WE ARE CHILDREN OF THE SEA

today was fun even though we didnt get much work done.
this is a lengthy photo post. because i gatal wanna take pictures of her and look at em when im lonely.

sanity: wolf, you are senti-mentel.


EHWAHHHH!!!



omfg, look at my face. star of the photo siolkxz.

chinese girlfriend.

trust me, you havent heard her get annoyed at studding.

today.



really chinese.









steamy. ok now i want pau.

that nose helps me smell enemies from as far as hell.



we look similar here huh.

"assalammualaikum!"



this boy is awesomely bright.

i am suffering from fatigue. ish. i took so long to do this bloody post.
i hate sleeping alone. i wanna sleep with her. wahlao, that will be best nak mampos.
you cute today. everyday.

qa.

for my cissyness!!!

CISSY PLEASE LOOK AT THE MIDDLE ONE CLOSELY OMIGAWWWWWDDDDDD BUT I WANT ALL PLEASE!!!! I CANT CHOOSE!

LOUBOUTINS (ESPECIALLY THE FETISH COLLECTION) KICK ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. THE MIDDLE ONE CAN PUNCTURE YOUR ASS OK.

...continued

Paolini's eldest opened face down at page 86, my zebra-esque jim thompson pouch, heart-shaped porcelain jewellery box, teekanne pure lust strawberry tea (tried finding it in cold storage but to no avail!), hand blasters from nel (16th birthday present), mon cheri liquor chocolates (oops... farewell gift from jona, only 3 pieces missing...), hamburg magnet, aishah's halloween gift (right beside my hamburg magnet), bottle of melted snow from the hadler's backyard, my brother's pseudo-raybans, buffered saline, baskin robbin's ice-cream spoon, headband from Claire's which i studded myself, a pair of kitchen scissors, unzipped laptop case, arden shakespeare's othello at some reeeeallllly obscure corner, a mini skateboard for thy fingers- gift from the boy, tiger balm in it's original packaging, korean war coaster, birthday card from my sister (year 2007), nail clipper, a pair of studs from Guess, ipod cable, special HONGKONG walnut pastilles from cissyness, paulo coelho's eleven minutes, letter reminding me of my unpaid fines @ National Library, flower by kenzo pearly poppy cream...

ALOT OF JUNK! but i like!
i also liked today, boyfriend + family = awesome fun
my cousins are staying over for the weekend so i sure as hell cant get any studying done.

highlight of today:
the guy at OG's Go Sports GAVE me (means zerodollars!) his personal deck which he doesnt use anymore. it's still useable. i wanted to fix speed demon trucks + wheels there and then but my mum refused me. nevermind. i'm keeping the deck as it is even though razorteeth offered to splash his skills on it. on the griptape, there is an 'A' in olde english font. coincidence or what? A FOR ANNA! :D i named the guy/ deck Azri because he looks like my acquaintance from distorted kids, azri. initially, i wanted to change the grip tape to pink (HAHA GOD KNOWS WHY/ I AM VERY AGAINST PINK EXCEPT WHEN IT COMES TO SKATEBOARDS + SKATEBOARD ACCESSORIES) but since it hit me A = ANNA, then i'll just leave it, anyway, that skateboard probably has magic so it's my lucky deck from now on, destructo trucks (pink and blue) and neon pink flip wheels to go! but then again, almost all girl skaters have pink shit on their decks... my favourite colour is green but then...

li wen has just very kindly emailed me photos from yesterday's Bride Wars date so here we go:

random photo of nura, start of the day, during IRP, before ms choo came in. she climbed our homeroom's treehouse. 01-15, the best homeroom but they NEVER switch the air-con on you know, daaaang...


sx's trying to back away from my kiss of death. HAHA, somehow i dont think dementors give death kisses like that...


gangster pose outside of watson's! there's a video of sx and i rapping "Bow to the heavens, pray to the gods!" (which is coincidentally (maybe not so coincidentally (HEY brackets in brackets again!)) the title of her album containing yesterday's photos!) but li wen hasnt sent it to me yet! LI WEN ARE YOU READING THIIIISSSSSSS! anyway, i think only aishah and i look fierce. li wen looks goofy and sx and cissyness can never make it as gangster extras in gangster movies.


