Soon to be mom

I don't really know how to describe it.. it's so wonderful.. even though it's less than a month to go, I can't wait to see my baby girl, after all this while I've been so keen to meet her..
I've been married for more than one and a half year, and I always dream of having a baby.. someone you can look at and be proud of.. and of course she will be a tremendous gift for my husband and I..
9 months seem too long for me, and even for Nazrin.. ( I know he's eager to see her too.. but remains calm about it(^^,), i know dear!!) Can't really wait for it to happen..
I will be insya Allah delivering the baby in Malacca GH, even though it's quite a stressfull experience being in the Maternity Ward once and I really hope everything goes fine.. I pray for forgiveness from all of you, who have known me; and I hope you can forgive me for everything I've done, whether big or small that might have hurt you.. for it will be a huge gift to me at time like this.. pray for my safety, and may ALLAH bless us all..
To mum-to-be out there, good luck..

My Beautiful Life

Alhamdulillah, praise be to ALLAH that has brought me to life and to whom I am today, and for giving me a chance to know and befriended a lot of wonderful people. Thank you ALLAH; for granting and blessing me with so many wonderful friends that i have never thought of having, and for letting me experience these wonderful feelinga I have hurted so many hearts and i hope with YOUR help, they would someday find a way to forgive me and to be friends with me again. Because now, these friendship ties meant more to me than ever before.

Before my wedding, life was different, and I tend not to be happy with everything I have and always desiring to have more. My life was a co0mplete mess and I have never thought of being happy because there were sooo many bad things that happened, so much heartache and so much pain. I was to blame for everything that happened, for not being happy with my life, and for being sooo envious of other people's success. Not to mention how bad i felt when my plans went wrong.



However, my perception of life took an overturn,when i met my husband and i have the opportunity to learn from his kindness and astounding ability to endure pain and problems that almost haywiring his life. The moment I lost myself and my faith to life, i thought there would be an end to everything that i built, but Allah has other plans for me and always with HIS love, guide me to HIM and bless me with happiness.

My life with my husband (formerly my IVEC-teammate),begun with a good memory; being a runner-up in IVEC.From there, our relationship went on with a lot of ups and downs, mostly because of my temper and my attitude. There were times that I thought of giving up, but there was always something inside of me that tells me to go on. I admit, in the beginning I wasn't really happy with my decision, i thought that i probably have driven my life way out of the dream life i want to have. but ALLAH's plans; we never know.

And then, out of the anger and frustration in the beginning, I started to feel happy when he's with me. no matter what we do, i always felt safe just being with him. and then my heart started to bloom with love. i felt happy in all occasions that we both attend, and not having him around makes me feel empty. and that was the moment i know that my life will not complete without him, and in other words...HE COMPLETE ME..

we both felt awkward being the only couple in the same class, and most of the time these awkwardness (dunno if this word exist in the dictionary.. hehe) turned out to be the source of our arguments. but with all those confrontations, i knew that we both grew to maturity without our own realization. when we realized that our relationship started to step up to a different level, we both made a decision to get married, and believe me it was a lot harder than maintaining the relationship itself. but as i said before, ALLAH's plan is always magnificient, and the 'hikmah' behind the reason that i didn't get the opportunity to go to GERMANY for industrial training is much more meaningful. Our marriage has brought me a new perspective in life and i got to know what it meant to love and to be loved. And the moment i was officially being his wife, i cried 'happy' tears; not because i was happy but because i was relieved and felt so blessed. There were no words to explain how i felt at that time and all i know, looking right to his eyes after that makes me feel wonderful..

to my husband,i just want you to know that there were no words to explain how i felt for you and i would always felt the same way,yesterday,today, tomorrow and so many years to come. i hope to be a good wife to you, for you have been a very good friend,listener and for fulfilling my wishes without bounds..although we chose this path that not many of people of our age willing to accept; i'm proud to be a part of you and i'm especially proud to have you as the other me.

Thank you ALLAH for blessing me with so many things, and yet i have never thanked YOU enough for what YOU give to me..

and thanks to a lot of support from my friends, that have the guts to hear all my complaints and worries; i started a beautiful relationship with him.. these thanks goes to DOT,who initiates everything..and i will never forget that my fren.. to DILLA,thanks for being a wonderful listener, to LINDA, thanks for sharing most of my teary moments, to ASMA,we both share almost the same feelings and attitude and thanks for your help towards mine..to the rest of my MECHA members, MAS,FIDHA,NISA,LILY, K.MUN,AMEL,YANIE.. to my block-mate MIRA,JR,TIE,SUE,AYU,ALIZA,OJA.. to those who came to my wedding and helped me with everything, i will always cherish that moment and thanks to all the people that understand and supported my decision...

Celebrating students academic excellence

Majlis ni dibuat utk celebrate "dean's list achevers" for 2 consecutive semester for the year 2005.. haha 2006 baru wat.. masa nih, nazrin taknak ikut.. so aku drive sorg2 la dari Bangi ke UIA.. haha.. tak ramai sgt geng masa nih.. sbb diorg sume dh tak cukup kredit nk dpt dean's list (walaupun pointer gempak giler..) sbbnya, aku masih bykkkkk lagi kredit (ya ampun tak tau nape aku amik ninor in business-sudahnyer keje menda lain gak(education-based )).. Just a few snaps-blur plak tuh

Inila saat2 gemilang (wah-wah..) yg memang aku taknk lupa.. susah payah belajar, walaupun tak pandai2 gak.. tapi aku bersyukur dgn nikmat yg Allah beri padaku.. Syukurrr...

Upside down

In life, you will always face choices.. you have junctions when you drive, you have to choose the right things to do from an exhausting 'don'ts', you have to resolve your conflict of interest from the public interest ( start to become "ethical" huh(^^,)..may be due to an exhausting semester of ethics..). And this time the choice I have to make have definitely knocked me straight to my head..

My final projects have finished technically but officially not since I haven't done the reports yet. And I still feel guilty to my husband for helping me a lot in this assignment. Then, we got offered the position of RO in CAIRO. Have to accept to get some money..