I already have my short story written out. But I don't think I will submit it in. I wanted to write something that I could relate to, but in the end, the whole piece sounded so alike to my life, that it is actually daunting for me to send it in. It felt like I was writing part of my life (although it was dramatized) and publishing it. it's just WEIRD!!
So, I am going to change some stuff. Most of the work would remain the same, though I am changing some of the gist. Thank god the whole work could still be used even after I changed some stuff. Maybe because the whole paper is emo stuff so its fits right in.
After writing this work, I seriously don't think that I would qualify but what the heck. Just keep on writing and submitting, improving along the way and maybe one day I might qualify. I suppose it's not as much as getting it published but rather keeping up the 'tradition' of writing since I have not been siting down and pen the thought for quite some time. This definitely is the chance for me to do so.
though, come to think of it, winning isn't that bad also. :D all the better if it won ler... got laptop and RM 5000, I want!! haha.... but I won't put my hopes that high. Know where it stands. it wont be the worse, but it wont be the best as well, so.... let's just see how it turns out :D
Signing out,
Wen
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
look what I found~~
hehe... I can't believe this. Opened my email's inbox and recieve a mail saying that Sherrilyn Kenyon's Dark hunter series, my favourite paranormal romance series ever, is coming in manga???
Wait.... manga as in Manga?? the japanese comic??
Okay.... that's just weird!!
But since I was feeling bored, so I checked it out and it's really not bad. hehe...
Dark hunters in Manga? That idea is definately hard to digest. lolz. I wonder how are they going to draw the macho guys into comic? I can't wait to see how Acheron looks like :D
here's the link for those who wants a preview of the manga. it's Kyrian's story.
Jasmine, go check it out~~
hehe...
signing out,
Wen
Wait.... manga as in Manga?? the japanese comic??
Okay.... that's just weird!!
But since I was feeling bored, so I checked it out and it's really not bad. hehe...
Dark hunters in Manga? That idea is definately hard to digest. lolz. I wonder how are they going to draw the macho guys into comic? I can't wait to see how Acheron looks like :D
here's the link for those who wants a preview of the manga. it's Kyrian's story.
Jasmine, go check it out~~
hehe...
signing out,
Wen
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I have decided~~~
I have decided.....
*drum rolls*
aiyo.. not so serious la. this is NOT an emo post k?
yes...
as i was saying, I have decided. Decided to try my luck in the MPH-Alliance Bank National Short Story Prize 2009. Attractive prizes :D
As the title said, it's a short story competition. I have been joining such writing competition since I was 16 or 17?? but I had always failed. Did not even manage to enter the shortlist. Sigh... let's see, I joined 2 MPH contest, 1 silverbook writing contest and now i am going to try this.
Good thing is, there's no theme. Bad thing is, there's no theme. Yes... it's a good AND bad thing. Good, because if it's a theme that I am not familiar with then I can't write. Bad, because there's just too many ideas in my head!!
To be honest, I seriously doubt that I would enter the shortlist again since I believe that there are going to be more people joining this contest compared with the MPH one. But I thought, what the heck, just go and try my luck. Maybe my story will be chosen. Who knows? After all, there's no harm submitting a story.
I still haven't really have an idea yet on what to write about. So, don't be surprised if I come up to you guys in College and ask for your opinion. :D
Wish me luck!!
Signing out,
Wen
*drum rolls*
aiyo.. not so serious la. this is NOT an emo post k?
yes...
as i was saying, I have decided. Decided to try my luck in the MPH-Alliance Bank National Short Story Prize 2009. Attractive prizes :D
As the title said, it's a short story competition. I have been joining such writing competition since I was 16 or 17?? but I had always failed. Did not even manage to enter the shortlist. Sigh... let's see, I joined 2 MPH contest, 1 silverbook writing contest and now i am going to try this.
Good thing is, there's no theme. Bad thing is, there's no theme. Yes... it's a good AND bad thing. Good, because if it's a theme that I am not familiar with then I can't write. Bad, because there's just too many ideas in my head!!
To be honest, I seriously doubt that I would enter the shortlist again since I believe that there are going to be more people joining this contest compared with the MPH one. But I thought, what the heck, just go and try my luck. Maybe my story will be chosen. Who knows? After all, there's no harm submitting a story.
