In HK now.. Flew into Macau yday.. 2day came into Hong Kong, we took de wrong ferry cos we dun haf a watch.. Haha.. There was a little hickups but Bb is smilin again.. So happy.. =) I'll blog more wen I'm back.. Juz wanna enjoy my time with bb..

Went clubbin with BB & her "jie + jie fu" 2nite.. Bb dancin is nice.. Find it pretty hot.. *wink*
Hong Kong is on our way.. I feel de excitement but duno if bb do.. I shall go slp soon, 2mrw tuition 11am-3pm.. Den go back S.K get sm winter wear, come home pack.. den re arange my schedule in HK.. Either Bb come over stay or I pick her at 4am 2go airport.. =)))))) I'm gonna be so xin fu for de whole wk.. Heehee..

X'mas 2008

Retro Geeks!!!

Really glad my bb came 4X'mas.. Ah Yi seems to knw she's my bb.. Cos she kept talkin abt her 2day.. But she dun seem to dislike her.. We're leavin for HK in 2days..

My image

Jovi is in de army & my granny couldnt recognise him -_-""
En De & Peishan
~Family~

~ Family~

EnDe & Chio Bu

3geeks of de Wuns & an emo ghost at de back..

Wuns geeks & de ghost again..

Who's de gal at de back?

Sam look like Bucks teeth Liang Po Po..

Rapist.. Eunice.. HK cafe after the movie *Bedtime stories*

Bb is comin for my Christmas eve gatherin.. I'm so over de moon.. I knw u went thru alot of tgs 2b able 2come.. Thank u bb.. I love u.. Teng Si Ni Le.. Muacks.. Advance Merry X'mas pple..

Not a gd wkend.. Bb is in JB frm Fri to Monday maybe.. De new parent is pretty intimidatin.. Busy preparin for X'mas caterin but most of them are full.. Nose bled.. Mens cramp.. Couldnt slp cos tummy was that terrible..

New week today, I'm off 1/2day frm 12pm, shall go shop abit 4my geeky spects.. LOL.. Been rearrangin for places 2go in HK tis comin Sunday, abit of a mess.. Alot of places 2go but they're pretty far.. Plus de surprise for BB is takin up an night already.. Mm.. *scratch head*

I beta head 4my bed, my stomach make me wanna puke but I'm 2teach at 10.30am den go shop a while den mayb I'll slot another tuition in if I'm feelin beta.. Wait till I wake up.. =) Nitez pple.. Happy X'mas preparation.. My fav season of de year, really like X'mas eve.. Always gimme a romantic feelin.. Wish I could hug all my love ones & countdown.. Such a freakin important day 2me lah.. But we shld nv be 2greedy, I'm alr very happy with wat I haf nw.. =) Anyway, I'll be workin on 25th itself.. LOL..

Havent blog for a while.. Went JB last Sat, BB & Ju had their hair done.. BB highlight red & I like it.. *wink*.. 2mrw is a full day out with BB til Thurs, not goin home.. It's juz DiFeL day.. =) Miss my bb 2day.. Din get to see her.. 2mrw I'm bringin BB 2eat smtg she had wanted to eat, den bb is bringin me to eat smtg tt I like 2eat.. But we dun really knw where each other is bringin us 2.. LOL..

I'm officially attach.. ^_^

9th Dec is de day.. We're gonna haf many happy times 2gether BB.. I promise I wont let de fire extinguish.. Tis few days, I feel like I'm in heaven.. Cant even bear 2see BB go home.. =) Next wk, bb say she'll try 2make it a 2days free all for me.. So happy.. =) Anyway, we watched 2movies 2day, "Body of Lie" & "Bolt" frm 9pm-1.10am..

I came back in de noon yday.. Spent a nite at the hotel with Jovi, Est & BB after clubbin.. BUT OF COURSE we slpt in different room with Jovi & Est.. I had a really good nite.. I havent smiled so much in de past 5mths+.. Even now, I'm smilin.. 2day mornin I came back at 6am again.. LOL.. Feel tt I'm drownin in love, literally drowned.. LOL.. But I'm so happy inside out.. ^_^

I thot BB wont meet me yday, but she suddenly sms me ask if I wanna go out.. She went 2meet her Thai room-mate-to-be which I'd be seein next Feb/March in Adelaide dependin on wen de CA end? =) Anyway, we went to eat at HK cafe in cineleisure.. Aft tt we head down to the Sa Bai(Thai) club in 25 Thompson Road.. Den we sat at de road side 2relax 4abt 20min b4 we walked to Lau Ba Sat cos I felt damn thirsty.. Started 2rain aft tt but we manage 2call a cab & I send Bb home..

P/S: I missed u BB..

Went to catch the movie *Bolt* at AMK hub with all my cousins yday.. Emerlyn said she's bringin a fren den end up cannot make it for de movie.. I was fumin lah.. LOL.. Cos yday not a very smooth day sia.. Everytg like wrong, kenna scold by my aunt, den was mad at Ju for not volunteerin 2fetch Emerlyn cos she was late..

After the movie, I was stil tinkin I'll brin bb to watch de show wen she comes back cos she like dogs.. Den I called Bb 2see if she finished work alr, but she said she's doin room servicin.. Den Emerlyn went to meet her *fren*.. Est ask me go breadtalk buy bread?! -_-"" Wen I came out, I saw sm1 dashed past, I told Amelia, tt person look like Diana hor? Amelia was like "WHERE GOT?!!" Shout so loud.. -_-""

Den Emerlyn & Amelia drag me sayin tt they got a surprise for me.. And there stood my BB.. At tt moment, my mind went blank, really blank.. I was like she's workin rite? Am I seein tgs again or I dreamin.. Later I found out tt my Baby is so naughty.. She planned a surprise with all my cousins+sis & all kept de secret so well for de whole week, thou I sensed smtg fishy, I thot I was tinkin too much.. >.<>.< I was so happy lah last nite, no one ever really successfully surprise me & I nv expect bb to do it.. =)))

Baby不在我身边的第一百五十九天

Went to Sam's house till mornin den bought Est, Jovi, Didi & parents, Eunice, Amelia & auntie Betty breakfast which is our fav bee hoon.. Before that we went to AMK hub for movie "Ember of light" was de title I tink.. De show is average, kinda like Narnia but not as good.. Est, Jovi & me ate at de cheap Jap restaurant near AMK hub for diner.. Before my movie started, BB called me.. Finally it's her off day 2day.. I knw past few days been really hard on her but work is like tt. we nv get to choose.. Next month at tis time, we'd be havin a X'mas party at home.. My cousins can't wait 2meet my bb.. >.< Den 4days later, we'll be off to HK.. 2nd lesson in circuit 2day, was much beta den last time.. I'll be havin 2more lesson in circuit & 4days later is my exam.. Can I make it? I'll juz do my best & leave de rest 2my luck..

Baby不在我身边的第一百五十八天

My New Account for pirate job.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第一百五十六天

I'm startin 2cough damn badly again.. Drowned myself with water & slpt at 11plus last nite aft BB call.. Our sms connection is workin again since last month.. Bb had been soooooo sweet for de past 2wks.. I can't wait 4u 2b back too.. 25more days 2u comin back & 35days 2our HK trip.. ^_^ Drivin exam is next Fri.. Phoof.. *Relaxxx* If I can pass would be good, if I can't, I'll try again next year..

Been pretty stress tis whole wk abt next yr's work direction & drivin exam.. PSLE result is out, Bernard had 1A*, 2A, 1B which is beta den I expected esp chinese A?!! NORMALLY his chinese is only 50+.. -_-"" Kelvin has 2A, 2B which was alr a bonus 2me cos he couldnt be bothered 2study durin PSLE.. Lingshi was a little below my expectation, thou she had 4A but she only got 237 which was a little below my expectation of 245.. But all is well so it's ok.. I look forward 2life ahead.. Hopefully I can get 4more students next yr..

