MUCH.
love, 'an
20080731
20080729
20080728
NO MORE BLOOD FOR OIL YOUVE GOT YOUR OWN BATTLE ON YOUR OWN SOIL
i have nothing to do and no inspiration to blog, so here goes.
well, two weeks ago, benny lim made this claim:
"Americans won the Iraq War because they managed to remove Saddam Hussein".
i wrote it on the postit nadia gave me,
stuck it on my pencilbox and finally, FINALLY, i've decide to take it out for a walk and give this a shot.
my opinion does not matter in this world infested with leaders aka liars/ bastards.
however, here's my piece, mr. PSA scholar, you bloody pro-american you.
call yourself a history teacher, asked us to be objective when you are not. not at all.
not a bit, not in the least. zero. zilch. kosong. nothing.
benny lim's claim is refutable. yes, they managed to execute saddam. however, if the Americans "won" the Iraq War as you've claimed, WHY IN THE BLOODY BLUE BLAZES ARE THE AMERICAN SOLDIERS STILL PRESENT IN IRAQ AND MOVING TOWARDS IRAN AND STATIONING THEMSELVES THERE?
let me see, does it have anything to do with the fact that IRAN HAS OPEC'S [organization of petroleum exporting countries] 3RD TOP OIL INCOME? what that means is, Iran has a vast wealth of motherfucking crude oil and petroleum and all the other shit that the americans need to guzzle! saddam hussein was an asshole, yeah we all agree. his crimes against humanity were despicable, horrendous and absolutely unforgivable. saddam's gone and yet you remain there, in a land where the people are all confused; it's the blind leading the blind! your soldiers dont believe in the war, they dont know what theyre doing, they only know that they are fighting for the person next to them, their fellow comrades. you, mighty american, don't know what to do, how to act and exceeding your credit limit. LISTEN UP HERE. the victims are the civilians!
like the cold war, somehow, usa and ussr agreed that if they ever had to declare war, the battle ground would be europe! why! stop letting other people suffer for your childish pursuits!
a little fact that many dont know:
saddam hussein was the only asshole in this universe who could unite the different tribes in iraq under his iron fist. he was the only one who could influence the thoughts and decisions of the tribe leaders who are backed by militants. you should have used saddam hussein as a puppet to create stability for the country before punishing him for his heinous crimes. yet, georgey porgy bush could not wait a few more months before executing him. bush did so to avenge his father, the senior bush, the one saddam tried to kill. the one thing that you motherfuckers forgot is that the civilians are suffering. people are dying for all the wrong reasons and the terrorists are having a ball of a time. that shows that you did not win! you are still fighting the war! against the terrorists, that decided it's party time after the death of saddam! it's never going to end, is it! you are killing the terrorists and the terrorists are killing your soldiers. un peackeepers are deployed, the british soldiers die, everybody dies, people who havent got a chance to live die- FATE! FATE YOU CALL IT! how about you go and tempt fate, go and live amongst the iraqis. see if fate gets you too. what one is able to prevent is not fate. since when is 'fate' synonymous with 'death' ?
i am not anti-american. i am anti-bush for all the mistakes he has made. he acted on his emotions, he acted to prove to his own people that he was doing the right thing. so many americans were against the iraq war. i hate all of the presidents of the united states who have tried to decide what to do for the people of another country. NO MORE BLOOD FOR OIL. presidents and would-be presidents! obama, you little swine, i thought you could make it work for the americans, make the mothers of all your soldiers a little happier by pulling their sons out of iraq but you contradicted yourself. what you stood for to run for president is slowly crumbling. how can you, in one of your presidential speeches, declare that Palestine belongs to the Jews? that if YOU were President of the United States, YOU would make sure of that? YOU said it ONLY to gain Jewish supporters! YOU ARE RUNNING FOR THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES, NOT PRESIDENT OF THE WORLD! i have skated right turn left lane out of the line but who cares anyway? the AMERICANS DIDNT WIN THE WAR because the americans didnt go to war for saddam only. they wanted to build a democratic government which they have not yet built. saddam was the purpose, oil was the hidden motive.
my conclusion is, the americans are on an excursion, not war.
raise your hands
all those
who feel that there should be
no more bloodshed for oil.
no more blood for oil,
A.
well, two weeks ago, benny lim made this claim:
"Americans won the Iraq War because they managed to remove Saddam Hussein".
i wrote it on the postit nadia gave me,
stuck it on my pencilbox and finally, FINALLY, i've decide to take it out for a walk and give this a shot.
my opinion does not matter in this world infested with leaders aka liars/ bastards.
however, here's my piece, mr. PSA scholar, you bloody pro-american you.
call yourself a history teacher, asked us to be objective when you are not. not at all.
not a bit, not in the least. zero. zilch. kosong. nothing.
benny lim's claim is refutable. yes, they managed to execute saddam. however, if the Americans "won" the Iraq War as you've claimed, WHY IN THE BLOODY BLUE BLAZES ARE THE AMERICAN SOLDIERS STILL PRESENT IN IRAQ AND MOVING TOWARDS IRAN AND STATIONING THEMSELVES THERE?
let me see, does it have anything to do with the fact that IRAN HAS OPEC'S [organization of petroleum exporting countries] 3RD TOP OIL INCOME? what that means is, Iran has a vast wealth of motherfucking crude oil and petroleum and all the other shit that the americans need to guzzle! saddam hussein was an asshole, yeah we all agree. his crimes against humanity were despicable, horrendous and absolutely unforgivable. saddam's gone and yet you remain there, in a land where the people are all confused; it's the blind leading the blind! your soldiers dont believe in the war, they dont know what theyre doing, they only know that they are fighting for the person next to them, their fellow comrades. you, mighty american, don't know what to do, how to act and exceeding your credit limit. LISTEN UP HERE. the victims are the civilians!
like the cold war, somehow, usa and ussr agreed that if they ever had to declare war, the battle ground would be europe! why! stop letting other people suffer for your childish pursuits!
a little fact that many dont know:
saddam hussein was the only asshole in this universe who could unite the different tribes in iraq under his iron fist. he was the only one who could influence the thoughts and decisions of the tribe leaders who are backed by militants. you should have used saddam hussein as a puppet to create stability for the country before punishing him for his heinous crimes. yet, georgey porgy bush could not wait a few more months before executing him. bush did so to avenge his father, the senior bush, the one saddam tried to kill. the one thing that you motherfuckers forgot is that the civilians are suffering. people are dying for all the wrong reasons and the terrorists are having a ball of a time. that shows that you did not win! you are still fighting the war! against the terrorists, that decided it's party time after the death of saddam! it's never going to end, is it! you are killing the terrorists and the terrorists are killing your soldiers. un peackeepers are deployed, the british soldiers die, everybody dies, people who havent got a chance to live die- FATE! FATE YOU CALL IT! how about you go and tempt fate, go and live amongst the iraqis. see if fate gets you too. what one is able to prevent is not fate. since when is 'fate' synonymous with 'death' ?
i am not anti-american. i am anti-bush for all the mistakes he has made. he acted on his emotions, he acted to prove to his own people that he was doing the right thing. so many americans were against the iraq war. i hate all of the presidents of the united states who have tried to decide what to do for the people of another country. NO MORE BLOOD FOR OIL. presidents and would-be presidents! obama, you little swine, i thought you could make it work for the americans, make the mothers of all your soldiers a little happier by pulling their sons out of iraq but you contradicted yourself. what you stood for to run for president is slowly crumbling. how can you, in one of your presidential speeches, declare that Palestine belongs to the Jews? that if YOU were President of the United States, YOU would make sure of that? YOU said it ONLY to gain Jewish supporters! YOU ARE RUNNING FOR THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES, NOT PRESIDENT OF THE WORLD! i have skated right turn left lane out of the line but who cares anyway? the AMERICANS DIDNT WIN THE WAR because the americans didnt go to war for saddam only. they wanted to build a democratic government which they have not yet built. saddam was the purpose, oil was the hidden motive.
my conclusion is, the americans are on an excursion, not war.
raise your hands
all those
who feel that there should be
no more bloodshed for oil.
no more blood for oil,
A.