I still haven't really have an idea yet on what to write about. So, don't be surprised if I come up to you guys in College and ask for your opinion. :D
Wish me luck!!
Signing out,
Wen
Monday, February 23, 2009
Emotions and thoughts again
It seems that after so many months I still can't get over it. To some people, you guys might think, what is the big deal?? isn't 6 months more than enough for me to get over it? well, it seems that it's not enough. there are times that I wonder if I will EVER get over the whole issue. Just when I thought 'Yes, I am over it', BANG, the truth came out and I am back to where I started.
I have heard countless of times where people would describe me as cheerful, happy go lucky or even as someone who has no worries and there are times that I really believe what they say. But in many ways, the happy face that I put on sometimes is just a facade. I can smile when I feel like crying, I can smile when I am feeling very down and I can smile when I am feeling very irritated and feel like killing you. In the beginning, that was the way I am around my family and family friends, and I think up till now, the facade is still up at certain times. Not many people could see through what I am thinking at times like this but they are exceptional people that could. they are my friends - expecially Mae and Siew See. They understand my mood, they understand my emotions and they could see through the facade that I put on. I don't mind them knowing how I really feel but not other people, maybe because they are so close to me, that I just can't imagine how boring life would be without them. They are the one that I turn to when I am trouble, they are among the few that are privilaged to see my tears. Even my parents don't get to see me crying.
Some of you may wonder, why, why keep such tight reins on my emotions? why not let them flow? why not just let them be? I myself too do not know the answer. Maybe it's because I view crying as a weak thing and I don't want to be weak in front of people. Someone once told me, that it's alright for me to cry, it's alright for the tears to flow, and yet, up till now I feel embarassed to let people see me cry.
What had happened earlier once again told me how much the whole 'coming back' issue bothers me especially when it comes to my family. and once again, it was my family that dealt that unwanted and unwarranted blow. I don't usually take people's words to heart but somehow, this whole issue bugs me. somehow, it is only this issue that can deal such a blow to my self confidences and emotions. If it's any other issue, I would just ignore you and act as if you are just sprouting real crap.
So, what had happened earlier that brought about this post? Most of you are definately aware of my intense fear of lizards, though it subside a little in the past few years. I avoid them as much as I could and it bothers me to actually have a lizard in the same room. That's why Mae always warn me when there's one nearby. Then I can actually avoid it. Really appreciate it.
Imagine this. I was helping my family to take down the lanterns for CNY and HE was sitting in front of me blocking the path out. A lizard fell on my hand, being stuck there for about 5 seconds before it registered into my mind that a freaking LIZARD was on my hand. Acting on pure fear, I screamed, fling and shook my hand as hard as I could, somehow hoping that the lizard would hit the wall and DIE. But like all lizards do, they DON'T. DAMN!!
somehow, unable to run away, I just stood there, screaming, flinging my hand, and giving HIM a scare. HE didn't move away so I could make a run for it, but rather he said stuff that I rather not repeat here. Nonetheless, I ignored it and quickly walked into the house to get away from that lizard. Unfortunately, I wasn't fast enough. I heard what HE told my mom. I quote them...
"what the hell she was doing, screaming like that? gave me a scare."
"you should know that she was afraid of lizards. You were sitting there, she can't move so she can't run away, can she?"
" she's afraid of a freaking lizard. you guys spoilt her so much that's why she's afraid of lizard and now she's CAN'T GROW UP. that's why she came back from Australia. She's WEAK."
Please can someone tell me the connection between coming back from Aussie and being afraid of lizards? Would staying in Australia actually cure this fear of mine? I really don't think so. So why connect these two together? I just don't understand....
When I heard that, how i wish that I didn't hear it. Because it was then that he showed me how HE had viewed me, even though he comes running to me when he face a problem or needed an opinion. This was not the first time he said that and I doubt it would be the last.
the first few time he said that, I told myself, he didn't understood what his words can do to me. If you guys actually read this blog, you would find that in the previous post, I wrote about how I view HIM (if you did, you will know who I am talking about) but after actually seeing what his words can do to me (I actually cried and he saw once) I thought that he would stop. But I guess I was wrong.
He either didn't care how I feel at all, or he just put put it at the back of his mind, sprouting words like this without even thinking how it would affect me.
