i miss my gf

i was just stoning then this fact came through my head:

I AM MUZZERFUCKKINGG GOINGGGGG TO LAMB OF GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

qa.

soulmate

lycan: if you knew you're gonna die in 2mths, would you tell me straightaway?

vampyr: yeah, so you wont annoy me for 2 months. asin, you wont do things that annoy me.

lycan: i try not to even when you're not dying.

i wont make you fall

imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.
imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.imnotgonnabemydad.

and you know its all real when its salty.

the Bodom Boys played and said

Take my hand and fly
will you ever be that tall
Dont be afraid
We're not gonna Fall

the day someone is able to make me believe them when they say this, i will kiss your soul and walk with you in hell

I am currently floating in the abyss and when I return I will be new and unrecognisable
Anna

COB are fucking wise boys

its that manic blissful rage that attracts me. the freedom to inflict pain upon others in area of effect. the heightened sense of everything you own within your soul. the wolf in your eyes. and you slash with superhuman ease. and it gets softer and softer but in fact it isnt. it grows, bigger bigger bigger.
with you. in you. as music becomes.

lamb of god is coming. i will shave my head if i dont get tickets.

qa.

blind spot

did you remember when we played the car game?

qa.

do you feel this? do you feel this stupid motherfucking ache at the corner of your soul?
its crazy.

qa.

i declared myself a hermit after i fell for you. i didnt think it was necessary to know people or even keep the ones i had. i dedicated my physical and mental self to your needs. and it is now to the extent that im living in recluse. that is my mistake.

12 hrs passed since you went off. i am decaying already. but then, werent we already? sigh.

qa.

Ti Amo

ive never known myself to feel this sense of uselessness. its stupid, ive been up all night thinking about it and i fell asleep at 3.57am. motherfucker. lucky she woke me up. this is besides the point actually.

i feel so fucked up im playing dota right now (and winning apparently). words dont form in my head as fluently or as fluidly as last time. thing is, i dont even know how i was like during this "last time". something crazy, something spontaneous perhaps, something stupid even. im not sad, this is beyond sadness. if i choose to fail, i might lose the one thing that has kept/will be keeping me sane for eternity. i will die.

i love you wildchild.

wolv.

I think I'm dead scary

because my latest facebook status reads: if there were no organized forms of religion, I would worship the Bodom Boys. I am dead serious about Children of Bodom.

Talk about obsession!!!

One time, I had a dream that I was watching them live in Stockholm and Aleksi was pissed at me because I sat ON stage. I woke up close to tears because Aleksi scolded me in my DREAM.

Talk about obsession x 2!!!!!

AnnA

something i wrote in a little black book with little black pages c.2007

The battle starts adversaries we bathe in our blood the worst is yet to come. we've reached the covenant to kill what we have started, kill the machines we've spawned to fight in the darkest hour. they really need to know. we really got to go. we fight to live, we fight for pride, we won't back down, the weak won't survive.

i don't know what i was thinking but i sure as hell like me thinking about stuff like that then.
AnnA

you dont cut corners with me

via Twitter

SupremeShaun: Stupid Sezairi and Sylvia!!!! Tabitha should have just been crowned the next Singapore Idol. Damn all you stupid MELAYUS for voting for them.

SupremeShaun: Useless Mats and Minahs that can't even support their children yet they spend money on voting for those two idiots on Singapore Idol.

SupremeShaun: What's the difference between a Melayu guy and a bench? One can support a fucking family. Screw them!!

annaofbodom: EH MOTHERFUCKER DONT BE RACIST OK. Malays only make up 25% of Sg population. Even if all of them voted for him he cant be/ in the final two!!! He is not a mat or minah! PLEASE GO AND GET A FUCKING LIFE. how do you know the poor Malays voted since /they don't have money????? If they are fucking poor, they wont have tv sets in their houses ok. Just because the person/ you backed lost, no reason to fucking screw with Malays. FATE DEALT HER A CRUEL HAND. TOO FUCKING BAD.

SupremeShaun: it's not Singapore Idol, it should be called whoever wants to throw away money idol. Guess who throws away money? Mats and Minas!!!

SupremeShaun: I want to clarify my previous post. It's not Malays i'm talking about but "melayus" who need financial aid yet can vot for Sg Idol

annaofbodom: "MELAYUS" is just a Malay version of the word "Malay". You think these "Melayus" that need financial aid spent all their funds/ on Sg idol??? Even if ALL Malays are poor, THEY WILL STILL BE OUTNUMBERED IN VOTES.

SupremeShaun: There was this young mother who was seeking financial aid and she was still ta(l)king about voting for Sezairi. She couldn't even buy MILK!

annaofbodom: THAT IS ONLY ONE CONCRETE EXAMPLE, if you are telling the truth. how convincing.

SupremeShaun: Sigh, it seems these days, anything can be taken out of context. I apologise if anyone is offended by my tweets. I'll be more objective...

getting squeamish someone?

annaofbodom: don't cover your ass. I'm not buying that. I know you meant that. It was clear. Nothing was taken out of context.

ShaunRamdas (yes he changed his name halfway): I'm just expressing my views based on what I've seen, and like all stereotypes, I'm just generalizing, so sorry if you're offended

annaofbodom: an educated and politically active/ aware person like you should have known BETTER than to have generalized.

ShaunRamdas: Sigh.. I apologise for being human and making an emotionally motivated mistake. Anyone whose my friends, please accept this apology.

meanwhile, Anna's FB status reads: SHAUN IS A FUCKING RACIST, WHICH MEANS HE HAS A FUCKING DISEASE. LIKE AIDS.

i chewed him and spat him out. Anna the merciless. thanks, show's over.
oh yeah, the slashes denote the beginning of a new tweet. you know how it is with twitter's 140 character limit.

no such thing as fitting in,

although some people are aware of the "rules" because they are so. self. conscious. ;)
and rusydi actually hates your guts, girlie.

anna the benevolent :)

“The intoxication of anger, shows us to others, but hides us from ourselves.”
– John Dryden

Fed a stray cat, sent a lost girl home = Anna the Superhuman

who'd have thought?

possibilities are glowing iridescent between us, eyes overbright as we dance circles around one another. we're shoved into rooms filtered with sundust, lips praying as palms, fingers caught into oil-dark curls and tracing faintly dimpled cheeks.

when you kissed me boneless, i decided i might enjoy breaking myself apart for you after all.

qa.

im going to faint

I WILL SEE YOU ON LYCANBOY'S AND MY THIRD UNION, FUCKING APRIL 15TH 2010
RANDY BLYTHE SHOW US YOUR SHOULDERBLADES

xxxxxxxxxxxx

GUESS WHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SYAMSUL YUSOF <3

i hate missing you.
it hurts.

qa.

i just want peace.
and im so lonely i could die.

qa.

HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO REPEAT

BAND TEES ARE NOT FUCKING FASHION TEES PLEASE DO NOT INSULT GNR AS A GUNNER I WILL BITE YOU

when you wear a band tee, you are supposed to feel you're one with the band, there has to be some sort of affinity between you, the band and the shirt; the shirt links you to the band and to the band's legacy, you ought to treat it with respect, considering this holy trinity.

if you don't understand what i'm saying, then you are a poseur.com and the band tees you own are for FASHION purposes. fuck off.

AnnA

Uh huh today

I went to meet this girl whom I don't consider my friend because she is self-centered. I got mad at her for thinking like a typical Malay. In 3 hours, I've learnt everything about her for the 3 years that I didn't meet her. She didnt learn anything about me except the fact that my relationship with lycanboy is reaching 3years and that my exboyfriend is now married. She talked non-stop and I didn't stop her. I was trying to be a good listening ear. 3years of shit and no one to talk to must have sucked. Most baristas except natalie and farhan were moody today (with each other/ lovers?) and Seth was a bitch. Spent a pleasant few hours with lycanboy and we had koi tea thanks to nel&agnesdotcom's recommendation. I like the colourful clothes I wore today. I should wear them more often. Ohhhhh I need to lose weight. I want to weigh 40kg for fun. I'm 2kg away. If I'm 40kg i'll be underweight and that is when I can FLY. cool.

I love rambling on and on and I want the Mighty Kites to commune sometime next week at pasir ris park with a mat and books and sketchpads and paint and rollerblades and chips and my boyfriend's magic sandwiches and some koi tea and lots of jokes even if iron(iii)oxide's idea of a joke is ridiculing syamsul yusof the Malaysian that I hate to love :) ohhhhhh, best friends only need each other.

I hope I didn't break nel's heart by not running with her tomorrow. I just want to get away from the buzz and unpleasant sounds.