20080727
arcane
you know when you walk home through the park and the dark void decks alone, you'll feel all gloomy and peaceful at the same time. the effects the lights make will make you think you are being stalked but its just your own pathetic shadows. the point is, you're never alone. befriend the dark, speak to abyss. they listen..
you know when you walk home through the park and the dark void decks in the cold, the pigeons will be watching. and you'll sometimes wonder what they think of you. i hate pigeons. they always say that i burn. burn burn burn. pigeons, i hate all of you. including you, you white fluffy piece of crap.
you know when you die and fly up into nothingness, you will feel the greatest regret you've ever felt. you'll feel that you havent done enough on the blasphemous land you came from. the dark will kill you and the pigeons will eat your carcass.
the point is, there never is a point.
qa.
you know when you walk home through the park and the dark void decks in the cold, the pigeons will be watching. and you'll sometimes wonder what they think of you. i hate pigeons. they always say that i burn. burn burn burn. pigeons, i hate all of you. including you, you white fluffy piece of crap.
you know when you die and fly up into nothingness, you will feel the greatest regret you've ever felt. you'll feel that you havent done enough on the blasphemous land you came from. the dark will kill you and the pigeons will eat your carcass.
the point is, there never is a point.
qa.
been busy bringing becci out.
i've got photos but i'm too lazy to upload them.
i got to be a tourist as well for a week and a half.
met the boys yesterday with bex and boy.
been ages.
adam/ amir/ ryan/ johnny/ vinder/ abs/ fabs.
i think we all had a bit too much.
night arts festival was fuckin awesome.
i don't understand why there were mats and minahs attempting to speak english
as well as trying to appreciate the statue of David.
(made of fibreglass and covered in pink cloth of lace which had batik motifs.)
not looking forward to school at all, at all, at all.
abs is in laselle, good for you bro.
anna.
i've got photos but i'm too lazy to upload them.
i got to be a tourist as well for a week and a half.
met the boys yesterday with bex and boy.
been ages.
adam/ amir/ ryan/ johnny/ vinder/ abs/ fabs.
i think we all had a bit too much.
night arts festival was fuckin awesome.
i don't understand why there were mats and minahs attempting to speak english
as well as trying to appreciate the statue of David.
(made of fibreglass and covered in pink cloth of lace which had batik motifs.)
not looking forward to school at all, at all, at all.
abs is in laselle, good for you bro.
anna.
20080724
20080722
silver sliver
FUCK!!
i just said that motherfucking loud because i am annoyed. cb.
why am i?
my ear was itchy.
the needles you throw,
i catch and swallow.
hackslash.
i do not enjoy life with the world. a day away from love is a disaster waiting to happen. i walked from far east to lucky plaza for breakfast at macs and got annoyed that i spent 7 bux on breakfast. then i slouched outside wisma, waiting for artfriend to open.
hackslash.
then bought shit and walked to school. dull. my soul is grey. i knew how company felt and now i hate being alone. then again, idonotenjoylifewiththeworld.
hackslash.
-puddle of mess
i miss you like a bitch.
you have arrived at nothingness.
i just said that motherfucking loud because i am annoyed. cb.
why am i?
my ear was itchy.
the needles you throw,
i catch and swallow.
hackslash.
i do not enjoy life with the world. a day away from love is a disaster waiting to happen. i walked from far east to lucky plaza for breakfast at macs and got annoyed that i spent 7 bux on breakfast. then i slouched outside wisma, waiting for artfriend to open.
hackslash.
then bought shit and walked to school. dull. my soul is grey. i knew how company felt and now i hate being alone. then again, idonotenjoylifewiththeworld.
hackslash.
-puddle of mess
i miss you like a bitch.
you have arrived at nothingness.
20080720
my boyfriend says that one of my very best friends doesnt actually care about me.
qam says:
do u think he cares abt u? and this is an honest qn
SITA IS YOUR MOTHER. says:
yes!
maybe he is right.
just because he hates every single fucking body in the motherfucking world.
oh wait.
rusydi just said this;
well, i dunno. i'd like to think i care
or i wouldn't go out of my way to talk to you.
i am going to shut up and sulk to Die Ärzte, a German band.
Becci gave me a German rock album.
sita is your mother.
qam says:
do u think he cares abt u? and this is an honest qn
SITA IS YOUR MOTHER. says:
yes!
maybe he is right.
just because he hates every single fucking body in the motherfucking world.
oh wait.
rusydi just said this;
well, i dunno. i'd like to think i care
or i wouldn't go out of my way to talk to you.
i am going to shut up and sulk to Die Ärzte, a German band.
Becci gave me a German rock album.
sita is your mother.
enemy within
you know you're in trouble when you stab yourself with a knife and not die.
the pain is worse than death.
this guilt has been cutting me. i know it wont stop.
for i cannot die.
tmr, i start school.
edit:
you die first yes.
but i dont want to see you go.
how fucking how?
qa.
the pain is worse than death.
this guilt has been cutting me. i know it wont stop.
for i cannot die.
tmr, i start school.
edit:
you die first yes.
but i dont want to see you go.
how fucking how?
qa.
20080719
pale dreams
so today, gf and me brought Becci around Singapore. so after bringing her to here and there, i realised that Singapore sucks. ok i had this realisation since forever but still, its just fucked up shopping everywhere.
bowled after that and it was hilarious.
saya menang lorxz.
had a dream.
now im thinking whether it was in colour. i know my facts and all so motherfucking shut up. i know dreams arent in colour (and all the neurotransmitters and REM shizz). dreams are like the cleaning up or cooling down of a computer when its offline, removing parasitic nodes and other "junk" from the mind during sleep. but then, is it really?
hair. her. love. white. wheels. grey. blue. blue. blue. hair. her. long. coiled. high. fly. fly. fly.
is this junk? i dont think so.
its a full moon. it always is.
cant wait for our reign.
QA.
bowled after that and it was hilarious.
saya menang lorxz.
had a dream.
now im thinking whether it was in colour. i know my facts and all so motherfucking shut up. i know dreams arent in colour (and all the neurotransmitters and REM shizz). dreams are like the cleaning up or cooling down of a computer when its offline, removing parasitic nodes and other "junk" from the mind during sleep. but then, is it really?
hair. her. love. white. wheels. grey. blue. blue. blue. hair. her. long. coiled. high. fly. fly. fly.
is this junk? i dont think so.
its a full moon. it always is.
cant wait for our reign.
QA.
20080718
moon river
my umiak we will ride on. big yes, but only for the both of us.
the mountain badgers i slay, the moonrocks i find, their essence is the boat.
on a full moon we will ride, on the river moon.
tears of the moon, the blind badgers, the enamelled rocks.
power will find us and we will ride forever more.
the mountain badgers i slay, the moonrocks i find, their essence is the boat.
on a full moon we will ride, on the river moon.
tears of the moon, the blind badgers, the enamelled rocks.
power will find us and we will ride forever more.
AS MISERABLE AS YOUR MOTHERS.
):
):
):
three little spiders crawling on a wall
one fell down, the other wanted out.
now i'm wondering
why the other one is still
climbing up the wall
when it's easier to fall
):
YOU AND YOU
HATCHED A SATAN SPAWN.
i hate all of you.
love, anna.
):
):
three little spiders crawling on a wall
one fell down, the other wanted out.
now i'm wondering
why the other one is still
climbing up the wall
when it's easier to fall
):
YOU AND YOU
HATCHED A SATAN SPAWN.
i hate all of you.
love, anna.
breakfast
I will read ashes for you, if you ask me.
I will look on the fire and tell you from the grey lashes
And out of the red and black tongues and stripes,
I will tell how fire comes
And how far fire runs far as the sea.
-Carl Sandburg, "fire pages"
never am i full.
QA.
I will look on the fire and tell you from the grey lashes
And out of the red and black tongues and stripes,
I will tell how fire comes
And how far fire runs far as the sea.
-Carl Sandburg, "fire pages"
never am i full.
