You know the dull metallic surface you see on a scratch-and-win card? You would not know what you've won until you've scratched the surface. I'm like that. I don't know what has made me so reluctant to show my feelings. My proud demeanour? The demons have returned but I don't have nightmares. Just impossible dreams.
This is as close as it gets,
A.
Btw Khalid and those who didn't RT my quote on Twitter before I shut it down disappointed the shit out of me.
20100227
i cant do this alone
why must you hide? even from me. i thought im allowed to see your soul. now im just like everyone else, outside your shell. i cant read your thoughts anymore because you wont let me. whats happening love?
im worried. i know ive been a stupid annoying loser and im srry about that. talk to me.
talk to me.
im worried. i know ive been a stupid annoying loser and im srry about that. talk to me.
talk to me.
20100223
20100221
i cant sleep. i hate it when i cant sleep when i need to. somehow, silence, it disturbs my thought flow. like a violent chemical reaction, bubbling, pushing, exploding. but all is good. right now, all that i can think of is how you smiled when i caressed your face while you were sleeping. i am lucky ive all these memories to push me forward. apparently ive alot of em.
girl, use them.
wolv
girl, use them.
wolv
20100215
20100211
Wrapped in a vacuum
Only letting in what I want. Otherwise, ignoring totally. Talk about a case of sticking a rusty needle in.
I should really start praying.
I really feel like I'm in a trapped room. Clinical white in a metal box.
Feral children fascinate me.
I am miserable without reason. Sometimes my kids really make me happy. I adore them so much which is why I go beyond the duties of a teacher who is paid a $65 daily wage for 5.5hours of work.
AnnA
PS. Why is it that I can think of so many ways to counter myself but idiots like Raden cannot? Oh wait... I just answered my own question. Idiots, of course.
I should really start praying.
I really feel like I'm in a trapped room. Clinical white in a metal box.
Feral children fascinate me.
I am miserable without reason. Sometimes my kids really make me happy. I adore them so much which is why I go beyond the duties of a teacher who is paid a $65 daily wage for 5.5hours of work.
AnnA
PS. Why is it that I can think of so many ways to counter myself but idiots like Raden cannot? Oh wait... I just answered my own question. Idiots, of course.
20100209
My Stand
Democracy isn't always a bed of roses. Sometimes, the govt has to do what is necessary. If you think elsewhere in the world's better place, you're wrong. Name me any fucking European country & I can tell you how the policies of these democratic countries have damaged the people. Sure, no country in the world has a SMM ...or MM. I'm not saying they don't have faults but we have benefitted more under their rule than lost.
and unless you realise that we could have been worse off instead of BETTER off without the PAP in control, fuck you ignoramus. you are only considering the possibility that life in Singpaore would be better without the PAP. you forget that you have to flip that coin and consider the other side. the opposition may seem like a sweet forbidden fruit but a sweet forbidden fruit may not live up to its expectations. It is a risk you have to take.
fucking bystanders should just shut up. just seeing how things are with the naked eye and being gullible to listen to what is morally ethical and what is democracy ACCORDING the people who INVENTED IT (of course they will promote their ideals but their ideals does not necessarily reflect ours). just shut up and do your own research instead of imitating the opinions of other ignorant beings.
Hairul Aidil Fadzlee
That's why I hate Politics, Poly Tics get the drift?
moving on... because i rolled my eyes to his response.
Chloe Chui Hiu Ting actually now i think singapore is a good country...The enviroment is good there and the people are quite polite....the air is perfect there...everything is good I love singapore...!!! SO other people don't talk bad about singapore !!!it is a good country..not only good..it is the best country!!!
Fri at 16:57 · Comment ·LikeUnlike · Report
Hieu Cu
have you ever lived in other countries! i guess you did not, If you live in the US or Europe, you will see how stressful this country is!
Today at 02:01 · Report
Raden Dwi Nur Rikmoko
i agree with chloe.. ppl just say they hate singapore without thinking.. in actual fact its the government that makes us think we hate singapore.. we shud just hate the government..not singapore!!
9 hours ago · Report
Anna Azmi
@Hieu Cu well i've lived in Germany (in a region called Schlewsig-Holstein) at a mentally-conscious age and my opinion is that they don't have to be as "stressed up" as us because they can AFFORD it. they have a larger workforce and more resources whereas we don't so we always have to do a one-up.
51 minutes ago ·
Anna Azmi
it's always the underdog that has to put in more effort you know.
50 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
Because Singapore goverment had made its people like a obedient machine, where people do everything as they were told instead of struggling for their own right!
39 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
care to further elaborate? your statement makes little sense. what rights should we struggle for? didn't we struggle enough during independence for our right to maintain our sovereignty? didn't we struggle enough during the recession in 1985 and again in 1997 and so on for our right to survive?
33 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
I might not understand what Singaporeans think about the lee's regime. I am just an outsider living in Singapore few years and i just give some comments about what i had witnessed during my stay in Singapore! Anyway, Singapore has some things that other countries dont have: cleaniness, safety, and prosperity.