I love doing nothing at all and blogging about the incoherent sequence of my day. I'll be disappointed if my bodyclock doesn't work tomorrow cos I want the silence, it makes me feel alive amongst the dead.

Anna

If you dont understand, it is okay. It's a shame your mind is too narrow to comprehend this little bit of absurdity though. Word of the day? WARRANT. haha. Private joke @youhavemyhalo ;)

okay, so anyway.

chained by the ears by white plastic/rubber earphones to my lappy to hook my iPod to my itunes with @youhavemyhalo in a chatbox in the tab beside "Blogger: ANTS WITH GUNS. -Create Post".

i think i have to set my vision for the holidays because if i don't, i'll merely be an empty set just floating through wrapped in skin. i can hardly hear my thoughts and the tip-tapping sound of the keyboard is quite soft because i am chained by the ears by the Gods of Metal, Judas Priest. so i was saying, i have to set my goals for the holidays, like you know, do some good for humanity and spend some time with myself to collate my thoughts and section my emotions into distinct pens like anger, rage, angst, delight, delirium, nothingness, somethingness etc. i think i should also start emailing becci regularly- i have been neglecting my german BFF for awhile now because of all the exams and all the rah-rah i have to put myself through in order to get my lazy ass off to study. strangely, my body clock is working perfectly fine and ever since saturday (my last paper was on friday), i have been waking up at 4 am 5 am and today 530 am and sometimes i get damn fed up because i wanna sleep in, sometimes i am scared of the dark in my house because the furniture look like monsters even though they are merely antiques but antiques are mysterious aren't they? they have a special aura, and they appear sinister BUT today, i quite decide i like it so i decided not to hold my pee in and just go to the toilet. it felt like i was prowling a ghost town because i see orange lights outside but there is minimal activity, i felt like a phantom but what kind of phantom am i in my cookie monster nightdress?

so before i digress further (everyone loves using "digress" and i just used it to annoy myself and then have a laugh at myself cos i'm not uptight over the fact that i have to pay a little extra for something that shouldn't be a problem if you guys were really friends. harsh? but that came out and i don't like to shield my thoughts like some people. i just like to shield who i am), i want to set my goals.

as of right now, i want to complete painting the nails on my right hand in purple potion before chipping the already-painted nails on my left, haha. ask any of them and they will tell you i can chip my nails before i even step out of the nail salon.

i plan to go help out at the orphanage, i love little kids, expecially little boys. does that make me a pedophile? then i have to complete learning german so i can start on french and spanish and then become multi-lingual and join the UN. also, i am going to go to the gym with naddynadnad and my buddies from canoeing and i will try not to make my boyfriend sad with my desire to live my past life of reckless behaviour with drugs and sex and alcohol. okay scratch the sex, keep the rest.

this is such a boring photo-less entry but more of that soon cos i feel like i should end this entry now, i've got a newspaper to read.

love,
AnnA

hi nadia, i know you're going to read this soon cos you're still in the little chatbox beside this tab :)

In the Open

Privatising blogs when it has been public all this while shows you have something to hide. If one is unhappy, go talk to the person, like young adults. One can't resort to bitching forever. If I am directly involved, I'll speak up but I'm not.

Oh, I forgot. Some people are more "affluent". They are, right now. In the future? Be humble. Didn't your parents teach you?

Anna

dream my love

you hook me like curved cleaver on raw flesh. you skip along and i burn in your trail and you, oblivious to the fire you set. your kisses are venom in my veins, your hugs are fire from crashed planes. banshees cower when you shriek. werebears run when you stomp. magis quicken the full moon cycle just so you wont be your invulnerable bloodraged self under the lunar light.

yet you soothe me with your touch. you fill me up when you laugh. i become sane when i hear your voice. you bring light motherfucking light into my life. when you pout, giggle, jump, pounce, bite, jiggle, dance.. omg i love you so much i can create another planet.

delight, delirium, death. i love you.

wolv.

Poetic thoughts of the unstable mind c. Mentalscars

I have violent tendencies.

You fucking raped my innocence, I damn you to hell. You derailed my life. You are an aimless empty set of skin. If I ever speak to you again, I'll unleash my venom-tipped fangs and I will feast on your soul. Your soul. Take note.

You derailed my life when it was on track. I cannot substitute the word 'derailed'. It is succint and means everything I want it to mean. You derailed my life because you screwed up. You're not doing as great as you could. You're not doing as great as you should. You pulled the bright lights out of their sockets. Ripped it off, I would say. Like a blackout. A sudden blackout. With no pre-planning. Not a drill. Not a pre-empt. The real thing. Plunged into darkness when the light is just one layer above but I took too long to figure out. It is too late. Do I hate you for that? Maybe. Will you feel like shit when you acquire knowledge of this? Of course you will. Will that change anything? No. Am I still angry? Yes. Will I be happy? Depends. Will you be happy? Depends on me.

Maybe I'm just angry. Somehow I feel calmer everytime I acknowledge that I'm angry.

This girl. First impression, bad impression. Then it was fine. I loved her. Then she said something wrong so her-worthless-person has been reverted to the way it was in the past. She will be notified via Facebook. Technology? Wonderful. Technology and dissemination of information 101, which basically means, fucking useful. Actually you don't deserve to be a scar. You are not, actually. You're not even a battle. You'll see. Facebook, when the planets align. Now, the age of Kali Yuga has arrived.

------

Did you enjoy that? I did. (An attempt in the art of poetic enunciation of the inhuman mind. Heroes have heroes too.)

On a humane note, I have not showered since I got home from smoking in the rain several times today with several different people. I reek of smoke, toffeenut latte, frustration and disappointment. I'm in my nightgown, going to visit the kingdom of Dream, the original Sandman.

AnnA

Ps. If you cannot detect irony or puns it means you don't know me at all, you don't know me well enough, you can't be bothered or you're plain stupid because you take everything as it is. It's not because you don't care because if you didn't, you wouldn't have made it here. This is a rather long post you know. Joke's on you!

And the biggest secret here is that the most noticeable "irony" is that IT is not even ironic in the first place.

If I were to represent the end of the world,

my name would be ANNAPOCALYPSE

I'm glad I'll never be around you people again

So thank you God.

Pissed off .,|,,

Judas Priest: Dreamer Deceiver

because i know i can do so much better and i'm meant for something greater
because i have to and the worst thing is not failing anybody else but myself
i am never satisfied with second or third but now it seems i'm relegated to the end
but that is truly not who i am.

i wish they'll take my IQ into account.

words of Sita > deeds of Anna

My best friends

I am in love with the Mighty Kites!

raginglycan.com

vampires are crazy. mine's boy crazy.
disgustingboys.org (could be a gay porn site, eww)

i love you fuckloads though.

wolv

ZACHARY KEITER IS GAY (I linked him up, so click!)
SOME RANDOM GUY ON FB IN THE GROUP THAT I JOINED (Shut Up, the World Won't End in 2012 -link here) KEEPS POSTING HIS RELIGIOUS BULLSHIT. HE SAID THE WORLD ISN'T ROUND BECAUSE THE BIBLE SAID SO. OKAY, SO MAYBE NASA LIED ABOUT THE PHOTOS, THEY HAD NOTHING TO DO BUT PHOTOSHOP PHOTOS OF EARTH. OH WAIT, PHOTOSHOP DIDN'T EXIST IN THE MID-20th CENTURY OR DID IT??? BUT FUCK? DISPUTING THE COPERNICAN THEORY DOESN'T MAKE SCIENCE STUPID, YOU MYOPIC ASSHOLE! SCIENCE IS USED TO SAVE ALOT OF LIVES, AS WELL AS DESTROY BUT FUCK! THE COPERNICAN THEORY IS JUST A THEORY, DEAL WITH IT, IDIOT. JUST LIKE HOW THE ORIGINAL 9 PLANETS WERE JUST A THEORY UNTIL FURTHER EVIDENCE PROVED PLUTO IS NOT A MOTHERFUCKING PLANET (ONLY A DWARF PLANET). IF YOU STILL DONT BELIEVE THE NASA PHOTOS, THEN BE IT BUT DONT ATTACK OTHER RELIGIONS (LIKE MINE). AND DONT FUCKING SHOW THE WORLD THAT YOU'RE STUPID. IT'S EMBARASSING, YOU GAY FUCKFACE. SCIENCE IS NOT STUPID, YOU ARE STUPID BECAUSE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SCIENCE. PEOPLE SAY ISLAM IS THE MOST BACKWARD RELIGION OF ALL THE MAJOR RELIGIONS BUT THE HOLY QURAN INFORMS US ON SCIENTIFIC KNOWLEDGE. THINGS LIKE HOW THE FOETUS IS FORMED. SCIENCE AND RELIGION ARE COMPATIBLE. BEAT THAT, ZACHARY, YOU NARROW-MINDED PIECE OF TRASH. YOU EMBARRASS THE HUMAN RACE, WHICH I'M LUCKY NOT TO BE PART OF.

hi i should be studying but iron(III)oxide killed my mood to study cos we are supposed to study together but he fell sickkkkkkkkk

knocking in one panel. panel by panel.

nail in the nail.