P/S: Bb.. Thx 4bein so encouragin.. Thou there was quarrels, arguments throughout de pass 6mths & thou we aint together YET.. I stil love u a whole lot.. I do..

Baby不在我身边的第一百五十天

Bought Didi to Fish & Co on de 11th 2celebrate his bday.. He ordered his fav New York Fish.. Me & est share Seafood Platter, it was so huge lah.. Den bonus is my fav grilled squid..

Met Mar & Ivy on Thurs, we had diner in BK, lucky all of us eat beef.. So anytg is fine w us.. So we had BK.. I was cravin 4it a few days back.. LOL.. Den we went to TCC, I ordered a wasabi milkshake.. Not too bad.. De place is nice.. >.<>

Sam & guys comin over 4baked potato.. I promised to make it if she pass her drivin exam.. Mine is on de way.. 2more wks.. Sigh.. Confident level 50% ba.. But I'll try my best no matter wat..

P/S: SingHo hotel bookin confirmed & they gave me a cheaper rate.. Woo Hoo.. Nv tink I could manage all tis myself..

Baby不在我身边的第一百四十七天

Been a while since I blog.. Been busy.. Yday treated Didi go eat Fish & Co 2celebrate his bday together with Esther.. Den after that, I went 2his place 2stay til tis mornin, we were playin games & he helped me improvise sm damn gd ideas.. Wat is it? Only he knws & I knw.. Hehe.. Den we went 4breakfast 2gether, had bee hoon lor.. Our fav.. Might juz go over again on either Thurs or Fri.. BTW, auntie Florence was pretty astonish wen she saw me cos from June til nw, I lost like 8kg..

2day I made Didi's new favourite Golden Mushroom with Bacon.. Haha.. Juz learnt another new dish & it'll be de 1st dish I cook 4Bb wen she comes back cos all my cousin except Steph who's always on a diet tried it & they do like it.. >.< Drove yday & tis 2wks would be a little more intensive drivin cos exam is in 2wks.. Honestly, my confident is pretty low.. But juz do wat I can.. If fail, nxt yr try again.. Must get a license b4 BB graduate.. I promised her alr.. Meetin Mar & Ivy on Thurs.. Been a long time since I last saw them..

P/S: 34more days to bb come back.. Weeee...
Aft tt is countdown 2Christmas & den our HK trip new yr countdown..

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十九天

I'm cravin for sushi & MOS burger 2day.. Had a weird idea tis afternoon.. Not for me 2type out thou.. Haha.. -_-"" 2mrw shall go for sushi as sm1 promised.. Right???

My lungs are damn bad 2day, cough until I feel like vomitin & my nose hurt like shit.. But I'll try v hard 2get well..

Bb say cancel de HK trip if I dun get well by den.. Sniff.. Cannot lah.. I so look forward to our countdown in HK.. I will definitely get well.. Plannin de itinerary nw so tt I can arrange 4de HK hotel side.. Mm.. Everytg book liao.. Cant wait for u to come back.. 1more mth only.. >.<

I'm a suspect of pneumonia wor.. Mm.. I was right.. LOL.. Read up alot on Bronchitis & Pneumonia tis few wks, I knw quite abit kind.. LOL.. Wanted 2c a doc in hospital 2day cos my lips were turnin a little blue yday & stomach upset all day.. Doctor say as long as I dun haf fever, it's not live threatenin.. So he told me to see him if any fever arise..

Cough is no joke wor.. See wat happen to me.. Pneumonia is a common illness which occurs in all age groups, and is a leading cause of death among the elderly and people who are chronically and terminally ill. People with infectious pneumonia often have a cough producing greenish or yellow sputum, or phlegm and a high fever that may be accompanied by shakin chills. Shortness of breath is also common, as is pleuritic chest pain, a sharp or stabbing pain, either experienced during deep breaths or coughs or worsened by them. People with pneumonia may cough up blood, experience headaches, or develop sweaty and clammy skin. Other possible symptoms are loss of appetite, fatigue, blueness of the skin, nausea, vomitin, mood swings, and joint pains or muscle aches. Legionella may cause abdominal pain and diarrhea. Pneumocystis may cause only weight loss and night sweats. It may reveal fever or sometimes low body temperature, an increased respiratory rate, low blood pressure, a high heart rate, or a low oxygen saturation, which is the amount of oxygen in the blood as indicated by either pulse oximetry or blood gas analysis. People who are struggling to breathe, who are confused, or who have cyanosis (blue-tinged skin) require immediate attention.

P/S: And thx Emerlyn & Amelia who accompanied me to Mount A.. Treated them MOS burger which was Amelia's 1st time eatin.. Hehe..

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十五天

My days sux yday.. Terrible mood throughout de day, had 1session of tuition den went out for diner.. Took a walk in de cold storage.. Pretty fun walkin ard not spendin a single cent.. Well.. I did spend $1.95, gettin my clam chowder soup for 2nite diner.. Juz feel like drinkin soup 2nite & notg else.. My lungs stil aint good.. 1st tg pple ask wen I said I haf bronchitis is "U've been smokin?!!" I would be like "Wat de fuck? R u crazy? Wen was de last time u see me smoke?"

Finish my last pill 2day, de medicine is so strong it causes me gastric every single time I eat it.. I dehydrates like hell also.. De only tg is I used my determination not 2touch any cold water, or any food tt's not meant for MY consumption.. I'm juz afraid I cant get well by Christmas, cos one of de website says it may take up to few months to fully recover.. I dun wan it to effect my HK trip..

2wards de evenin, my leg hurts like fuck.. I couldnt exert 2much pressure on my "ex" fractured leg.. Wat a wk rite? Worse day of de wk I could haf.. Tryin 2climb down de stairs juz nw 2realise tt I cant exert any force on my right leg.. I merely threw a little tantrum but I din kick my leg or anytg.. Hopefully wen I wake up at 9am for my drivin later, I can move it.. I dun care wat 2mrw would b like.. I'm so exhausted 2day.. Time 4bed, if nt cant wake up for drivin alr.. Gd nite pple.. Gd nite horrible day.. A fresh start 2mrw.. A fresh mind.. A fresh new day..

Would anyone love me for who I am?

FeL FeL

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十三天

Stil coughin but mm.. Ok lah.. Tryin v hard 2get well.. I juz added Tang Xin Feng Bao II Jia Hao Yue Yuan main theme in.. Those tt say nice rite? Listen ba.. It's by Guan Ju Ying as usual.. She's stil soooo bitchy in de show.. Feel like throwin punches at her lah.. Aiyo.. Tink "Hao & Qiu" is stil de golden couple.. Will they be 2gether? I duno also.. Cos I'm on episode 19th now.. Hehe..

P/S: Bb.. I miss u wor.. Everyday also miss.. Everytime I open my eyes.. Everytime my heart beats too.. *blush*

De word "smoke" triggered sm old memories..

Remember back in my Secondary school days, I used to join Andy Lau's club.. LOL.. Yes, a fan club.. He told us to go around town askin pple 2quit smokin.. And I happily went along, did wat we were suppose 2do & had a bday celebration with him in our own club place, tink was Canto or smtg.. Those were de days.. Crazy but fun..

Den wen I became 21, I pick up smokin myself.. But fortunately only for a short while.. Thx to Alec persistent.. I guess his healthy image of not smokin, smells gd & clean breathe pretty much attracted me.. ONLY BACK DEN OK.. *Ouch* But after Alec, all my ex's be it men or women all smoke.. LOL.. I rem really resist kissin Thomas wenever he smokes.. So much quarrels & eventually we dun behave like couple anymore, more like frens aft a while..

