Bringin my ah mah & ah gong downtown 2see de X'mas lightin 2day.. Cancelled all my tuition 2accompany them.. Ah Gong is all excited changin now.. Ah Po as usual is on time, nt rushin, nt delly dally.. Est doin her make up.. Ju went 2see a doctor.. Poor tg she cant go w us.. Been so rare tt we go out w ah po since Ju started workin.. De last time was *Huo Yuan Jia*.. Me.. I'm bloggin & watchin sm *artistic yet borin* show.. *Xi Yen*? Yawn.. I stil prefer to watch those horror, bloody, grusome scene..

I was tinkin abt it yday.. Wat will I do w/o my ah mah.. Even de thot bought tears 2my eyes.. She fed me, bathed me, bought me 2sch & buy me food 4recess like a spoilt brat since I was a baby.. Always der 4me cos she knows I'm afraid of new environment, new people.. Looked after me for 21yrs & stil love me till today.. How am I 2repay tt?

Life is like coffee.. Whether it is sweet or bitter, we choose it, so no regrets.. ^_^
Work is like a mask.. U choose de different faces to use when u face yr clients.. In my case, students' prents.. -_-""
Love is like a roller coaster.. U choose to take de ride, u gotta face watever de outcome is after de ride.. Could be heart racin.. Could be borin.. Choice is yours.. d[*.*]b

Hey Maia, u said can't read in frenster right..
Hope u can read it here..

失望因抱着太多希望。
时间会让人把伤痛淡忘。
真心盼望你会找到一个令你开心的人。
天涯海角都有我送上的祝福。
真心期盼你过得比我好。

珊瑚海 - Jay

海平面远方开始阴霾 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终夹带 一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开 (情不在) 那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白 不是浪 而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 有话说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱 （给的爱）差异一直存在 (回不来)
凤中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 (你我都）不够成熟坦白 (不应改)
热情不改 (你的) 笑容勉强不来 爱深埋珊瑚海


毁坏的沙碉如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快 你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏着什么期待 (等花儿开)
我们也已经无心再猜面向海风 咸咸的爱 尝不出 还有未来

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 有话说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱 （给的爱）差异一直存在 (回不来)
凤中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 (你我都）不够成熟坦白 (不应改)
热情不改 (你的) 笑容勉强不来 爱深埋珊瑚海

一想到你呀 - 张惠妹

一想到你呀 就讓我快樂 就好比蜻蜓呀看見綠草的油亮
像媽媽 輕柔的歌唱 一想到你呀 情不自禁的笑
天上的雲 地上的野花 古老的活力都等著一觸而爆發

像爸爸 終年的奔忙 一想到你呀 人間似天堂輕一點
卻多一些 張開你的心與眼
多一點 但輕一些 收起你的苦與淚

一想到你呀 就讓我快樂 就好比獼猴呀穿梭樹林的輕鬆
像阿媽 牽起了童年 牽起了我呀和一整個世界
啦啦啦啦啦啦 許下你的心願 丟一枚錢幣等月兒圓
啦啦啦啦啦啦許下你的心願 丟一枚錢幣等月兒圓

一想到你呀 就讓我快樂 就好比極圈悠閒自在的Polar Bear
像阿公 述說的故事　那正是我呀 要接下的世界
重重的 而細細的 撒下你的愛與憐
柔柔的 而 熊熊的 燃燒你的善與美


P/S: Baby.. A song tt represent my mood now..

Baby.. I love you!!!!!!

Thx for goin through tis sucky time of my life w me.. It meant alot alot to me.. I'm so touched to tears today.. I meant tis from de bottom of my heart.. Thx.. So.. Much..

PSLE result is out.. Thot Nicole would go to Normal Tech & she surprised me with a 171 to Normal Academic!!! Wow hooo.. Bernice on de other hand got a 230.. Not bad 2me.. Jia Wen got 176, was wat I expected.. A load of my mind, Nicole shld be under my wings again.. Hehe.. $$$

Happy Happy Happy birthday to my GORGEOUS babe Yoke Ling!!

I'm goin China nxt year on 20th March.. Wonder if I could catch a train to visit Yoke Ling.. Such a last min decision.. I let Esther do de decision.. LOL.. Thot she wont wanna go, in de end she agreed, I jaw drop at least a few kilometers away..