An Exchange:
which wood you want? rosewood? mahogany? maple? alderwood?

why all the wood for making guitars one (ESP-Henkka's Bass, Aleksi's guitar)? can i also use nuts and bolts instead? spray-painted neon green colour. like the ones on my skateboard.

no, no. nails only. nails more cheap la. economy bad you know.

so nail by nail.
nail by nail.
nail by
nail.

An Interjection:
i feel like such a motherfucking stoner now. will. study. later.

some strangers just cheer me up for that nanosecond that im there. id est. Wisma-SB baristas. from Amalina to Zariq. (the in-betweens are Farhan, Izyan, Naz)

this is what i brought
this you can keep



this is what i brought
you may forget me

i promise you my heart
just promise to sing

i promise to depart just promise one thing
kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep

one more time steal my breath
i will feed you the sky
i will show you how

steal the glamour from death
and before i die

i need to see city lights like rain
dance & explode

love, stay sweetly numb
if i remain lifeless

-the one so known as Anna, also known as Sita, Dee, Shii Ann, Sh'Tara and Diyanah

the inside scoop of our union.

=(‏

From:	Anna Azmi (scorpiana-@hotmail.com)
Sent:	04 December 2008 12: 52PM
To:	boyfriendlycanbaby (: (qamarul_asyraf@hotmail.com)

i love ur email. love, i cnt text u anymore. u cn text me if u wish. cus last night i dreamt that my dad said that my hp bill was $1004 dollars! what the fuck?????? lol! so out of safety, i dont wna text unless necessary k. amy checked out arrival time. its 16th dec 4.45pm or sth. but not confirmed yet. next week then confirm k. our transit in istanbul is like 8hours. siaooookaoooo. abraham (who is the one who sent a text t u cus no one else online) said ur having ur driving shit now or whatever. tsk la u! i shall go read the blog now. i miss u. talk t u earliest monday ok, if i cnt get to chat with u later. xoxo

---

From: qamarul_asyraf@hotmail.com
To: scorpiana-@hotmail.com
Subject: yes i remember
Date: Wed, 3 Dec 2008 15:43:04 +0000

i remembered the first time i saw you. angry little thing you were. i still cant describe how i felt. it was alien i swear. i started looking out for you after that. i was so nervous when i saw that you were in the same class as me (oh look you just texted). but my instincts told me to be indifferent. ahh, but i was weak. for love kills your every action. you were a magnet. i couldnt let you out of my sight. didnt notice that huh? i doubt you even knew i existed. oh well. i felt this urge to hug you everytime we were a feet apart. but who was i? we started talking and all and you were surprised that i can even write proper english (on my blog). SIAO. of course i can. but then ppl think im a no brain malay boy. so cant blame you. we started hinting each other. some were obvious, some werent and it was fun. with that silent acknowledgement, we were bonded even without our knowing of it. it was fun. i remembered the first time we walked home tgt. you know, i never was comfortable around girls. i mean i dont talk much. it was new with you. it was so fresh yes. i loved you even then. you didnt know. i would care for you like no other. even if you werent mine, i would think you were. you were precious to me. and you still are.

then we got tgt. it was a blur i suppose. haha. felt strangely nice after that night. i never regretted it. 150407.

i love you O ruler of my heart.
i love you Sh'tara.
i love you.

one of our emails towards the end of my germany trip. i feel like hugging lycanboy now but he has some school shit. i should study now. i have been neglecting my studies since prelim 2 ended. i swear to God. fuck me cos my life is so FML-worthy now.

CANT WAIT FOR AFTER A LEVELS K.
AnnA

i love my boyfriend

Sita

i miss you.

wolv.

(Sita's song)

Bring your secrets to me/ just give me your hand and I'll let you feel the wounds they put in me

If you believe in me/ how can I keep dissolving/ if you believe me/ I'll tell you everything

Do you fall too (everytime that I)
(Everytime that I) Yes I fall

Do you want to (try to pacify)
Fall into me

Fall into me

Your sins into me, begin the poisoning.
AnnA

We are no one, we are one.

i'd get annoyed at me if i were you

i seriously dont see how a guy can mistreat a girl.
guys are like this, if they cant get you to like them for who they are, they "try" to change for the better. thing is, you get better WITH the person, not FOR the person. im starting this cheesy chivalry shit again. forgive me. no i dont give a fuck.

i love my girlfriend. i'd do anything for her. challenge me. i'd still fucking do it. what? wake up at 5 and fetch her at toa payoh at 7? done. meet her for half an hour even if you're sick and dying? done. rush work just to see her for lunch and have her go back to school and let you wait till 6.30pm? done. affection for another human and still love her to fucking bits? done. and all this is what i want to do and not what she expects me to do. she said so herself i've a choice to be whoever i want. and i choose boyfriend/lover/caretaker/pillar/killing partner.

ok after As/assessment, we're gonna cruzzzzzz everywhere (nilah is cordially invited). we can worry about london later girl. smile. if not rayan throw lego at me again because he thinks im bullying you.

qa.

THIS SHIT IS BANANAS

K BEST BIRTHDAY SURPRISE EVER.

K I WILL STUDY HARD SO I CAN CHILL OUT AT CAMPUS WITH NURNILAH JUMAT. 8 DAYS LEFT.

NEL BECKETT

HI I LOVE US TOO

THANKS FOR THE SNEAKY NOTE, YOU NINJA YOU!

I WILL BE YOUR ASSASSIN FOREVER!

you know when you're obsessed about someone when you cant function without her, when you cant fucking do anything properly when she's not around, when you just suck and feel lonely like cb.

girl i miss you.

THIS IS THE LIFE I CHOSE, THE LIFE I LEAD - KATAKLYSM

WHO KNEW KATAKLYSM IS SO INSPIRING!

"you want soy or normal?"
I DONT LIKE SOY LEH, MY BEST FRIEND DOES.

LYCANBOY, IM OUT OF CIGARETTES AND IM BROKE :(

and to complete the kataklysm quote above (refer to title) ...
THERE IS ONLY ONE GUARANTEE, NONE OF US WILL SEE HEAVEN.

i am currently living on cigarettes, iced chai tea latte and iron maiden. excellent diet much?
mine is full-fat latte not non-fat.

I love my lycanboy,
AnnA

THANK YOU GOD FOR METAL MUSIC.

you know you've found The Best Friend when you have text message conversations like...

Me: Scored a venti for a grande. Weds k, i need Warmen to study.
Nel: : D
Me: WHOA STARBUCKS EFFICIENT. I needed foolscap, they gave me A4 paper! Can write GP essay plan all. i loveeee this fucking place.
Nel: Ask for telekung and sejadah pls (Muslim prayer cloak and prayer mat)
Me: HAHAHAHA FUCK YOU CAN WE HAVE THIS DEAL NOT TO MAKE EACH OTHER LAUGH WHEN WE'RE ALONE K THX

(phone call. suddenly, Nel says she's coming with Regina from bloody ulu NTU)

1 second later...

Nel: DON'T SMOKE WITHOUT ME YOU BITCH
Me: I'm still laughing. Get your asssss here maaafackerrrrr. NOW SETH THINKS IM WEIRD
Nel: Tell me which guy can make a girl laugh so much? Seth damn stupid. Only girls can make girls laugh like crazy! Do you think if I start praying here in the train, the train would go faster?

(another phone call because i couldn't stop laughing and i was alone and the whole Starbucks stared at me.)

5minutes later...

Me: Are you long now? I'm vehhhrrrryyyyy excited.
Nel: COMING COMING LAH TAK SABAR OR WHAT. RILEK LA BEB

(hahahahah what the fuck nilah's malay is so sucky so i could imagine her with her american-accented malay!!)

