NEL BECKETT

HI I LOVE US TOO

THANKS FOR THE SNEAKY NOTE, YOU NINJA YOU!

I WILL BE YOUR ASSASSIN FOREVER!

you know when you're obsessed about someone when you cant function without her, when you cant fucking do anything properly when she's not around, when you just suck and feel lonely like cb.

girl i miss you.

THIS IS THE LIFE I CHOSE, THE LIFE I LEAD - KATAKLYSM

WHO KNEW KATAKLYSM IS SO INSPIRING!

"you want soy or normal?"
I DONT LIKE SOY LEH, MY BEST FRIEND DOES.

LYCANBOY, IM OUT OF CIGARETTES AND IM BROKE :(

and to complete the kataklysm quote above (refer to title) ...
THERE IS ONLY ONE GUARANTEE, NONE OF US WILL SEE HEAVEN.

i am currently living on cigarettes, iced chai tea latte and iron maiden. excellent diet much?
mine is full-fat latte not non-fat.

I love my lycanboy,
AnnA

THANK YOU GOD FOR METAL MUSIC.

you know you've found The Best Friend when you have text message conversations like...

Me: Scored a venti for a grande. Weds k, i need Warmen to study.
Nel: : D
Me: WHOA STARBUCKS EFFICIENT. I needed foolscap, they gave me A4 paper! Can write GP essay plan all. i loveeee this fucking place.
Nel: Ask for telekung and sejadah pls (Muslim prayer cloak and prayer mat)
Me: HAHAHAHA FUCK YOU CAN WE HAVE THIS DEAL NOT TO MAKE EACH OTHER LAUGH WHEN WE'RE ALONE K THX

(phone call. suddenly, Nel says she's coming with Regina from bloody ulu NTU)

1 second later...

Nel: DON'T SMOKE WITHOUT ME YOU BITCH
Me: I'm still laughing. Get your asssss here maaafackerrrrr. NOW SETH THINKS IM WEIRD
Nel: Tell me which guy can make a girl laugh so much? Seth damn stupid. Only girls can make girls laugh like crazy! Do you think if I start praying here in the train, the train would go faster?

(another phone call because i couldn't stop laughing and i was alone and the whole Starbucks stared at me.)

5minutes later...

Me: Are you long now? I'm vehhhrrrryyyyy excited.
Nel: COMING COMING LAH TAK SABAR OR WHAT. RILEK LA BEB

(hahahahah what the fuck nilah's malay is so sucky so i could imagine her with her american-accented malay!!)

Me: Fucckkkkkk you nurnilahhhh stop making me laughhhh where are you now!
Nel: At City Hall lah knnbccb cannot wait is it! We go smoke first pls!
Me: You come here then we go smoke. My giggles are bubbling inside. Like keeping vomit down you know after one too many jagabombs.
Nel: You said Starbucks has everything right? Regina wants mattress pillow bolster and blanket. Deal with that shit nigga

WHOA. nel is so damn funny. such a distraction. whole day GONE ONLY. our social circle widened x 50. HAHAHAH

AnnA

strength beyond strength

alot of family feuds are caused by money issues. money fucking money. money ruins your life. money fucks you up and does you good too. its all fucked up. of course we'd be in more crap if money doesnt exist. but damn..

i hear of adults bickering over 10 bux. friendships end, marriages end. money is cold blooded (cold hard cash, bahhh). its in your blood, mind and soul.

end of rant.

now im gonna search for lit notes for my girlfriend. i miss her.
adorable. i'l kill you if you say she is.
damn, i sound like Packie. should stop playing GTA for awhile.

qa.

HEADBANGERS CLUB

i miss my boyfrienddddddddddddddddddddd

YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM

can love end? i dont fucking think so. its like you suddenly forget how to breathe because then, you'll DIE. your soul will evaporate slowly and everything will hurt (ok who cares, you're evaporating slowly anyway).

i wished i stayed nearer to her. we can actually meet now if we want. OR BETTER, LIVE TOGETHER. wahnbcbknnomgwtfblueberrycheesekek. dont ever think shes abusive or shit because i dont think so, so why should you think so? huh? huhhhh? fuck you. ok srry. SRRY.

im dizzy, low blood. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss you la dei. i think dei is a misspelling of die. anyway girl, i love you and any other human who affects or distracts you away from me, i will hate forever.

you know you're blissfully doomed when a vampire bites you the third time.
rawr.

qa.

if youre wondering why my hair was messy during grad tea....

it's cos i was headbanging in my boyfriend's car, pre-grad tea.


metal couple of the year 2007, 2008, 2009!


post grad tea! got lost because NTU is so bloody isolated, drove on one-way lanes, car swerved (put us in danger) because i was trying to put on the seatbelt for my boyfriend (for his safety). HAHA BUT FUCKING FUNNY. SHAUN WAS LIKE JESUS CHRIST JESUS CHRIST JESUS CHRIST!!!! BUT I WAS LAUGHING LIKE A MANIACCCCCC.


