my boring posts

MY POSTS ARE SO BORRRING..... WHO'D READ THEM..????

wad i think!

life just sucks. im feelin so tardy right now, yet i've stayed at home almost the whole dae. i've not yet started to do anything "adventurous" yet - the stuff that i've planned to do after the o's before the o's: i've still not done. losing my enthusiasm to enjoy life. im just gettin more and more tired these daes, just like an old person of 100 years. im gettin aches all over my body, not sure whether it's normal or not. life revolves around tv and the radio for now, and of course im dreadin the upcoming workload when school reopens. i've been posted to tpjc btw for the first three months. i'm still not sure of what subjects to take. There's no "management of business" offered in TPJC - crap! it'd be really nice to learn the business stuffies. i've been busy planning to set up a business, (which is soo difficult btw!). guess i'd have to put that on hold. also, i've been feelin down lately, after prognasticating bout the stupid jc life im gonna have. hated the o's, i sure as hell will hate the A's. how i wish i were going to portofino or hawaii to relax for the hols... but NO.. we're just gonna go a bit north to malaysia.. WAD? it's not gonna be fun or anything. just the same old routine of settling some rental stuffies there, then doing stuff that are NOT FUN.

No one wants to watch saw with me. they prefer kong, which i think is damn lame coz i don't see a plot. Orchard doesn't seem appealing now as im sooo short of money. stupid birthday's in May and not in december. the stupid starbucks pple hav not called me yet, and i don't think they'd ever call..

i can imagine my scripts being marked in cambridge now. i bet the french paper markers must be laughing their heads off reading my french compo. (i rode ON TOP of a car instead of IN a car). totally messed up the genders of the nouns. i'd be glad to receive a b3 for that. totally screwed up my physics paper, my gravitational acceleration was 0.sthg m/s2. quite happy with the way bio and chem went, but i still can't guarantee an A. (i don't expect it anywaes..)

recovering..

It's beeeen Succcchhh a llooonngggg tttimmeee..

Finally, the whole ordeal's over. i can actually watch tv and do whatever i like without feeling guilty. life's normal once agaiin..

recently went to Jurong Swimming Complex just to get my mind off all the nonsense that i've been cramming it up with for the past few months. the drops of water falling on my face sure was cooling. it's been such a long time since i've last truly relaxed.

Went to Orchard after J.S.C., bumped into hana, maris and ain, makin that the 2nd time this yr. had a li'l chat with them before i set off to do some window shopping. Life is so happening now....

Nerd Score

Overall, you scored as follows:
97% scored higher (more nerdy), and 3% scored lower (less nerdy).
What does this mean? Your nerdiness is: Definitely not nerdy.

Took some test, i got from my sis' blog. found out that 97% of the ppl who took this test are nerdier than me. they asked questions bout computer software thgees (thgs that i dun't care about), and stuff about the periodic table (i'm very weak in Chemistry)....

Can't believe the hols are over, and it's back to school again. Wells, at least i did have some fun during the hols.Sundae (130305), ate at Bedok Corner with my family. The place was damn crowded, coz they had just revamped the entire food centre, and now, it seems smaller, the tables were at the center. Mondae (140305), had to go to school for chem class, then bio. After the classes, me, khairul and shawn went to KFC first, thinking that there'd still be time to eat lunch before the Pulau Bukom bus departs from school. The queue was so long, and we wasted precious time waiting for the food.. missed the bus in the end. they were blaming me for that, coz i was the supposed "project manager" for suggesting the whole KFC thg, but it wasn't entirely my fault though. in the end, very much later, got to know that the trip to Pulau Bokom had actually been cancelled, coz the stupid organizers did not come. Phew! After school, went to galvyn's house, watched a bit of B&B. Then, after that, went to Great World City to watch Lemnoy Snicket's. Ate at Swensen's after that, someone's treat. had to rush home after that as after eating, i realized that i HAD to reach home in an hour's time, to watch Desperate Housewives. Got home just in time. Then, on tuesdae(150305), had to go to school again for A.maths lesson, which only took 10 measly minutes. Such a waste of time. then, me and the others went to Fursham's house to play X-box. it was fun, coz 8 people were playing, and we used 2 TVs. was playing, while eating (a lot) there, of course the others didn't realize coz they were too focused on the game. Wednesdae, went to school again. Had 5 hours of Physics, and then had another hour of individual chemistry remedial after that. hated the dae. For the rest of the holidays, i didn't do anything, except to sit at home, and watch B&B or go out sumwhere. had my usual drum lessons on saturdae. ...