Me: Fucckkkkkk you nurnilahhhh stop making me laughhhh where are you now!
Nel: At City Hall lah knnbccb cannot wait is it! We go smoke first pls!
Me: You come here then we go smoke. My giggles are bubbling inside. Like keeping vomit down you know after one too many jagabombs.
Nel: You said Starbucks has everything right? Regina wants mattress pillow bolster and blanket. Deal with that shit nigga

WHOA. nel is so damn funny. such a distraction. whole day GONE ONLY. our social circle widened x 50. HAHAHAH

AnnA

strength beyond strength

alot of family feuds are caused by money issues. money fucking money. money ruins your life. money fucks you up and does you good too. its all fucked up. of course we'd be in more crap if money doesnt exist. but damn..

i hear of adults bickering over 10 bux. friendships end, marriages end. money is cold blooded (cold hard cash, bahhh). its in your blood, mind and soul.

end of rant.

now im gonna search for lit notes for my girlfriend. i miss her.
adorable. i'l kill you if you say she is.
damn, i sound like Packie. should stop playing GTA for awhile.

qa.

HEADBANGERS CLUB

i miss my boyfrienddddddddddddddddddddd

YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM

can love end? i dont fucking think so. its like you suddenly forget how to breathe because then, you'll DIE. your soul will evaporate slowly and everything will hurt (ok who cares, you're evaporating slowly anyway).

i wished i stayed nearer to her. we can actually meet now if we want. OR BETTER, LIVE TOGETHER. wahnbcbknnomgwtfblueberrycheesekek. dont ever think shes abusive or shit because i dont think so, so why should you think so? huh? huhhhh? fuck you. ok srry. SRRY.

im dizzy, low blood. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss you la dei. i think dei is a misspelling of die. anyway girl, i love you and any other human who affects or distracts you away from me, i will hate forever.

you know you're blissfully doomed when a vampire bites you the third time.
rawr.

qa.

if youre wondering why my hair was messy during grad tea....

it's cos i was headbanging in my boyfriend's car, pre-grad tea.


metal couple of the year 2007, 2008, 2009!


post grad tea! got lost because NTU is so bloody isolated, drove on one-way lanes, car swerved (put us in danger) because i was trying to put on the seatbelt for my boyfriend (for his safety). HAHA BUT FUCKING FUNNY. SHAUN WAS LIKE JESUS CHRIST JESUS CHRIST JESUS CHRIST!!!! BUT I WAS LAUGHING LIKE A MANIACCCCCC.


MY LOVELY MRS. BECKETT


frigging awesome chaiiii teaaaa latte with extra shots of chai @farhan @zariq


love my heels thanks!

love my boyfriend :) wonderful boy he is.
HEARTCORE

AnnA

transparent

i love my girlfriend. she has the ability to make a 2hr session feel like the bliss of an eternity.

today i drove her, one fat man and one skinny man to grad tea. damn lame yes but she insisted on dressing her best (and damn fucking right she did). too fine for the world but they cannot have it. haha see no touch but fuck, you still see nbcb.

of course i resent it when shes away with other people but its fucking worth it to get her in the end. i love being alone with her. you know how your dad drives and your mum sits at the front passenger seat? we experienced that today. feels warm. im still fuzzy from just now. that freedom and comfort of controlling where you wanna go and what you wanna do without unnecessarily waiting for transport to get us to places and shit. love it loooooooovvvvvvveeeeeeee itttt.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh im in love with you.

qa.

When two bells ring you know it's my cue
Gonna meet the boys on floor number 2

Smokin' in the boys room
Smokin' in the boys room
Teacher don't you fill me up with your rules
Everybody knows that smokin' ain't allowed in school

MOTLEY CRUE
IS
<3
Anna

i underdeclared my love for judas priest

im cant decide if im psyched for today or not. year 1 rocked, year 3 sucked.
AnnA

wolv

i like the hurt. i feel alive.
my venomous fanged friend is still inside me.
eating and spewing and leaving after that
just to come back.


to do it again.

.

Hi to you there.

If anyone is offended by me and thinks I'm emotionally abusing qam by being attracted to someone else, GET THE FUCK OUT. do you feel hurt on his behalf? How very noble. And sweet. HAHA. screw that and your pathetic attempts to understand our relationship! Screw YOU! My attraction to Seth is similar to my affection for the bassist of Children of Bodom, otherwise known as Henkka T. Blacksmith. Who the hell are you to think that I'm a bitch? That I'm stepping all over him? I gave him the chance to do whatever the hell he wants but he loves and appreciates me for being honest. But that's him- "selfless" and "ignorant" as always. WAKE UP! I've already made it clear that I'm the selfish one in this relationship so why are you criticising my nature? You're defending him BECAUSE he is your friend! When qam hid that one thing from me (ie. shisha with all of his NAFA "mates") and i flipped out, some people still defended him even though he was clearly in the wrong! That fucking pissed me off! We dont need a fucking mediator and if we ever do, the only person allowed in our arena is the great philosopher and our best friend, Rusty Lee! (hello fellow mighty kite, welcome to the show.) Now that I've made it known that your judgement of what is right and what is wrong is warped (with ref. to the shisha incident), we declare your opinion on our relationship and qam's "out-of-this-world" behaviour as nothing but self-righteous self-indulgent crap that we don't give a fuck about. (if you don't believe me, I'm sure qam will blog his opinion tonight, so stay tuned.)

In this relationship, our friends who are friends with either of us have to accept the fact that we come as a set. So if you have any ill opinion with regards to that, get the fuck out.

With us, you are playing a dangerous game of minesweeper and it would be wise if you share your views with a couple who really needs that self-righteous self-indulgent pile of verbal waste.

My boyfriend and I discuss Seth all the time and he said I have bad taste and I said maybe and then I started saying things I don't like about Seth and my boyfriend smiled and I was like why are you smiling and he was like you're so funny/ If this is the way you talk about someone you "like", you actually don't like the person at all and I was like yeah I don't but I like you (as a person) even more now though I have always loved you and will continue to do so.

Hi max and ben, this isn't a diss at both of you.

AnnA

PS. go ask my boyfriend how perverse he is. He WANTED me to be attracted to another person. Surprised? I TOLD YOU DUUUDE. YOU DONT GET US.

PS.

My boyfriend isn't psycho. He's very nice. I'm just easily irritable. And he easily flips out.

(Like very easily irritable.)

But then after 2.5years, it's nothing new right? And fuck his school! today's a school holiday in lieu of deepavali but thennnn he can't hang today because NAFA is so non-conformist that they HAD to have school when virtually everyone else doesn't. We get it la, not mainstream la.

Haha, do I sound sarcastic? No offense to my lovely NAFA friends @max and ben and my boyfriend's NAFA friends.

But isn't that racism! Indians also go to NAFA what.

Tsk. I should read my notes now. FML.

AnnA

I'm not convinced

that your heartless songs will stick- William Beckett and the band

The best thing that happened to me yesterday was...
I only paid the price of a banana @starbucks for a venti java chip. Actually 80cents only because she still gave me a 20percent staff discount on top of that. I like my friends! But they're very distracting and in the end with all the random/ specific shopping with nadia and shaun and the nicotine breaks in between, we didn't study. There's still today.

AnnA

LYCANBOY

I love lycanboy, always.

<3

thy beauty is to me

i am a lycan. rage and bloodthirst be in my nature. living amongst humans with my vampyr lover, its very hard to resist killing everyday. i dont kill anymore. i dont think i ever will.

that being me, i channel my thirst for flesh to that of love and jealousy. so yeah its that crazy. it eats my insides and spews it out and i live again after the ordeal. its a tiring but fulfilling cycle. bad thing is, it eats my logic and sanity. then again, im never sane.

now i put it aside. yes of course i'd love to have blood on my hands again but then for what cost? my vampyr strayed and got interested in a disgusting human. wolv expects me to rip him apart and blow Sita away with my storm.. but i didnt. i want her still. her touch, her head on my shoulder, her ripping bite. i chose not to do it, even if im the one getting ripped and blown. yes its against my practice. they'l kill me if they find out.

but i love her that much.

hellforge.

I AM SO STRANGE IN SCHOOL NO ONE LIKES ME

HAHA, semi-true. but they are all oddballs in their own ways. i really like some of them, too bad they don't like me enough.