QA.
exit to exist
i have a cat. ok i dont but it comes everyday to find food
and that stupid rag it likes to wrap itself around with. when
im alone at home, i'l spy on it. it'l just sit there and observe
the world (the only thing that exists in its world are potted
plants and ikan bilis). it needs a friend. or maybe not. thats
just a reaction to being alone. honestly, its not mine. i look at
the cat and normally, anyone (this is subjective so shut up)
would sit beside it and just exist for the moment. i wont. you
can tell when someone wants everyone to fuck off. that cat had that face.
me too.
with my head full of honey and strawberry scented lips, i explore my house.
im qamarul.
nice to meet you qamarul, my name's asyraf.
i dont think i'd have friends in nafa.
jolly.
je vous manque aime la baise
and that stupid rag it likes to wrap itself around with. when
im alone at home, i'l spy on it. it'l just sit there and observe
the world (the only thing that exists in its world are potted
plants and ikan bilis). it needs a friend. or maybe not. thats
just a reaction to being alone. honestly, its not mine. i look at
the cat and normally, anyone (this is subjective so shut up)
would sit beside it and just exist for the moment. i wont. you
can tell when someone wants everyone to fuck off. that cat had that face.
me too.
with my head full of honey and strawberry scented lips, i explore my house.
im qamarul.
nice to meet you qamarul, my name's asyraf.
i dont think i'd have friends in nafa.
jolly.
je vous manque aime la baise
20080717
the day when i got swept by your typhoon
i might as well die for wanting to live.
i might as well fade for wanting to dream.
i might as well hide for wanting to run.
the world doesnt deserve my hate.
but i still do.
i feel like falling but i cant.
the rope of oath holds me.
i will fulfill.
even before i met you love.
to hell, to hell, to hell i go.
i will return to after i serve fire.
ti amo, our first words.
i might as well fade for wanting to dream.
i might as well hide for wanting to run.
the world doesnt deserve my hate.
but i still do.
i feel like falling but i cant.
the rope of oath holds me.
i will fulfill.
even before i met you love.
to hell, to hell, to hell i go.
i will return to after i serve fire.
ti amo, our first words.
20080716
IT'S NOT FAIR THAT YOU GET TO LIKE SCHOOL
BECAUSE YOU LIKE DOING WHAT YOU DO
WHILE I HATE IT
BECAUSE I HATE DOING WHAT I DO.
couldnt stand to go to school today so i skipped flipped kicked (even though i didnt plan on not going).
hung out with boyf and rusydi (coincidentally, he skipped school too).
had merry fun.
we watched a movie with no plot.
it was my fault cus i kept insisting that i wanted to watch the movie.
rusydi tried to skate, it was funny though.
he is planning to get himself a set of wheels (skate scooter).
yay, three of us can skate skate hate together.
hail mighty kites! (:
met naddynadnad for threadingthreadthread.
then went off to ate ate meditate.
YES MALAY TUITION IS CANCELLED.
NEL & BEX ON FRIDAY STRBCKS.
xoxo
sita the unholy.
[/edit]
being very kaypoh,
i read this girl's blog, also a fellow scorpio.
noticed that everytime her boyfriend showers her with
a new phone (limited edition),
bobbi brown cosmetics,
clothes,
accessories,
bags,
another phone
and whatnotnotnot,
they broke up in the end.
why girl? was he broke?
baby,
even when you're broke,
if you work hard enough to keep us alive,
i will still love.
getting gifts is one thing,
expecting them is another.
BECAUSE YOU LIKE DOING WHAT YOU DO
WHILE I HATE IT
BECAUSE I HATE DOING WHAT I DO.
couldnt stand to go to school today so i skipped flipped kicked (even though i didnt plan on not going).
hung out with boyf and rusydi (coincidentally, he skipped school too).
had merry fun.
we watched a movie with no plot.
it was my fault cus i kept insisting that i wanted to watch the movie.
rusydi tried to skate, it was funny though.
he is planning to get himself a set of wheels (skate scooter).
yay, three of us can skate skate hate together.
hail mighty kites! (:
met naddynadnad for threadingthreadthread.
then went off to ate ate meditate.
YES MALAY TUITION IS CANCELLED.
NEL & BEX ON FRIDAY STRBCKS.
xoxo
sita the unholy.
[/edit]
being very kaypoh,
i read this girl's blog, also a fellow scorpio.
noticed that everytime her boyfriend showers her with
a new phone (limited edition),
bobbi brown cosmetics,
clothes,
accessories,
bags,
another phone
and whatnotnotnot,
they broke up in the end.
why girl? was he broke?
baby,
even when you're broke,
if you work hard enough to keep us alive,
i will still love.
getting gifts is one thing,
expecting them is another.
20080715
the 15th of the 15th
today was orientation day. nothing much. stoned most of the day.
texted.
stoned.
headache.
texted.
stoned.
stoned.
ok dumb.
here's what we did last saturday.
oh before that people, my gf is the tastiest honeystick flavour there is out there.
and this is why.. she gave me a surprise. she got me this..
(didnt get to take a pic of the one she bought)
weeeehooooo, you know why she got me this???
because she is the only soul in this decaying world to worship my rugby captainship.
oh god bless you my love.
ok now here was what we were up to..
see how happy she is?
its quite rare you know.
i miss her 10min laughter on the phone (ok abit exaggerated).
oh why...
world, pls fade so i can be with her.
today is 15.07.08
15.04.14, pls come quick.
i have something up my sleeve.
heh.
QA.
texted.
stoned.
headache.
texted.
stoned.
stoned.
ok dumb.
here's what we did last saturday.
oh before that people, my gf is the tastiest honeystick flavour there is out there.
and this is why.. she gave me a surprise. she got me this..
(didnt get to take a pic of the one she bought)
weeeehooooo, you know why she got me this???
because she is the only soul in this decaying world to worship my rugby captainship.
oh god bless you my love.
ok now here was what we were up to..
see how happy she is?
its quite rare you know.
i miss her 10min laughter on the phone (ok abit exaggerated).
oh why...
world, pls fade so i can be with her.
today is 15.07.08
15.04.14, pls come quick.
i have something up my sleeve.
heh.
QA.
20080713
Thalassemia minor
i suffer everyday.
my little brother was nine years old the first time i decided to kill him.
during the night, snow fell over the jagged wreckage of our land. in the morning i realize he will follow me outside if i call to him. like an awkward-limbed colt he’ll stumble through the snowdrifts, and i can leave him to the ice and wind in the shadow of a three-walled building.
never happened.
now, im 18 and pretend to be ok with the world.
everyday.
you will die. but i wont.
for i slash.
and she bites.
and he wanders. fellow half-blood, wander on. do not step on my line.
for i slash.
and she bites.
slash bite slash bite slash bite
run.
V
my little brother was nine years old the first time i decided to kill him.
during the night, snow fell over the jagged wreckage of our land. in the morning i realize he will follow me outside if i call to him. like an awkward-limbed colt he’ll stumble through the snowdrifts, and i can leave him to the ice and wind in the shadow of a three-walled building.
never happened.
now, im 18 and pretend to be ok with the world.
everyday.
you will die. but i wont.
for i slash.
and she bites.
and he wanders. fellow half-blood, wander on. do not step on my line.
for i slash.
and she bites.
slash bite slash bite slash bite
run.
V
if you actually translate what i am going to type out, you have no fuckin life you fuckin busybody.
의분이 저를 때때로 소모할 때, 나는 얻는다 그래서 성난 그 때 명중한다.
나는 항상 준다.
현재,
과거,
과거 및 과거.
당신은 왜 변화를 위해 주지 않는가?
희생의 행위?
또는 어쩌면 다만 신중하십시오 한번만.
나는 나의 방법으로 완벽하지 않다.
그러나 나는 나가 할 수 있던 대로 당신을 만족시키는 것을 시도한다.
나는 저에게 행해진 동일을 보지 않는다.
사정은 하찮다,
그러나 다른 한편으로는 그것은 저에게 이것을 얻었다.
이렇게 전부는 번쩍였다.
그리고 나는 아직도 성나게 남아 있다.
tan vicioso como 애나 (anna).
mortui vivos docent.
