Ha Ha! LOL at my own title! I wish I could do smiley faces on my blog! I
should fiqure out how!
Anyway so I had my so- called follow up with a stupid woman dr today! I thought ok. I dont normally LIKE female drs but I can't get into my regular dr for two more weeks. This is getting OLD!
So she said I have air /bubble pockets in my stomach. I can't think of the medical terminology. (No it wasn't irretable bowel syndrome, although I was expecting her to say that!) She said oh it can be pain ful! I'm not supposed to eat popcorn and peanuts! Well that's such a bummer! Since I don't eat them ANYWAY! She says did you have lab work done? I'm like lady did you READ my charts! Now I'm really irrated! I pulled the muscle in my shoulder last week and it hurts, so she says I'll prescribe a muscle relaxer and that might help with the stomach pains as well. OKAY! I won't complain about that! LOL!
So she says oh and about the constant going to the potty thing - she said it's because I drink to much water OKAY then! Silly drs!

This morning - I was in near tears. I talked to my mom last night and I'm at my wits end. I apologized for all the things I thought I did wrong (even though I didn't really know what it was!) I told her I loved her. She would be okay one minute and then mad and crying the next minute. It didn't seem to matter what I would say to her,it didn't seem to make it better.
She says she won't read the blog anymore because it makes her sad. I don't understand that. The reason I started the blog was so that it would be another way of sharing our life with our family and friends far away.
She also says that she will never come visit - that what happened here is too painful. Even though it was 15 plus years ago, and I am not enough for her to get past that. That to me is VERY hurtful - but I won't hold it against her. I am trying to understand.
And just so I am make it clear - that I would be posting my thoughts on this regardless of wether she was reading this or not. This is all I will mention of what has happened between me and my mom .

Aunt Beth came and picked me up today and we went and had lunch. It was really nice. She came into the store and saw my layouts.It was fun to show off some off my stuff. We went to Pei Wei (a little version of P.F. Changs). I got the pad thai. Beths stuff was spicier than mine. Her's made my eyese water. I love hearing about her kids (my cousins). We were always pretty close when we were younger and still are to some extent. It's harder now that everyone is all over the place. Oh yea and Michelle you'll be happy to know she is driving a new Paasat!! It's very cool!!

I am wiped out - both emotionally and physically! I was hurtin pretty good physically today! I am soo glad I am going back to the doctor tomorrow!!

I am sooo excited the Wallace and Gromit movie is coming out the first part of Oct!! Yea we are SOOO going!!

Here is the link to the new trailer!
http://www.wandg.com/trailerpage/trailerpage.html

*If you were a color, what color would you be - BLUE
* What is your occupation - I work in a scrapbook store
*Beverage of Choice - DR. Pepper, or Coke
* What do you collect- Lighthouses, anything beachy,state magnets, dust, piles!
*Favorite Day of the Week - Saturday
*What would be your last meal - Anything Pasta
* If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be?!Oregon or London
*Pets - 2male Shih Tzu's, Buster and Bilko
*Nicknames - amos, mimi, peanut (only my mom calls me that)
*Favorite sport - NFL football
*How many countries have you been too - United Kingdom, France (going to Sweden in May and more!)
*Chocolate or Vanilla - Vanilla
*Snacks - Honey Chex Cereal, Crackers
*Favorite Books - Anne of Green Gables, Harry Potter
*Movies Romance or Comedy - Comedy
*What famous person would like to meet the most: Brett Favre, Bono
*Favorite Sport to watch - NFL Football
*Favorite Team - Green Bay Packers
*Scares - lots from Open Heart Surgery @age of 5, and from a rollover accident
*Eye Color - Blue
*Favorite Scrapbook products:Sweetwater
*People you admire - Carl, my brother Shea in the Army and my brother Mike, a police officer
*Dream Car - A blue Mini cooper with white racing stripes
*One job you would like to do for a day - Sports analyst
*Morning or Night - Definately Night owl
*Best Vacation spot - Yachats, Oregon
*Best way to Relax - bubble bath, internet
*How many states have you lived in - 4, Utah, California,Washington, Arizona

Well on a liter note today!