Life is so relaxin since yday.. Vacation starts & I'm happy that I finally got 2rest after de hextic past 2wks.. Ju found her 1st job.. She's a grown up now.. How much I missed our childhood days.. At least I get to bully her.. Not like de *bitchy Ju* now, she snaps.. LOL..

Baby.. Yr words moved me tremendously last nite..
Baby.. Thx for de thot.. U're so nice 2me.. ^_^
We'll go nxt June/Dec k.. Keep de money..
I was so touched.. Really.. Almost tear though I din show it..
Wat did I do 2deserve tis kinda love from u? +_+
Thank you so much......... Thank you...........

P/S: Baby.. Anyone can say anytg abt u.. But to me, u're de person who loves me with all yr heart.. And I thank god for tt.. I'm sorry I made u cry last nite.. But trust me.. I dun mind at all.. So u shouldn't..

张惠妹 - 不像个大人

转过身就自由了 我却突然舍不得
你露出无害的笑容 摸摸我脸颊的冷
放开了手的选择 那是因为爱太重了
我不要憎恨 再见让我来完成

坏掉的红绿灯 无声的陪伴我和你等待黎明
车窗外的雨洗刷了苦涩
用上的每一刻 你的亲吻背叛天真
我承认 爱美在未完成美在曾经发生

我是确定爱你 我是真的快乐的
你能给我的并不多 然而一切很值得
我是心甘情愿的呵护你不像个大人
你不需要懂 放开你是我最挣扎的旅程


我们就到这里了 谁都别再怀疑了
记住你孩子般笑容 孤独的路不怕冷
坏掉的红绿灯 无声的陪伴我和你等待黎明
收音机播着慢慢的老歌声
涌上的每一刻 你的亲吻背叛天真
认爱美在未完成美在曾经发生

我是确定爱你 我是真的快乐的
你能给我的并不多 然而一切很值得
我是心甘情愿的呵护你不像个大人
你不需要懂 放开你是我最挣扎的旅程

我是确定爱你 我是真的快乐的
你能给我的并不多 然而一切很值得
我是心甘情愿的呵护你不像个大人
你不需要懂 那么快乐我想也就足够了

Ahh.. I miss my maple.. Sian.. Been a long time since I last blog.. So sick of settin my student CA paper.. Quarrelled w bb, den hop down a bus to Rivervale Plaza 2eat my long time cravin C-U-R-L-Y F-R-I-E-S.. Wah haha.. De best place 2copy de test paper since I cant kp my hands off de com.. Well.. I'm stil alive pple.. Sick today, down w flu & bad throat.. Makes me so drowsy.. Kp fallin aslp den wake up den fall aslp den wake up.. Hate tis man.. Waste my time..

Quote frm a VCD I watched.. *A shattered heart will still beat, life still goes on..* Meaninful sentence.. Touched by tt scene..

Mahjong till mornin 2day.. Yawn.. Stil tired from de mahjong.. Lost 486 few days back, cover all de way till 225 last nite.. Phew.. Means I stil get to kp 100+ profit from Sunday.. Mahjong luck hafn't been good man.. Mm.. Lucky bb cover my lost.. Sigh..

Wore de wrong slipper out 2nites ago.. Can u believe it? Luckily it was in de middle of de nite man.. Wonder if de cabbie realized it.. -_-"""" Throw face..

Mummy ask if I wanna haf my own business last nite.. She said dad & her haf discussed gettin a business for me, dependin on what I'm interested in.. 30k enough mah? Jaw drop.. So sweet.. But den.. I shouldnt depend on them anymore.. I'll do it myself one day.. May it be 2years or 5year, but it's my own effort..

I woke up w a weird question in my mind 2day..
Would anyone settle with sm1 who has no prospect in life?
Would anyone be willin 2spend de rest of yr life w sm1 like me?

HELLO??!! *BIONKKKK* Wake up..
This is not a fairy tale..
This is.. de.. real.. world..
How naive I am at times.. Yet how I hate bein so realistic at times..