fucking chubby here. dizzguzzting.


cheryl, sx, aishah, cissyness and yours truly.

i am going to take out my lenses now.
. (dot)
my glasses is adjacent to my bangles from the trip to little india with bexxy and my clinique high impact eye shadow in 02 two to tango. more junk coming soon!

misses the misterrrrr.
anna

the boyfriend is almost here but i cant resist posting.
i just have one thing to say:
i love the mess my table is in because everything is ME!
my aldo chunky bangle, my maybelline watershine pure in naturals 101, my trusty cybershot DSC-T5 in red, my bottle of chocolate scented bubble, my bunch of Staedler markers, my QUEEN mug with orang juice (HAHA, spelling error, not gonna change it! ORANG juice. human juice ;) i meant orangensaft, orange juice!) in it, my clarinase tablets which i OD-ed on in germany, my h&m paper bag with a zillion accessories inside including skull studs from Claire's AND MY MOST FAVOURITE THING......... wait i cant decide. ok i really gotta go. bye.

hear me

ok yeah, my internet is up and running.

something adorable for you all to see.
just see, no touch.



ok girl you can be my model for my photography assignments.







yes confirm can.


i have something to say.
i hate trends. i hate poseurs. i hate know-it-alls.

hello love,
sometimes i talk to you even when i cant directly talk to you. i'll mumble to myself when walking to school. sometimes when i cant sleep after you hang up for the night, i will talk to you still and fall asleep just like that. i will call your name out and hope you hear. i whisper my day to you hoping you'd hear too. i know you do. you always do. i know it. i create fantasies just so i wont feel lonely. pleasant ones. i love flying you know. i remember talking to you on the phone till 2am plus but you were already asleep by 12.

hello love,
i know you can hear.
i love you.

qa.

bow to the heavens, pray to the gods! -Geok Neo's whatsherface!

i had the most awesome time with my classmates EVER.
i really liked today, it's been awhile since i acted silly and participated in intense bitching with the girls- or with any friends for that matter. sx, aishah, liwen, cheryl and my cissyness of course!!! :D i think my friends died or something, except nel, anthony and rusydi. anyway, i don't care. friends come and friends go. i know the people i can call when i want to party (they are all in germany) and the person i can call when i just want to play poker cards and discuss stuff (iron(III)oxide!). i am pleased that anthony is in my gp class. we know each other very well (mates since we were 13!) but i didnt know he made this loser drink diluted bleach, which he passed off as "immunity water", in secondary school although i know he is capable of such evil deeds. i am really friends with a psycho AND I LIKE IT LIKE THAT :D

bumped into my juniors when walking home with the boy. ryo and the other three fellas. they are still scared of me :D i was their junior captain when they were 13 and 14 and now they are so grown up! 16! i told them to call me down for the 2009 camp and i will drag the boys with me. take note vincent, nigel and colin!

i came home and my brother told me that some guy on a pilgrimmage who was reading the Quran, had a dream that Prophet Muhammad told him that the world would end in 1 week's time. although that contradicts the teachings of the Quran, IT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME. so as soon as my forty days are up (oh my god... i dont know when!) i am going to start praying, cut down on gossiping and cut down on swearing. challenges must be faced and met. the only problem is the boy, damn it la, he is not halal because we are not married =/ had a discussion regarding our individual religions and beliefs with sx, cheryl and cissyness today before the flick. coincidence?

paranoia aside, i am going to slack for the whole of tonight and attack Paolini's Eldest. repent people! (i am scared shitless)

anna.

31st october 1990; scorpios!
this photo is blurry because as we posed, cissy kept laughing and even though she tried taking this photo a million times, it's still blurry because she was laughing too hard. THIS IS DAMN FUNNY HAHA I AM ACTUALLY LAUGHING NOW! hmmm. okay.
the pose: traditional chinese portrait of a couple (wedding photo perhaps), you know the kind where they dont look at the camera! the pose is soooooooo spontaneous! aishah said that the jug (which contains the tom yum soup @ seoul garden) symbolises wealth because only rich people have water and a silver jug! HAHAHAHAHA it's so funny when she says it! AISHAH'S THE MAN! (pun intended!)