My ex gf's were even heavier smokers den my ex bfs.. I used to ask if my exs would gif up smokin cos of me, I guess I cant even be compared to a non livin tg.. Den again, kinda arguement which I'm so sick of, so I gave up askin anyone to do so aft tt.. LOL.. Why shld I "zi bian shen jia".. It's their choice & their freedom to do wat they like..

Headache again.. Had a weird dream last nite of sm1 tellin me I'm gonna die soon.. I beta go slp before drivin at 4pm & stop tinkin abt tis crazy tg.. Wen it's time to die, die.. For now, I can only be happy.. Yeah?

P/S: I always feel tt my dad really love my mum, he gave up 10yrs of smokin for her.. Tt's why he earned de respect tt he haf.. He did wat he promised.. Cool man yeah.. =)

Baby不在我身边的第一百三十天

Baby keep sayin she misses me 2day.. >.< Make me feel so much beta.. Is love & care really de best medicine for sickness? LOL.. I haf de care from family+frens & love from my baby, I feel so much beta 2day.. I'm tryin v hard to get well.. Leadin a pretty healthy lifestyle for past 4days, ate congee with scallop & veggie den haf plenty of water.. Finally my weighin scale is pointin to below 75kg, 5more kg to go to my target for tis year.. Tink I can make it if I continue to eat so healthily.. Haha..

P/S: Thx everyone who wished me well.. I will get well.. Soon I hope.. Nv been so sick in my entire life, sendin like 8pills into my mouth every 6-8hrs.. Phoof.. In de middle of de nite, I'd b breatheless, damn xin ku... Sigh..

1. I'm havin Bronchitis..
2. My baby sis is de sweetest 2day..
3. I miss my bao bei..

Baby不在我身边的第一百二十六天

Went to see doctor for my 2days old fever.. Doctor Chew say it's virus, he cant gimme any antibiotics cos my stomach alr v weak.. Need my immune system to fight it.. Wat a joke rite? My immune system haf always been damn weak.. He said if by Sunday, my fever stil up & down beta do a blood test.. Felt kinda pathetic last nite.. I was tremblin like shit last nite again.. Fever shot till v high, felt so cold but din dare 2cover blanket.. Stayed in de toilet for 15min 2puke.. Din dare 2make much noise, scared I wake them up.. Not exaggeratin, felt like I'm gonna die last nite cos I've nv felt tis sick b4..

Was so piss with ah yi for shoutin at me 2day.. Sigh.. But wen I reflected, I knw.. She cares.. She scold finish alr stil cook me porridge.. Nobody even offered to brin me ice 4my fever, not 2say cook 4me.. I mayb piss & say angry words but I knw deep inside her mouth is poisonous, but she cares frm de inside.. Cos des no way any1 can pretend tt.. She'd come down & check if I'm stil hafin fever.. Tt's for de 1st time tis few days sm1 do come & check on me.. Sigh..

Bb is understandin me more & more.. She pointed out tt I cry wen my mens is comin.. She used 2get impatient & get pissed w me, but she din 2day.. I guess de I'm sick & mens make me esp weak tis few days.. Cant wait for HK w Bb.. Cant wait..

Baby不在我身边的第一百二十三天

Happy birthday to my BB.. Hope yr day is smooth from now on.. >.< And our HK trip is comin our way alr.. Hehe..

Chiong 10episode of Tang Xin Feng Bao last nite with Ah yi, Ju & Emerlyn.. So funny lah tt show.. Aiyo.. De xiao ma is stil as irritatin but comical tis time.. LOL.. Wish Est was hm 2watch w us..

Baby不在我身边的第一百十七天

Horoscope - October 14th:
Problems in your relationship could be caused by doubts creeping into your mind today. On the work front, avoid intolerance and hastiness as you could cause yourself some complications. Tip: allow yourself an artistic interest.

• Went Geylang on Sat nite.. So delicious.. 5of us eat like $80.. Gave Emerlyn $60 for her bday, she was so shock I had to laugh..
• Had a nice diner 2day.. Real good one.. Enjoyed myself..

自视过高也许就是我的毛病。

溺毙。

Run in opposite direction if u see me 2day..

• COS I'LL FUCKIN EAT U UP..

• AND I FUCKIN MEAN IT..

Baby不在我身边的第一百十四天

Life cannot be any beta.. LOL..

In a superb mood..

• PSLE is over..
• HK trip w BB is settled..

Went to watch "Connected".. It's a damn good show to me..

I was startled by it a couple of times.. Juz good lah..

De nicest HK show I watched tis year.. >.<

And I like "Da S"..

Woke bb up for work a while ago.. Called me back on her way to work.. She's so sweet, tgs tt she said over de phone make me feel sooooo.. >.< Wish I was der to hug her.. Hug her tightly.. Make all de bad tgs away esp tgs in her work.. But I cant.. I couldnt ask much also cos she doesnt normally say.. De only tg I could do now is to make our trip a really really good one.. Least haf everytg booked & no hiccups like no rooms wen we get der kinda tg..

I kp goin in & out of my slp cos I keep jumpin up 2check de time in case she couldnt wake up.. Now I gotta slp.. Another long day tt starts at 11am.. All de way till probably 10pm..

Baby不在我身边的第一百零八天

Exam is crazy.. I hate them.. Been teachin 12-14hrs for a few days already.. So sick of talkin.. But it has to go on till at least Wed.. Bb bday is comin, I'm so tired everyday.. Looks like aft exam, I'm gonna take a day leave & do my stuff.. Cos I stil haf my P3-5 exam.. Mm.. Been a long time since I see more den 1k in my bank.. Haha.. Our HK trip is done preparin.. All de bookins are done except HK hotel.. Tt one haf to wait till Nov accordin to de hotel.. Mm.. Smtg I had worked so hard for is comin true wor.. =)))) Jia u for 2mrw.. Tis wkend is gonna be 15hrs of teachin, 9am til ard 12am..

P/S: Got a call 2day, but when I called back.. No one picked up.. Was a little stun at 1st.. Mayb u remembered tt u stil hate me.. But I hope u'r stil well.. Do take care if u read this..

我开始对改变后的我感到厌恶。

Baby不在我身边的第一百零三天

Sang Bb a song on de phone 2day & Ju was givin me de effect.. -_-""" So happy tt Bb is so cheerful 2day.. Mm.. Exam is really killer, I had a full day 2day.. Yati is gg back to Indo for a month.. So.. Sianzzzz.. Time is gonna fly de next 2wks.. PSLE is next wk.. Aft tt all de $$ is rollin in.. Den I'll be relaxin teachin for another 3wks, den I officially haf my break.. Keepin de $ for drivin & HK.. Shall juz maple at hm all day & spend de least amount of $$ de whole of Nov.. >.<

Some thots:

We always say we dun like to compare..

Deep inside..

Somewhere..

Sometime..

We juz do..

P/S: Sherry.. I'll see u on Sat..