Spent de day w bb.. We went Bishan to watch "Juz my luck".. Comedy.. Haha.. O enjoyed it.. Wanted bb to be happy.. Since world cup started we've been watchin every match 2gether except for de 1st 2matches.. We're goin gentin again.. Always like vacations w bb, can hold hands & hug hug wherever we go.. In sg, we gotta be careful in case we bump into our student..

France lost in de penalty shootout.. Zidane ended his world cup career in disgrace.. Sigh.. Sad case.. He's gonna be remembered how tt red card was given instead of de good way he played.. Poor guy & my poor France.. Sniff..

***~Final~***

France v Italy ------------- 1-1 (ET 1-1) Penalty (3-5) Italy Champion

***~SeMi Final~***

German v Italy ------------ 0-0 (ET 0-2) Italy ~WIN~
France v Portugal ------- 1-0 France ~WIN~

***~QuarTer Final~***

Germany v Argentina -- 1-1 (ET 0-0) Penalty (4-2) ~Germany WIN~
Italy v Ukraine ------------ 3-0 ~Italy WIN~
England v Portugal ----- 0-0 (ET 0-0) Penalty (3-1) ~Portugal WIN~
France v Brazil ---------- 1-0 ~France Win~

***~Top 16~***

German v Sweden ----- 2-0 ~Germany WIN~
Argentina v Mexico ---- 1-1 (ET 2-1) ~Argentina WIN~
England v Ecudor ------ 1-0 ~EngLand WIN~
Portugal v Holland ----- 1-0 ~PortugaL WIN~
Italy v Australia ---------- 1-0 ~Italy WIN~
Switzerland v Ukraine - 0-0 (ET 0-0) Penalty (0-3) ~Ukraine WIN~
Brazil v Ghana ----------- 3-0 ~Brazil WIN~
Spain v France ---------- 1-3 ~France WIN~

WorLd Cup 2006

Group A
Germany v Costa Rica ---- 4-2
Poland v Ecudor ------------- 0-2
Germany v Poland ---------- 1-0
Ecudor v Costa Rica ------- 3-0
Germany v Ecudor --------- 3-0
Poland v Costa Rica ------- 2-1

***Top:Germany & Ecudor***

Group B
England v Paraguay ------- 1-0
Sweden v T&T --------------- 0-0
England v T & T ------------- 2-0
Sweden v Paraguay ------ 1-0
England v Sweden -------- 2-2
Paraguay v T & T ---------- 2-0

***Top: England & Sweden***

Group C
Argentina v I'vore ---------- 2-1
Holland v Serbia ------------ 1-0
Argentina v Serbia -------- 6-0
Holland v I'vore ------------- 2-1
Argentina v Holland ------ 0-0
Serbia v I'vore --------------- 3-2

***Top: Argentina & Holland***

Group D
Mexico v Iran ---------------- 3-1
Portugal v Angola --------- 1-0
Mexico v Angola ----------- 0-0
Portugal v Iran -------------- 2-0
Mexico v Portugal -------- 1-2
Iran v Angola --------------- 1-1

***Top: Protugal & Mexico***

Group E
US v Czech ------------------ 0-3
Italy v Ghana --------------- 2-0
Czech v Ghana ----------- 0-2
Italy v US -------------------- 1-1
US v Ghana ---------------- 1-2
Czech v Italy --------------- 0-2

***Top: Italy & Ghana***

Group F
Australia v Japan -------- 3-1
Brazil v Croatia ----------- 1-0
Croatia v Japan ---------- 0-0
Australia v Brazil -------- 0-2
Brazil v Japan ------------ 4-1
Croatia v Australia ----- 2-2

***Top: Brazil & Australia***

Group G
Korea v Togo -------------- 2-1
France v Switzland ------ 0-0
Korea v France ----------- 1-1
Togo v Switzland -------- 0-2
Korea v Switzland ------ 0-2
Togo v France ----------- 0-2

***Top: Switzerland & France***

Group H
Spain v Ukraine ---------- 4-0
Tunisia v Saudi ---------- 2-2
Spain v Tunisia --------- 3-1
Saudi v Ukraine --------- 0-4
Spain v Saudi ------------ 1-0
Tunisia v Ukraine ------ 0-1

***Top: Spain & Ukraine***

Yesterday wasn't too good a day, but wasn't too bad a day.. Had tears, misunderstandins, arguments & more quarrels, but soccer was fine.. Hehe.. De past 2days wasn't smoothe for me & bb.. But weirdly aft sm anger & quarrels, it always pull our heart closer after each quarrel & de unhappiness over de past 2days mysteriously vapourized itself.. Ever seen a couple like tt? Haha.. Funny rite?