i have more photos but currently blogger is being a bitch so...
and there are two kelings in the school i severely dislike. one is a male classmate and the other is a gp mate. i loathe the keling classmate more because he compared my cissy to a minah! and we know that he talks behind our backs (good, bad, accidentally, purposely, who knows?) but we dont care because there is nothing left to salvage!

i miss my boyfriend :(

SUNBURNT SKIN

i nearly picked a fight with this minah (in pseudo corporate wear) because she kept staring at me but the boy ushered me out because we've arrived at novena already. while she stared, i taunted her with my deck as weapon. damn. fucking. irritating. her eyes need acid. it will hurt like hell, especially if we're talking about hell in islamic terms. HELL HURTS LIKE HELL.

on a lighter note, i spent 12hours with the boy today at various places and could ask for more. please!
-anna

bruises never felt this good

some hong bao collection in the morning + DeathRace which is 3rd best along with the SAW series after Les Choristes and Dark Knight and some bruise collection in the afternoon.
and i cannot frickin do a manual even though it's easier than an ollie BITCHHHHH
but i love falling down and getting bruises while doing something intense, i just dont like breaking bones cos having my limbs in a cast makes me lame (pun intended) and i like control.


my brother and his great leap forward


that's better!


aching but happy :)


ignore this because one day i am going to be like ali boulala

that's all, off to call razorteeth!
-anna

i am such a stickler for perfection.
the new studs i added on my right chuck is fucking out of alignment!!
the alignment is straight but the stud is like eating the other, like gnawing on it a little which makes the next few out of alignment! i would really take it out and do them over but it will still remain the same because the fucking shoe itself is not perfect. the rubber on the right side bites 2mm higher than the left side. WHAT THE FUCK. they use machine to produce you know!
i studded 75 studs in total yesterday and today and i already want to die. i wonder how the bloody masters do it at hermes. fucking waiting lists a couple of years long?!
DAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

if you are accepted..
if you were to leave again..
ahh fuck man.

i miss you.

qa.

whyyyy the helllll didnt i listen to my mommmmmmmm after the olevelsssssss.
i could be in uwc nowwwwwwww instead of fucking miiiiiiiiiiiiii.
i think it is not too late for uwc. =x

EDIT:
it is perhaps too late to apply for UWC cos applications for 2008-2010 closed on 9th october 2007!
WHAT THE FUCK? so anyway, my mom gave me the green light to enquire about my special case. although there is like 99.9percent chance of them ignoring me, i am still going to try. i am still indecisive; i will see if my rubbish h1maths can take me further. i am quite pissed off with myself because i was selected by my school to apply for the UWC scholarship in 2006 but i didnt fucking take it cos i was so fucking sure that alevels cant be anymore pain in the ass than olevels. so i am going to be an idiot an enquire. if they say, it's okay you old fag, we are still able to take you in because the singapore education system is a sonofabitch and we feel sorry for you then i'll apply. EVEN THEN, there is like a zero chance of getting in because of my fucking AGE. I CANT BELIEVE AGE IS GOING TO BE A PROBLEM! IF I WERE A FEW YEARS YOUNGER, I'D BE ON MY FUCKING WAY. I WANT TO KICK MYSELF. anyway, if i eventually get accepted, HAHA FAT CHANCE, i can still reject it. i KNOW i wont get accepted anyway BUT stranger things have happened to me. like the time when i got selected for germany out of dontknowhowmanypotentialapplicants even though i am not a model student and have a bad track record! GOD PLEASE GUIDE ME NOW. amen.

anna

white flag

i wouldnt want suicide.
i want someone to kill me.
i want you to kill me.
just like how i killed you.

oh love, i surrender.




i surrender.
qa.