MY LOVELY MRS. BECKETT


frigging awesome chaiiii teaaaa latte with extra shots of chai @farhan @zariq


love my heels thanks!

love my boyfriend :) wonderful boy he is.
HEARTCORE

AnnA

transparent

i love my girlfriend. she has the ability to make a 2hr session feel like the bliss of an eternity.

today i drove her, one fat man and one skinny man to grad tea. damn lame yes but she insisted on dressing her best (and damn fucking right she did). too fine for the world but they cannot have it. haha see no touch but fuck, you still see nbcb.

of course i resent it when shes away with other people but its fucking worth it to get her in the end. i love being alone with her. you know how your dad drives and your mum sits at the front passenger seat? we experienced that today. feels warm. im still fuzzy from just now. that freedom and comfort of controlling where you wanna go and what you wanna do without unnecessarily waiting for transport to get us to places and shit. love it loooooooovvvvvvveeeeeeee itttt.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh im in love with you.

qa.

When two bells ring you know it's my cue
Gonna meet the boys on floor number 2

Smokin' in the boys room
Smokin' in the boys room
Teacher don't you fill me up with your rules
Everybody knows that smokin' ain't allowed in school

MOTLEY CRUE
IS
<3
Anna

i underdeclared my love for judas priest

im cant decide if im psyched for today or not. year 1 rocked, year 3 sucked.
AnnA

wolv

i like the hurt. i feel alive.
my venomous fanged friend is still inside me.
eating and spewing and leaving after that
just to come back.


to do it again.

.

Hi to you there.

If anyone is offended by me and thinks I'm emotionally abusing qam by being attracted to someone else, GET THE FUCK OUT. do you feel hurt on his behalf? How very noble. And sweet. HAHA. screw that and your pathetic attempts to understand our relationship! Screw YOU! My attraction to Seth is similar to my affection for the bassist of Children of Bodom, otherwise known as Henkka T. Blacksmith. Who the hell are you to think that I'm a bitch? That I'm stepping all over him? I gave him the chance to do whatever the hell he wants but he loves and appreciates me for being honest. But that's him- "selfless" and "ignorant" as always. WAKE UP! I've already made it clear that I'm the selfish one in this relationship so why are you criticising my nature? You're defending him BECAUSE he is your friend! When qam hid that one thing from me (ie. shisha with all of his NAFA "mates") and i flipped out, some people still defended him even though he was clearly in the wrong! That fucking pissed me off! We dont need a fucking mediator and if we ever do, the only person allowed in our arena is the great philosopher and our best friend, Rusty Lee! (hello fellow mighty kite, welcome to the show.) Now that I've made it known that your judgement of what is right and what is wrong is warped (with ref. to the shisha incident), we declare your opinion on our relationship and qam's "out-of-this-world" behaviour as nothing but self-righteous self-indulgent crap that we don't give a fuck about. (if you don't believe me, I'm sure qam will blog his opinion tonight, so stay tuned.)

In this relationship, our friends who are friends with either of us have to accept the fact that we come as a set. So if you have any ill opinion with regards to that, get the fuck out.

With us, you are playing a dangerous game of minesweeper and it would be wise if you share your views with a couple who really needs that self-righteous self-indulgent pile of verbal waste.

My boyfriend and I discuss Seth all the time and he said I have bad taste and I said maybe and then I started saying things I don't like about Seth and my boyfriend smiled and I was like why are you smiling and he was like you're so funny/ If this is the way you talk about someone you "like", you actually don't like the person at all and I was like yeah I don't but I like you (as a person) even more now though I have always loved you and will continue to do so.

Hi max and ben, this isn't a diss at both of you.

AnnA

PS. go ask my boyfriend how perverse he is. He WANTED me to be attracted to another person. Surprised? I TOLD YOU DUUUDE. YOU DONT GET US.

PS.

My boyfriend isn't psycho. He's very nice. I'm just easily irritable. And he easily flips out.

(Like very easily irritable.)

But then after 2.5years, it's nothing new right? And fuck his school! today's a school holiday in lieu of deepavali but thennnn he can't hang today because NAFA is so non-conformist that they HAD to have school when virtually everyone else doesn't. We get it la, not mainstream la.

Haha, do I sound sarcastic? No offense to my lovely NAFA friends @max and ben and my boyfriend's NAFA friends.

But isn't that racism! Indians also go to NAFA what.

Tsk. I should read my notes now. FML.