Don't worry people... I will get over this soon enough. I suppose a few battles on Rock legends, a few intense button pressing on the PSP imagining that he's the enemy and a good night sleep would bring back the previous me. :D
Signing out,
Wen
I have heard countless of times where people would describe me as cheerful, happy go lucky or even as someone who has no worries and there are times that I really believe what they say. But in many ways, the happy face that I put on sometimes is just a facade. I can smile when I feel like crying, I can smile when I am feeling very down and I can smile when I am feeling very irritated and feel like killing you. In the beginning, that was the way I am around my family and family friends, and I think up till now, the facade is still up at certain times. Not many people could see through what I am thinking at times like this but they are exceptional people that could. they are my friends - expecially Mae and Siew See. They understand my mood, they understand my emotions and they could see through the facade that I put on. I don't mind them knowing how I really feel but not other people, maybe because they are so close to me, that I just can't imagine how boring life would be without them. They are the one that I turn to when I am trouble, they are among the few that are privilaged to see my tears. Even my parents don't get to see me crying.
Some of you may wonder, why, why keep such tight reins on my emotions? why not let them flow? why not just let them be? I myself too do not know the answer. Maybe it's because I view crying as a weak thing and I don't want to be weak in front of people. Someone once told me, that it's alright for me to cry, it's alright for the tears to flow, and yet, up till now I feel embarassed to let people see me cry.
What had happened earlier once again told me how much the whole 'coming back' issue bothers me especially when it comes to my family. and once again, it was my family that dealt that unwanted and unwarranted blow. I don't usually take people's words to heart but somehow, this whole issue bugs me. somehow, it is only this issue that can deal such a blow to my self confidences and emotions. If it's any other issue, I would just ignore you and act as if you are just sprouting real crap.
So, what had happened earlier that brought about this post? Most of you are definately aware of my intense fear of lizards, though it subside a little in the past few years. I avoid them as much as I could and it bothers me to actually have a lizard in the same room. That's why Mae always warn me when there's one nearby. Then I can actually avoid it. Really appreciate it.
Imagine this. I was helping my family to take down the lanterns for CNY and HE was sitting in front of me blocking the path out. A lizard fell on my hand, being stuck there for about 5 seconds before it registered into my mind that a freaking LIZARD was on my hand. Acting on pure fear, I screamed, fling and shook my hand as hard as I could, somehow hoping that the lizard would hit the wall and DIE. But like all lizards do, they DON'T. DAMN!!
somehow, unable to run away, I just stood there, screaming, flinging my hand, and giving HIM a scare. HE didn't move away so I could make a run for it, but rather he said stuff that I rather not repeat here. Nonetheless, I ignored it and quickly walked into the house to get away from that lizard. Unfortunately, I wasn't fast enough. I heard what HE told my mom. I quote them...
"what the hell she was doing, screaming like that? gave me a scare."
"you should know that she was afraid of lizards. You were sitting there, she can't move so she can't run away, can she?"
" she's afraid of a freaking lizard. you guys spoilt her so much that's why she's afraid of lizard and now she's CAN'T GROW UP. that's why she came back from Australia. She's WEAK."
Please can someone tell me the connection between coming back from Aussie and being afraid of lizards? Would staying in Australia actually cure this fear of mine? I really don't think so. So why connect these two together? I just don't understand....
When I heard that, how i wish that I didn't hear it. Because it was then that he showed me how HE had viewed me, even though he comes running to me when he face a problem or needed an opinion. This was not the first time he said that and I doubt it would be the last.
the first few time he said that, I told myself, he didn't understood what his words can do to me. If you guys actually read this blog, you would find that in the previous post, I wrote about how I view HIM (if you did, you will know who I am talking about) but after actually seeing what his words can do to me (I actually cried and he saw once) I thought that he would stop. But I guess I was wrong.
He either didn't care how I feel at all, or he just put put it at the back of his mind, sprouting words like this without even thinking how it would affect me.
Don't worry people... I will get over this soon enough. I suppose a few battles on Rock legends, a few intense button pressing on the PSP imagining that he's the enemy and a good night sleep would bring back the previous me. :D
Signing out,
Wen
Sunday, February 22, 2009
What happened in the past 2 weeks
hey!!
it's been 2 weeks since I last updated and some interesting stuff had happened but as usual, I am too lazy to update.
let's see....
1) Had eliza's surprise party at my place but she surprised us instead when she called us to inform that she can't come but she turn up anyway.... (check out Mae and Calv's blog)
2) Celebrated my Valentine with my friends.