Now, it's back to school. i hate it. it's the same all over again. crowded buses, stupid assemblies, headaches, rush to complete homeworks, and early unintended zzz....

b4 march hols 2005...

The hols have arrived. one week without school. dunt haf to force myself to wake up at 0530 in the early morn for this week. but, i still haf to go to school.. haiz!! extra lessons bla bla... mon - wed.

Anywaes, this week was ok..Coz, most of the time, i was thinkin of the hols. on the 5th, i had CIP. had to collect money from pple at Orchard Rd. Of course i wasnt enthusiastically begging for money, coz i HATE to be rejected. Went to sim lim with the soccer ppl. Actually, i went there for a while only.. after that, i went for my drum lessons alone. Learnt dancing Queen and ring ring from abba. i think i did ok for dancing queen, but ring ring was a total disaster. then, had french test on mondae, the 7th. of course it was diff. On wed, the 9th, i had school as usual, and then french. Best lesson ever, as it was damn slack. All we had to do was to cut up some pictures and stuff, and pasted them on colored paper, for some class presentation thgee. it was on FOIE GRAS. i used my artistic side to complete the task, which was presentable. i took such a long time to get the thing done. Thurs, the 10th, went to this perfume-producing company, SymRise, after school for some chem excursion, whatever they call it. Didnt knoe chem offered this kind of things, but it still doiesnt change the fact that i hate chem. got samples of soap from the excursion. hols were nearing. of course i was happy. BUT, it was such a stressful dae. teachers are really saddistic creatures, created to make adolescents suffer. Had social studies, english and emaths on fridae. AND i had 3 tests, one from each subj. so, i was damn tired after school, after squeezing my brains out for 8 preiods. After fridae prayers, had photo-taking, then CCA. Did very little stuff for NCC on fridae. just part A drills. Then, it was saturdae again. the hols have commenced. Woke up at around 0700.Did some bio revision in the morn, then went off for my drum lessons. Wanted to go shopping after drums initially, but cancelled the plan in the end. Was too tired.

kk.. till here.. i haf to go... (will check all the grammar, punctuation whatever mistakes later!!)

Observation

Friends.. Wad are they? Who are they? why they exist? these are the questions that are residing in my mind rite now. With them, it will ameliorate the isolation in each one of us, but ironically, with them too comes hate due to betrayal, ignorance due to ego, being made use of etc...which will eventually lead back to loneliness... the positive will mostly outweigh the negative, but when the opposite happens, that's the worst that could ever happen. After having lived for forteen years in a society where having friends is a necessity, i have experienced both situations. there are some friends u wont want to forget, as u have spent the most memorable times with them together, but there are some friends u'd want to rid of your life, coz of the above negative reasons. the worst is to have both. A friend who merely gives u a stupid one-word reply when asked. It's always u initiating the conversation, and he/she ending it. this is life, not ideal, but that's the way it is. Some people get too egoistic when they meet new people. they get too engrossed in trying to fit in with the new group, that the old group is just being swept aside. I, personally try my very best to mantain friendships, both old and new, but some people are too self-centered to have such a principle. they do not realize that the past has actually brought them to their current position. manipulations of the past, motivations, sometimes force. how good life might be for them right now, all links back way to the past. but do they realize that?? NO! So, they just try to forget everything. how forgetful, or a better term to use, ungrateful!!

Guilt ( 20/02/05 - 02/03/05 )

i feel almost guilty for not blogging for ..... 7 daes or so... Was so busy and tired, that i totally neglected the comp. anywaes, im back now...so, here goes..

Todae: Went to school. as usual, went to class... then went to the canteen during break, then the room during lunch... had to rush through the malae compo through history period.. got some sarcastic remarks from mr thiru, "love" for the malae language, bla bla bla.... my class got to leave at 1500 coz hazrin didnt come. others were happy, but i wasnt. had to go for french soon after.