TODAY:
lycanboy and i had a very strong emotional bonding session regarding driftwood of my affection for someone else that is not Henkka Seppala, Aleksi Laiho, Roope Latvala, Janne Wirman, Jaska Raatikainen, Izzy Stradlin, Duff McKagan, Syamsul Haslam or Jean Baptiste Maunier.

everyone thinks, including my parents, that his Achilles' heel is his emotions, but i beg to differ. he was very calm today, very collected, abit/very much broken but very accepting and i thank him and love him even more for that. HE UNDERSTANDS MY FRICKING NATURE. he doesn't understand why Seth but my nature and accepts it completely. MY THEORY OF "I MET MY LOVE BEFORE I WAS BORN" (or what normal humans refer to as "soulmates") IS RIGHT. we seem as if we're alike (ie. dislike other people severely for no good reason/ anger management issues/ we became smokers again) but we're so different that i am yellow and he is brown.

eh you all bodoh or what, duh we're still together and though we do not make it a point to pinpoint our benevolent (haha) rule, today is the 30th month, just for your information.

i am glad i had the courage. and i am glad he did too. now we are stronger. our mana just went up and we shall continue our benevolent rule.

ich liebe dich,
The Vampyr

goldiwhut?

so, me and my crew be out walkin’, aight homey? nice day and all. so we be out pimpin’ the streets, walkin’ around, doin’ our thang. you know how it is, right brutha? we be out, enjoyin’ the sun, hangin’ with the bruthas. chillin’. but it be gettin’ to dinner time, and we left us some porridge out to cool, ‘cause we old school like that. picked up some suga’ to go with that too, mmhmm. so, me, my man Poppa Smallz, and my new Suga Momma head back to my crib, bein’ hungry and all. but we be gettin’ there and the door’s all unlocked. NO SHIT. now, when a brutha bear be doin’ what I do for a livin’, you don’t just walk in the door in this situation. so we be listenin’, but nothin’. Smallz pushed the door open. feel like he a big man, ‘cause he’s the one with the connections, if you know what I mean. That be why we call him Poppa. ‘Cause if we was a family, he’d be the head, he think. he got a complex that one. but when a brutha’s not sure what’s on the other side of the door, it’s okay if someone else wants to step in first. also, bein’ a bit petite as i be, Pops is a good man to be behind. don’t seem to matter much though, ‘cause the room be empty. different though. the porridge be gone. them bowls are empty, Smallz is tellin’ me, like i blind. no crap, i say. them bowls been licked clean. i look, and there are gold hairs by the table. some blonde bitch been all up in my crib! worse, that lookin’ like human hair. never any good when some humans be gettin’ all up in your crib. it ain’t lookin’ like anything ‘sides the porridge be missin’, so we go check out the rest of the crib. we be ballin’ and can’t afford no business with gettin’ robbed. we move onto the next room over, and the chairs are all moved around. one of them knocked over. broken. blonde bitch broke my chair! Suga Momma’s lookin’ at me funny, ‘cause i be growlin’, mad. that be my favorite chair in pieces over there. but the room be otherwise empty, we move on. now Suga Momma look nervous, though she tryin’ not to. not every suga get to come in on my crib. my crib be pimpin’ fo’ sure, but it ain’t huge. we almost be at the last room now, my bedroom. so far none of the other rooms be lookin’ messed up. the bedroom door be open, but the light still off. Smallz still in front of us, but i kind of push him to the side. don’t be wantin’ no other guy up in my bedroom. only room for me and my Suga Momma’s up in there, ya know? a brutha bear gotta be keepin’ up his standards. the beds be slept in. got some extra beds for my sugas, if you know what i mean. the first two, rumpled. but they empty. the last one ain’t. there be a human all holed up in my bed! Suga Momma lookin’ at me funny again. she think I be rollin’ like that! no shit! i be daaaammnnned if i want some human bitch all up in my crib. the human be movin’ now though. wakin’ up, i think. we still be in the door way when she sit up, all rubbin’ her eyes, lookin’ stupid like humans do. she yawn, and look around, she see us. next thing i know, we ain’t be in the doorway no more. that human be out my door faster than a bat out of hell, barrelin’ her way past Smallz and me. don’t think she’ll be comin’ back any time soon. my 12 gauge be waitin' for her, know wha' i meen?

too much GTA. now i feel like dying.

qa.

if i was male...

i'd dress like this.

even if i'm not a guy, i'm sure i can rock this look. if only i can find original GNR tees. not the stupid bling-ed hardy-esque GNR shirts i saw while shopping for metal merch in deutschland. scratch the hairy arms and moustache though.

im damn sleepy and a crazy lesbian is hounding me. it's more traumatising. i'd rather a guy.

A.

dear faith

please be by me. i promise, i promise i wont kill you. i will calm the fuck down and think this time.
i need myself back. please help me. i need myself back, i do.

qamarul asyraf b

when my Lamy ran out of ink, the banana the barista gave me for free smashed in my bag

cosmic forces, much? the banana my favourite barista gave me got SMASHED UP in my BAG. and it ruined my agnes b. wallet which i dont give a shit about because i was planning to get a new wallet anyway. i like it cos it looks very metal-ish.


Lid says:
and btw, my band is already dead
but we have a gig on your bday!
woohoo!
AnnA, you are all vanilla ice. says:
your head la bodoh
Lid says:
u wanna come?
AnnA, you are all vanilla ice. says:
my bday is like one day before a levels
unless you give me a special dedication
Lid says:
u said 20th? so u meant 20th november?
limit2 also i'll just dedicate the whole set to you. that's the best i can do
haha

a partly animated conversation with khalid.

since im wearing my children of bodom shirt (i swear it gives me special powers, that's why i bought three (more than half the stock available) and became broke in the process) and i have my no-longer-warm vanilla latte, i shall do some work now because i am very sleepy and am damn sure i will fall asleep at 10. it has been a moody day but sometimes, my friends cheer me up in ways only they can. today, iron(III)oxide, nel beckett and khalid made my day. :)

and i love lycanboy, i do.
AnnA

the old new story:

khalid still trusts me with his feelings. well, considering the fact that we havent met since the last gig in early Jan, which we didn't actually meet per se but headbanged in close proximity with each other, i'm glad!

i just told him to "fuck it" and "whack only". as youths, just seize the moment. basically, i told him to just do whatever the hell he wants. he fancies another girl, just whack la.

i miss my boyfriend. he is a nice boy.
AnnA

iron(III)oxide and nel beckett are my bestest friendsxz ever and i want them to marry :)

who has the right to happiness?

how do you decide if your own happiness is more important than the happiness of someone else's? did someone formulate a thesis on that? i am curious.

AnnA

i would say my new FB "About Me" is pretty accurate.

Aristotle's principle of "one who can entertain a thought without accepting it" is my principle as well but apparently some narrow-minded fucks are unable to comprehend that not accepting a thought does not equal to imposing one's opinion/ belief on others.

I am an Argetlam.

I cannot stay awake without coffee, so thank you Starbucks for always keeping me semi-awake in class. (Better than being asleep)

I am unable to tell jokes with a straight face. My friends know that i'm a hopeless joker and my warped sense of humour is best illustrated when i'm sarcastic.

A little bit too cynical but always jumpy with the right people. If i looked pissed off around you, it means i probably am.

HAHA, i love the last statement of my profile.

a darling Barista from Wisma Starbucks left me a "happy studying" note with a smiley when i was revising there for about an hour just now. made my day. can i say that this particular person is one of my favourite baristas now? the service @ Starbucks United Square is DAMN BAD after the nice indian girl left after serving there since my secondary school days. @ Starbucks Kallang Leisure Park is good too. sorry with all the "@" in my recent text messages, i have been tweeting alot because nel and i tweet nonsense. i have a cuppa take-away and i'm going to revise after dinner. my intestines are growling. i did some irrelevant research yesterday or something. your stomach doesnt growl actually; it's your intestines. it growls because it expands in anticipation for food or something like that.

very random but a little bit chirpy despite the rubbish AJC GP mock exam.
Anna

intense

the abyss of your eyes, the heat of your touch
yet when it ends, i lie frozen rigid still wanting for more.

had a good day with my alluring vampiress.

oh yeah, RIP vincent. early deaths always disturb me.

qa.

Vincent's passing

Unknown number
I pick up
Hey diyanah
Who is this
This is nigel
Oh hi nigel
I need to tell you something but you won't like it
What is it
Vincent passed away
What do you mean pass away
Pass away! Died!
Huh? Is this a joke?
Fuck you
What happened? Aren't you guys in china for attachment
Ya, I'm calling you via skype. I don't know what happened. I'm not In the same area as him.
But that's not possible. When is his funeral?
His body is still in china
Are you going to get a flight back?
I'm trying to
Have you called colin?
That idiot didn't pick up
Ok I'll call him. Are you online?
Yes
See you on msn
Bye

Hello may I speak to colin please
Ah boy ah, your call
Colin! This is diyanah
Yes
What are you doing? Are you studying?
Ya
I've got bad news
Pause
Vincent pass away nigel just called me from china
Silence
Hello colin did you hear what I said? Vincent passed away!
Are you joking?
No I am not it's so hard to believe but it's true. That's what I said to nigel and he scolded me.
Silence
Can you come online now and we talk to nigel

Vincent's passing means that this brotherhood who built our friendship on the days @ kallang then macritchie is incomplete. I just spoke to him before they left for china. I said : colin and I are going to end our a's in 8weeks, can I count on you guys to finally take the k4 together! Vincent said sure sure, just nice after we come back from china! Study hard.