3) Ate sushi with my mom and and had stomach ache after that :( I think it the crab. nonetheless, I enjoyed the raw salmon a lot. I wanna go again~~ *avoid the crab*
4)Ate delicious Thai food. Think Jo will love it.
5) had stomach ache after that again. Shouldn't have eaten ice-cream, thai food AND spicy pan mee in the same day in less than 12 hrs.
6) Still hasn't catch any of the movies that I wanna watch
7) finally went karaoke with my friends (me, mae and siew). Although there was only 3 of us, it was fun!
8) decided to go to Macau in May and not Thailand in April
9) Mom agree to let me go to Sabah AND Hong Kong in December if plans are successful
10) Bought 7 romance books from MPH for RM 150+
11) Went gym only ONCE this week.
12) Realized that most of my assignments are to be handed in the first 2 weeks of March
13) Realized that Feb is coming to an end and I haven't started any of my assignments yet
14) only had 11/15 for my design assignment. he said I need to put in more typeface, but when I did he said it was too many ><
15) Decided to donate blood on wed - just hope that I don't chicken out last minute when I see the needle. 16) had my English mid terms exams and it was sucky
17) my English discussion paper only had 77/100 ><
18) it was worse for my Comm in workplace assignment that only scored 11/20 >< >< ><
19) Addicted to Rock Legend
20) One of my couz had an accident (his car did a 360 degree flip) but he was perfectly fine. Still can jump out of the car and call my uncle to tell him about the accident. Think he gave my uncle a heart attack.
21) Talked to this guy in my English class and exchanged numbers ( think cos not many ppl can understand Chinese)
22) having diarrhea today. must be the Thai food + 1 pint of ice cream + spicy Pan mee >< note to self, don't eat all those together!!
23) currently reading 'talk of the town' by karen hawkins.
24) they set the date for the runway 101 event.
25) I wanna go out with my friends again!!
26) my bro's students are coming over to paint their sport house stuff.
27) decided to go to SMKBB sports day on the 7th March (i think), Sat. Anyone wanna join me?
28) Received Lam's Raymond Lam CD.
29) I have to read 4 chapters of ad copy for tomorrow's assignment
30) gotten 4.2/5 for bill's MCQ quiz 2
I think that's all that happened in the past 2 weeks. :D
Signing out,
Wen
it's been 2 weeks since I last updated and some interesting stuff had happened but as usual, I am too lazy to update.
let's see....
1) Had eliza's surprise party at my place but she surprised us instead when she called us to inform that she can't come but she turn up anyway.... (check out Mae and Calv's blog)
2) Celebrated my Valentine with my friends.
3) Ate sushi with my mom and and had stomach ache after that :( I think it the crab. nonetheless, I enjoyed the raw salmon a lot. I wanna go again~~ *avoid the crab*
4)Ate delicious Thai food. Think Jo will love it.
5) had stomach ache after that again. Shouldn't have eaten ice-cream, thai food AND spicy pan mee in the same day in less than 12 hrs.
6) Still hasn't catch any of the movies that I wanna watch
7) finally went karaoke with my friends (me, mae and siew). Although there was only 3 of us, it was fun!
8) decided to go to Macau in May and not Thailand in April
9) Mom agree to let me go to Sabah AND Hong Kong in December if plans are successful
10) Bought 7 romance books from MPH for RM 150+
11) Went gym only ONCE this week.
12) Realized that most of my assignments are to be handed in the first 2 weeks of March
13) Realized that Feb is coming to an end and I haven't started any of my assignments yet
14) only had 11/15 for my design assignment. he said I need to put in more typeface, but when I did he said it was too many ><
15) Decided to donate blood on wed - just hope that I don't chicken out last minute when I see the needle. 16) had my English mid terms exams and it was sucky
17) my English discussion paper only had 77/100 ><
18) it was worse for my Comm in workplace assignment that only scored 11/20 >< >< ><
19) Addicted to Rock Legend
20) One of my couz had an accident (his car did a 360 degree flip) but he was perfectly fine. Still can jump out of the car and call my uncle to tell him about the accident. Think he gave my uncle a heart attack.
21) Talked to this guy in my English class and exchanged numbers ( think cos not many ppl can understand Chinese)
22) having diarrhea today. must be the Thai food + 1 pint of ice cream + spicy Pan mee >< note to self, don't eat all those together!!