(let the dead teach the living.)
BY THE WAY,
[edit:]
.:][*~J@p@N353 Gr3@t5st 0f A11~*][:. ((4yu H@M@S@K1 cum T4ku FuJ1W@R@)) JaP RuLeZ 'em 4LL!!! says:
A true vampire.
.:][*~J@p@N353 Gr3@t5st 0f A11~*][:. ((4yu H@M@S@K1 cum T4ku FuJ1W@R@)) JaP RuLeZ 'em 4LL!!! says:
You have my respect.
thankyou friend.
anna.
나는 항상 준다.
현재,
과거,
과거 및 과거.
당신은 왜 변화를 위해 주지 않는가?
희생의 행위?
또는 어쩌면 다만 신중하십시오 한번만.
나는 나의 방법으로 완벽하지 않다.
그러나 나는 나가 할 수 있던 대로 당신을 만족시키는 것을 시도한다.
나는 저에게 행해진 동일을 보지 않는다.
사정은 하찮다,
그러나 다른 한편으로는 그것은 저에게 이것을 얻었다.
이렇게 전부는 번쩍였다.
그리고 나는 아직도 성나게 남아 있다.
tan vicioso como 애나 (anna).
mortui vivos docent.
(let the dead teach the living.)
BY THE WAY,
[edit:]
.:][*~J@p@N353 Gr3@t5st 0f A11~*][:. ((4yu H@M@S@K1 cum T4ku FuJ1W@R@)) JaP RuLeZ 'em 4LL!!! says:
A true vampire.
.:][*~J@p@N353 Gr3@t5st 0f A11~*][:. ((4yu H@M@S@K1 cum T4ku FuJ1W@R@)) JaP RuLeZ 'em 4LL!!! says:
You have my respect.
thankyou friend.
anna.
20080712
ERNIE & BERT GO BRUTAL
i love sesame street. what a classic show.
i found this. i think it's cute.
love, shi'an.
i found this. i think it's cute.
love, shi'an.
20080711
this entry is dedicated to nadia although the bulk of it is not about her.
funnytrivialnonsense:
NADIA loves cissy and i sooo much.
we forced her to miss her yew tee stop so we can finish gossiping.
heehee, cissy and i laughed until we cried.
when we arrived at kranji, she missed the train to yew tee.
as our train doors opened, the other train's doors closed; even though she was quite confident she was going to make it to that train.
hahhaha.
thanks NADIA. :)
andrea that bitch is doing her eyebrows tomorrow.
nevermind nad, we do ours next weds after school.
CISSY CAN JUST WATCH, or no island creamery for her.
i went back in time.
i remembered the first day of year two.
at first, when i saw nadia, cissy and shaun, i smiled.
we assembled.
i turned and saw cissy standing beside me.
then i turned behind and i didnt see my boyfriend.
and then it hit me.
he's not in mi anymore and i am alone.
i dont know much about friendship
but i do know that the ones whom i call friends.
the one i mistreat, anthony.
the one i rarely hang out with (but now more often), nel.
the one i never hang out with and yet he's still considered a friend cus he cradled my insane, khalid.
the one who has never failed to make me laugh so far, rusty_the_eclectic.
and my mates. sometimes they fill my day up and i become happy.
most of the time, it's desolation.
so i spoke to my boyfriend about this state of mind.
we fuckin lost the energy.
our honeymoon period is over, it's not a bed of roses anymore.
this is the real relationship to the core.
thank god my boyfriend is mature and sensible.
he understands what i'm saying and we're trying to work on it.
both of us have become so mellow, contrary to what people think.
our friends (lalalames) whom have seen us misbehave should know better.
my boyfriend and i like to misbehave together.
but how?
he's got nafa, i've got school.
we can't become vandals.
i am stoning now
and i think i need a cigarette.
and a bottle of sparks if you please.
shi'an.
NADIA loves cissy and i sooo much.
we forced her to miss her yew tee stop so we can finish gossiping.
heehee, cissy and i laughed until we cried.
when we arrived at kranji, she missed the train to yew tee.
as our train doors opened, the other train's doors closed; even though she was quite confident she was going to make it to that train.
hahhaha.
thanks NADIA. :)
andrea that bitch is doing her eyebrows tomorrow.
nevermind nad, we do ours next weds after school.
CISSY CAN JUST WATCH, or no island creamery for her.
i went back in time.
i remembered the first day of year two.
at first, when i saw nadia, cissy and shaun, i smiled.
we assembled.
i turned and saw cissy standing beside me.
then i turned behind and i didnt see my boyfriend.
and then it hit me.
he's not in mi anymore and i am alone.
i dont know much about friendship
but i do know that the ones whom i call friends.
the one i mistreat, anthony.
the one i rarely hang out with (but now more often), nel.
the one i never hang out with and yet he's still considered a friend cus he cradled my insane, khalid.
the one who has never failed to make me laugh so far, rusty_the_eclectic.
and my mates. sometimes they fill my day up and i become happy.
most of the time, it's desolation.
so i spoke to my boyfriend about this state of mind.
we fuckin lost the energy.
our honeymoon period is over, it's not a bed of roses anymore.
this is the real relationship to the core.
thank god my boyfriend is mature and sensible.
he understands what i'm saying and we're trying to work on it.
both of us have become so mellow, contrary to what people think.
our friends (lalalames) whom have seen us misbehave should know better.
my boyfriend and i like to misbehave together.
but how?
he's got nafa, i've got school.
we can't become vandals.
i am stoning now
and i think i need a cigarette.
and a bottle of sparks if you please.
shi'an.
the only vampire left
2008's a bad year.
i screwed things up so fucking bad.
i finally had someone to cradle my insane and i left her to be
why..?
it really disgusts me at how much we had lost because of me.
she doesnt belong there and she needs me.
this is a childish rant.
but being childish used to be so much fun.
i feel bad i feel bad i feel fucking bad.
i hate it at home. why the fuck did i leave?
why the fuck fuck fuck..
we're gonna be ok love.
i will get you your pint of sparks back..
QA.
i screwed things up so fucking bad.
i finally had someone to cradle my insane and i left her to be
why..?
it really disgusts me at how much we had lost because of me.
she doesnt belong there and she needs me.
this is a childish rant.
but being childish used to be so much fun.
i feel bad i feel bad i feel fucking bad.
i hate it at home. why the fuck did i leave?
why the fuck fuck fuck..
we're gonna be ok love.
i will get you your pint of sparks back..
QA.
20080710
hellfire upon frost
i shall be humble and say that im not that good.
but since my gf said that im that good,
yes, i can fucking kick their ass.
HOHOHO merry bloodfest!!
as i said, we do not belong here.
another thing, im quite curious as to why some people find vulgarities (i shant use the word "profanities" because its mainstream) immoral. well technically it IS a crude thing to say but arent we all crude?
no im not.
yes you are you motherfucker.
i am crude.
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee now.
qamarul asyraf and nur diyanah can even kick your soul's ass.
qam.
but since my gf said that im that good,
yes, i can fucking kick their ass.
HOHOHO merry bloodfest!!
as i said, we do not belong here.
another thing, im quite curious as to why some people find vulgarities (i shant use the word "profanities" because its mainstream) immoral. well technically it IS a crude thing to say but arent we all crude?
no im not.
yes you are you motherfucker.
i am crude.
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee now.
qamarul asyraf and nur diyanah can even kick your soul's ass.
qam.