Work sort of sucked today - which is unusual. But everyone seemed to be having some kind of crisis! I am sad again, now both Jenni and Brenda are leaving! Brenda is leaving after all, even though they decided to be stay in Mesa! Her last day is Friday and Jenni's last day is next week. This makes me very sad. I have worked with both of them the longest! I am going to be all alone during the day! Ok not really but it will be sad for a little while! But I will keep in touch with both of them and Jenni said she may still come in. I am sure Brenda will too. I have been here a little more than a year and they are all becoming good friends. I am still a little reserved in sharing me with them. Brenda I have opened up to the most. She and I had talked a lot , because of some things she was going through with her daughter.

The evening was a little better. I started to watch the new Martha Stewart show and I LOVE it!! I am not a Martha Stewart fan - wasn't before she got into trouble.,She just wasn't my style. But I really like this new show. I had to miss the tail end of it though - because I had to go visiting teaching!!

This was a FIRST!! I have served a mission but some how I have never been visiting teaching! I was a little nervous, but more excited that I could get to know someone in the ward a little better on a more personal level!

It was FUN! I can't remember the last name of the sister we visted but she conducts the music on Sunday. She also teaches 2nd grade at one of the elementry schools and does some special ed classes. I told her I took special ed classes when I lived here and LOVED it!

My companion is Sis. Pickett. They live in our complex, a couple like us. She teaches piano lessons., she works full time at an office job, I can't remember who for now. But I think we will be good together. It was fun and I wasn't nervous!!

Ok so I gotta try and play catch up here for today and yesterday! I've been doing my homework for fantasy football. I was really quite proud of myself, because I had teams and players and positions fiqured out again.So I panicked a little because Tom Brady, my top pick for my quarter back, had an injury and was only probable to play today. So I switched out first for Joey Harrington. I didn't feel good about him either, so I switched to Eli Manning. I wasn't sure. Then this morning Carl told me that Brady was playing. But it was to late to put him back on my active list. DANG IT. All that homework and research and I didn't get very far!
Then Green Bay had to go and loss to the Cleveland Browns. How on earth does that happen?! I knew GB needed some serious help in their defense, but I didn't think it was that bad!!
Oh lordy! It was not a good day for football. I even was hopin Westbrook would help me out with the Eagles today. I still can't fiqure out why Green Bay let him go! I don't like the GB coach but haven't for a while. My only hope to get ahead in fantasy football is Eli Manning tomorrow night.
So enough of football... for church I wasn't feelin so good this morning! But I forced myself to get dressed. Carl and I really wanted to go to at least Sacrement meeting because, it was Ward Confrence. I felt better at church. As I was going to the restroom, I saw someone that looked familiar to me, standing in the hall.I did a double check, but wasn't sure, so I headed for the bathroom. Then I heard someone call my name. That person was Mary Rosenhan/Cox! We hugged. She was the person I recognized. I knew she was in 18th ward. We had talked a few times through email. Her family is very dear to me. Her mother was a person who I admired, adored and grew spirtual strength from as she was my YW Pres. for many years. We weren't able to chat very long. I LOVE LOVE being back in this Stake!

Now for yesterday - we had tickets to the Dbacks game, with the Elders Quorem. It was a BLAST! Bishop Pothier and his wife were there, the Bradshaws, the Keelers, the Crowleys, the Stones. The Stones sat in front of us. They have a couple of kids. They reminded me a lot of Angels parents. It made me all warm and fuzzy! There another couple, they always stop and say hi and shake our hands but I can never remember their names! I am terrible with names! There are lots others but I just get everyone confused!
The funniest part was Bishop Pothier had bought these HUGE bags of peanuts. He kept tryin to pass them to everybody! Carl and Bro. Crowley.
I can't remember who was behind us. The Bishop is now known as the Peanut Pusher!
Oh it was very cool though. There was a home run hit that came right into our section. All the husbands and kids were trying to catch the ball by jumping in front of each other, and the wives tryin to get out of the way. I thought for sure it was going to get me or Sis Bradshaw or the Bishop, the Bishop looked like he had it at one point. But I guess it bounced off the seat behind us. Well one of the kids caught it. It was cool, though the ushers, were right there and took him out and got his information - he gets the ball back in two weeks with the all the team players siqnatures on it.

It's been a fun weekend. I will try not to get too discouraged on my Fantasy football or the Green Bay Packers. Last year they had a rough start also - and it's still early early in the season!