23) currently reading 'talk of the town' by karen hawkins.
24) they set the date for the runway 101 event.
25) I wanna go out with my friends again!!
26) my bro's students are coming over to paint their sport house stuff.
27) decided to go to SMKBB sports day on the 7th March (i think), Sat. Anyone wanna join me?
28) Received Lam's Raymond Lam CD.
29) I have to read 4 chapters of ad copy for tomorrow's assignment
30) gotten 4.2/5 for bill's MCQ quiz 2
I think that's all that happened in the past 2 weeks. :D
Signing out,
Wen
Sunday, February 8, 2009
A day with friends
hehe, I am in my lazy-to-update-my-blog-mood again. I missed out blogging about our KLPAC event, our Genting trip, my CNY, my friends coming over for CNY and Jue's open house that was yesterday.
Today, Luc, Mae, Me, Jo and Eliza went to Taman Tun at about 7.30 for a morning walk at the Arboretum hill or something like that. I was lack of sleep, though not as much as Mae but since I like sleeping so much, I was like half awake when they arrived at my place. Mae, Eliza and Luc went for 2 rounds while 1 round is enough for me. Jo stayed back to accompany me. The walk was quite nice, minus the parts where i was laboring to get uphill. I was breathing so heavily that it caused several concerns among the gang since I have difficultly in breathing in certain conditions. Somehow the trail seem to be somewhat shorter that I remembered it.
We had soybean drink after the walk before heading back to my house. We talked about all sort of stuff from gossips to sex education. Then , we spilt up to take our baths in separate bathrooms before heading out for lunch at this place called Teo Chew Fishball that Luc recommended.
Came back to my place again to hang out and we started doing silly stuff. I d0n't want to specify what we did in fear of my life :D. Lolz. They head home about 2.45pm and I started fiddling with my lappie since its a little weird.
I thought that I had to reformat my lappie but my bro stopped me and took over instead. turn out that the whole prob was that I did not fragment my hard disk and update my antivirus and spybot. There was some prob with the antivirus in my lappie but my bro manage to do it. Then, we found this spyware and somehow it couldnt be erased by the spybot. So, my bro downloaded another program and ran it in safe mode trying to get rid of it. It processes real slow in safe mode because it was scanning since 8 and up till now its still scanning. sigh....
I am typing this post using the mini lappie and its quite annoying to type with because I kept on pressing the wrong buttons, Oh well, hope my lappie gets well soon.
that's all for now!!
signing out,
Wen :D
p/s: don't be surprise if this post has lots of spelling errors :D
Today, Luc, Mae, Me, Jo and Eliza went to Taman Tun at about 7.30 for a morning walk at the Arboretum hill or something like that. I was lack of sleep, though not as much as Mae but since I like sleeping so much, I was like half awake when they arrived at my place. Mae, Eliza and Luc went for 2 rounds while 1 round is enough for me. Jo stayed back to accompany me. The walk was quite nice, minus the parts where i was laboring to get uphill. I was breathing so heavily that it caused several concerns among the gang since I have difficultly in breathing in certain conditions. Somehow the trail seem to be somewhat shorter that I remembered it.
We had soybean drink after the walk before heading back to my house. We talked about all sort of stuff from gossips to sex education. Then , we spilt up to take our baths in separate bathrooms before heading out for lunch at this place called Teo Chew Fishball that Luc recommended.
Came back to my place again to hang out and we started doing silly stuff. I d0n't want to specify what we did in fear of my life :D. Lolz. They head home about 2.45pm and I started fiddling with my lappie since its a little weird.
I thought that I had to reformat my lappie but my bro stopped me and took over instead. turn out that the whole prob was that I did not fragment my hard disk and update my antivirus and spybot. There was some prob with the antivirus in my lappie but my bro manage to do it. Then, we found this spyware and somehow it couldnt be erased by the spybot. So, my bro downloaded another program and ran it in safe mode trying to get rid of it. It processes real slow in safe mode because it was scanning since 8 and up till now its still scanning. sigh....
I am typing this post using the mini lappie and its quite annoying to type with because I kept on pressing the wrong buttons, Oh well, hope my lappie gets well soon.
that's all for now!!
signing out,
Wen :D
p/s: don't be surprise if this post has lots of spelling errors :D
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