Yesterdae: Came to school damn late. There ws a group of us, and we were brought to Chia's office. "shouts", and happily gave the upper sec some stupid cleaning duties during break. Luckily, there were no more vests left, and all i ahd to do was to just push in the metal chairs, and throw some of my friends' rubbish. Had pe after, played badminton. Body was aching after school. Slept at 2000hrs. too early, and as a result, i couldnt finish my malae hw.

28/2: Had the mondae blues. My bag was so heavy. went to school, and then french. So damn tiring.

27/2: Stayed at home all day. Sis and bro-in-law came over. had a sumptious dinner.

26/2: happily went for my drum lessons late again. i am so tired of bein late already. How to be punctual, i also dunt knoe.. went to bugis with ben, lookin for some stuff. then, went to Eastpoint. Such a waste of time. The stuff wasnt available everywhere. Took MRT to pasir ris, then took 12 home.

21-25/2: CA week!! Had tests all the way, except for Wednesdae. (main reason for absence from blog). Chem remedial with FY helped, a lot. Was able to clarify loads of questions, which had been in my head ever since i started learning chem. Had cca on thursdae, some lame swimming training. It was damn slack. The sec 4s were playing around in the pool. then, went to BK with the Sec 4 malays. Ate !

20/2: Went to the fair thg at woodlands, with mum, sis, cousin, and baby dylan. rode on this thg, made me damn dizzy. Then, i went on the "elevator", or whatever the name is. The thg took us so high, then released. My heart was literally lifted, my legs too. It was exhilarating. 2 times! Then, rode on "topgun" (dunt knoe the name). was the ride, red in color. Two sides. travelled along the circumference of an imaginary circle. made me dizzy too.. The werewolf hut was lame. u should experience it to knoe.

Pos MelayU

aku sungguh penat sekarang. kini, pelajaranku semakin merosot. Aku tidak tentu hala tentang kursus yang aku mahu mengambil di menara gading nanti. hidupku penuh dengan cabaran... dari segi pelajaran, sosial dan berbagai-bagai lagi. aku semakin bosan dengan hidup, tetapi memanglah perlu untukku meneruskannya. aku mahu hidup dengan senang, mengembara serata dunia, tidak perlu untuk memikirkan apa-apa. tetapi, itu tidak mungkin. tiada sesiapa yang hidup tanpa masalah. masalah sosial, masalah kewangan, masalah pendirian, masalah persekolahan, masalah kesihatan... ini memanglah sebahagian daripada hidup seseorang yang hidup di dunia yang serba moden ini. masa-masa yang aku menghabiskan menggunakan komputer ini boleh digunakan untuk barangan-barangan yang lebih berfaedah lagi, tetapi bagaimana, jika kemahuan untuk ber"blog" itu berada di fikiranku. Aku rasa serba salah, meninggalkan blogku sebegitu sahaja..Ada rakan-rakanku yang telah menegur perbuatanku itu, tetapi minggu lalu adalah minggu peperiksaan. tiada masa lagi untuk bermain dalam masa-masa genting seperti di menengah empat. kini, aku terpaksa belajar, dan belajar, supaya aku berupaya untuk hidup di dalam singapura ini. aku terpaksalah berlumba dengan kesemua daripada generasiku, untuk mendapat pekerjaan-pekerjaaan yang tinggi sekali. aku tidak berupaya berbuat demikian. tiada jalan keluar lagi. aku harus fokus.

esok, akan-ku menulis tentang kegiatan-kegiatan yg aku telah melakukan pada minggu ini, dari ahad hinggalah ke sabtu, iaitu hari ini. sekarang, aku sudah letih, dan harus berehat.

neuroticism

i am so tired of being neurotic.. i was only 5 mins late for drums, and before that, i felt like the world was gonna end soon. anywaes, todae, i learnt yet another tune... [Alone Again (naturally)]. The tempo was sooo SLOW and depressing, i related it with my life. oh, and guess wad? they corroborated... the pieces do match...

Went for lunch at BK after drums... and, it made me realize just how clumsy, i was, am and always will be.. I was carryin my meal to the table and.... for some reason, the bottom of the tray touched the edge of the table, and my cup came tumbling down and... not a second has passed, and my coke was all over the floor... This isnt the first time it has happened this yr.. AAAARGH... These things are supposed to happen only in Archiecomics, not in real life... I was damn paiseh, when i asked for another cup of coke, for free....... AND yes, the place was crowded...