Our k4 dreams will never be fulfilled, k4 means that 4 people are needed to row the kayak. But now we have 3. We need 4 people to form a team for l4d but now we only have 3. Why vincent, you said you would wait. :(

I hope you didn't die in pain. Your presence is sorely miss and absence acutely felt cos we sweat cried swallowed blood together. Just so you know, the best times of my life largely center around canoeing and training sessions both water and gym. You're held in fondest memories.

R.I.P. Vincent Chia.

-Diyanah

why are you so frail?

:(

wolv.

i didnt know GTA 4 is a dirty game. stupid red light district. the only fun thing is pointing the gun at the cashier for chocolate bars. im gonna stick to Halo 3 and Gears of war 2. ye correct.

and girl, theres a guy on the Vox skate team whose name is Slash. aish kebab.
miss u.

qa.

Blisters

boil boil
pus of oil
fail to toil.

i was surfing youtube, as per usual and i chanced upon this comment that said "axl was fucked up for a long while" and i was about to reply and tell that person that i love him/ her for saying that when i realised that the youtube user who posted that comment was called "annathefey" and "annathefey" is me. really MLIA case?

i've got myself some Hollywood Rose footage, very pleased with myself. i followed Duff on twitter and sent him a twit, so if he replies me, i think that would motivate me very much. i twit COB alot but no replies :( henkka used twitter under the COB page once (every fan knows that they don't have individual twitter or FB accounts) in april or something and since then ive been trying my luck. i want to ask him if he's still studying in university of helsinki! if yes, i think it would kick my butt to study for tha dreaded A's.

i'm wearing my medium size Chris Cole COB exclusive for Fallen teeshirt (the medium sized one, after all, i need to specify because i have 3!) and it is my favourite dress ever. it's a dress cos the shirt SWIMS on me. A Chris Cole + COB meet and greet is ideal for my boyfriend and i. he can go meet Chris Cole which he claims is the BEST skater EVER as of right now and i can meet COB, my favourite band i place way up there with my favourite legends- Scorpions!

talking to lycanboy now, tomorrow is a new day.
AnnA

trips home

i dont know why but the mild buzzing of rubber on tar and the silence only an empty bus can give makes me miss you more. maybe its the fact that im going away from you, even if i know that im gonna meet you again (oh i know). or maybe its the rubber.

im in hist class and i cant do my essay because you're in my head.
which is good.

Qa.

i is ownz

I have a problem. I am too afraid to let anyone including myself, the maid and the washing machine wash my cob shirt which I used today. I think I shall ask my mum, after she's done cooking up a storm.

I'm very happy that I can use my cob shirts everday. :)

Nel and I iz gna play sparklers soun.

Did you understand that?

Ryan white boy sent greetings from Aussie, he loves my new shirts!

I'm going to study from Tuesday. I promise, just let me off awhile more.

AnnA

kiasuism is not a finnish trait! im fo sure singaporean

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!
just now i rushed down to somewhere, i wont tell you where cos im a selfish little fanthom, to get...







not one but TWO Chris Cole-Children-of-Bodom-exclusive-for-Fallen shirts!!! i cant even find a photo of it on the internet yet! red hot, red red hot, eat your hearts out because i lessened the limited stock by 2 shirts less! i wanted to buy the whole stock but considering that the shirts are 50 bucks a piece AND i have the intention to donate my pocket money to the orphanage for hari raya, i can't afford to. PERHAPS I STILL WILL. just fast for another month? but damnit, if they have 20 shirts, i'd have to shell out a grand for the shirts. i think that's not right because im going to get me an alexander wang after the a's. but who cares about a. wang cos i am bouncing around nowwwwww with my street purchases. i love you COB!!!! i went home smiling ;)

thank you soooo much my silverback hound lycanboy for alerting me to this phenomenon! the CC-COB4FALLEN shirts made a stealth entrance into Sg!!! VERY HAPPY NOW, so, selamat hari raya!!!

:D
AnnA

SURPRISE!

our young young 17 year old selves, credits to nadia, who only posted the photo 2 years after it happened.


i think im swimming in my blouse. what the hell, size 15 shirt???? and i miss my hair. it's not short by the way, i have a ponytail. it's just kooky. i love kooky hair. kooky hair cannot headbang though so yay current long-hair-trying-to-grow-out-bangs!


hi, my dear rusty the eclectic at hotmail dot com and my le cissynez whom ive not spoken to for a long time! EH CISSYYYYYYYYYYY DIE ALREADY AHHHHHHHHH :(

happy belated whatever month to my boyfriend. <3

AnnA is a palindrome.

i need new wheels

and i miss my favourite vampire.

like Carax on inkpress

i am troubled.

by?

where i am going or rather what i am seeing or maybe what i am about to see.

and when it comes?

thats whats troubling me.

what are you afraid of?

inferiority complex.

and here i thought you've been suffering from that since eons.

i was? maybe i was deluded.

you still are.

where is this going? you're supposed to help me out here.

here's something to do, stop thinking about it.


Qa/wolv.

Hi

I want to get into NUS cos it's affiliated to the University of Helsinki, where Henkka is a student at. One step closer to Lake Bodom.

A.

i name thee Blisters

lol. your jealousy has a name?

i shall limit myself. fb once a week and that is only after i hang upside down from the edge of the piano chair for half an hour so i wont understand shit when i read.

besides eating rice rather than chips for sahur, this is the best idea you had this week.

thank you other-self.


i find immense joy to see my gf in the morning smiling back at me as she walks out of the lift.
i find great dislike to look at myself in the mirror after a meeting with Blisters.

wolv.

wrong time to be surfing youtube BUT

was surfing youtube nonetheless, am crushed that the GNR videos i want cant be streamlined, the ones i can lack IZZYYYYYYYYYYYY :( my favourite GNR member before dufffffff. :( ugh very sad.

Top 10 musicians i want to meet

#1. COB and SCORPIONS. sorry its a tie. i even want to go NUS cos it is affiliated to the University of Helsinki where HENKKA of COB is studying!!! and i need to meet Scorpions before they die.

#2. original GNR

#3. Iron Maiden

#4. Vivaldi

#5. Queen

#6. Lamb of God, just to see if randy's shoulder blades really stick out like i think they do in the Ruin video. i find it incredibly sexy (although i dont find randy sexy, BLEARGH). i asked my boyfriend to grow some sharp shoulder blades that stick out. / Stratovarius/ Eminem

#7. Amon Amarth/ Dimmu Borgir

#8. Alice Cooper/ Aerosmith

#10. the OLD A.F.I that rocked, not this new sounding A.F.I. which i secretly still like but think they are gay.

blah, watching mr and mrs. smith now.

AnnA

leading silver by moonlight

hello sh'tara,

there are moments on our trips to the witchdoctor that you seem annoyed at how things turn whenever i fall to claws. i am deeply glad that chose to bring me to health. i apologize for disrupting your plans. you have my love as i know i have yours.

v.wolv hellforge.

His little Love

waffles tonight! With a good book, good coffee and okay-lah company. hahha

someone wrote on my wall and said a group is no longer alive

Me, being the honest person that I am, would want to reply "who the hell cares!" because, really, who the hell cares?! But why would I not do that? Because others care? But I don't. But they do! This can be likened to a Socratic problem? Or not?

Guess I'm cranky, just got up.
AnnA

I think I should ban myself from my itouch

Too much time spent here instead of with books! And I want to eat waffles and icecream with my fanged greyback lover. So how about it mate! Zzz. Over and out.

AnnA

Bloody whiny poles

Shut up about ww2 already! It wasn't as if Putin or Merkel were responsible for the aggression shown towards you poles! Dayummmmm, how immature of the prez. And how diplomatic Putin and Merkel are. This piece from BBC annoys me!

Poor jona, no wonder he asked me if I learnt about Germany only because they were the bad guys. Hitler is a sick bastard, especially his team of doctors. Remember, he was born in Austria and he wasn't really Aryan-Aryan. More like Aryan because his parents were of Germanic descent. Delusional? He had dark hair. Go figure. White supremacy.

