Thursday, December 31, 2009
Last day of 2009.
Looked forward to the end of this year since the beginning of this year.
Next year, I'll look forward to the end of it too.
The irony of it all.
2:07 AM
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Already, it's December.
Haven't been here for such a long time, and I still remember my password~ Oh well, I mean all of us do have a standard password which we use for majority of our accounts here and there right? Or else our memory space'll be overflowing with information.
From the start of the year until now, I suppose that there's been great changes ongoing. The daily environment did have a sharp turn at the start of the year after all. Hard to cope, or so I recall. It was so painful just to think of that yellow blouse and turquoise plaited skirt that catches air so easily. Piercing pain to think about my alma mater. I think I cried in the bath for nearly the entire week when I got home during orientation week.
"could have been", "should have been"...
From the minute I stepped into that school, I was already answering people how NJC was my 2nd choice and I'd intended to go opposite. Why I couldn't get into HCI? I dropped HCL. Biggest regret at that time, for now I don't know whether my life would've been better in HCI but I guess I'm doing okay at present. The grass on the other side is forever greener.
I guess I wasn't the only one who had a hard time adjusting to the start of JC. I think that it was one of the hardest adjustments so far in my life. Even leaving USA wasn't that bad; I vaguely recall a sense of pity during that time. Recalling that period now, I've to emphasize again how much hardship it was. Thinking about it does bring tears to my eyes.
"I wish I had", "I should have done"...
Had a lot of personal thoughts roaming in my head during that period. I knew I wasn't alone in NJC either but still... Not seeing the familiar school, the familiar scenario every morning, the familiar faces with the usual expressions... Yup it was really hard.
Leaving the OG was another hard thing. After getting so used to the people, had to once again see new faces. However, now I've to say that I'm relieved that my OG wasn't my class. I wouldn't have met many wonderful people. I guess that's the huge risk of facing change.
I think the person who really helped me get through this tough time were my first few friends in NJC. Many thanks: Yuanting, Qiushi, Audrey, Huiying. Big thanks to Yuanting; we sit together every morning ever since we got to know each other. Great guitar mate too. Her random singing makes me laugh and her futile attempts to get me into Korean stuff are amusing too. Fifi, Kahmun; Haiwei, Huijin, one way or another did cheer me up. *big hug* Occasionally seeing 4C2 people also made me smile :) Brightens my day a lot, really.
Then came rolling in the real JC life of homework and no more fun&games. NJC seriously is no fun. Even if there is an attempt to create an enjoyable event, it's usually a (very) futile one. Rocky start to JC. Climbing the tall stairs at the Grand Stand area makes me gloomy every morning. Still makes me gloomy I suppose. I so preferred the slope.
Initially, seeing grey colour no matter I looked did dull my spirits. Thankfully, I did regain happiness and laughter when being with a group of friends. Many thanks and hugs to: Ain, Michelle, Peiru, Sheena, Theresa, Valerie. Without them, I think the notion of how I was so close yet so far (literally and figuratively) to getting in HCI wouldn't have been deleted from my mind.
I think the worst part of JC was learning enduring Physics with a CERTAIN tutor. I sincerely pray with all my heart that I'll get a different tutor for Physics next year. The worst of the worst just has to be the one and only PW. I am so thankful that it has been long over. From the start of the year, I was already waiting for the end of PW to come.
Although I did regret dropping HCL, I suppose my H1 Chinese teacher changed that. She's so sincere, so caring and her thoughtfulness really moves me. She treasures those around her and is a great friend to us. (even though Michelle and Peiru always struggle to stay awake during her class -.-) Her life stories are very interesting and sometimes, inspirational. Hopefully, I'll be able to do her proud with an A for H1 Chinese next year. I sincerely hope so.
Another event would be joining TYA. Brightens my Saturdays, really. Glad to know so many nice people there including the kids. I still believe that kids are still annoying but they can be very honest and are blessed to be plainly innocent.
I still miss Crescent but even though I was there for 4 years, everything just seems surreal. Occasionally when I visit Crescent, I'll walk past places and think about how doing so used to be a daily occurrence with nothing special about it. Now when I look at Crescent, how I wished I could don that striking uniform and walk around normally once again. But that won't happen any more. It's a great pity, I feel. I still recall how I'd be half awake and dragging myself to my classroom. (and see Fifi half-dead and without fail, always walking to the whiteboard to see what's on it, even though it could be random drawings or stuff written from the previous day) I know that that feeling of walking into Crescent and feeling nothing special will never come back. I guess it is a feeling I miss. I miss walking around Crescent without being amazed how it has or has not changed. It makes me wonder: was I really here for the past 4 years? So surreal, way too surreal.