Baby不在我身边的第九十九天

Tis few days is tired until.. *Sweat* But each time I get tired or frustrated, I tink of our HK trip & I juz take a deep breath den get on with it again.. PSLE is sooo near.. Damn.. Gettin so stress up.. Ling Shi Maths is consistently gettin 90% & above.. Bernard is ok except chinese.. Kelvin? Dun tok abt it.. 2day is another long day.. Jia u FeL.. Jia u Bb.. HK is gettin nearer wor.. Abt 3mths ba.. I can start researchin in end of Oct.. Anyway, Cynthia & Bernard also gg HK but in Nov & Oct.. Hehe.. Nice huh.. So excited.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第九十三天

Zero goal rox to de max.. I "majored" on Man U vs Villarreal match 2day.. Placed $25 on zero goal & $5 on 1-1 juz in case, den I eat Villarreal +1.5.. And yeah.. FT was 0-0.. It amazin how cautious I am on soccer nowadays.. I do so much more hmwork den b4.. Every cent lost is so heartachin 4me.. Cos I'm slowin buildin up my HK fund throu tuition & my drivin lesson is through soccer.. Yday lost $50.. 2day wrap up with a $300++ win.. Gonna leave $70 in it again & start frm bottom.. Tis is gonna keep me entertained for de wkend.. Lose it den tis wkend shall haf notg 2play.. Freakin tired, like I'm workin part time kind.. But tis $ is juz in time for my drivin lesson.. =) Happy Happy.. ^_^

Choingin tuition in de afternoon 4de next 2wks for my PSLE & Sec sch student.. I alr saved 3/4 of de HK trip.. Now left de drivin lessoon, drivin exam, telephone bill, expenditure in Nov & Dec, insurance bills til end of yr.. De closin down of AIA in America is causin a little commotion in sg.. Everyone is rushin 2withdraw their funds even at a lost.. I feel tt it shld be safe ba.. If every1 keep withdrawin, den they really will close down.. Anyway, it's a gd nite, I'm goin 2bed & withdraw $ 1st tg before tuition den deposit them in a bank in de evenin.. Sweaty nite.. >.< And my poor little sis had a slpin marathon, she's been slpin for 4days alr cos she's sick.. Hope she recover soon..

P/S: Bb has MIA for 2days.. Perharps she's been busy with work.. Mm.. I miss u.. Haf u been missin me too? 89days left.. =)))))

Baby不在我身边的第九十天

Bought ice cream (de one BB love 2eat in Adelaide) frm a nearby povision shop, stood at de roadside for 10min eattin ice cream, lookin at de moon.. Crazy.. No matter where we are, we're lookin at de same moon.. So bright & big 2day.. Yday was mid autumn.. I miss my bb.. Tis wkend soccer wrap with a $170 win.. Withdrawin them 2mrw.. Hehe..

Baby不在我身边的第八十六天

So tired 2day.. Watched world cup last nite.. Won $200+ & it went into my account alr 2day.. For de HK trip.. Tis days even winnin $20 makes me happy.. I haf been eatin on my bettin $, havent used much frm my salary.. Woo Hoo.. Hehe..

Our HK trip is 1/2 done, it's finally gonna materialised.. Only short of 1thing which is de most important to me but cant say.. It's a surprise for bb.. >.<

P/S: Watchin Season 1 of Ghost whisperer.. Every episode make me tear man..

I decided not to work 2day.. I need to readjust myself & let sm thots sink in.. Feel kinda down 2day but 2mrw is a brand new day.. I'll bury my whole head & mind into my work.. Work hard.. =)

Baby不在我身边的第八十三天

It did cross my mind 2let go of myself.. Go back 2who I am in de past.. But no matter wat, I'm not doin tt.. I'm stil gg 2work hard.. If I gif up so easily, den all tis while, my effort of changin 2become a better person would go down de drain.. I'm not changin yet, not yet, not now at least.. I juz wan us 2enjoy de trip.. I'll work hard.. It'll be a gd trip & u'll b happy.. Watever happens, I love u..

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I feel miserable 2day.. Twisted my leg while gg down de stairs, fever, vomited, dizzy.. Havent felt so sick 4a long time.. Hungry but dun feel like eatin.. But I dun wanna bother about any of them.. Let it be..

P/S: I actually booked de wrong airticket yday.. Stupid me..

Baby不在我身边的第八十二天

Bb send me a gift.. A book on dogs.. It's so so so cute.. Ur so sweet bb.. I haf started 2read it.. Love u to de max.. Cant wait for our HK trip.. So difficult 2conceal my excitement.. >.<

P/S: Bb wans 2get me Andy Lau ticket but it was sold out alr.. Mm.. But my heart is tian de lor.. LOL.. *blush*

Baby不在我身边的第七十六天

I find tis pic of her is so well taken.. Make her look damn pretty.. She's 50+..
Tis is part II of "Tang Xin Feng Bao"..

I ordered it online alr.. Will get it end of Sept.. Since thurs I finish 2HK series.. Watch until eyes gonna pop out alr.. LOL.. I rewatched Part I of "Tang Xin Feng Bao also.. Still damn nice lah.. Love de show.. Hope part II is as nice.. same cast but different story.. Hehe.. I go finish my part I den 2mrw send it out to BB.. Mm.. Shall start collectin more HK info in Oct aft de PSLE.. Bb wanna go Ocean park.. Heard got rides.. My favourite!!

Migrain again.. Sigh.. Would I be like Joe? His headache doesn't go away aft takin medicine, scan alr realise des a blood vessel in his brain which would burst anytime.. Like a time bomb.. Scary sia..

Mm.. We gonna haf a countdown in HK.. I'm happy we're really goin.. Gonna work extra hard nw.. I'm ulcers all over my tongue.. Is pain until..... But heart is smilin.. Haha..

Din go JB 2day.. All couldnt wake up.. Goin out 4diner, I'm not happy at tis moment.. Havin a headache & sore throat, almost fell off de stairs juz nw, not a gd day 2go out but I tink I'll go nuts if I stay home.. I need a hug.. A hug..

Baby不在我身边的第七十五天

We're goin 2HK.. YAY!! I've everytg arranged long ago but I din wanna say it cos I dun wan bb 2feel stress.. I thot if she said no, I'll go myself & not mention a word abt everytg I've done.. I haf sm Fridae frens der (havent met) & 1of them is comin 2Sg next month.. Bb dun sound excited, hope she will b wen it gets nearer.. I duno how 2hong her but I do know how 2make tgs as gd as I can.. Lately I wonder if.. I'm gd enough 2kp Bb's heart.. Feel kinda.. I duno.. Goin JB 2mrw.. Shall enjoy de day cos des 2pretty gals & 1handsome guy with me.. Haha.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第七十四天

Been workin & workin.. Tis Monday onwards gonna work like mad again.. Tryin 2earn as much as I can 4de HK trip.. I dun1 BB 2b stress abt it.. Still haf 2pay 4drivin.. Sweat.. Load is abit heavy since I took up drivin.. Exam $$, PDL $$, Drivin $$, bills.. I am stress but wen I see de money.. I'll b happy.. ^_^ I restrain myself frm bettin 2much 2day.. But tis days I also nv bet much.. Lost a whole wk ($100+) Den tt day I was lucky.. $30 on zero goal payout was 10+++ times.. I put all in bank, left $60 to play tis wkend.. So far 2nite winnin.. Hope 2mrw win also.. Sunday gg in2 JB with Esther, Jovi & Teressa.. YAY.. Seafood feast.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第七十天

I hate days like tis.. I feel it comin thou I'm not tinkin about it.. Tryin my best 2build a wall 2block de negative thots outside.. Mens is comin lah & I haf de same kinda feelins in me since march again.. It feels like cancer cos it's spreadin so fast & devourin me every single month.. And yet another month of "new record" of my own.. Juz wat is wrong? Why is enotions so strong at tis time & so negative.. Feel like I'm standin on an island rite in de middle of de ocean.. Isolated alone..

Lend me a hand someone..

Grab hold of me..