Previous day watched England v Paraguay (1-0), Sweden v T&T (0-0) with esther, stephanie, tianjie, amelia, ju, bb.. Won de above 2matches.. Den we made our way to de prata shop watch Argentina v Ivory Coast.. We bought over 2.25goal 4de match.. 1st 1/2 alr 2-0, thot will score damn fast.. But 2nd 1/2 watch almost 20min also no goal.. So sian kind.. Den suddenly Droba swept de goal into de net & I jumped up & SCREAMMMMMM & I hugged bb... Haha.. Wat a match.. Esther & Steph also cheered.. Tink it's a match we enjoyed de most.. And my gosh 5am de prata shop was so alive & roarin man..

Fuck Portugal for de unprofessional play.. But cheers on Mexico 3-1 & Holland 1-0.. Was like feelin so shitty at de 75th min(Score 1-1) of mexico match cos I woke bb & esther to ask them wanna buy Mexico or not earlier on.. Luckily within 3min 2goal safed me & help them make sm profit.. Haha.. Portugal only bet $20 so not much of a heartahce..

Been a long time since I last update.. I'm tired to de max max max!!! Gosh.. SA is so scary when I've overloadin amt of students.. Rush here & der.. Been readin de sec 3 books bit by bit to upgrade myself.. >.<
I'll be outta town for a whole solid week startin from 22nd May.. Ahhhh.. I need a vacation badly & I'm gonna play hard tis time.. Haha.. Well.. I deserve it isnt it baby? I've worked soooo hard tis days.. sniff.. sniff..

I'm madly in love with tis song man.. *Bad day*.. Not becos my past 2wks was hectic.. Juz feel so comfory listenin to it.. SA is comin to an end.. 2students more & I'm off de hook for at least 3wks..
Here's sm neoprints taken smtimes ago.. If it's been a long while since u last saw me.. Tis is to refresh u how I look.. >.<

Wanted to post Maia's song *With You* for my baby, but no sound.. But u got de song yah.. It's my song to u.. Thx for goin throu all de hard time w me.. I love u baby.. Hao ai hao ai ni.. >.<

Shld I say Happy New Year? Mine's not.. Woke up at 5pm cos mahjong til damn late.. My bb smells nice & de day felt ok at 1st.. Until I went to de KTV & *he* decided to join us.. Amelia had alr told him tt she'll go hm w him so tt we can continue to sing happily.. Den *he* (FUCKIN HELL, pardon me but I'm really piss..) STILL came down & sat his ass down to sing.. I was so piss I went off.. I dun sing infront of outsiders.. Ask me to sit der & entertain him?? I got beta things to do..

1stly, sittin down if he dun tok to me, I'll kp quiet.. He came & say sm dunno wat, so piss off I stood up & walk away.. Thot could be a small gatherin & sing cos I've been wantin to sing many days ago.. All SCREWED UP & every1 present was sooooo upset!!! Be it alive or be it dead.. None of my concern from tis v sec.. Fuckin @^%#$#^%@!$#^%$@! I'm piss WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Freakin slpy but wanna write down a few things which happened for de past few days..

*Ying's dad past away.. Sigh.. Was pretty sad.. I do love tis fren of mine & I hope she'd get over it.. Missed de old times back in SJC, so fun & every1 seemed so close.. Missed de time when we went Paris..

*Bb bought me a rifle lighter when we were walkin ard in chinatown today.. Not tt I'm not happy, I'm *xin teng* for de amount tt was spent on me.. I nv really like to spend on me.. I rather use de $$ to brin u go eat nice food & see yr face lit up & droolin over de food.. But..

Baby.. I love u.. So much.. So much..