GRRRRR.
my name is not down for the interhouse touch rugby.
just because i'm not in the fucking cca itself doesn't mean i cant play.
on the contrary, i think i can because i have done it well enough for the pe module.
if you are not going to allow me to play, it's okay.
i'll remember.
the next time you faggots need help in Garnet matters, please do not look for me.
i am not going to save your sorry asses.
i always get extremely agitated when motherfuckers of fuckin dogtown underestimate me.
is it because of my tiny frame? does standing at 1.51metres tall equate to insignificant "OH-YOU-CANT-DO-SHIT-CUS-YOURE-SMALL"?
let me tell you faggots something.
when i was in the canoeing team, i was the PTI along with Nigel and Keiths, both my seniors.
do you fuckin know what PTI stands for?
it stands for Physical Training Instructor.
yeah, uh huh, you bet.
whatever the boys do, i do it too, when in fact i can just follow the girls' routine.
i did as many suicides as the guys.
you tell me i cant take it?
go and die please.
i can sit you down and tell you our training regimes and you'll get tired just hearing it.
i am not your fucking average-gentle-kanninabei-cannot-do-standard-pushup kind of girl;
i am capable of doing so.
that's right, that's why i'm the PTI.
so you say, so what anna, you're not training anymore, your stamina has probably fizzled out and youre probably not as strong anymore.
why? is it because i dont go to the gym to do physical conditioning?
is it because i dont fuckin run 6km x 4 = 24km every week, anymore?
dont you ever forget, peasants, that i have my daddy's genes.
it's what that's in me that matters, not daily training, although training would of course help enhance my performance.
so back to my dad.
he is the best athlete i've ever met.
he still holds the record in his secondary school for the triple jump.
it has been 28 years since.
a few years back, when he was 39 years old, he sprinted 100m with my brother for kicks.
and he was still faster than my brother.
my brother, represented his school in TRACK & FIELD NATIONALS for the 100m race mind you.
and he came in second.
(to date; my brother is not in T&F anymore, he is in soccer &he is fuckin good. better than any player i've seen in MI. plus, he is only fifteen. one-five.)
although my achievements in the area of track &field has never met expectations,
i am rather well-versed in other areas.
i did say that i am my father's daughter but i am not his carbon copy you know.
ANYWAY
SCREW YOU
I KNOW YOU DONT HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ME
BECAUSE IM NOT IN FUCKIN TOUCH RUGBY
AND NOBODY HAS HEARD ABOUT CANOEING AND HOW TOUGH IT IS TO GET ON TOP
SO THEY DISMISS IT AS CHILD'S PLAY
BUT UP YOURS MOTHERFUCKERS
WE GO THROUGH WORSE HELL THAN YOU TO GET ON TOP
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ME.
YOU UNDERESTIMATED MY BOYFRIEND AND JWEN LAST YEAR & LOOK WHERE IT FUCKIN GOT YOU. (which was nowhere.)
YOU DIDNT EVEN KNOW YOU COULD DO A FLYING TOUCH.
HAH. BODOH PERGI MAMPUS.
(my malay getting good eh. (hah rubbish.) i can swear in malay with ease now.)
EXCUSE ME, MY BOYFRIEND'S NAME WAS DOWN FOR THE PERTH TRIALS IN 2002.
YOU FAGGOTS DIDNT KNOW CUS YOU GUYS DIDN'T KNOW SUCH A THING EXISTED
BECAUSE YOU GUYS WEREN'T TALENTED ENOUGH TO PLAY RUGBY FROM THE AGE OF 11.
HE WAS RANKED 13th IN SINGAPORE.
YOU FAGGOTS WILL NEVER GET THAT.
it was his parent's mistake for doing what they did, or else,
HE WOULD HAVE BEATEN YOUR SORRY ASSES,
AND BE MVP AGAIN. and again and again.
now his secret is out but it's okay.
i am sick of hearing people say that he is useless and all that.
yeah, his soccer skills might not be up to standard but hey, he is a rugby player.
please dont call him a rugger, he hates it, unless you want qam to punch you.
no matter what,
if you haven't seen either of us slug it out,
take a moment to watch.
hell, i fuckin play contact rugby with my boyfriend.
so screw you people.
oh well, i want some Oh's now.
honey wheat oat cereal.
damn good.
-anna
my name is not down for the interhouse touch rugby.
just because i'm not in the fucking cca itself doesn't mean i cant play.
on the contrary, i think i can because i have done it well enough for the pe module.
if you are not going to allow me to play, it's okay.
i'll remember.
the next time you faggots need help in Garnet matters, please do not look for me.
i am not going to save your sorry asses.
i always get extremely agitated when motherfuckers of fuckin dogtown underestimate me.
is it because of my tiny frame? does standing at 1.51metres tall equate to insignificant "OH-YOU-CANT-DO-SHIT-CUS-YOURE-SMALL"?
let me tell you faggots something.
when i was in the canoeing team, i was the PTI along with Nigel and Keiths, both my seniors.
do you fuckin know what PTI stands for?
it stands for Physical Training Instructor.
yeah, uh huh, you bet.
whatever the boys do, i do it too, when in fact i can just follow the girls' routine.
i did as many suicides as the guys.
you tell me i cant take it?
go and die please.
i can sit you down and tell you our training regimes and you'll get tired just hearing it.
i am not your fucking average-gentle-kanninabei-cannot-do-standard-pushup kind of girl;
i am capable of doing so.
that's right, that's why i'm the PTI.
so you say, so what anna, you're not training anymore, your stamina has probably fizzled out and youre probably not as strong anymore.
why? is it because i dont go to the gym to do physical conditioning?
is it because i dont fuckin run 6km x 4 = 24km every week, anymore?
dont you ever forget, peasants, that i have my daddy's genes.
it's what that's in me that matters, not daily training, although training would of course help enhance my performance.
so back to my dad.
he is the best athlete i've ever met.
he still holds the record in his secondary school for the triple jump.
it has been 28 years since.
a few years back, when he was 39 years old, he sprinted 100m with my brother for kicks.
and he was still faster than my brother.
my brother, represented his school in TRACK & FIELD NATIONALS for the 100m race mind you.
and he came in second.
(to date; my brother is not in T&F anymore, he is in soccer &he is fuckin good. better than any player i've seen in MI. plus, he is only fifteen. one-five.)
although my achievements in the area of track &field has never met expectations,
i am rather well-versed in other areas.
i did say that i am my father's daughter but i am not his carbon copy you know.
ANYWAY
SCREW YOU
I KNOW YOU DONT HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ME
BECAUSE IM NOT IN FUCKIN TOUCH RUGBY
AND NOBODY HAS HEARD ABOUT CANOEING AND HOW TOUGH IT IS TO GET ON TOP
SO THEY DISMISS IT AS CHILD'S PLAY
BUT UP YOURS MOTHERFUCKERS
WE GO THROUGH WORSE HELL THAN YOU TO GET ON TOP
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE ME.
YOU UNDERESTIMATED MY BOYFRIEND AND JWEN LAST YEAR & LOOK WHERE IT FUCKIN GOT YOU. (which was nowhere.)
YOU DIDNT EVEN KNOW YOU COULD DO A FLYING TOUCH.
HAH. BODOH PERGI MAMPUS.
(my malay getting good eh. (hah rubbish.) i can swear in malay with ease now.)
EXCUSE ME, MY BOYFRIEND'S NAME WAS DOWN FOR THE PERTH TRIALS IN 2002.
YOU FAGGOTS DIDNT KNOW CUS YOU GUYS DIDN'T KNOW SUCH A THING EXISTED
BECAUSE YOU GUYS WEREN'T TALENTED ENOUGH TO PLAY RUGBY FROM THE AGE OF 11.
HE WAS RANKED 13th IN SINGAPORE.
YOU FAGGOTS WILL NEVER GET THAT.
it was his parent's mistake for doing what they did, or else,
HE WOULD HAVE BEATEN YOUR SORRY ASSES,
AND BE MVP AGAIN. and again and again.
now his secret is out but it's okay.
i am sick of hearing people say that he is useless and all that.
yeah, his soccer skills might not be up to standard but hey, he is a rugby player.
please dont call him a rugger, he hates it, unless you want qam to punch you.
no matter what,
if you haven't seen either of us slug it out,
take a moment to watch.
hell, i fuckin play contact rugby with my boyfriend.
so screw you people.
oh well, i want some Oh's now.
honey wheat oat cereal.
damn good.