Sadly, there's no such thing as forever. I vaguely remember my first day in Crescent, seriously all alone. Mrs Lee said something about how we'll be here for 4 years and how we should treasure our time. At that time, I felt that 4 years was a long time and it wouldn't pass by that quickly. Everytime during Band farewell, seniors will keep reminding us to treasure our time in Crescent. I think a lot of us take that for granted--time.
My H1 Chinese teacher once said: 永远，有多远？
Did set me thinking and recalling Crescent once more.
Anyway, my conclusion is that this year turned out to be better than I expected. Even though I didn't get into my intended JC, NJC life has been coloured by crayons known as my JC friends xD Be it fate, destiny or coincidence, I'm forever grateful.
To all my friends, old or new, I'm eternally grateful to all of you <333
I think I should give a short shout out to my piano teacher too. I've always looked forward to Fridays, always looked forward to that one hour. It's usually 'do or die'. Still, it's enjoyable and lets me relax a lot.
Back to reality,
- Need to do homework. Like seriously. SERIOUSLY.
- 11-13th: TYA Family Tour @ Malacca :D
- I LOVE SKIP BEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- TSURUGA RENNNNN <3
- Currently watching: Liar Game 2, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, Inuyasha~The Final Act~ (yes, I agree that my currently-watching list is a BIT short)
~~~
那时我们会不去的从前
所以我们更应懂得珍惜面前的所有
10:15 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009
HIATUS.
Cuz I'd rather be watching shows or sleeping when I've free time and not obliged to study. Haha.
Happy Bday to Aby and Vday abt an hour in advance (:
Oh if you still didn't know, I landed myself in NJC.
10:56 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I'm really happy with what I've got. Really.
But there's still a dilemmaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ):
1:44 PM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
The talk of Os is putting a hell lot of pressure on me, like everyone else -.-
~
"大姐，你一向来成绩都比我好耶!"
"那些都是克信卷子，这可是'O'水准!"
~
It's hard when so many people expect something but if that doesn't happen, it's just disappointment... Wouldn't want something that happened about four years ago to repeat itself again but can't do anything now.
未来には期待出来るのか分からずに
一人きりで生まれて 一人きりで生きて行く
I sincerely hope I'm obliged to message many people tomorrow. It doesn't matter if it causes my message limit to explode -.-
~
Luckily there's Ouran, since it's hella funny.
"He might have hit his head on the corner of a piece of tofu and is currently roaring in laughter."
Small Girl: My name is KIRIMI!
Twins: Kill me?
Haruhi: Creamy?
~
Tomorrow is live or die.
I'll remember to bring a few packets of tissue.
1:19 PM
Friday, January 09, 2009
First post of the year although it's more than a week into the new year /:
Okay so Os results are in less than 3 freaking days. There goes my carefree, hedonistic life. I WANT IT BAAAAAAAACK.
Damn, someone pass me the time remote please, I desperately need to hit the rewind button -.-
Just thinking about it makes the butterflies that have been hibernating in my stomach since Os suddenly awake from their slumber all shaken, thus frantically banging here and there. TSK.
Today was my first piano lesson of the year and I kinda expected to be lectured or even scolded since I haven't been that DUTIFULLY memorizing music history for my Diploma. But my teacher only asked how were my Programme Notes coming along then I plunged into questioning him a lot of things that covered Diploma stuff and A Level Music. Sooooo I sent him the A Level Music Syllabus as he requested... He's so nice luh, he said he'll look at the syllabus and advise me on whether I should take or not =^^= He's gonna have the final say of one of my Arts subjects man. If his answer is no, I die also won't take. If his answer is yes, I'll most likely take unless my circumstances change (whatever my circumstances are, I can't tell now, or rather choose not to think about it).
I really looooooooove this holiday a hell lot ♥
LIST OF SHOWS I'VE WATCHED THIS HOLIDAY
Lovely Complex (anime + live-action)
Matantei Loki
Special A
Ouran High School Host Club
Proposal Daisakusen
Ryuusei no Kizuna (too boring, discontinued)
Skip Beat! (ongoing)
Full Metal Alchemist
Nada Sou Sou
Anmitsu Hime
10 Promise to My Dog (on the plane from Japan to SG)
Inuyasha (rewatched)
Nodame Cantabile (anime)
Nodame Cantabile: Paris (anime)
That's all I can remember for now... Haha.
9:45 PM
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I'm at Fifi's house now.
I'll only be going home only next year.
Oh wow :D
Play monopoly until we 4 were so agitated.
Yes, 2008 was definitely an eventful and memorable year.
O levels.
Leaving Crescent.
OMG.
Starting in a new school next year.
A few more minutes (:
11:55 PM
