Lets count down till midnight for it'll be my 21st.
While people will be happily receiving wishes on their birthday at midnight,
I'll still be serving, " Coffee or Tea sir? To go along with your meal?" with no bloody reception on a plane.

oh well, like i said. People are evil. Found out shida had an off day too tmr.
Just becuse I am gg Munich tonight.

oh well, i'll make most of my twentyfirst cause it is, my 21st. (:
shopping spree in Munich, maybe? haha.

on the flipside,
i'll be in Germany bitches, ciao!

boyfriend has been nothing but the sweetest.
& damn it, cc gave me munich on my birthday but LQ gave my boyfriendan off day on my birthday & i wont be in Singapore,
Thanks ah LQ!

you know, right about now i feel annoyed. fucked up like crazy, i feel like crying. ah, i feel like i do so many things for people, i have this thing where i have to constantly please the people i care for, that it is taking a toll on me.

my life, is all about waiting. & yes, i am sick and tired of waiting. waiting is mentally and physically draining. be it waiting for a call, a reply or someone. or waiting for things to get done. or etc. ah, i feel like screaming already.

maybe all these feeling, ive felt it before and the only comfort i give myself is that i've been through this, i've gotten through this, i can pull through. this is what i say to myself everytime. & yes, retail therapy is the best, i swear to god.

yes, right about now, i got noone. off days are spent alone at shopping malls buying things off the rack it is crazy. but it helps with my ipod plugged in and shopping bags on one hand. im coming home a happy girl everytime.

ah, i think i am too tired. i just did a hong kong turn, then today a bangkok turn and tomorrow morning london where everyone said it'll be a tiring flight. sigh. i hope i wont fall sick though i already am catching the flu. ):

ah, i hope the boyfriend will cheer up, cause he's the only one i got.
ciao.

You are the distance between the way things are and the way I want them to be.

Downhill number one.
ok, go.

i am happy, i really am.
the boy has been nothing but the sweetest
& well, i dont want this to end.

right now, we're as good as it gets.
& this love, its crazy.'

but sometimes, when you're happy, too happy, its scary.
you dont know quite when things are going to fall apart.
the only thing you can hope for, is for it to not to.

happy is what happiness is.
ciao.

as much as i say i wouldn't get into the whole expensive goods thing but but but i want to get my own personalised Longchamp and Tods loafers (praying hard syirin could get it for me over at Milan). hehe. I only go crazy for Kate Spade wallets, though i've already got one & a KS Noel Cardholder (it was on sale =X) & how many wallets do i need? heh. & not forgetting the Ray Bans. yes, Ray Bans aviators are a must-haves.

ah, where is my Hong Kong - San Francisco flight when I want it! nevermind, London end of ze month. time for Topshop, Ben Shermans & Fred Perrys' yo!

& to complete it all off,
a pretty cream & light blue Vespa!
(haha, a girl can only dream)
& i bet the boyfriend is rolling his eyes, right about now.
=D

Munich Manchester on my 21st,
Dubai Istanbul on my boys birthday.

tell me again, should i be happy
or should i be sad?

exhausted.
now, i just want to find peace and find myself and have a good flight to and fro without worrying.

ily, still.

& suddenly at this point,
i just realised how delicately fragile i still am.
(ah, i feel like hiding under the sheets for even asking)
time to layer myself up with trust & love.

need to take a breather.
breathe!

on a 50/50 note,
The good : Rome this week.
The bad : No boyfriend for the week.
):