Baby不在我身边的第六十六天

It's amazin how I could hear my alarm tis mornin wen I only fell aslp at 6.30am tis mornin w de laptop in my hand.. Why am I wakin up so early? de last time I woke up so early was........ Can't rem.. -_-"" I woke up at 9.55am anyway, juz 2catch Li Jia Wei vs Zhang Yi Ning.. Both our players lost 2her.. Quite unlucky 2meet world no. 1 at semi final.. It was a really gd match.. Li Jia Wei haven't put up such a great performance 4so long.. Lost.. But I really like her.. Fantastic player.. Frm China? Yeah.. Juz like sm student's mum ask me "Diploma not degree?" kinda feelin.. Smtimes.. Be compassionate.. My fav quote.. I dun gif a damn.. I like her.. Fullstop..

Ah yi ask me for de 2nd time if I wanna go vancouver in Dec or March? I told her Dec I might go HK & March I'm goin Aus.. Ouch.. Yeah.. But put it on de scale.. I can earn myself & go myself next time.. Phoof.. As much as I wanna see snow again, I wanna be with my baby.. >.<

Puke again tis mornin, makes me wonder if my anxiousness 2drop weight causin harm 2my body like my fren mentioned.. I din skip meals, I din exercise much.. Juz weird tt I did lose abit of weight but not much.. Not enough yet..

Baby不在我身边的第六十四天

After so many years, catchin "Savin Private Ryan" on HBO 2day was stil as touchin as ever.. I realy love war show.. Esp tis one.. Watched it like 5times, once in Paris.. Hehe.. Wen can I go back der again? Had a long long chat with Bb, makes my whole day of sad, exhaustion, unfocus all went away.. Been a while since we last chatted like tt.. Feels sooooo good.. Stil love my baby & wish she could be back soon.. Only 3mths plus away.. Not too far alr.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第六十三天

Phoof.. Sherry is comin 2town tis wkend.. I juz got a phone call frm her askin how am I managin w de upcomin exams.. I thot no1 will ask but thx.. Tt's juz wat I needed.. Been breathless & heartbeat is not slowin down until I get off work.. I had been tryin hard 2cover my "sign of anxiety" 4de whole wk.. And.. Yes.. U were rite.. I stil get insomia b4 de exams.. Pretty serious tis time round.. Been so many yrs & u stil rem it.. Wat is yr brain made off? >.<>

Such a tough wk esp 2day.. It was rainin hard on me.. Drenched, no time for diners til 9.30pm & I continued teachin (tremblin non stop feelin cold).. I feel like an actor at time cos I face off wen I work.. I haf a student mum tellin me de kid brain havent "kai qiao" accordin 2de GODS.. OMG.. I wanted 2slap her in de face.. She let her kid knw abt tt? And de son juz use tt as an excuse all de time wen he doesnt do well.. FUCKKKKKK... Here's another actin, I smiled wen I could feel every muscle inside me is burnin like mad.. Every1 tries 2squeeze in2 my schedule but they aint co-operatin & accomodate my time.. My temper is so bad.. So so so bad tis wk.. Oh man.. Sigh.. Everytime a car drives 2near me, I stil haf de fear & wants 2swerve away.. I knw I cant.. How am I handlin all my stress tt's buildin in me & no1 knws.. Mm.. God knws.. LOL..

3more days & I'm replacin all my slps.. I finished my 6seasons of "Sex & de city".. Now, I'm startin on "Grey Anatomy.. Hehe.. Pretty nice so far.. >.<>

Baby不在我身边的第六十天

• Mm.. Bb been sick.. Hope ur takin care.. Not much chance 2chat with u tis days..
• Anyway, 2day at sg pool, tis KPO uncle look at my bet slip & say "Xiao Mei, u crazy ah.. Why u buy Brazil vs Cameron zero goal? I told him hope exist kinda tg.. Aparently he buy Brazil win.. Haha.. In de end, duno who's de crazy one.. FT was 0-0.. Den extra time (non of my business) was 2-0.. LOL.. I won $230 with $25 for de zero goal.. Sweat big time wen cameron got a red card..
• Exam wk alr.. Damn stress.. Juz hope can win sm more $ 2nite.. No need alot, juz dun lose can alr..

I was fumin wen I came across tis forum about de debate of havin Li Jia Wei holdin our sg flag & lettin China pple rep us.. I am not a huge fan of her, I'm juz supportive 2whoever is representin my country..

Tis is discrimination.. Equally bad 2racisim.. I do joke abt them but I nv hate them or dun wan them 2exist.. Aft all, they'r humans.. We all are.. My grandparents came from China as well, so wat does tt make me? 1/2 a singaporean? Once, I met tis parents.. JUZ becos I DUN HAF a degree, de parents tink I can't teach.. I so dun agree.. Put me in a test 4teachin w a degree holder.. If I lost, den I haf notg more 2say.. I guess de results speaks.. Juz like our Singapore tennis team.. Anyway, 2me, whoever rep us, I'm all in.. I juz hope they win.. Cos de victory belongs 2Singapore..

I'll come back 2catch it live on Sunday 7.30pm.. Zhang Yi Ning is damn strong.. I juz hope they try their best.. Hope.... Isn't tt wat all human lives for? Yeah.. I haf alot of dreams & hope too.. I will strive for it.. 1stly on de list my drivin license.. I will get it before Bb graduates..

P/S: At sg pool yday, tis woman ask if I'm over 18.. I felt like havin a cub knockin onto my head.. Who is she deceivin? But it really made my day.. Cos Agnes is always sayin.. "I'm 30 alr.." She feels damn damn damn old.. Now I would say, I'm 30but dun look or feel like one.. *wink*

Baby不在我身边的第五十九天

Bb is really cute 2day.. She's sick thou.. Sigh.. So Xin Tong.. Wish I could b der 2tk care of her.. Force her 2drink water.. Am so tired tis few days, cos exams round de corner.. Gd 4my bank account & no matter how tired I am, I am H-A-P-P-Y.. Haha.. Cos I wanna brin bb 2HK & not worry abt how much 2spend der.. Bb say she wanna pay 4de hotel.. I said I wanna pay 4tickets & shoppin.. >.<

My drivin test date is set for 28th Nov, 4.30pm.. But Mr Neo said he'll try 2get October one 4me.. I hope so, juz in case (TOUCH WOOD), I fail.. I can try 1last time b4 BB come back.. But drivin is seriously expensive.. Takin part of my HK savins away, so..... I must work even harder & walk if I haf to.. eat at hm if I can.. I'll juz stay hm throughout Nov cos no more tuition.. Hehe!

I was awoken by a phone call at 2am.. But I realise I din haf 2work.. YAY.. Kinda relief cos I'm dead tired.. Sherry called frm Sydney askin if tgs were fine.. Tis chat lasted for 2hrs+!! So much complains frm me about my work & stuff.. She patiently listened like she did 6yrs ago.. Gosh.. I feel so relieved lettin them off my chest cos stress is buildin up so intensely, prelim, PSLE my Sec 2 students exams.. I smiled 4de 1st time since Sunday.. Smwhere in de conversation, I lost myself & I felt like cryin but I din.. LOL.. She promised 2call again soon & probably she'd b in Sg next wk.. Mayb I can ask her 2come along with me if I'm meetin Agnes..

And yes, sm complains info.. Fuck.. My student tink I'm a super woman.. Normal days keep cancelin my tuition, 1day before exam den die die wan me 2teach? FUCK U!!! Really.. Change my time, put it inbetween my busy schedule is crazy.. Askin 4more time is totally impossible.. 1of de students was so freakin rude.. Hit me hard on my back, I told her my shoulder juz heal, so stop it.. She said Whatever.. It's none of her business.. I was fumin & I was like smilin & I gave her loads of hmwork.. Sigh.. I hate de word "watever" 2de core.. Bb says it too, she's probably de only person 2say it & I dun flare up big time like I did 2day.. She has totally no respect 4me.. Damn.. A 12yr old kid, where de fuck did she learn tt frm? If nt 4de $, I dun haf 2b so cheap.. 2mrw is another hectic day, but I can't wait4 $$ 2come in cos my HK trip bank account are slowly buildin up alr.. ^_^ Goin or not, de $$ in der is makin me feel tt de hard work is pretty worth it.. Drivin wasn't in my schedule thou but I can stil manage..