Yr fav words frm me tis days is *Qiu Qiu Ni* den I gif a v innocent face.. Haha.. Wonder how u stand me at times.. So crazy.. Yet so dull at times.. >.<

Bu xiang Zhang Da - S.H.E

Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da, Zhang Da Hou Jiu Mei Tong Hua.. Tis sentence sosuit me.. Love de song lately.. So true tt when we grow up.. Des so much prob tt come one aft de other..

Lately life filled with ups & downs, esp emotions.. Feel so suffocated.. Cant breathe.. Constantly feelin drained over thing I haf not done & *suppose* to do.. Life is sucky & make me feel like goin into hiddin..

Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da.. Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da0.. Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da.. Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da.. Wo Bu xiang Bu Xiang Zhang Da.........

*Why do I exist?* I asked myself tt question again.. But I din allow myself to slip into depression like I did 2yrs over sm huge blow I got.. Dun wan to be visitin de doctors again.. I lost myself durin tt 5min.. De question juz kept surfacin in my mind.. Bb kept callin me over at de other end of de phone line but I couldnt hear a tg.. Doc once told me once sm1 haf depression, it'll kp comin back cos it's inside a certain part & human tend to escape.. We've to depend on our own determination & strong grip to prevent it frm happenin again..

Suddenly a door surfaced in my head.. I pulled de handle & tried 2close it back, a hand grabbed onto it.. Weird right? But tt was really goin through my mind.. Den I snapped back & took a few long deep breath.. I told myself to stop it.. Hope it'll go away & not linger ard.. By den, bb was alr outta her hse.. Haha.. I must haf really scare her.. But I'm glad I did it, I din allow myself to fall in.. I wanna go to my UK trip nxt year & I must.. >.<

Went to Rita der to cut hair last nite.. Goin to color my hair again either Monday or Tues.. Aft tt went KTV again w baby & PS.. Sang for de 2nd time infront of bb.. Hehe.. Smtimes I tink I sound terrible but bb say sm songs I sing nice.. >.< Stupid KTV got a sharp nail in de sofa.. Cut my hand on it when I leaned on de sofa & all they did was got sm1 to take out de nail & nv even apologize.. It's always when I get hurt, I'll nt be bothered w it.. But if it's bb, I'm rather 101% sure I'll tell them off..

Bb cook for me on Thurs, got pepper beef, Seafood cheese bake rice, mash cheese potato & clam chowder.. All my fav.. Bb.. U make me so touched, so close to tears each time thou I dun show it.. *wink wink* Nobody can compare de amount of love u gif me.. Serious.. Nv felt so loved by sm1, nv knew I could be so important to sm1.. Always thot I was so insignificant.. Always thot my existence was worth notg.. But now.. U made de difference.. U.. made.. me.. feel.. alive.. once again.. o[>.<]o

Baby always go all out to care abt pple ard me.. She dun juz say it, she do it.. Like when she overheard tt peishan job is not enough for her survival, she call Jie Ru & ask if her company need a post.. I've given de e-mail to peishan alr.. Whether she go for it or not, it's her decision liao, but de thots is so sweet.. Baby, u make me feel so touch over & over again.. I love u frm deep within me.. Thx bb.. For lovin me & pple ard me.. My sis love u too.. Muackz.. >.<

Juz came back frm gentin.. De weather so dry tat me & bb lips so uncomfortable.. Saw Trina & Jayme der as well.. Din say hi thou.. And I realise she went der on purpose cos she knew I was der..

De weirdest tg at gentin was tis stupid guy.. He came knockin on our door at 9am in de mornin lookin for ALAN.. I suspect he was knockin on de wrong door lah!!! Stupid.. He almost crash our door down & bb was so scared.. By de time, I found my clothes (Haha!!!) & all ready to open de door & gif him a scoldin, he was gone..

Sang for de 1st time to bb.. So shy.. She like my *Xiang Shuo* & *Wo Shi Bu Shi Gai An Jing De Zou Kai*.. She say super nice.. Hehe.. *Blush* I teared when I sang *Ye Die*.. It's not becos of anytg, it's juz tt past memories came back.. I felt so stupid aft tt.. Felt so sad tt I made bb angry.. Bb.. Trust me.. I love u..

I so look forward to our UK trip in Dec.. Now juz haf to work v v v v hard.. Hehe.. I've 1student less nxt year but pay stil de same cos I increase de amt until can balance last yr.. Den can spend more time w bb..