Today was one of those days just to dwell. On lots of things. Taking time to recopperate is not easy. But it does make you appreciate the little things. I am thankful for the health I do have. It could be a lot worse. I hear stories of people all the time (even in my family) of those who go for years without being correctly diagnosed. Some with serious problems and lots of pain. I am thankful for the health that I can get up every morning, get dressed, go to work, come home, be with carl, and my dogs. Life that way is good.
We also picked up Sue at the airport. She was coming back from Seattle.She had a convention for work. Oh she was making me drool over her seafood stories. I will now be craving it! I have a soft spot for the Northwest - being as that where we served our missions. It's a familiar home to us. We talked a lot of Pike Street Market and the views of the Pugent Sound. And the cold wet stuff that falls from the sky. I long to go back there. I has been too long.
I want to travel the world over but then there are some places I could go back to over and over again and consider home. To me home is more than one place. It's a place that has meaning and memories. I want to make more places my home.

So I survived my colonoscopy yesterday! The hardest part was definately the prep. I don't ever want to have to do that again! I was REALLY cold and had a terrible headache. They said that was because my blood sugar was really low, because I was 'cleaning out'.

We got in pretty much on time. They started my IV about 12:30. Then at 1pm they took my back to the procedure room, where they gave me the sedation. I was out in a matter of secs That was the nicest part.The DR said for the most part everything came back normal. I don't remember much of the day. Carl said I threw up a little bit of water in the recovery room and then passed more gas. The nurses said if I did that more I would feel a lot better. All I remember is it HURT really bad when I stepped off the bed in the recovery room. The pressure in my side was painful. but I didn't have my headache anymore. I slept the rest of the day.

I took today off. I'm still really gasy and sore. I don't want to miss anymore time off work. It's hard for me to take time off. Part of that is because I really like my job. Robyn has been wonderful about the whole thing!

Carl has too. He called work for me yesterday. He has missed a lot of time too. He has done a very good job for me! I don't know where I would be without him. I know I am grumpy when I dont feel good, because I just want to be able to do the things I normally do.

So where do we go from here?! I guess just another follow up with Dr. Freburg. Then we'll see.

Oh on Sept 14 Carl and I met in the MTC 11 years ago!!

Ok so I am one city closer to living somewhere where football is a religion on Sunday instead of Church! HA HA! Not really - but at least we have an NFL team! LOL! I would love to live somewhere in the midwest where football is a religion. (maybe! lol!)
I love the start of football season. We kept up with the high schools scores as well as college and NFL. This year I need to get back to my old self in that regard. I knew this game VERY well once. I used to know the players, the positions and the plays. I can barely remember it anymore. So today I watched two games before going to church! lol!
I sorta like this 1pm block. You can still rest and have the good part of the morning. Then church seems to go a little faster. I think.
We really really like our ward. Bishop Pothier came up and asked how I was and my status was (health wise) he had heard from the R.S pres (Sis. Bradshaw) who called me earlier in the week. I told him we were still waiting and we are doing a procedure on Wed.
Yesterday I felt better than I had in a while, but today after Sacrement meeting - It was hard again. By R.S. it was painful to sit that long. I was hurtin after church. The spams are longer and more noticeable but not as often. Forunately they were running a little behind - so she had to hurry through the lesson. Even though it was a pretty good lesson.
I also really like our Family Relations class. Sis Bowman is super nice and I love the way she teaches. The Bradshaws are pretty funny. He's the ward clerk and she's the R.S. Pres. They are an older couple probably about Carls parents age. But they crack me up. Bro Bowman is pretty funny too.
Carl had a scout meeting this morning. He said that Bro Bradshaw had him crackin up in the meeting too. We were just talking about how great the ward is. I still have someone every week introduce themselves. Even though we've been in the ward a little more than a year! Which is nice. I like that too. It helps me not be so shy. I've gotten so shy in my old age! lol! Meeting new people terrifies me!
It's been a nice day and wonderful tempatures. It's finally out of the 100's. It's very nice to just have the windows rolled down.I like those kinds of days!

*Oh before I forget Happy Birthday KAIT!! My baby sister turned 23 ( I think) and Liz and Dave had an anniversary this week! Kait I don't have a phone # for you!! Please don't hate me for missing you this week!!