-anna
20080709
slaves of our time
everytime the moon is up at its peak, shining at its brightest, the underworld will rise.
but no one will know. maybe that is why we creatures tend to be unnoticed, shunted, discriminated. all for the sake of power. but power for whom? for the satisfaction of one's self?
to what extent does it make us better? does it even take us to that light? to that discovery of our identity? how else would the world want to identify us as? bloodsuckers and slashers. we do not belong in society. yet, we too have our lives to sow. we hide what we are. we pretend to embrace the world. with disgust, hate and vengeance, we live in this forsaken world just to survive. its 1500 years since we could roam freely. the underworld is dying, we do not look forward to the moon anymore. the power we get, we dont use. for we cant and we shant. all this for life and to death.
for the blightful future. for our death. for the eternal bliss we look forward to.
we are slaves of technology and modernisation.
baby, we are alone.
decay world, decay..
VH.
but no one will know. maybe that is why we creatures tend to be unnoticed, shunted, discriminated. all for the sake of power. but power for whom? for the satisfaction of one's self?
to what extent does it make us better? does it even take us to that light? to that discovery of our identity? how else would the world want to identify us as? bloodsuckers and slashers. we do not belong in society. yet, we too have our lives to sow. we hide what we are. we pretend to embrace the world. with disgust, hate and vengeance, we live in this forsaken world just to survive. its 1500 years since we could roam freely. the underworld is dying, we do not look forward to the moon anymore. the power we get, we dont use. for we cant and we shant. all this for life and to death.
for the blightful future. for our death. for the eternal bliss we look forward to.
we are slaves of technology and modernisation.
baby, we are alone.
decay world, decay..
VH.
alice cooper cover arsis roses on white lace.
i hate school.
everything about it.
struggling with my international history holiday assignment.
like moments ago.
gave up after 5minutes.
it's because i cant be bothered.
i am too lazy to even hold a pen.
and fuck pw seriously.
gives me a fuckin major headache.
i want to skip school tomorrow and friday.
but fuckin attendance shit, screwing my plans.
i'm a year two student and yet i am not used to the life of a student who is supposed to sit for a's.
my study buddy fucked off to nafa.
my study buddy was my partner in class as well.
my study buddy is my boyfriend.
he starts school next week.
eh why anna? your boyfriend want to follow his dreams cannot is it?
eh, fuck you. can la. but it doesn't mean i'm happy with it you know.
i am miserable.
i want to go to school with phil anselmo's hair in the cowboys from hell video.
i want to wear combat boots to school.
(sounds like i wanna go to NS huh. not NS la. just wanna get out of this HELLHOLE.)
but what wouldnt i give to have him back in school,
so that i wouldnt be alone.
the miserable fey &delicate.
everything about it.
struggling with my international history holiday assignment.
like moments ago.
gave up after 5minutes.
it's because i cant be bothered.
i am too lazy to even hold a pen.
and fuck pw seriously.
gives me a fuckin major headache.
i want to skip school tomorrow and friday.
but fuckin attendance shit, screwing my plans.
i'm a year two student and yet i am not used to the life of a student who is supposed to sit for a's.
my study buddy fucked off to nafa.
my study buddy was my partner in class as well.
my study buddy is my boyfriend.
he starts school next week.
eh why anna? your boyfriend want to follow his dreams cannot is it?
eh, fuck you. can la. but it doesn't mean i'm happy with it you know.
i am miserable.
i want to go to school with phil anselmo's hair in the cowboys from hell video.
i want to wear combat boots to school.
(sounds like i wanna go to NS huh. not NS la. just wanna get out of this HELLHOLE.)
but what wouldnt i give to have him back in school,
so that i wouldnt be alone.
the miserable fey &delicate.
20080708
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala POOOF blood...
i was surfing the net...............
thought about blogging because i was thinking of spaz...............................
and then gf texted....................................
and now im jumpy!!
she passed MT.
no big to you motherfuckers?!
die and decay.
saya proud.
-bf
thought about blogging because i was thinking of spaz...............................
and then gf texted....................................
and now im jumpy!!
she passed MT.
no big to you motherfuckers?!
die and decay.
saya proud.
-bf
out loud, in quiet, keep boom
i want to skate but im sick.
yes, i am.
cb.
thoughts, thoughts, thoughts... no knife.
dont be alarmed, i need a knife to cut this piece of bread.
thoughts again.
ha-fucking-ha.
i am not bored. im just on standby.
i have this stupid pain behind my right knee.
cb.
why do i complain?
because i have the freedom and outlet to.
people in other countries may not.
so people, treasure all that you have.
your love, your kisses, your kindness, your good,
your hate, your vengeance, your spite, your evil.
throw food away.
throw it at them at least, and let them eat.
before the Vulture gets everything..
hate, hunger, death, kill.
i want to scream your name.
QA.
yes, i am.
cb.
thoughts, thoughts, thoughts... no knife.
dont be alarmed, i need a knife to cut this piece of bread.
thoughts again.
ha-fucking-ha.
i am not bored. im just on standby.
i have this stupid pain behind my right knee.
cb.
why do i complain?
because i have the freedom and outlet to.
people in other countries may not.
so people, treasure all that you have.
your love, your kisses, your kindness, your good,
your hate, your vengeance, your spite, your evil.
throw food away.
throw it at them at least, and let them eat.
before the Vulture gets everything..
hate, hunger, death, kill.
i want to scream your name.
QA.
shhhhhh
I creep along
No sounds or screams
I creep along
Into your dreams
I creep along
Into your mind
I creep along
And then you'll find
I creep along
Your mind, it gleams
I creep along
It's nice and clean
I creep along
These walls that bind
I creep along
Don't see? You're blind!
I creep along
Your shiny dreams
And eat them up
With whipping cream.
without a sound..
QAM.
No sounds or screams
I creep along
Into your dreams
I creep along
Into your mind
I creep along
And then you'll find
I creep along
Your mind, it gleams
I creep along
It's nice and clean
I creep along
These walls that bind
I creep along
Don't see? You're blind!
I creep along
Your shiny dreams
And eat them up
With whipping cream.
without a sound..
QAM.
i just got back from fetching my sis.
and yes, i am annoyed (again).
cb.
putting 7eleven right in the middle of CCK Ave 2 is a motherfucking big mistake.
everytime i fetch my sis, these kids, bastards and whores alike, will fucking rush and make their way to 7eleven. mum told me to get something there for sis. so i went and hated.
and to the dumbfucks (indo/filipino maids, not sure, they still look like whores)
who keep giggling when i come near, i curse your throats decay and bleed.
have a good day people.
MI sounds good right now but im starting school in 2 weeks.
girl, lighten up.
i shine for your darkness. shine with the fire from hate probably.
qa.
and yes, i am annoyed (again).
cb.
putting 7eleven right in the middle of CCK Ave 2 is a motherfucking big mistake.
everytime i fetch my sis, these kids, bastards and whores alike, will fucking rush and make their way to 7eleven. mum told me to get something there for sis. so i went and hated.
and to the dumbfucks (indo/filipino maids, not sure, they still look like whores)
who keep giggling when i come near, i curse your throats decay and bleed.
have a good day people.
MI sounds good right now but im starting school in 2 weeks.
girl, lighten up.
i shine for your darkness. shine with the fire from hate probably.
qa.
20080707
i wonder why they call it "create post"
i feel horrible.
i hate malaysia and its people.
(to m'sians who may somehow stumble upon this blog, i do not apologise).
people annoy me.
why must people stare? i FUCKING hate it when people stare. wtf to they fucking want? tell me?
i was in this fucking skate shop and City Square JB and the fucked up sales shitheads were stalking me as if i'd steal their shit. fuck you poseurs, you dont even wear original skate shoes. i bet you cant even afford the stuff you fucking sell. you put up decks and dont sell fucking bearings?! disgusting.
and the girls act as if i'd be interested in them. never would i be. i am disgusted.
end.
i shall rant more to my gf.
i have a fever and i hate it.
alot.
as much as i love.
QA.
i hate malaysia and its people.
(to m'sians who may somehow stumble upon this blog, i do not apologise).
people annoy me.
why must people stare? i FUCKING hate it when people stare. wtf to they fucking want? tell me?
i was in this fucking skate shop and City Square JB and the fucked up sales shitheads were stalking me as if i'd steal their shit. fuck you poseurs, you dont even wear original skate shoes. i bet you cant even afford the stuff you fucking sell. you put up decks and dont sell fucking bearings?! disgusting.
and the girls act as if i'd be interested in them. never would i be. i am disgusted.
end.
i shall rant more to my gf.
i have a fever and i hate it.
alot.
as much as i love.