ANYWAES, Went home straight after lunch, intended to study... But as usual, i made plans.... I met up with my cousin, and went to Eastpoint to look for stuff.. Got the things, and then went home. Went out again, this time, to eat at this coffeeshop (Istanbul).. Had those delicious Chicken with Nestum, together with fried rice and omelette.. Then, went to TM, and again, i got stuff.... I bought some Levi's thgs and a swatch watch for school. ok then, That's my dae...

belthazor's fingers

After hours and hours of almost non-stop practice, im finally able to do the belthazor coin trick. The coin can now run smoothly on tp of my fingers..

Todae, school was damn slack. i did not even learn a single thing. I was just reminded of what i already knew. Had Malae Test, "ujian berbagai makna". The words looked damn difficult, but the test was actually damn easy. Then, had physics. I got back my test results. Shocking, as i was able to pass it. After school, went home and slept for 3 hrs. It's been such a long time since i've last done that! And i reckon i wont be able to do that after todae, as the Science CAs are next week!! aaargh!! Chem, Phy, Bio... all so diff.... DIE!!

biggies

I am gonna be sick!
Aku akan jatuh sakit!
Je me porterai mal!

Tired Sick..

Im sooo exhausted... i cant do my homeworks now, and i have a lot to do! Played badminton for PE todae... oh, and esther played too.... she's ok lar, but not good enough to beat me... :) ...

[this is one short post!] Now, gtg rest..... then force myself to do hw!! :(... i shall type longer posts next time..... who'd bother to read anywaes!!!

Constantine

Yesterdae was ok.. Not that boring.. Watched Constantine with Hatib at Lido. wanted to watch at Plaza Sing at first, but was full.. Luckily there were still seats available at Lido. but, there were so little left, that we got the 2nd row, somewhere at the side. The movie was nice, and i could understand the story fully, with help of course. Went to Borders after that, bought Dan brown's Angels and Demons. Then, went to Al-Falah, prayed Asar and maghrib, before walkin Dhoby Ghaut MRT station, disucssin bout wad happened to Gabriel, etc... Went home straight after, and had to hurry to complete my homeworks

Todae: I actually managed to finish my physics wb, and other ppl were "referring" to my work.. Usually, it's the other wae round.. =).. Amaths too. Then, during English, we got to listen to some fantastic stories, by the "anyway" teacher. had amaths again after that, and this time, the questions were more diff. Couldnt understand some parts of it... esther was happily scolding me, when i wasnt doing any major not-to-do-during-amaths thgs. Then, went for french. the 53 ride seemed so short... dunno for wad reason... k.. gtg do my hws and watch tv now.. shall blog again soon..

drumless saturdae

Todae, no drum lessons.... but i got another Levi's wallet instead. Used the Tangs $20 voucher, and must add $8 more. looking forward to the outing tml!

-dead-world-

todae is such a nuisance. So extra. must cum school after 2 daes of break. Then, 2 more daes of break after todae. what extraness! did nuthing much todae. Just went to school, fridae prayers then home coz of this minor headache i was experiencing. Watched a bit of B&B, then slept. Went to cut my hair. now, it;s so damn short, and i feel damn weird... as usual...

The world is so dead right now. Everything has stopped. No CCAs, no drum lessons, closed shops.... y?? what am i gonna do tml??

new yearS

Wishing all the CHINESE and the MUSLIMS out there...2... HAPPY NEW YEARS!! (and the "S" isn't accidental.. it's a new Islamic year too, tml...)

how typical...