"stephen king doesn't hold a black candle to you" - quote from one of my oldschool Christopher Pike

this should explain it.


this photo was taken in kiel, germany. that's the baltic sea. (or north sea? i think baltic. go google it yourself.) i was up on this high tower thing with becci, hailey, ylva, vincent and ylva&vincent's dad. this photo is taken with maximum zoom, so the thing is actually fricking high (refrained myself from saying "fucking high" because i want to cut down on my swearing, my sins are piled up high); you cant really see the houses as shown in this photo from the top. so anyway, my point is, if i ever want to commit suicide, i'd do it from that spot. the thing is, a couple of people committed suicide there too. oh well, not an original idea but anyway, when i was there, they've caged up the whole thing already so i cant commit suicide there even if i want to. so anyway, i wonder which season it was when the suicidal took the great leap forward (haha mao zedong), spring? summer? autumn? winter? if it was winter, their bodies will land intact (not a true fact) because the weather there is mighty cold (3degcel when i was there and it wasnt THE coldest, wind was about zerodegcel) and the body should somehow freeze on the way down. anyway, i'd do it during winter because i am confident that my coat will somehow prevent that much amount of gut spilling out (not a tried&tested theory, if you please). if i do it, i want to leap without wearing my hard rock cafe pendant (because i like it so much, i would like to give it to my dad to keep it and remember me as his little rock and roll queen), with my ipod in hand and me wearing my SMUN court shoes, just so that it will look interesting in the news. also, i want to wear the crazy shades that becci and i almost died laughing while trying them out at H&M. if you want my rare dio: evil or divine live dvd, please place your bid. i am not giving away any of my scorpions, guns N' roses, majesty and believe it or not..... escape the fate? (haha, i'm kidding about the escape the fate part. i'll donate it to my pseudo-rocker brother whom i love very much despite his habit of wanting to be like me.)

this thought is not random by the way.
anna

i am very annoyed at an ex-classmate.
he is still the same, deems himself superior. well, well.
you know what?
geran is so much better and nicer and smarter than you.
who the hell scores 40/50 for GP P2 besides geran?
certainly not you mister.
i think deep down you know that you can never measure up to the real intellects, that's why you have to put everyone down, especially everyone from this "sea of mediocrity" (MI).
i compare geran to you because you like to put yourself on his level when you're actually six feet underground.
dude, doesn't anyone love you?

i love my new chucks and would NEVER EVER TRADE THEM FOR ANYTHING with the exception of these:



CHLOE BOOTS FROM FW2007 BUT...


ONLY IN RED!!

super stoaked on sexy studs

that stiff, raw, virgin
and its cold, hard, sharp.
entrance made known
with small cuts and a big thrust.
the ecstasy
the film of satisfaction
crawls over me and sleeps...
for today.
there will be more tomorrow.




WHAT WERE YOU THINKING???

i am talking about my new stiff, raw, virgin chucks
which i have just embellished with 21 cold, hard (and sharp) pyramid studs
and i did it by making little holes with a safety pin and then a bigger hole with the mini screwdriver/ eye picker thing my dad gave me.
i am sooo satisfied with what i have done so far and i am so impatient to use my chucks i am going to use them tomorrow, unfinished or not! nevermind, i still get to season them.

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING??? DIRTY MINDS ;)

virally yours,
anna

PURE BLACK HI CHUCKS (AND NICE CHINAMAN) + WICKED BAG OF STUDS
someone remind me to ask my dad to get me anti-rust spray

rumi and kristin you are my idols.
i love you boy!
-anna

mangkok bin bowl

im in photography class and i feel like a fucking noob/boob/toob/coob/voob/moob. wtf?

i do things for my gf because i love her like fuck. no one can beat me. muahahaha.
you think you love her?! THINK AGAIN BITCHESS/BASTARDSSS.

muahahaah again.

muahahahahahahahaahahah again (fun siol).
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

girl muahaha i muahahaha love muahaha you muahahaha banyakkkkkk muahahaha.
i will say that to you on the phone tonight.
MUAHAHAHAHA.

gua akan shelter lu from anything ngan everything uh siol.
gua manyak affection sama lu.

love you girl.

qa.

thanks for the portable shade ;)

xoxo

im waiting for the scan to load up. today im going to be late for school because alot of the other humans in this fucking hole cant do a thing to help my mum. and to all those who thinks the picture is adorable, fuck you. you can still agree its adorable (disgusting).
xie xie ni motherfuckers.


omg so fucking angry cb
i want to kill.

wolf, ravenous as fuck.

cocok langit ah siolklkdfgsdas buto pukimakkk

here i am waiting for mum to finish watching her bongok malay show because she wants me to upload her pictures on the laptop.

i shall blog about what i just did and why i did it.

here ye humans, i have just put up a motherfucking annoying as fuck poll (yes by me, and i wasnt forced by the girl) just to annoy the fuck out of me.