Usually the day of rest is Sunday, but today was it for me. I didn't get up till almost 10am and I haven't done that in AGES! I think my body is just plain worn out. Then I got a little house work done, but got really tired again so I went to lay down. I was just going to put a football game on, but couldn't find one, I finally fell asleep to the discovery channel. Carl had a class today, so I was home alone. I ended up sleeping another 3hrs. I normally don't do that either! I just had no energy and couldn't seem to get going.
I feel a little better this evening. We got an email update from the mission website -the Eld. Watson had signed up and had a link to his blog. It's kinda funny because lately I've been thinking a lot of missionary friends and companions. Those are special friends. I miss them A LOT and they have a special spot in my heart.
We are actually looking forward to going to church tomorrow. Since we missed the week before since I've been sick. My visiting teacher companion called me today - I have a new one Sis. Pickett. She wants to go this week, but I think I'm gonna have to do it the following week. Since I have my colonoscopy this week.
I have talked to different people. Some say that they were put under or sedated for it, but Herb (carl's dad) told me that he was fully awake for it, that it didn't hurt was just uncomfortable. But Karen told us that I won't remember most of it. So I'm a little nervous -so If ya think of me in your prayers this week, my nerves could probably use it!!

So... I had my follow up today with Dr. Freburg. He saw me when we came in the office and waved. I really like him. He's just hard to get into sometimes. He said the full report came back on my ct scan. He said my appendix and my kidneys checked out okay so that was the good news.He did not rule out gall bladder. Again. UGH! He said although we did find something else we weren't looking for. He said that there was a
tear on my Arota?! Ok that's something new. With my heart history he wanted to make sure so he ordered a 2nd ultra sound. So this makes 2 Ultra Sounds and 2 Ct Scans. oh and they wanted more blood. I also had to drink 36-46 oz of water. They wanted me to have a full bladder to run my ultra sound. They also ordered a pelvic exam.

We had to go clear out to Apache Junction to do the test. I hate that DR's don't have labs in their offices. Although I can see why they don't too. It's such a pain. So my arms have almost recovered from the last time they poked me and my viens wouldn't work. Even the nurse was suprised by the color of my arms. At work they tease me and say I'm doing something on the side! LOL!

I was a little worried about what the doctor had told me, but after I talked to my mom, she said it may be something normal for me. But Dr's don't think it's so normal. Because my Arota goes the wrong way. But it still could be something new. I hope not either way.

Although it was kinda fun because at the Ultra sound today - when the stuff came on the screen and the blood showed on the screen, I said the red blood is the stuff going in and the blue blood is the stuff going out. I knew what all the colors meant. The lady was suprised, she said most people don't have a clue or get it mixed up. I was quite proud of my self. And I knew where the Arota was. I could remember some stuff!!

So hopefully tomorrow we'll be one step closer in to having a solution, with the GI appt in the am.

Oh for my postive happy ending for the day - Michelle sent me a pic of the her baby! It's amazing how fast it grows! I am soo excited for them!

Even though I had to work today - on Labor Day, it was an okay day!Carl came and took me to lunch. It was nice to get out for a bit.
I was also able to work on my next Kids class. I am doing an artwork page. It turned out very cute - if I do say so myself. Although the only trouble I seem to be having lately is, I usually have an idea in my head, and start to put it on paper. I'll get the layout part of it done, but then my page looks boring and I need to add ribbon or something to it, with out taking away the feel of it. I had Robyn help me with the last part of it. I always like having another source to refer to and an opinion I trust and respect and admire. She was in a funny mood this morning. She did not want to open the store today - being a holiday! I don't blame her. So she went and bought us all Krispy Kreme donuts - although I already had one on my way into work. But don't tell anyone since I'm supposed to be on a really lite diet!
I am feeling a little better. It's more of a suble pain now. But if I sit too long or take a deep breathe - it hurts. In the same spot. The meds don't seem to do much for the pain, they just turn my skin yellow. Fortunately I'm actually looking FORWARD to going to see Dr. Freburg and the specialist. I normally HATE this stuff. Especially the poking stuff and now when the push on me. That hurts! Ok I promised I wouldn't complain - I will NOT be a sissy!
Other than that it's been a pretty peaceful day. Carl slept most of the day, he's tired. Work has been kinda crazy for him. He's doing the criminal desk and the civil desk a little bit of both I guess. But he LOVES his job. As do I. We have been very fortunate in that department.
Oh and I'm sooo EXCITED - Brenda is staying! There was talk that her husband would stay with his job in NC. And they would move out there. But now they've decided they don't want to move her two teenage girls. They are starting to adjust to life and school here and starting to like it. (they are from Oregon, Salem I think)But they've decided Steve will work in NC for a year, and come home on three day weekends and holidays and stuff. I am SOO glad. We have become good friends. I need to drive more so I can drive over there and hang out with her. They also have a Cavaliar King Charles Spaniel, like Mom's dog, named Hope. She looks more like Bailey but has a brown/redish nose more. I am soo glad she is staying! That made my day!!