QA.
just somermumbojumbo of rage.
baise chacun.
je suis fâché.
baiser toute la baise toute la baise toute.
baiser l'école.
va te faire foutre en emballant mon sac d'école.
baiser ma jupe courte,
baiser la longue jupe inchangée.
baiser l'insigne d'école.
baiser l'éducation physique.
baiser les chaussures de patin et la voie courante.
i didnt speak rubbish.
i just want people to have a hard time understanding it.
anna the vicious.
je suis fâché.
baiser toute la baise toute la baise toute.
baiser l'école.
va te faire foutre en emballant mon sac d'école.
baiser ma jupe courte,
baiser la longue jupe inchangée.
baiser l'insigne d'école.
baiser l'éducation physique.
baiser les chaussures de patin et la voie courante.
i didnt speak rubbish.
i just want people to have a hard time understanding it.
anna the vicious.
20080706
once you shave your head, it's my turn.
sorry it's blurry &stuff, it's my camera's fault.
this is painted without effort.
and with effort people,
my boyfriend can make it far.
fuck those who think he's wasting his time and all of his dimes in NAFA.
well fuckyou, youre just like me, in the mainstream cus we've got nothing else to exploit.
unlike him.
i believe in him so.
i hope all those out there with dreams will find the courage to go for it,
with or without support.
stop letting people shove spit down your throat.
maybe not now but soon.
i have yet to find out what i want to do with my life.
to help kids in afghan is my number one.
too bad i need education to get there.
boy,
i am proud of you.
one of the selected few.
you have to be the best.
& the best is yet to come,
bangles&bootsfrickin'clichetothehey,
but it's true.
i still want red doc martens baby.
and all the other things that i want.
-anna
ps. justin, thanks for the Kim song. i hearts/cores it lehs.
morning myself.
school term officially begins on tuesday.
dreading it.
i have a few months left to decide whether i will survive yeartwo and go on to yearthree.
then a year left to see if i am able to move on to the university
and to have a break for months without studying.
it's korea and thailand for shopping and fun, skate everyday,
dont sleep at night, or sleep all day.
i dreamt i was smoking sheesha yesterday.
a sign?
spoke to my mum about homeschool.
i dont think she's really for it, she is just entertaining my nonsense.
of course she is not for it, she is working for MOE.
however, if i insist a little...
we'll see how promos go.
i hate school you know that.
it's so boring, the teachers are so annoying,
my homework is piling up before the term even begins.
i hate school because i knew how fun school could be before this.
if i never knew how fun school could be,
i would have never had a reason to compare.
i dont care how the korean boys do it anymore,
they are just a bunch of studyguns who will never remember fun
(because they didnt experience it) as they reflect on their lives as kids. (15-19years old)
you study hard,
you go to stanford/ yale or whatever,
you grow up,
you get a good job,
you get good pay,
you dont have a girlfriend,
youre still a virgin,
you dont smoke,
you drink to ease the pressure away,
the pressure you felt since before high school,
before middle school,
before everything,
it starts from the day you were born.
you become alcoholic,
rape someone,
go to jail
and just get wasted,
with a stanford/ yale bachelor-of-whatever in hand.
then you sit there,
think about your life
and all you remember is how hard you studied through the night,
the love and laughter you missed as you sacrificed for academics,
then you realize.
(this is probably an exaggeration but it could double up as a worst-case scenario.)
i want fun from mischief/ skip to school with love.
unfortunately,
everyone is like them koreans
while i,
i am not.
anna.
school term officially begins on tuesday.
dreading it.
i have a few months left to decide whether i will survive yeartwo and go on to yearthree.
then a year left to see if i am able to move on to the university
and to have a break for months without studying.
it's korea and thailand for shopping and fun, skate everyday,
dont sleep at night, or sleep all day.
i dreamt i was smoking sheesha yesterday.
a sign?
spoke to my mum about homeschool.
i dont think she's really for it, she is just entertaining my nonsense.
of course she is not for it, she is working for MOE.
however, if i insist a little...
we'll see how promos go.
i hate school you know that.
it's so boring, the teachers are so annoying,
my homework is piling up before the term even begins.
i hate school because i knew how fun school could be before this.
if i never knew how fun school could be,
i would have never had a reason to compare.
i dont care how the korean boys do it anymore,
they are just a bunch of studyguns who will never remember fun
(because they didnt experience it) as they reflect on their lives as kids. (15-19years old)
you study hard,
you go to stanford/ yale or whatever,
you grow up,
you get a good job,
you get good pay,
you dont have a girlfriend,
youre still a virgin,
you dont smoke,
you drink to ease the pressure away,
the pressure you felt since before high school,
before middle school,
before everything,
it starts from the day you were born.
you become alcoholic,
rape someone,
go to jail
and just get wasted,
with a stanford/ yale bachelor-of-whatever in hand.
then you sit there,
think about your life
and all you remember is how hard you studied through the night,
the love and laughter you missed as you sacrificed for academics,
then you realize.
(this is probably an exaggeration but it could double up as a worst-case scenario.)
i want fun from mischief/ skip to school with love.
unfortunately,
everyone is like them koreans
while i,
i am not.
anna.
20080705
20080704
Rockit skateboards
went out with the mrs today and this is a little msg to thee..
i will stand up again. i will..
sigh. courtship during teenage years is fucking fucking hard.
this stupid lack of freedom shit is a motherfucker.
im eating Bytes. dropped my nasi goreng for no reason and i threw it at my neighbour.
thats why im eating Bytes.
im still eating it.
ok now im done.
im fucked up about tmr.
i miss my jade bangle nyonya.
QA.
PINK FLIP WHEELS PINK FLIP WHEELS PINK FLIP WHEELS DAMNIT
i am the kind of girl
who cant stand whorelike peasants
(in nel's words, oore kaarens)
breathing the same air
as my boyfriend
even if it's merely threemetresaway.
i dont care if i am the most hated
because i am the most unreasonable/
i dont care if i am the most disliked
because i am irrational/
i dont care if i am the most repulsed
because i am illogical
i propagate all my hate
to show that im not to be messed with
not to tampered
my temper,
something that keeps me going further
i hate because i dont like you
more than "dont like you"
i hate and i loathe
i detest and despise
i'll call you a lawyer
to file me a lawsuit
i'll smile in the courtroom
you cant say that i cant hate
i can hate
and i will hate
and i hate
and hate
and hate
on a lighter note, today, i hung out with my boyfriendbestfriendlycanbaby.
:D
anna. - still prisonbreaking. gotta catch up with khalidlidliddylid
who cant stand whorelike peasants
(in nel's words, oore kaarens)
breathing the same air
as my boyfriend
even if it's merely threemetresaway.
i dont care if i am the most hated
because i am the most unreasonable/
i dont care if i am the most disliked
because i am irrational/
i dont care if i am the most repulsed
because i am illogical
i propagate all my hate
to show that im not to be messed with
not to tampered
my temper,
something that keeps me going further
i hate because i dont like you
more than "dont like you"
i hate and i loathe
i detest and despise
i'll call you a lawyer
to file me a lawsuit
i'll smile in the courtroom
you cant say that i cant hate
i can hate
and i will hate
and i hate
and hate
and hate
on a lighter note, today, i hung out with my boyfriendbestfriendlycanbaby.
:D
anna. - still prisonbreaking. gotta catch up with khalidlidliddylid
20080703
one more time steal my breath, i'll feed you the sky
one of our very first photos.
i feel guilty.
i realised i've not been paying much attention to my boyfriend for a very very long time.
i have something up my sleeve though, & i hope i wont lose it when school starts next week.
twinkleboy
watch the stars turn into nothing
now blush and smile as they whisk you away
part your lips abit more
i will swallow your fear
i will show you how
all the bite marks impress a need to be here
a need to see
city lights like rain
dance and explode
reeling from
nights that kiss and control.
iloveyoutwinks.