P/S: Zann.. I'm so so so sorry.. I'll meet u 4diner once I'm done w my students k..

Baby不在我身边的第五十六天

Sigh.. Haf I done smtg stupid again? I duno how de hell a DS stick look like.. Only ask 1question &.. BOOOOM.. Nvm.. I'm 2tired 2even b angry..

Been crazy workin really hard.. Since Monday-Tuition 10am-9pm.. That night 3am-8am den aft tt went 2get my new IC at 10am.. Den I came home 2slp for 2hrs, aft tt I'm off 2work frm 2pm-10.30pm.. Juz had diner but no choice, gonna slp 4a while & it's gonna b 3am-7am.. Den tuition frm 2pm-10.30pm continues 2mrw.. Thurs would b worse, gotta teach frm 10am-2pm den do sm personal tgs den start off again frm 3.30pm-10.30pm.. Friday would b a little better, not so pack.. Tis wk till nxt Sat no off liao.. Zhen de hao lei wo......

Sick until I wanna faint alr.. Vomited early in de mornin but I stil went 4tuition.. Cannot Tou Lan.. Must work hard 2save as much as I can.. >.<

Went out with Agnes yday.. She told me her greatest secret in her life which no other pple knw.. I was kinda surprise she'd tell me her inner most secret whenever we meet(we dun meet often, once every 1/2yr) & it's always smtg others doesnt knw.. I feel pretty gd cos my frens are v comfory with me.. Like wat all shows say it's not juz black & white in tis world, des another color call grey.. I never scold no matter wat happen, whether I feel tt it's right or wrong, I'll gif supportive reasons.. I'm glad 2c tt look in her eyes & de word thank u meant quite abit 2me.. We hung out frm 8pm-12am.. Realised tt she's now Jovi's neighbour!! LOL.. Freakin funny.. She said she'll look 4me again aft she come back frm Taiwan tis Wed.. Since we're nw livin so near each other, we can meet as & wen we're both free..

Tis is Agnes.. Know her 4probably 8yrs.. Started off as PS gd fren, end up we go out behind PS's back & kept it frm her.. Reason bein, PS is 2borin & is nv understandin accordin 2her.. Haha..

Baby不在我身边的第五十三天

Arsenal spirit has surfaced again.. They were laggin behind by 2-0, I thot all was gone but I went to take Arsenal to score 3rd & 4th goal w sg pool.. Durin de 2nd 1/2, they went on 2do their best & manage 2turn de table around.. De score became 2-3.. Arsenal won.. I won.. In life, as long as we dun gif up, de path ahead is a mystery.. U nv knw wat will happen until u come 2de end of de path.. Pple.. Gd luck in watever u do & nv gif up..

Arsenal spirit.. *wink*

Was watchin my drama again & I suddenly rem 2write down wat Zann told me last wk.. Tgs tt were heard in de show, does de real world actually haf it? De most touchin words I heard last wk was "U'r such a different person frm wen I knw u 1yr ago.. U've learnt tgs frm her, I've learnt tgs frm u.. Love is able 2b selfless, not givin up & keep tryin over & over again.. I was 2agressive b4.. I'll b here 4u & I'll support u in watever u do.. I'll not gif up on u & leave.. U can do it.." Words do haf de power 2make a person feel gd & I was so touched I almost teared.. Tt's wen I start 2tell bb how I feel over de phone twice last wk.. I learnt smtg frm her as well.. Thank u.. U make me feel so important, only 1person ever made me feel tt way before..

Agnes ask me 2meet her at Serangoon MRT.. Of course I wont say no 2my prettiest fren.. LOL.. Havent meet her 4so long.. We shall haf diner & a drink after tt.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第五十二天

It's a night tt made me feel so much love.. Bb.. Wo Ai Si Ni Le.. Our HK trip info is 80% collected, nw juz waitin 4u liao.. Anyway, I specially went 2get my PDL on de 6th, cos it's a special day 4us.. >.<>.<

I'm like mad watchin de show above.. Everyday come hm, if I'm not chatin with bb on MSN, my eyes are glued on de show.. Pretty good.. But still not as good as "Tang Xin Feng Bao".. But it's a large production.. Nice.. ~3.9stars~

Baby不在我身边的第五十一天

Went 2watch "Money not enough 2" yday.. I was so upset by de show & it affected me abit 2day.. Feelin kinda sad wen I woke up.. But I would say de show is worth at least 4star.. Pple nowadays are like tt.. Sigh.. Good show 2reflect upon myself..

Meetin Agnes 2mrw 4diner & a drink after tt, where shall we go huh? Mm.. Drinkin place u choose, dinnin place I choose.. LOL.. Mm.. Let me go shower & get my ass 2work 1st den I come back & find a nice cosy place where we could haf diner.. Wen was de last time we met? 1yr ago? I tink so...... But I'm back!!

Baby不在我身边的第五十天

一段打从心理的话

以前的我..在遇到挫折，也许会轻言放弃。
以前的我..失败了只会躲在一个角落里哭，钻牛角尖。
以前的我..从来没有那么大的毅力为了一个我爱的人去拒绝别人。
爱真的让我改变了许多。

我是人，我会痛，我仍然会难过的哭。
哭那不代表我累了，更不代表我是弱者。
哭是我发泄心痛的方法。

最近，我学会了“承担” 的意思。
做什么都可以失败，但是做人绝对不可以失败。
不管是好的，坏的，都要去承担。

有人告诉我好的人，是值得等的。
你总是说你不值得我爱，但你在我心目中，你是最好的。
爱的也只会是你一个。

Baby不在我身边的第四十九天

Had a long chat with Trina over MSN 2day.. Been a long time since we last chatted.. Only once in a blue moon probably an sms.. She asked how de sinseh was.. I told her damn pain sia.. Cos 1st time in my life I had acupuncture.. Wah lau, de one btwn my lips & nose part was pain until......... But my shoulder is beta nw.. Was bored 2tears lah.. De minute Bb dozed off, my internet down liao, so Tri & I sms instead cos I was starrin in2 thin air.. De sms were mostly abt Perth & de places we been yrs ago.. Miss de food man.. Esp wat I told everyone is best in Perth - chillie mussels!! Fuck.. Hope I can really make it in March.. Bb was like askin me 2go ahead & book de HK ticket.. Are we really gg alr? ^_^ I ask Bb 2consider properly til Sept, I dun wan her 2regret wor..

Baby不在我身边的第四十七天

I feel like I saw rainbow after de rain 2day.. Everyone knws I dun like 2tok but I said pretty much 4de 1st time in my life 2day 2bb over de phone.. I said out most of my feelins, duno if I express it well, but I tried.. Like why I wanted de license so badly.. And a disorganized person who nv ever cared abt anytg in my life has found directions.. All tis was smtg I would not haf done.. I said it out.. LOL.. It's like makin a speech back durin my school days.. Except tt I din stumble or juz look on de floor like I always did.. Why haf I become so lack of confident? I really duno.. I'm juz 2extroverted ba.. My back is not gettin beta, leadin 2a headache 2day.. Sigh.. How.. I duno.. I'm not willin 2part with my $100 on a sinseh.. I haf been so cautious with my spendin lately.. As long as I dun haf 2die frm it, I'll tolerate it 4as long as I can..