AnnA

I miss you children of bodom...

And razorteeth.

AnnA

Much love to my boyfriend who delivered me my new favourite book, freshly purchased from the bookstore and who accompanied me to get kopi peng downstairs because the nearest starbucks to me is @ united square. we seriously don't have wheels which we need! I'm not talking about skateboards cos I like to flop around in slippers. Hot wheels leading the way! Boom boom crash. Did I tell you that I tried skating with my 3-inches high wedges twice on separate occasions? I almost broke my jaw. ;) I shall try more after the a's.

He cheered me up even though I didn't show show that i'm cheery or whatever. Not that I'm born like that, I think I'm too proud to. And he knows.

AnnA

Did I ask to be a misfit?

I like listening to men growling incomprehensible thoughts and opinions in sync with drums, guitars and keyboards. I prefer boys with long hair. I like to analyse and explore a topic thoroughly, something I find fascinating, like the existence of gnomes. When I cannot get along with people or when there are long awkward silences, these attributes show.

You like metal, I don't. I dont care about scorpions. Who the hell are they? Misfits like you? (sorry to disappoint you but them scorpions are old german average joes). You like boys with long hair, I don't. You like leopard leggings, I find them distasteful. But that doesn't mean we can't be friends right? Wrong. Who the fuck cares. Here is my piece. There is nothing for us.

Amazing how my motley crue of friends (fafe) can get along when everyone is diverse like heaven and hell (all puns not intended). Some people don't try. End of story.

Stuck in econs lecture.
AnnA

I do not know enough to say I am smart or clever but I do know enough to judge that your iq is lower than mine- anonymous people with synonymous thoughts

My Greek self speaks in tongues.
A.

To the friend

To the friend whom I no longer give a fuck about. Hi. I just want to make this obvious.

As I continue to have vile thoughts...

I am decided now.
AnnA

I feel alot like dimmu's puritania.

AnnA

hello girl

i need you. i get weird fevers when i dont see you for too long.
just a 10min talk on the phone will do but you're asleep.

:(

Qa.

the days

Metallica monsters of rock tour '91
Skid Row moscow music peace fest '89
Pantera monsters of rock tour '91
Scorpions will watch when-fucking-ever
Firehouse tokyo '91

goosebumps man.

Pure Scorpios have strong emotions, ardent passions and a physical eroticism which greatly exceeds that of other zodiacal types. A pure Scorpio will find it difficult to 'forget about it' if his/her sex life is unsatisfactory. No one is less able to transmute sexual energies and desires into, for example, artistic creativity than the Scorpio. If Scorpios love ardently, they also love long; they can develop an almost obsessive relationship with the object of their desires. As a consequence, they can be extremely jealous, and to be on the receiving end of Scorpionic jealousy is not a pleasant experience.

more gooseybumpeys man.

this is a fire-water relationship and could be described as anything but easy, smooth, or completely harmonious. Scorpio does many things to you. If you prefer to ignore challenge, and prefer one dish to a valid menu, then avoid Scorpio. But if psychological mystery intrigues you, then probably you have found the right person.

right person. yes.

wolv.

distracted from homework.

although nothing strange, the stark contrast could not be ignored. i love both!


i found something even stranger when i was at a mighty kites communion @ starbucks just last thursday...

forgive my shaky hands + phone camera. i was mumbling something to the other two.


THEY MISSPELLED "AUGGUST"! as a singaporean would say, "how can???!!!"

AnnA

"What we need is hatred. From it our ideas are born." -Jean Genet

my gamelan teacher says i dont smile when i dont play the instruments. of course not. there isnt a reason to. i do not find mindless irritating gaps between activities interesting/amusing. he says i shouldnt look like a zombie. of course not. im a wolv.

my family is the only thing preventing me from meeting my girlfriend regularly. fucking annoying.

i called you 5 times because i wanted to hear your sleepy voice.
i paint your soul, the flesh, the image, the reflection. i complete your terror, forever through ashes.
still typical? i miss you.
its ramadhan and i dont feel like it is.

Qa.

friends?

i am tired of trying to be sincere. if you want to treat me like i'm part of the landscape then by all means. there was NEVER a strong connection anyway. some connection but STRONG? nein! SHE thinks of how SHE feels, THEY think of what THEY want to do without considering others, THEY decide to take a trip... fuck all that shit!

under the pretense of pondering the bigger picture of life? discerning the pretty colours from reality? try harder at psychoanalysing! at this age? oops, i mean YOUR age. too late methinks?

about today?
today, i reached school at 715am because we were supposed to do our GP project. no one told me until 743am that the meeting was in the canteen. the person who sent the text to come at 730 last night came to school ON TIME. meaning 8 am. during break, they largely left one person to try on someone else's Mac? if they can't be bothered, then why bother to try? i don't take offense at that, but this, i do. as MATES, this should not have happened.

i dont regret learning and observing human behaviour for the past 3 years in a completely different environment because i have learnt many important lessons that i cant believe i was too naive to even think such things were true!

#1. if someone starts a petiton against you, he wants to be the bloody class president and he cannot stand the fact that while you are class president, he is nothing. since this is personal after you started being personal, you are NOT the best rugby player in the world, your teeth? CROOKEDLY FIXED! and your o level english isn't the A1 which you bragged about. B3 innit? failed pure lit? D7 huh? called my boyfriend a Mat? the "Mat" got B3 for pure lit. he dropped out of school? yes but didnt you as well? bitter? that's why your livejournal is a JOKE because you use bombastic words in the wrong context.

#2. people switch sides easily because loyalty is dead, didnt you know that? doesnt apply only to me, some incident with one Loser in my boyfriend's boytown.

#3. almost everyone has secret vile thoughts about everyone else but they -how do i put this in a commoner's way?- put on a facade. uh huh. and those who claim they do not have secret vile thoughts are lying to themselves. either that or they are apathetic (haha) like me. vampyrs cant have feelings for humans because they eat humans for supper. that's how we roll, lol. wow, it rhymes.

#4. very important point. western stall and noodle stall of 2007 and 2008 rocked but NOOOO, people had to complain. now we get stuff that they are trying to pass off for food (save the jap stall) and no one's complaining this time perhaps because they realized their follies!

#5. PE was veryyyyy fun when people laughed because they had fun! hey fatboy from science fac (methinks), i gave you back a shove and you FELL, though you were thrice my weight. who is laughing now? although i am a female, i will not be pushed around. you've learnt your lesson now, havent you? ;)

STOP. what a very malicious entry, at least there is truth. i dont paint with glitter, being of fang-toothed nature. i hesitated on clicking PURCHASE for the ACNE atacoma wedges when there were only 6 pairs left in the world, now i regret! it's out of stock forever. underground brands rock, suck on ACNE's balls, chloe!

ryan's birthday today. our favourite white boy.
anyone up for turkish food?

AnnA

oh. i forgot to answer the question. the answer is no.

It is freezing. She stands still in the middle of the urgent wind, the urgent rushing wind. 'So blowsy!' she exclaims, the cry resounds inside her head. Apart, her feet apart, she stands apart from the other walkers who prance around happily, in their misery, sometimes they take a swing at her though she cannot really see. They may mistake her to be blind but her senses are actually acute and well-hidden too. Almost, for she shows what she wants to, to whom she wants to.

The storm is coming, what will she do? Help them because she can? Because she has the means to? Or ignore them because she doesnt give a flying fuck?

You can almost heat the twinkle hidden in the blanket of grey-encrusted slush.

You can almost taste the distaste.

But then, you shouldnt give a flying fuck.

anna. (in memory of... Nothing. Just vast plainness and a note: i write in disjointed fragments because it is how it goes. A kid's fairytale)

O7A1 is fucked up.

I will never forgive any of you for leaving me in this fucked up dump to fend for myself.

I asked my dad what show you watching he said armageddon i said death squad

Was alone at wisma starbucks to get myself a cup of coffee to wake myself up (kept falling asleep in class although i slept at 10 last night) and guess who appeared right infront of my eyes! JIANWENNIEEE! who instead of saying 'hi!', said 'eh you still small girl sia!'. Had a good chat and we boys wanna hang on friday. Actually, it was him who said 'why never jio me go out!'. And it was so funny that he bumped into me today because i had a repeat jwen's funny as hell 'joke' jokes to renuka and valerie day! and he laughed at my new joke! So cheery.

Im still sleepy, caffeine immunity has been attained. Well, well. Boring school life... But i won m&m's because i drew some econs graph. Highlight of school today. The boy can read about my day here since he is oh so curious to know but i dont feel like relating it to him verbally on the phone because i am an impending storm now. So moody and moodless at the same time.