27 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
exactly, everyone has different opinions on his "regime". i'm merely asking what rights do you think we lack that other countries have?
21 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
Right of expression, democracy, and freedom of press. I see all newpapers rarely criticise the government. I think singapore press is tightly controlled!
17 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
Singapore's press is tightly controlled but as a citizen journalist you have the right to say whatever you want without going through the media outlets that you yourself know are heavily influenced by the government. one reason why the media org is tightly controlled is for economic reasons. we cannot sustain more because our market is small. it's a natural monopoly. another reason why opinions etc. are strictly controlled in the media is because we are considered to be a young nation and if opinions breed, it will influence the people because our people are not politically mature yet (one evidence of this is their shallow general knowledge and the devil-may-care attitude). i do believe the PAP won't be around since our independence if singaporeans think that they are not doing their job. we are capable of rioting (according to out history) so if they majority isn't happy and they know the results are rigged, i am sure singaporeans will be happy to riot.
and do you know what the guy said after that? wait for it... wait for it......
NOTHING.
moving on.
Raden Dwi Nur Rikmoko i dont hate singapore!! i just hate the government!!! singapore could use a better government, seriously!! singapore dont suck!! the government does!!
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Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ likes this.
Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ
agreed
2 hours ago · Report
Anna Azmi
how exactly does the government suck? what hasnt the government done for you?
about an hour ago ·
Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ
Singapore is a country which LOOKs like democratic but the way it's ruled is dictatorship don't you think, my displeasure is just on that part...no offense though if you have any other opinions, that's just my views http://www.theepochtimes.com/news/5-5-3/28402.html
about an hour ago · Report
Anna Azmi
and how will Singapore's "dictatorship" affect you? You are definitely educated, it is the law in Sg for everyone to be educated. You have a roof over your head, built for by the govt (assuming that you live in a HDB flat) that isn't a slum. The country is not living in poverty. We are well-off, granted that there is an widening gap between the rich and poor. How will adhering completely to democracy help us improve our standard of living? Even America's SOL cannot match ours when compared across their states. They have a huge population called "homeless" and something you take for granted, like accessible Wi-Fi which is pretty much available everywhere, has just started to appear in SOME eateries/ cafes in America. If you have lived in Europe/ America and studied political history, you will come to appreciate what the govt has done for us. The government is not abusing their "dictatorship" here like the military in Myanmar.
and you know what the guy said after that?
you guessed it.
NOTHING.
i fucking own only because i have a razor-sharp tongue and i know exactly what the fuck i am talking about. unlike them. Losers. go to hell and burn.
Anna
and unless you realise that we could have been worse off instead of BETTER off without the PAP in control, fuck you ignoramus. you are only considering the possibility that life in Singpaore would be better without the PAP. you forget that you have to flip that coin and consider the other side. the opposition may seem like a sweet forbidden fruit but a sweet forbidden fruit may not live up to its expectations. It is a risk you have to take.
fucking bystanders should just shut up. just seeing how things are with the naked eye and being gullible to listen to what is morally ethical and what is democracy ACCORDING the people who INVENTED IT (of course they will promote their ideals but their ideals does not necessarily reflect ours). just shut up and do your own research instead of imitating the opinions of other ignorant beings.
Hairul Aidil Fadzlee
That's why I hate Politics, Poly Tics get the drift?
moving on... because i rolled my eyes to his response.
Chloe Chui Hiu Ting actually now i think singapore is a good country...The enviroment is good there and the people are quite polite....the air is perfect there...everything is good I love singapore...!!! SO other people don't talk bad about singapore !!!it is a good country..not only good..it is the best country!!!
Fri at 16:57 · Comment ·LikeUnlike · Report
Hieu Cu
have you ever lived in other countries! i guess you did not, If you live in the US or Europe, you will see how stressful this country is!
Today at 02:01 · Report
Raden Dwi Nur Rikmoko
i agree with chloe.. ppl just say they hate singapore without thinking.. in actual fact its the government that makes us think we hate singapore.. we shud just hate the government..not singapore!!
9 hours ago · Report
Anna Azmi
@Hieu Cu well i've lived in Germany (in a region called Schlewsig-Holstein) at a mentally-conscious age and my opinion is that they don't have to be as "stressed up" as us because they can AFFORD it. they have a larger workforce and more resources whereas we don't so we always have to do a one-up.
51 minutes ago ·
Anna Azmi
it's always the underdog that has to put in more effort you know.
50 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
Because Singapore goverment had made its people like a obedient machine, where people do everything as they were told instead of struggling for their own right!
39 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
care to further elaborate? your statement makes little sense. what rights should we struggle for? didn't we struggle enough during independence for our right to maintain our sovereignty? didn't we struggle enough during the recession in 1985 and again in 1997 and so on for our right to survive?
33 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
I might not understand what Singaporeans think about the lee's regime. I am just an outsider living in Singapore few years and i just give some comments about what i had witnessed during my stay in Singapore! Anyway, Singapore has some things that other countries dont have: cleaniness, safety, and prosperity.
27 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
exactly, everyone has different opinions on his "regime". i'm merely asking what rights do you think we lack that other countries have?