Ah Yi is gonna pay 4my drivin lessons.. I'll juz let her pay for sm lessons if I dun haf enough & I'll pay 4my exam as well.. That would be at least 1.5k extra on my side.. Haf 2be more thrifty now.. Est knw I v broke, she say she wanna pay for my sinseh cos she juz got her pay.. So sweet.. Least I nv "bai teng" tis xiao mei all tis yrs..

Finish my tuition for today.. Felt no emotions since I open my eyes tis mornin.. Loads of tgs are runnin throu my mind but I cant decide.. After tt I was only tinkin of last year's ah-mei concert.. Stil pretty sad tt I dino de ticket was out in mid July.. How could I haf not known? I'm gonna nap for an hour..

P/S: It's gettin worse, my right side can't move already.. Took me huge effort 2mark homework 2day.. Must start takin painkiller 2mrw.. I'm behind schedule by 1kg.. I lost only 2kg tis month..

Baby不在我身边的第四十六天

I seriously am beginin 2believe in retribution.. Tis days I feel really bad 2wards wat I haf done in de past.. U wont truely knw how sorry I am cos finally knw how u used 2feel wen I behaved in a certain way.. I am sorry once again.. I nv knew how u feel.. But I do nw.. Thou u'll nv forgive me but I once again told myself I will never 2tis 2 any1 else again..

5.35am

Back hurt until I wake up again.. Decided tt if it doesnt go away next wk, I'll see a doctor which will burn a hole in my pocket wen I'm tis broke(but debt free).. Phoof.. But I knw if I dun, des bound 2b accidents.. Which is less expensive huh?

I am debt free frm humanz.. I dun owe "sm1" anytg anymore & tt make me esp happy.. Der wil be no linkage btwn me & her ever again.. I hope.. Shld be happy 2day but smhow I dun feel it at all.. Cos nobody 2share it with.. Haha.. For 2day at least.. Shall spillin it over coffee 2mrw & feel gd abt it.. 1st time in my life, I did smtg gd 4myself & it's cos of her tt I wanna b a beta person..

P/S: I am damn damn damn damn damn sad de whole of last nite & de whole day 2day, dino ah-mei had an encore concert tour in Oct & ticket is out long ago in July.. Nw de seats is left with freakin bad one.. I am in such a huge disappointed mood.. U guys knw how big a fan I am.. And I actually missed it?! Wont go alr since I cant get de best seat.. Sigh.. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK..

Baby不在我身边的第四十五天

Gavin sis suddenly ask if I haf a gf.. I dino how 2answer, so I juz smiled.. LOL.. It's de 2nd time in my life tt I'm speechless.. I can't get de word outta my mouth, so I juz keep quiet.. LOL.. EnDe pop out a "Ta Hen Li Hai De Lor".. I was like -_-""" Wat sia.. He juz nv believe tt I've changed.. Who had been tellin him abt me huh.. See lah.. I got a fixed image in pple's mind liao.. I dun deny I was a jerk b4.. But at tis point of time, I'm de purest of de purest.. LOL.. Wat shit.. Unless my bb dun wan me anymore den mayb I'll become de FeL I used 2b ba.. I duno.. Who can tell wat'll happen in future.. I mean I do waver frm time 2time but I'm still pretty firm till nw.. I knw I only wan my baby..

Only wan my baby..

四十四天

Mayb I duno how 2coax anyone.. I slapped myself & told myself I shld haf juz keep my mouth shut.. But why am I bein punished for wat a BASTARD did.. Tt same bastard tt took my genuine concern & threw it in a bin years ago.. 2me, she's non existence.. My back is hurtin like hell since last nite.. Hurt so bad I couldnt turn my neck.. De last time I suffered like tt, Didi & Kat bought me 2a sinseh.. Nw it's hauntin me again, damn bad.. How am I 2slp 2nite.. Stomach upset all day.. Cos of work, I dun dare 2eat all day.. Nvm.. Really really nvm.. I shall go shower & clam myself down.. AGGGHHHHHHHH....

P/S: Who is de fucker who invented de word "watever".. I really hate u.. LOL..

Baby不在我身边的第四十三天

Dun play games with me.. Cos u no longer hold de chips.. Rem how badly u lost de last time u tried.. So dun try.. I'm no longer de person u used 2knw.. All thx 2u..

De dish I learn at de cookin lesson..
Self instinct + Est idea on tis dish.. End up even ah po like it..
Escargot frm NTUC..
Ritz Carlton.. Dessert..

Seafood..
Hohoho.. Black Pepper Crab.. My fav..

Foie Gras.. Fav too!!
Salads, Foie Gras, Scallop..

Est & Me..
Est & Me.. Plus Jovi in de BG.. LOL
De 3Tangsss..
Ju & Me..
Ju & Me Again..

Baby不在我身边的第四十二天

I thot I would disappear 4a long time.. But I aint.. But I'm happy once again.. I tink I really need 2b more sensitive @times.. I shld remind myself tt.. Anyway, postin sm pic of de food I cooked tt day & Ju's belated bday celebration at Ritz carlton "Green House" 2day evenin.. We ate a 3hrs buffet.. I din eat any bread, rice or noodles.. Only stick 2de black pepper crab(lotsssss), mussels(abit), butter prawn(average amt), Foie Gras (7tiny cups), scallop (abit), walnut ice cream(2scopes)..

我找不到自己的平衡点。也许我。。。

Baby不在我身边的第四十一天

• Shldn't haf allowed myself 2get carried away 2much.. I was so excited about certain stuff & I overlooked other's feelin.. Mayb I'm 2self centred.. Sigh.. Not mayb.. I am..
• Juz felt tt certain $ can be avoided den we shldn't waste it unnessery.. I planned 2do smtg else long ago.. De outstandin amt plus a little bit more could easily fulfil tt dream of mine.. Now.... I duno again..
• Heart sank rock bottom, felt smtg stuck in my thraot..
• Havent felt like slpin so badly for a long time & tis minute, I wish I could juz fall aslp..
• Shld I go tuition 2mrw? Duno.. Wake up den decide ba.. Suddenly damn lazy 2work..
• De Tampines student is pendin waitin 4my reply.. My health havent been gd tis whole mth.. Shld I really take it up? Inside I feel I really shld.. Sigh.. Lost..
• Mayb I shld tink lesser & be abit more bo chap like Est bunny den I wont pressure others or myself.. Cos I really dino I could b such a pain in de neck.. LOL..

P/S: Pple.. I'm sick but am not too bad, so dun need 2keep smsin me 2ask, I'm lazy 2reply.. LOL.. If u read tis, den u'll knw I'm stil alive.. And thx 4puttin tt on yr mind, I knw tt requires alot of effort.. Dun waste time.. Actually, contridictinly.. I like it.. Makes me feel important.. I'm a H.U.M.A.N. aft all.. Hahahahaha..

Good nite world.. Haf a good slp..

Baby不在我身边的第三十八天

Mm.. 2mrw is my cookin class.. Haha.. I'm all prepared & am puttin Bernard on Sat instead so tt I can come back earlier 2attend my 1st "lesson".. And.. I wanna try 2bake cheese mussels.. Thot bb might like it but I got a tiny "naggin" frm her sayin tt seafood & cheese shld nv be mixed.. But nvm lah.. U can stil try it lah.. But I'm sure Est & Ju will LOVE it.. Hehe.. We've been missin it since duno wen.. So, nw I'm gonna do it.. Weird hor? I also find myself v weird.. But I wan my bb 2b a xin fu de nu ren my next trip der.. Juz wait 4me 2cook.. >.<

DiFeLic HK trip is almost 50%confirm, nw only de airticket & hotel which I will settle next month.. We're gonna haf a special countdown.. We've sm plans wen bb come back.. I definately dun1 2rob her time with her family.. I dun mind meetin late at nite.. Anyway, we're goin 2HK & I'm seein u in March again.. So no worries.. Juz tok 2me on de phone on & off can alr.. Local calls are cheaper den overseas.. *wink* Am missin u especially much 2nite.. Keep havin flashback of not rememberin 2brin my ID & u got so piss.. Den de scene wen I was helpin u cook.. De scene of makin u supper wen ur burnin midnight lamps..............