-shii ann
ps. watched hancock with amira and shaun. DISAPPOINTING/ AWFUL.
cowboys from hell. wasted time. whiplash
music back then was pure. unlike now, it had substance. Pantera, Skid Row, Metallica. these were some of the biggest bands back then. watching videos, reading articles, these bands had great sound. great music, great crowd. the crowd was awesome.
i just feel wasted that i wasnt there at their peak. bummer. Skid Row's gone. Dimebag is dead and Metallica has lost half its appeal. damn..
music now sucks. i keep looking for songs from the past.
wasted time
so yes, its from youtube. and this brings me to another shit. people just cant keep their fucking mouth shut can they? why the fuck do they diss the bands they watch on youtube? if you dont like them, i say go to hell or just stay quiet and you can let my hate rest. like A7x, i hate how gay that band is but you cant deny they make good music. i dont diss them. i just dont listen to them. i dont know where this is going actually. angst talking.. ewww, angst. so teenager, so budak budak, so takde konek.
gf is watching Prisonbreak now and she has her As MT oral later. i dont remember Scofield speaking malay in the show though. i must have missed that.
we're going to climb, swing, run, hide tmr.
yessssss.
sincerely,
18 yr old d00d who just got annoyed at himself for using the word d00d.
ok edit:
i have this sudden hate for poseurs who dont know what they are talking about and are ranting as if they know shit. i may be talking about myself, you, you or maybe even fucked up you. that includes language.
tank u humans and have nice day.
i just feel wasted that i wasnt there at their peak. bummer. Skid Row's gone. Dimebag is dead and Metallica has lost half its appeal. damn..
music now sucks. i keep looking for songs from the past.
wasted time
so yes, its from youtube. and this brings me to another shit. people just cant keep their fucking mouth shut can they? why the fuck do they diss the bands they watch on youtube? if you dont like them, i say go to hell or just stay quiet and you can let my hate rest. like A7x, i hate how gay that band is but you cant deny they make good music. i dont diss them. i just dont listen to them. i dont know where this is going actually. angst talking.. ewww, angst. so teenager, so budak budak, so takde konek.
gf is watching Prisonbreak now and she has her As MT oral later. i dont remember Scofield speaking malay in the show though. i must have missed that.
we're going to climb, swing, run, hide tmr.
yessssss.
sincerely,
18 yr old d00d who just got annoyed at himself for using the word d00d.
ok edit:
i have this sudden hate for poseurs who dont know what they are talking about and are ranting as if they know shit. i may be talking about myself, you, you or maybe even fucked up you. that includes language.
tank u humans and have nice day.
yesterday, i spoke to khalidbestfriendpretend on msn for the first time in our lives when we've been friends for like sometime. (like 3-4years?)
yesterday, i went over to cissy's with boyfriend, nadia and shaun to laugh alot, eat alot, scare ourselves a little and bitched about cheerleading a little.
yesterday, the summer tests came to an end, closing ceremony was southeast asian paper. could have done well but didn't have content.
today, is stupid mother tongue oral for the a's.
yesterday, nel told me not to fuck it up.
tomorrow, i want to play playground.
for now, i'm going to watch prisonbreak.
-anna
yesterday, i went over to cissy's with boyfriend, nadia and shaun to laugh alot, eat alot, scare ourselves a little and bitched about cheerleading a little.
yesterday, the summer tests came to an end, closing ceremony was southeast asian paper. could have done well but didn't have content.
today, is stupid mother tongue oral for the a's.
yesterday, nel told me not to fuck it up.
tomorrow, i want to play playground.
for now, i'm going to watch prisonbreak.
-anna
20080702
spin my love, spin
A knife, your blood, my joy, your trust
Your breath ending, madness
Your wound, your pain, my laughter, my lust
Your tears, your angst, sadness
Sadistic passion, lunatic visions
Insanity of a kiss
Your impression, my obsession
Your death, our love, my bliss
The end, to send, to send.
no verbs.
Your breath ending, madness
Your wound, your pain, my laughter, my lust
Your tears, your angst, sadness
Sadistic passion, lunatic visions
Insanity of a kiss
Your impression, my obsession
Your death, our love, my bliss
The end, to send, to send.
no verbs.
the sacrilegious scorn
"My word and world holds ground and is real
Your word is like floods of poisoned water
A language spoken with spit from different tongues
You can never corrupt me again.."
i am my mother's son. i am not fucking stupid. why th fuck does everyone think i am? seriously dad, i can even beat you at scrabble. i know what the fuck i am doing with my life. seriously, however weak i get at times, i know what i fucking want. why the hell would you think that i will get a girl pregnant just by taking her to Brunch?! WTF. to hell with other girls, this one is precious. i will not destroy her. i am not a dumbfuck. FUCK THIS SHIT. no one shall step on me ever in my fucking life. you will not get near her or mum ever (again).
"time has come to step up and take back what you took from me.."
-Dimmu Borgir
my mum gave me my name. my gf made my name real.
QA.
Your word is like floods of poisoned water
A language spoken with spit from different tongues
You can never corrupt me again.."
i am my mother's son. i am not fucking stupid. why th fuck does everyone think i am? seriously dad, i can even beat you at scrabble. i know what the fuck i am doing with my life. seriously, however weak i get at times, i know what i fucking want. why the hell would you think that i will get a girl pregnant just by taking her to Brunch?! WTF. to hell with other girls, this one is precious. i will not destroy her. i am not a dumbfuck. FUCK THIS SHIT. no one shall step on me ever in my fucking life. you will not get near her or mum ever (again).
"time has come to step up and take back what you took from me.."
-Dimmu Borgir
my mum gave me my name. my gf made my name real.
QA.
20080701
i keep listening to the same beats of d12's purple pills.
no this is not me.
drugs just sound yummy while theyre at it.
fuckin adam better come back with chocolate cigars for me and my boyfriend.
Ah Beng: People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng: When I went to the Park today, everybody said,
Oh GOD! U have come again.
normally i laugh like a bloody hyena at jokes like these.
but i am such a stoner.
too bad we quit smoking.
my blood needs happy stuff.
and i am miserable.
it's almost the end of my bloody cycle.
but my hormones are outta control.
cbfuckcunteveryone.
i used to carry a dagger
some concerned friend of mine took it and never returned it
i want it
i want it back
fuckcunt
anna is not your friend
she wont soothe your soul
and in the end
youre all dead to her.
no this is not me.
drugs just sound yummy while theyre at it.
fuckin adam better come back with chocolate cigars for me and my boyfriend.
Ah Beng: People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng: When I went to the Park today, everybody said,
Oh GOD! U have come again.
normally i laugh like a bloody hyena at jokes like these.
but i am such a stoner.
too bad we quit smoking.
my blood needs happy stuff.
and i am miserable.
it's almost the end of my bloody cycle.
but my hormones are outta control.
cbfuckcunteveryone.
i used to carry a dagger
some concerned friend of mine took it and never returned it
i want it
i want it back
fuckcunt
anna is not your friend
she wont soothe your soul
and in the end
youre all dead to her.
for a moondance
what would happen if im gone?
not much actually (not on the surface perhaps). people will be shocked of course.
"did you know Qamarul died yesterday?"
"OMFG, REALLY?!"
and that will be all. the next day, i'll be forgotten.
i do not matter to people and i do not quite care.
"you do not love, if you do not love forever.."
-Euripides
i only know of two souls who will be destroyed and helpless if i am gone.
its 6.20 and my babygirl is out there with invisible sharks floating around.
God, bubble her. amen.
i live in you.
QA, still alive apparently.
not much actually (not on the surface perhaps). people will be shocked of course.
"did you know Qamarul died yesterday?"
"OMFG, REALLY?!"
and that will be all. the next day, i'll be forgotten.
i do not matter to people and i do not quite care.
"you do not love, if you do not love forever.."
-Euripides
i only know of two souls who will be destroyed and helpless if i am gone.
its 6.20 and my babygirl is out there with invisible sharks floating around.
God, bubble her. amen.
i live in you.
QA, still alive apparently.
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