and lots of sweaters to keep me warm
(Must go shopping with the snail @ OM + my prom dress
(Must go shopping with the snail @ OM + my prom dress
I should just go for prom as a Pikachu hahaha imagine that)
Studying at 20 degrees had me shivering for six hours AFTER I left the room
Today I brought Long Johns from Uniqlo along with me HAHA
I hate being cold.
Bye
Labels: less self absorbed posts soon
Friday, November 11, 2011 | 4:39 PM
I THINK ALIENS DESCENDED ONTO EARTH YESTERDAY. POSITIVE! I WAS STUDYING AND I NOTICED THIS BRIGHT RED LIGHT LINGERING ABOVE THE HOUSES, AND IT GOT LARGER AND LARGER AND LARGER UNTIL IT DISAPPEARED. IT COULDN'T HAVE BEEN AN AIRPLANE! I WOULD LIKE TO THINK THAT LITTLE CJ7S HAVE INVADED THE PLANET ^.^ SO CUTE. INCIDENTALLY, I WOULD LIKE TO DEDICATE THE SONG ''THINGS I'LL NEVER SAY'' TO A LEVELS~ ''I'M TUGGING AT MY HAIR, I'M PULLING AT MY CLOTHES, I'M TRYNA KEEP MY COOOOL I KNOW IT SHOWS....CUZ I'M FEELING NERVOUS, TRYNA BE SO PERFECT, CUZ I KNOW YOU'RE WORTH IT YOU'RE WORTH IT YEAH~'' HALFWAY TO HEAVEN....OR HELL? ONLY TIME CAN TELL... MEANWHILE, WATCH ME DESCEND INTO THE DARKNESS LIKE A BRIGHT RED ALIEN LIGHT
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