Baby不在我身边的第三十七天

Had a haircut 2day, was determine 2tell de hairstylist, cut it all away.. Den my sms came in & I saw my HP background.. I wanted 2try keep Stephie hair 4Bb de.. Den I melt & change my mind.. Juz trim.. LOL.. Called bb 2tell her tis but she's 2engross in her show so nvm lah.. See how next month, if it's ugly den I cut it away.. I go watch TV nw..

Baby不在我身边的第三十六天

Haven't blog 4days.. Was 2tired & sick past few days.. Ju vomited, Jovi vomited.. Wat's wrong huh? Why is every1 sick? Weather ba.. Rained damn heavily tis few days.. I carried umbrella 4de past few days also kenna 1/3drenched.. If not, de sun is so scorchin hot like it's all out 2melt sm skin kind.. Phoof

I made bb sad.. Sigh.. Blame it on my insensitivity.. I missed bb 2much & sm misunderstandin.. Anyway, 4de 1st time in my life, I'm learnin cookin frm Est.. Juz wat am I doin? *scratch head* Yesssss.. *drags* U din read wrongly, FeL's learnin cookin.. LOL.. Nvm tt, my 1st lesson is tis Thurs, learnin hw to cook spaghetti w a v special base.. Dun tell u wat it is.. wait & taste.. But I'll improvise it, alr haf sm ideas in mind wat 2put inside >.<

Bb.. U're my princess, my queen, my everytg.....

Played with Sg pool 2nite, I alr stopped de bkie side damn long ago.. Anyway, with $50 in my poolconnect account, I accumulate until $188 nw.. Weee.. So happy.. Thx 2Liverpool ZERO goal.. I bet $15 & won $120.. De rest of de $60 was Esther instinct (won $5) & a tipster frm de website who said buy middlebroth exact score 1-1 & I threw $10 in.. Weee.. It's a gd mornin 2start with.. Really good mornin.. I shall withdraw $100 out & maintain a less den $50 in my acc.. Hope sg pool dun find me irritatin, 4ever withdrawin $100.. Haha.. But I tink it's safer 2not put too much in de account..

P/S: De sky is stil dark at 7am, shld be rainin soon.. Wish bb is in my arms nw, I could nv bear 2stop kissin her.. *dreamy*

Baby不在我身边的第三十一天

• Popo is back frm China.. She look pretty happy.. =)
• 2mrw is overnight MJ again.. Tis time Ju is joinin force with me..
• Bb's display make my heart raced.. She said she hope we last.. Tis is de 1st time.. =) I feel really really happy frm inside & I wish I could shout out at de top of my voice 4de happiness in me is uncoverable.. Wish I could fly over & see bb now.. But I'll wait till HK 4countdown & Adelaide again next March if I can..
• I promise BB that I will get my drivin license before she graduate & come back.. >.<

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I was too lazy to start a new post so I added tis in at 6.55am.. I'm still over de moon by wat Bb said.. I juz made breakfast4 every1, includin Yati, Ah Yi, Ju, Est.. Hopefully after they ate my egg sandwich, they'd haf a wonderful day juz like me.. Feel like spreadin my happiness bug throu de food I made.. Woooo Hoo..

BB..... I..... L.....O.....V.....E..... U.....

Baby不在我身边的第三十天

I've officially added Alan into my MSN.. I told him that I'm a lesbian & I'm lovin my BB who's studyin far far away.. He's cool about it & I really enjoy his philosophy 2wards life so I added him.. I'm feelin really positive tis days & really happy about everytg.. I knw tt as long as I tink tgs throu, I'm on my feet again..

Baby say she misses me.. Her words are like magic.. Make my night so good >.<

Had butter crab 4diner, ah yi cook de.. Not bad.. Friday is party night.. Will be out all night long.. Bb keep assurin me that she like de phone.. Mm.. My taste improve yeah? Sent Bb an sms.. I must haf been crazy & I really duno wat I was tinkin wen I sent tt sms out.. It is....... Errrr.... Pretty sexy wen I send it.. But it's de 1st time I send tis kinda sms wor.. *blush*

P/S: SyL.. I respect yr decision.. Juz take gd care of yrself & I will miss u..

Baby不在我身边的第二十八天

这个星期有种被宠坏的感觉。每天起床，放工回家都有人在 facebook,MSN,sms 上留言。大家都在问我头痛好了没，喉咙还在痛吗？好笑的是这三个人都是男人。

Alec (SMS, MSN & call me every 3-4hrs ask if I’m ok, wanna brin me 2see a doctor or not.. A little naggy but thx anyway..)
Sumnong (Nepal guy I tink? Know him 3mths ago from facebook, but we’re only exchanging mail)
Alan (know him last week & I dun even know where he pop out from or how he found me.. He leaves me facebook msg every 3-5hrs askin me 2update him if I’m feelin beta.. A very nice guy BUT I’m not fallin for him.. Maybe I might befriend him in real life.. That’s all..)

被人关心的感觉真的好好，被人重视的感觉更好。虽然我所要的关心不是来自他们，但还是会开心。今天上下班都有人接送，也没那么辛苦，但头痛还是很糟。是怎么了？身体最近真差劲。想念着熟睡的BB，希望明天睁开眼睛的她会开开心心的过一天属于她的假日。享受完被人宠，现在是我留言给BB的时候了。晚安！

Mm.. Do I really such a bad record in de past? Well.. I loved tis person 4 6yrs, it was only becos my tolerence ran out 4de status tg & de 2timin tg tt made me leave once & 4all.. Gimme sm face lah.. Everytime I said I'm different, everyone laugh in my face.. I'm not angry thou.. Juz curious if I was really such a person in everyone's mind..

P/S: I suddenly haf tis flashback in my head that if there is a vote castin among my frens.. I tink only SyL will stand on my side of de bank & de rest will stand on de other side.. SyL.. I'm missin u & yes.. I remember we're goin 4coffee.. I'll arrange & see wen ur free k.. >.<

Baby不在我身边的第二十七天

• Ju was poundin madly on de sand with a hoe & refuse 2haf any1 helpin her.. I knw she's ventin out de frustration in her..
• I walked away so tt no1 would see tt I'm gonna tear.. My heart was twitchin madly..
• A hole was dug.. It was juz nice..
• I touched de cold body, Ju kissed it gd bye & tears rolled down our face..
• Ju, Est & me used our bare hand 2pour de sand in..

End of sufferin mayb a gd tg 2u.. Rest in peace bit bit..

Baby不在我身边的第二十六天

Baby got her gift already.. Hehe.. Bb like it alot.. Hao Kai Xin oh.. I haven't slpt for more den 24hrs, feels like I'm on estacy now.. Ju say she consider puttin de rabbit 2slp.. Sigh.. My heart..

Sherry's comin down frm Sydney 2visit me next week with her crew, we've lost contact 4so so so long.. It was gd we met again on my way 2Adelaide.. U din change much I promise.. =) Look forward 2haf a long chat with u again.. So much happened all these years.. I can't wait 2tell u & I'm facin so much stress lately.. Phoof..