why?

because i want to hate more because he deserves more. and my gf loves it when i am angry because i cant do anything to her because its not her doing because its my doing and i wanna annoy myself and its not her doing and she isnt annoying me because its not her doing.

cccccbbbbbb i am still angry.

aiyah girl, i love you la. thats why im angry. pfft, spaz.

we rock because we rockers.
we metal because we metalheads.
we maggi because we maggi mee.
we sambal kangkong because it is niceeeeee.

wolf OUT.

sanity

hello wolf,

tone down your hate and i'll give you free burgers for breakfast every single day.

sanity.

that will never fucking happen.


EDIT:
QAM JUST SAID THAT HE CANT WAIT TO SHAKE HANDS WITH MOMME WHEN WE GO GERMANY. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! HE SAID THAT ON MSN!

hello love,

i know you're upset and tired of education. and i know its my fault for doing this to you. 2008 sucked huh. who's fault? yes i know.. 2009 wont be any different either i guess. i havent been the perfect boyfriend you want me to be. you've been crankier than ever because of that. i do try though. sigh. i just have this to say, you have me.

cheer up girl.

qa.

soldier of fortune

i miss...

and a few others but especially these people and bex and my german family.
sometimes the memories just hit you like a slap.

a slap and not a punch.
a slap is sharp and quick and impulsive.
a punch is soft (no matter how hard the person punches you) and messy; the pain explodes into a bruise.
a slap is like lightning flash, a punch is like thunder.
it has been a while since i heard the rumble and growl of thunder.

yes, yes, this is going to upset my boyfriend again, just cant help what i feel.
i always appreciate what i have here but the monotony of school...
why do i have to walk when i want to skip? or run? or jump?

cheer me up, love.

1hr 5$

if you had to pay to sleep, maybe there'll be peace.

qa.

it explodes like this

what is love? i should slap myself for asking such a qn. ok im gonna rant so fucking listen. some people dont care about how their sex life will turn out. they dont care about physical possession. they dont care whether the person is there to even be beside them or fuck or whatever. they just love. purist? i dont think there is any pure form of emotion. we are like alloys, made of different crap. love is just love.

stop asking.
i fucking love my gf as fuck and right now i feel like making an announcement on CNA to declare my love for her and put it under "fucking urgent news".

when you're angry, turn it to love.
it explodes like this.

serigala.

helda edmunds' orginal artwork

i've known helda for quite some time, (like 3/5 of my life)
and i think she should continue sketching brilliant two-minute sketches.

izzy

i will find you

to see the dead come back to see you isnt as scary as it sounds.
me and my gf have been discussing about who should die first.
we've decided on her to go first. she doesnt want the hurt. and she's positive that she cant take care of herself either.

im positive that i'd die without her.
to see the dead when you're dead is another thing.
i love you girl.
i will find you when our souls depart from our bodies.
fucking hell sure i would.

wolf.

have you got some royalty today?

my boyfriend stays awake to watch me sleep.

oh it is flowing through me combusting with chemical lead.
love you very much,
mischief.

ps. TODAY, IZZY HELLFORGE AND HELDA EDMUNDS EXCHANGED SMILES AT RENDEZVOUS HOTEL.

chompchompchomp

i am pissed off but i shant be because my gf will scold me if this is an angsty-fuck-the-world post.
this is supposed to be a happy (FUCK MY FINGER PAIN!!) post.

and it shall be. MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH.

*smiles.
see? happy what.

this is what we've been doing.
and my finger still pain.


"studied" at starbucks.

her new mouse.

aiyo cannot tahan, you cute.



still cannot tahan, you cute.

















tropical shelter with nat and max (farah came later)





nat

girl



"eh what laaaaa..."



she was floating on the water, not me. i was drowning.

aiyah girl... why are you sooo cute every fucking where every fucking thing you do every fucking thing you wear every fucking thing you say and any fucking thing that is anything and everything?

a solid reason to never get angry at you.
i love you, along with your anger, merajoksification, crankism, mood swinginginginging, sporadic jiggles, playful antics, pranks, AND EVERYTHINGGGGG LAAAA.

wah i geram right now.
i want to squeeze you.

hellforge.