21 minutes ago ·
Hieu Cu
Right of expression, democracy, and freedom of press. I see all newpapers rarely criticise the government. I think singapore press is tightly controlled!
17 minutes ago · Report
Anna Azmi
Singapore's press is tightly controlled but as a citizen journalist you have the right to say whatever you want without going through the media outlets that you yourself know are heavily influenced by the government. one reason why the media org is tightly controlled is for economic reasons. we cannot sustain more because our market is small. it's a natural monopoly. another reason why opinions etc. are strictly controlled in the media is because we are considered to be a young nation and if opinions breed, it will influence the people because our people are not politically mature yet (one evidence of this is their shallow general knowledge and the devil-may-care attitude). i do believe the PAP won't be around since our independence if singaporeans think that they are not doing their job. we are capable of rioting (according to out history) so if they majority isn't happy and they know the results are rigged, i am sure singaporeans will be happy to riot.
and do you know what the guy said after that? wait for it... wait for it......
NOTHING.
moving on.
Raden Dwi Nur Rikmoko i dont hate singapore!! i just hate the government!!! singapore could use a better government, seriously!! singapore dont suck!! the government does!!
10 hours ago · Comment ·LikeUnlike · View feedback (5)Hide feedback (5) · Report
Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ likes this.
Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ
agreed
2 hours ago · Report
Anna Azmi
how exactly does the government suck? what hasnt the government done for you?
about an hour ago ·
Azkeel Vampiir ﺄﺰﻛﻴﻞ ﻮﺎﻣﻔﻴﺮ
Singapore is a country which LOOKs like democratic but the way it's ruled is dictatorship don't you think, my displeasure is just on that part...no offense though if you have any other opinions, that's just my views http://www.theepochtimes.com/news/5-5-3/28402.html
about an hour ago · Report
Anna Azmi
and how will Singapore's "dictatorship" affect you? You are definitely educated, it is the law in Sg for everyone to be educated. You have a roof over your head, built for by the govt (assuming that you live in a HDB flat) that isn't a slum. The country is not living in poverty. We are well-off, granted that there is an widening gap between the rich and poor. How will adhering completely to democracy help us improve our standard of living? Even America's SOL cannot match ours when compared across their states. They have a huge population called "homeless" and something you take for granted, like accessible Wi-Fi which is pretty much available everywhere, has just started to appear in SOME eateries/ cafes in America. If you have lived in Europe/ America and studied political history, you will come to appreciate what the govt has done for us. The government is not abusing their "dictatorship" here like the military in Myanmar.
and you know what the guy said after that?
you guessed it.
NOTHING.
i fucking own only because i have a razor-sharp tongue and i know exactly what the fuck i am talking about. unlike them. Losers. go to hell and burn.
Anna
20100207
Found this on one of my old foolscap pads circa 2007
When you think somebody's everything, you must remember that everything means nothing because nothing is everything. -the wise Shii Ann to the wounded Saskia
Wow. I amaze myself. Am I too intellectual for society or what? Yoda, I'm coming home!
Anna
Wow. I amaze myself. Am I too intellectual for society or what? Yoda, I'm coming home!
Anna
20100202
be quiet, you might piss somebody off!
Namely me, of course. My life revolves around boyfriend, lovely darling kids at school whom I adore so much!, work at Starbucks Wisma and Metalheads For a Cause. No such thing as friends. Iron(III)Oxide is my adopted brother.
I HAVE to talk about my kids. My 2Technical boys really wanted me to go watch their match today, which I did. They beat Balestier's ass 6-1. This motherfire is very proud. Elfie and Hafiz, I am extremely proud of you :)
My 4E always make me laugh!!!! Love them to bitsxz and piecesxz. They are so cute. It can't be helped that the mischevious students capture my heart although I try to pay attention to the quiet students as well.
3N1 are okay, some of them are so cute. Again, the mischevious ones.
I dislike 3E2. The girls are good but the boys (with the exception of the little sweetums) are disgusting. Looking forward to strip two male councillors and one female councillor of their councillorships.
I'm on my bed now wondering what the hell happened to my boyfriend. His cellphone is retarded.
I think I may have used a vulgarity against a student today.
to bed peacefully,
The Teacher with a Fanbase :)
I HAVE to talk about my kids. My 2Technical boys really wanted me to go watch their match today, which I did. They beat Balestier's ass 6-1. This motherfire is very proud. Elfie and Hafiz, I am extremely proud of you :)
My 4E always make me laugh!!!! Love them to bitsxz and piecesxz. They are so cute. It can't be helped that the mischevious students capture my heart although I try to pay attention to the quiet students as well.
3N1 are okay, some of them are so cute. Again, the mischevious ones.
I dislike 3E2. The girls are good but the boys (with the exception of the little sweetums) are disgusting. Looking forward to strip two male councillors and one female councillor of their councillorships.
I'm on my bed now wondering what the hell happened to my boyfriend. His cellphone is retarded.
I think I may have used a vulgarity against a student today.
to bed peacefully,
The Teacher with a Fanbase :)
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