Too many words but i'd just like to make it known : i liken my school life to be summed up to... I know how galileo felt...

Hi underachiever, you understand dont you? See you on thursday and friday, cat.

AnnA

I hate school :(

thinking of whether to go, not go or go late... I wouldn't mind school so much if I have a laugh every now and then. Something REALLY funny like jwen/ rusydi's side-splitting, jaw-aching banter. I would rather the boy annoy me the whole day then not have have him around. I blame my misery on them because when I pledge allegience, I pledge it forever.

I had a day at the beach. My family is a funny bunch. My mom, dad, siblings and my tiny male cousin had a funny takraw game and we were good! Even my mom. What healthy exercise! Beats jogging for sure. I'm glad we're not the sort to lounge at malls every single weekend. How very stagnant. Liwen's family also quite sporty. But my mom can't swim well so we can't go on diving trips. Nevertheless, ich liebe meine familie!

Actually, I'm waiting for dinner to be ready. Mom's cooking today. and boy, minä rakastan sinua. <3

collagraph fiddle and grey clouds

what a hot day. i shall take pictures of my prints and put it up here soon. only printmaking, nothing else because i suck at drawing statues.

small class, printmaking. nice, way i like it, i hate people walking here and there busying around with rulers, standing up, waiting for the press, inking (happened during last year's elective, fashion students. pfft).

girlfriend's at the beach. blading i suppose. ive this image in my head everytime i think of her: fists clenched, hair tied, frowning/laughing (depends), running/walking quickly/jumping, orrrrr.. keeping quiet and ignoring everyone including me. she has only texted me once today. how nice. go blade la you.

anyyyyywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, i need need this.



QA, boy who needs alva board asap.

morning, dawn

My favourite palindrome : madam, I'm Adam! Hahahahahahaha. That cheered me up. I was looking for Finnish words and I came across a Finnish palindrome that is like 26 letters long. But since everyone here communicates in English... Madam, I'm Adam!

I'm waiting for my dad to send me to school. Hi boy.

oh hello world. i feel like crap. tell me, do you get sore fighting le greene ey'd mounstoir?

i miss you.

qa.

FUN WEEKEND (except when i wasnt feeling so sprightly on friday) and a fucking funny time with my favourite wild kids. too bad abraham and johnny couldnt join us. and sarah too.

back to school, what a party-pooper. :/ it wasnt so bad when cissy was around.

LAPTOP'S ALMOST DEAD, misplaced my charger. adieu and FINIS.

<3

EDIT: COB IS GOING TO HK ON 19th OCTOBER SOMEONE KILL ME NOWWWWWWWWWW

That's a coffin you're prophesising

It's cold but it's the desert but what to do. Maybe we'll see a body, maybe we'll see a few. I shook, did you?

It's stormy but it's the plains, how now, what to do? Maybe we'll see a devil, maybe we'll see his crew. I'm ready, are you?

I'm going to eat dinner nowwwwww, love you.

AnnA

dreamtalk

come out. i want to see you.

no.

come out pls.. i havent seen you for years..

no.

why wont you?

i dont want to. why should i?

because you want to see me as well.

no i dont. i want to stay here. in this box.

i miss you so much.

as do i.

are you cold?

yes.

i got something for you. here you go.

thank you.

how is it?

its..

yes?

i love you so much.

as do i.

are you cold?

yes.

then be cold with me love.

of course. i'll be here.

and i, here.

are you alive?

more than ever.










qa.

oh fuck it, take back the gun.

ooh no no, its soulbound.

wolf.

im not obliged to anyone or anything except for mum, girl and school. i have nothing for anything else. what people tell me, i keep and tell my gf and no one else. fucking interesting thing, secrets. like one person will tell me shit about that person and that person will also have told me shit about the other person person person person person person (ok, the word sounds funny now), and if the 2 humans were to be together when im around i'l be like, "damn, you have no idea.."

fun i tell you.

my gf is in JB now. saturdays are the only days we can spend more than 6hrs together. grr. i love it when she laughs. you know like when you miss someone and you can hear them everywhere? everyfuckingwhere you are? you are? you know where you are?! you in the jungle babey. you gonna die. 

qa.

WHAT HO! WHAT HO! WHAT HO!

your smile is reason enough.

qa.

hello love,

there is something about waiting for you. be it downstairs or outside MI. my heart beats faster everytime. the excitement of meeting you. and that adorable naughty girl smile you give me everytime you see me from far. of course you'd pretend to not smile because you're a vampyr but you see love, ive my fangs too. you know how fucking precious that smile is? ahhhh fuck, that means no one else is supposed to get that. wah lan day. anyways, its all simple. we are simple. well, to us we are simple (sometimes not). ok im getting confused.

there is something about hearing your voice. on the phone, beside me on the bus/train. it calms me down when you're speaking fast. it worries me when you're talking slow. your voice, your cute cute voice. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. you make me miss you more everytime we talk on the phone. and when i close my eyes, its like you're here beside me. i used to have a shirt of yours i hold. can i have it again? you have my humongous sweater. im guessing you're impatient to read this because i said i was blogging about you. reading all this back makes me feel weird because i was actually saying it all out (with intonation and shit, fuhhh). aiyah.

girl i love you and thats that. simple. no need title, no need end.

tie-dye nails.

i have my history book open but i decided to paint my nails instead.
first i decided to paint them In the Red Creme and coat them with Bamboo Shoot to make it less bright. then i wiped the colours away and painted Purple Potion on before coating it again with Bamboo Shoot to see how the colours would mesh. i wiped all of it away without proper nail remover lotion to see the effects. i like it this way. all messy and colour-dirty. tie-dye is supposed to look messy in a neat way, yes?

can anyone tell me, did USA and USSR cooperate during the suez crisis or not? i lost my notes with suez crisis innit.

FML. i cannot wait for open fields for rugby. i cannot wait for smooth concrete for extreme inline. there's so much i want to do but not this. FML. nel, i would like some mexican food.

AnnA

ps. my cissy has a cakebake sale tomorrow!!!!

What a giggle, what a laugh.

for self-justification purposes, I don't like anything that lacks black, leather or studs. I don't like anything that isn't ripped or isn't screaming "bad! bad! baaaad!". Occasionally, a dash of colour or steel panther glam softens my twisted sister self. on a carefully arranged note, this reminds me of one friend who died a few nights back and now I have less. Rest in peace, kusipaa. Life is a game. If you don't play it well, game over (unless you have nine lives but then again, you have to die nine times). Everyone dies. Some die from too much dope, too much alcohol. Some die because they are careless. Some die because IronIIIoxide and I had good conversation today.

I told you I am a vampyr.
Anna.

reason to be

there is definitely reason to be here. i disagree completely with existentialism. i see purpose as freedom. i see love as life. i see success as a right of passage into entah plak.

motherfucking motivating shiz i dare say. pfft. i shall slap myself before i become to light-headed and float away.

mum told me about a couple she knws that just got married at the age of 28 and they've been dating for 12 years. coole.

girl: and dont forget other art stuff. i skipped gp with aishah. in the lib now btw, its momme's birthday today! do you wna wish him?

me: no. never fucking ever. whatthefuck for? huh? what? aper? eh siol uh!

qa.

Razorteeeeeth,

It's momme's birthday today. Haha. Good morning, I'm in school.

Anna

There goes the siren that warns of the air raid...

Ascending and turning my spitfires to face them
Heading straight for them I press down my guns.

Thank you, iron maiden, for the warning. ;)
-Anna

had a whole day in at gf's place. yes there were other people around (bummer). best family ever. i love coming over. now i am hungry. i want nasi goreng and nugget.

for the first time, i finished all my hw and its not last minute. i hope thaib comes back next sem.
i am still hungry. girl eat your lunch.

blank.

qa.

it starts like this.

my mom bought me a cambridge pullover when she visited cambridge uni last year, at the same time my h1 maths paper was there.
i am wearing it now, today, for the first time.
it is grey in colour.
alot of london souvenir stalls by the cobbled pavements sell it too, except those are fake and cost way lessssssss.
i hope wearing this cambridge pullover will allow me to do well in my cambridge exams i am going to take at the end of this year.
this cambridge pullover should have the power of the pair of jeans from the sisterhood of the travelling pants and more.
after all, it's from cambridge.
OD-ed on iced vanilla latte today. again.
i can't pick myself up to study because... i am dreaming of the hols already. mmmmmmmmm. maybe i'll do some econs foshiz tomorrow.

A.