hmm.... todae offers nothing unusual. It's the most typical saturdae i've ever experienced this year. I did not feel a thing, when i woke up at ten. I was in a mood, which i didnt like btw in the morning. As usual, sumone took such a long time to change, and i had to wait and wait... (sounds familiar rite!!?) Reached Plaza Sing around five to ten minutes late AGAIN. Coming late for drums is now the most NORMAL thing for me. There was a new boy in class. YAY! He took up my place in the first row... Now, im back in the row where im supposed to be in already.. Got the pads. But these were the better pads, coz they're so far from the door. for one reason or the other, i dunt like to be near doors. being my pessimistic self, the door reminds me of "the end", as in the end of the lesson, and drum lessons should not end (coz they're so fun!!) Ate at LJS after that, as usual... grab a bite before heading home, or head to whereversville at Orchard Rd. Then, i went to Bugis. After that, met up with my mum and my sis, and took the car to the Paya Lebar Postal Building thgee, to get my sister's "Victoria's Secret" stuffies, imported from the US. wow! i wanna try doing sumthing like that, but there is one limiting factor, which is preventing me from doing whatever i like... that is, MONEY.. I'm so broke right now. I'm so envious of the rich...... Wonder what they might think of normal pple... probably, normal pple are poor in the eyes of the rich and famous... Went to eat INDIAN food again at the Paya Lebar Postal Building thgee's foodcourt at the basement. After that, i went home. Logged on to the computer, and i got 2 friend requests on frenster.. i dunt think i knoe one of the requestors, but i accepted the request anywaes... went to the Singapore Youth Flying Club's webby, to see how expensive it is for me to be a member.. 10 bucks per yr.. It sounds so cheap, but i dunt think it is though. Free flying summore... what is "flying"? do i get to fly a plane, or a plane model?? wad!!??? but anywaes, im thinkin of joinin it.. later... i learnt how to play the tune, "September" todae, for drums. i managed to download the song, but.. when i tried to play, with reference to the notations of course, it all seemed so wrong. the tunes must've been edited. of course, i played only with my drumsticks, and in thin air. I dunt have my own drum set... But, i want one.. Sum pple sae it's a waste of money, but i dunt see how wasteful it is for me to buy one?? should i??

splattered food..

i had malae and physics test todae, and they were both so damn difficult, esp for physics. I left some of the questions blank.. Am i gonna die?? of course.. I ve been marked for not havin my OWN textbook... and now this?? i can't take the pressure in physics anymore... aargh... but i need it... double aargh!!

had kayaking training after school. i didnt kayak, of course, coz im still recovering from my illness. Spent most of the time "Gossiping~" witht the other gossipers, bout HIM...and... the juniors.. hehe...

Went to McDonald's after that, with the part d melayus from the cca. Bought a meal.. Put it on the table.. But seconds after... SPLAT!! everything gone... 3 bucks wasted, i thought. Luckily i was able to get the splattered food replaced....=)! Felt guilty tho, seeing the cleaners cleaning up the mess I'D made.

long time no blog..

it's been a week since i've last typed a post in this lame blog of mine.. so, im gonna go crazy and type all the stuff that i did over the week! the first Sunday, was damn stressful. i had to complete my physics hw, which was crazy.. Miraculously, i did finish the assignment, of course by using miraculous methods. Mondae - Thursdae, went to that dreadful place called school. i dunt dread school actually. i just dread the bus ride to school, in that bus bearing the number "12". had CCA on thurs. It was so boring. We had self-introduction because of the new Part A's. On a more positive note, the CLTs weren't there, so we felt more free. Fridae, i went for prayers, in that packed mosque,Ghufran. had to sit under the sun, but by the grace of God, there was wind to compensate for the intense heat i was enduring. Then, i went to TM to look for stuff. Followed by a car ride through wherever in Singapore. Went to Grandma's place soon after to celebrate Hari Raya. Did usual stuff, there, sat and watched TV. Had to watch the Malay Channel, because it was Hari Raya. That's the way it is, and i have no say. met up with the rest of the extended family. After that, we went home. i got MONEY, which was about to be spent earlier than i expected. Went to Expo with my sis and my 2 cousins after that,but it was over. Went to the Robinson's Sale instead. i bought nothing. then, went TM again after that, and bought a tee-shirt from Fox for ten bucks (CNY Special). i was so shocked that i could fit into a size "s". nvm bout that. Saturdae, went to school to pass up my english hw, which was supposed to be submitted on thursdae. went for drums. As usual, i was late again. It's not my fault though. Sumone took such a long time to get changed, and i had to wait, & wait... was 10 mins late this time, and the instructor nearly gave me the pad. i made a face with a noise with my tongue, and i got drums instead. It wasn't my turn for the pads, and wells, i got what i deserved. Went to great World City after that, and i got a pair of billabong shorts, sponsored of course. Todae, i woke up with a funny feeling. had High Fever. my body was so damn warm, but yet, i felt cold inside. went to the clinic at night, and the payment that i had to make was so bloody high. 50 bucks, wtf, and they loaded the bag with all kinds of medicine. Went to Rup's house by car after that to give him the malae hw i had to pass up on thurs.

k...that's all.. hopefully, my doodle board will be filled with more positive thgs, instead of negative thgs. and.... i have to sleep now. 2 daes of mc.. Good or bad, i dunt knoe. hopefully, all will turn out well, especially me!!

giler dae...

it's been a long time since i've last posted a proper journal-type-of-post. So, todae, im gonna write one..