AnnA

I'm not convinced

that your heartless songs will stick- William Beckett and the band

The best thing that happened to me yesterday was...
I only paid the price of a banana @starbucks for a venti java chip. Actually 80cents only because she still gave me a 20percent staff discount on top of that. I like my friends! But they're very distracting and in the end with all the random/ specific shopping with nadia and shaun and the nicotine breaks in between, we didn't study. There's still today.

AnnA

LYCANBOY

I love lycanboy, always.

<3

thy beauty is to me

i am a lycan. rage and bloodthirst be in my nature. living amongst humans with my vampyr lover, its very hard to resist killing everyday. i dont kill anymore. i dont think i ever will.

that being me, i channel my thirst for flesh to that of love and jealousy. so yeah its that crazy. it eats my insides and spews it out and i live again after the ordeal. its a tiring but fulfilling cycle. bad thing is, it eats my logic and sanity. then again, im never sane.

now i put it aside. yes of course i'd love to have blood on my hands again but then for what cost? my vampyr strayed and got interested in a disgusting human. wolv expects me to rip him apart and blow Sita away with my storm.. but i didnt. i want her still. her touch, her head on my shoulder, her ripping bite. i chose not to do it, even if im the one getting ripped and blown. yes its against my practice. they'l kill me if they find out.

but i love her that much.

hellforge.

I AM SO STRANGE IN SCHOOL NO ONE LIKES ME

HAHA, semi-true. but they are all oddballs in their own ways. i really like some of them, too bad they don't like me enough.

TODAY:
lycanboy and i had a very strong emotional bonding session regarding driftwood of my affection for someone else that is not Henkka Seppala, Aleksi Laiho, Roope Latvala, Janne Wirman, Jaska Raatikainen, Izzy Stradlin, Duff McKagan, Syamsul Haslam or Jean Baptiste Maunier.

everyone thinks, including my parents, that his Achilles' heel is his emotions, but i beg to differ. he was very calm today, very collected, abit/very much broken but very accepting and i thank him and love him even more for that. HE UNDERSTANDS MY FRICKING NATURE. he doesn't understand why Seth but my nature and accepts it completely. MY THEORY OF "I MET MY LOVE BEFORE I WAS BORN" (or what normal humans refer to as "soulmates") IS RIGHT. we seem as if we're alike (ie. dislike other people severely for no good reason/ anger management issues/ we became smokers again) but we're so different that i am yellow and he is brown.

eh you all bodoh or what, duh we're still together and though we do not make it a point to pinpoint our benevolent (haha) rule, today is the 30th month, just for your information.

i am glad i had the courage. and i am glad he did too. now we are stronger. our mana just went up and we shall continue our benevolent rule.

ich liebe dich,
The Vampyr

goldiwhut?

so, me and my crew be out walkin’, aight homey? nice day and all. so we be out pimpin’ the streets, walkin’ around, doin’ our thang. you know how it is, right brutha? we be out, enjoyin’ the sun, hangin’ with the bruthas. chillin’. but it be gettin’ to dinner time, and we left us some porridge out to cool, ‘cause we old school like that. picked up some suga’ to go with that too, mmhmm. so, me, my man Poppa Smallz, and my new Suga Momma head back to my crib, bein’ hungry and all. but we be gettin’ there and the door’s all unlocked. NO SHIT. now, when a brutha bear be doin’ what I do for a livin’, you don’t just walk in the door in this situation. so we be listenin’, but nothin’. Smallz pushed the door open. feel like he a big man, ‘cause he’s the one with the connections, if you know what I mean. That be why we call him Poppa. ‘Cause if we was a family, he’d be the head, he think. he got a complex that one. but when a brutha’s not sure what’s on the other side of the door, it’s okay if someone else wants to step in first. also, bein’ a bit petite as i be, Pops is a good man to be behind. don’t seem to matter much though, ‘cause the room be empty. different though. the porridge be gone. them bowls are empty, Smallz is tellin’ me, like i blind. no crap, i say. them bowls been licked clean. i look, and there are gold hairs by the table. some blonde bitch been all up in my crib! worse, that lookin’ like human hair. never any good when some humans be gettin’ all up in your crib. it ain’t lookin’ like anything ‘sides the porridge be missin’, so we go check out the rest of the crib. we be ballin’ and can’t afford no business with gettin’ robbed. we move onto the next room over, and the chairs are all moved around. one of them knocked over. broken. blonde bitch broke my chair! Suga Momma’s lookin’ at me funny, ‘cause i be growlin’, mad. that be my favorite chair in pieces over there. but the room be otherwise empty, we move on. now Suga Momma look nervous, though she tryin’ not to. not every suga get to come in on my crib. my crib be pimpin’ fo’ sure, but it ain’t huge. we almost be at the last room now, my bedroom. so far none of the other rooms be lookin’ messed up. the bedroom door be open, but the light still off. Smallz still in front of us, but i kind of push him to the side. don’t be wantin’ no other guy up in my bedroom. only room for me and my Suga Momma’s up in there, ya know? a brutha bear gotta be keepin’ up his standards. the beds be slept in. got some extra beds for my sugas, if you know what i mean. the first two, rumpled. but they empty. the last one ain’t. there be a human all holed up in my bed! Suga Momma lookin’ at me funny again. she think I be rollin’ like that! no shit! i be daaaammnnned if i want some human bitch all up in my crib. the human be movin’ now though. wakin’ up, i think. we still be in the door way when she sit up, all rubbin’ her eyes, lookin’ stupid like humans do. she yawn, and look around, she see us. next thing i know, we ain’t be in the doorway no more. that human be out my door faster than a bat out of hell, barrelin’ her way past Smallz and me. don’t think she’ll be comin’ back any time soon. my 12 gauge be waitin' for her, know wha' i meen?