Are they really bad words?! It's all in context right?!It has made for some fun conversations with my scrappin friends! Mary you guys are all too funny! You guys make me laugh!
I also am so greatful for my friends at work. Brenda has called me twice at home to make sure I am okay. And Sue said she would come sit on me if I didn't take the other meds. I don't like the Cipro stuff. It gives me wierd side effects - don't worry Sue I'm still taking it! LOL! We were laughing because it makes me a little gasy - and I can't blame it on the dogs. But she says I should wear Carls shirt that says "Blame it on the Dog" anyway!
It's been a pretty relaxing day. We ran our errands early in the day.Then I came home and slept. Or tried to - but I've started watching Sponge Bob! Oh what is my world coming too! I so need a new hobby!
I did go to the book store today and tried to find the Chronicles of Narnia. But no luck. I am so excited for the movie to come out. I don't remember a lot of it, like with Lord of the Rings - I had to reread it again. I am going to try and find it online!
It looks like we might get a storm this weekend. It's tryin to now - the wind is blowing really hard and it's overcast, but no rain yet.

Ok I'll get this thing fixed! LOL! And forgive me, I am a terrible speller! Just ask my family! LOL!

It seems like last Friday never started! I got really sick over the weekend. I thought I just had food poisioning or something. I just had a really upset stomach down on my lower right side. It was painful. But it was also more like heartburn. But it didn't go away with tums. The pain shoots through my right side to my back. I had a dr's appt on Tue anyway.They ran more tests. My white blood cell count was normal but my red blood cell count was high and there was a blood in my urine. So I thought maybe a bladder infection, but I usually get really nauseated with those. This was a SHARP pain. The dr. thought it was my appendix or my kidneys. We did cat scan on Tue but it came back with only my lymph noides inflamed that were attatched to my appendix. He said it just could be the early signs of appendicitis or a kidney infection. He gave me antibotics and then another medication for the cramping. So far it seems to be helping better than the tylonol every 4 hrs. Today I still really hurt and was having cold sweats. But this eveing the antibotics seems to be working. So maybe I can finally sleep. I couldn' sit or lay down it was easier for me to stand - so I haven't been on the comp much. The Dr. still may refer me to a GI just to rule out my appendix. He said sometimes it can be found that way too and because of the location of my pain. Dang it hurts when he pushes on me! I said whatever it is Don't let it be my Gallbladder. Everyone at work says it's a nasty surgery but better when it's taken out. What do we need the Gall bladder and the appendix for anyway?! LOL! Even kidneys ya only need one. I know my mom has the trouble with the kidneys. It makes me appreciate what she goes through. That was probably minor. I just need to not be such a sissy. I have tried to be better and have a better pain tolerance and not take things just because I hurt. Pain scares me. Real physical pain. YIKES!
On a lighter note - we had a really cool dust storm, blow inabout 4 pm today. It was really cool to watch the sky turn a funny dirty yellow color. But we did actually get a little rain out of it. Which was nice!
I have been watching a little of the news - but it's so dang depressing and desperate what's going on over there in NO. It so sad. I can't even pathom that. Tragedy like that is hard for me to comprehend. I don't mean that to sound casual, but I truley can't even imagine what those people are going through. I hope and pray for the best of an UGLY situation.
On another lighter note - I don't like to end things depressing. Buster has been very silly lately. His newest thing is icecubes - he likes two of them at a time. If Bilko won't eat his Buster tries to pick his up at the same time!