Started out the day like any other Saturdae. Took a bath and got ready for drums. Today's problem: nothing to wear... therefore, i just wore the same stuff i wore last week, except for the jeans. Brought my new pair of shades along, to put on of course. I knew i was gonna be late already, when i found myself at home, at 1035. Luckily ben was late also, later than me..

Went into the class, 16 mins late. Next week i d better not be late. Then during the class, cocked up a lot of times. I hit the tom too early, i hit the crash once, when it wasnt even on the tab. Then, even the class cocked up. Major. Was damn fun. i just love when stuff go wrong.

Then, after class, walked all the way from PS to Heeren, then to Republic Plaza. Had to look for sum pencil box for sumone. Then, went to citylink for a while. No pencilbox there. Waste my time there. Sit at Mc Cafe better. Then went Tampines Mall, then home.

Went Orchard again, to send my sis to Tanglin Mall, for her stall thgee. Went SAFRA, plaed CS one hr. Forgot all the stuff already. So, i was damn "kekok" (dunno the eng word). Ate pasta, then went to Tanglin mall, met up with my sis. Then, went home. then, logged on to the internet. Type this post.

Kk. That's all lar.. im a very LOUSY blogger. my vocab's damn limited. and i have to finish my homeworks sum more, coz tml wont be able to finish one. k. That's all.. bbbye..

*relief*

todae's the best dae of the week... without a doubt... everydae weekdae, must go home at 6... damn tiring...

can't wait for tml... go for drums, then can go anywhere... at least dunt need to stae in that stupid school of mine until 6... must not be late for tml... late later get that stupid pad thgee again...

just found out how to post photos on my blog... shall post more teen photos later on...my face damn ugly in the ones on my comp.. therefore, dunt wanna show... =)

dah lar... shall go chat now.... bbbye....

hws!!!! die!!!

actually, im supposed to do my hws now.... but~....i just dont feel like doing them... judging from the amount of it, the troublesomeness..whatever of having to flip and flip thru the stupid textbooks just to find an answer.... released late from school sum more... where got time to complete??

physics: half the TYS
comb humanes: end of yr exam 2004
french: exercices

which one to do first? i dunt knoe... one thing's for sure... i'm DEAD!! au contraire (dunt knoe whether it's the correct phrase to use.. but nvm), i have no time to r.i.p.....

fated to lose everything... LAR!!

my dae todae wasnt fun... at all!! was dreadin the chem test from the morn, till the time of the test... coz, if i fail, i haf to drop to combined sciences... but, haf to attend the pure lessons... big waste of time... after the test, went to mcdonalds with ach and syafiq... i thought i could relax just for a while...

sad thing happened... lost my physics tb... realized at tamp... took taxi back to siglap center.. but the book wasnt there... went hime w/out the damn textbook (with all the important details, and notes in it)!!! CURSED!!! how to study for the upcoming o's????

die again!!

school...

i hate school.... it's so bloody long... 0730 - 1700.... they must be CRAZY!! they think we have so much free time is it??? then, hws kasih banyak banyak!! then, stupid tests.... luckily now, have two breaks... but what's the diff??? how to enjoy life??

Back to the Comp.

My comp has been down for the last 3 daes... Therefore, not able to blog...will just summarize everything... New Years' dae spent at Tanglin Mall... Did nuthing much.. Just sat at the stall and stared....everywhere...
2 Jan went to my cuzzs' house...learnt a trick & played dai ti..... went back home... still no mood to do hw...
3 Jan... school reopened... no mood... everything was boring....

Life is so boring.... No money... No car... Public transportation sucks!!

Now damn stressed... must do malae and english.. but how to do?? no mood... i need my mood by tml morn... (!)

Eng, Malae, Physics, Emaths, Amaths, Chem... left!!!

neW yeaR...

hAppy nEw yEar....!!!