too much GTA. now i feel like dying.

qa.

if i was male...

i'd dress like this.

even if i'm not a guy, i'm sure i can rock this look. if only i can find original GNR tees. not the stupid bling-ed hardy-esque GNR shirts i saw while shopping for metal merch in deutschland. scratch the hairy arms and moustache though.

im damn sleepy and a crazy lesbian is hounding me. it's more traumatising. i'd rather a guy.

A.

dear faith

please be by me. i promise, i promise i wont kill you. i will calm the fuck down and think this time.
i need myself back. please help me. i need myself back, i do.

qamarul asyraf b

when my Lamy ran out of ink, the banana the barista gave me for free smashed in my bag

cosmic forces, much? the banana my favourite barista gave me got SMASHED UP in my BAG. and it ruined my agnes b. wallet which i dont give a shit about because i was planning to get a new wallet anyway. i like it cos it looks very metal-ish.


Lid says:
and btw, my band is already dead
but we have a gig on your bday!
woohoo!
AnnA, you are all vanilla ice. says:
your head la bodoh
Lid says:
u wanna come?
AnnA, you are all vanilla ice. says:
my bday is like one day before a levels
unless you give me a special dedication
Lid says:
u said 20th? so u meant 20th november?
limit2 also i'll just dedicate the whole set to you. that's the best i can do
haha

a partly animated conversation with khalid.

since im wearing my children of bodom shirt (i swear it gives me special powers, that's why i bought three (more than half the stock available) and became broke in the process) and i have my no-longer-warm vanilla latte, i shall do some work now because i am very sleepy and am damn sure i will fall asleep at 10. it has been a moody day but sometimes, my friends cheer me up in ways only they can. today, iron(III)oxide, nel beckett and khalid made my day. :)

and i love lycanboy, i do.
AnnA

the old new story:

khalid still trusts me with his feelings. well, considering the fact that we havent met since the last gig in early Jan, which we didn't actually meet per se but headbanged in close proximity with each other, i'm glad!

i just told him to "fuck it" and "whack only". as youths, just seize the moment. basically, i told him to just do whatever the hell he wants. he fancies another girl, just whack la.

i miss my boyfriend. he is a nice boy.
AnnA

iron(III)oxide and nel beckett are my bestest friendsxz ever and i want them to marry :)

who has the right to happiness?

how do you decide if your own happiness is more important than the happiness of someone else's? did someone formulate a thesis on that? i am curious.

AnnA

i would say my new FB "About Me" is pretty accurate.

Aristotle's principle of "one who can entertain a thought without accepting it" is my principle as well but apparently some narrow-minded fucks are unable to comprehend that not accepting a thought does not equal to imposing one's opinion/ belief on others.

I am an Argetlam.

I cannot stay awake without coffee, so thank you Starbucks for always keeping me semi-awake in class. (Better than being asleep)

I am unable to tell jokes with a straight face. My friends know that i'm a hopeless joker and my warped sense of humour is best illustrated when i'm sarcastic.

A little bit too cynical but always jumpy with the right people. If i looked pissed off around you, it means i probably am.

HAHA, i love the last statement of my profile.

a darling Barista from Wisma Starbucks left me a "happy studying" note with a smiley when i was revising there for about an hour just now. made my day. can i say that this particular person is one of my favourite baristas now? the service @ Starbucks United Square is DAMN BAD after the nice indian girl left after serving there since my secondary school days. @ Starbucks Kallang Leisure Park is good too. sorry with all the "@" in my recent text messages, i have been tweeting alot because nel and i tweet nonsense. i have a cuppa take-away and i'm going to revise after dinner. my intestines are growling. i did some irrelevant research yesterday or something. your stomach doesnt growl actually; it's your intestines. it growls because it expands in anticipation for food or something like that.

very random but a little bit chirpy despite the rubbish AJC GP mock exam.
Anna