Out from the grave again!!

Yes.. yes... It's been ages since Li Wen updated and you guys are most probably going, FINALLY! she updated or maybe you guys don't even bother to visit anymore since this blog has been in the grave for days now.

Within the days from my last post to this, many things happened. I had always tell myself to update my blog on the outings that I had but in the end, I just sat there, starting at my computer.

People left for overseas to studying. Derrick and Ben had already left. Having to know and message them at the weirdest time ever, it's just weird that they aren't a message away anymore. I have known Ben for all my life and as for Derrick, he's my pet brother, I have known him for 8 years now (that's ALMOST half of my life). Somehow, it felt as if my circle of friends is shrinking. I know that this would happen and it's almost impossible to retain all my friends that I had in high school, but the feeling is still there. I am sad that they are going away and yet happy because they are starting a new chapter in life. Who knows, maybe there they will find a girl that would do them good :)

Looking back, I realize that it's really a long way that I have come to with my friends. I still have most of my close high school friends with me and I really glad that they are there. They were there for me when I was down, they were there for me when I was feeling really horrible and that the world is crashing down on me. They were there when I felt that my dreams were slipping away and that my life is a screw up. They were there for me uncountable times, standing by me, helping me to stand when I couldn't face the world. A lot of times, I realized that what we have in our very own circle of friends is something really special and it's really something worth treasuring. I cant help but wonder, after all of us has our very own family, will we still be as close as ever?? Will our kids be friends? Will we still be meeting up together to go shopping along with our children or will this beautiful friendship that we have between all of us is going to disappear? I really like to think that this friendship would stay on and we could grow old together, but who knows what the future brings?? I want to thank them for always bring there for me. You guys know who u are....

On a happier note, I am finally 20!! Didn't really have any celebration or anything like that. Just went out for dinner with my friends, had some fun in the arcade and that's about it. Yet, I had greatly enjoyed it. I received some interesting gifts for this birthday. among them were....

This was made and given by Michelle. Thank you!! Hugs and kisses!!

This was made by Siew See. She gave it to me before I left for Australia but who would have thought that I would be home to collect it anyway? This is the front. She made it herself. Nice!!

This is the back. Nice right?? Thanks SS, Hugs and Kisses

Introducing..... LITTLE DEVIL!! My nick-namesake!! This was given by Alexa and Izzie. So cute!! Me, Mae, Siew See and Alexa saw this and when I go, "eh!! it's me!!" Alexa and Izzie got it Little Devil for my birthday. Thanks gals! Hugs and kisses.

Little Devil and Lil_devil

This Beauty and the Beast rose look alike was given by Melissa. Apparently, she went with LAM to buy it. :) Thanks! It's sitting on my bed now among the cuddles and Bonez. It's 'a rose among the stuff toys'

Thank you to you guys for the nice gifts :) Hugs and kisses!

On another note, I just finish my presentation for critical thinking today. It's my first presentation in Foundation and i think it went quite okay. The orientation question was: "where and what do you see yourself in 5 years?" choose that question on a die. I answered it with 2 words - event manager and the rest are just explanation on what they do and stuff like that. had to talk for 5 min but i was done in 4 min plus but my friend, Amber say that is' alright, sooo.... guess it's alright :)

Going to be busy studying this week since I have an Intermediate English, Introduction to Marketing principles and Critical Thinking this week. First two subjects on fri and the third on Sat. Just my luck that everything comes together for this week. Sigh...

I guess that's all for now. :) Hugz...

Life these days

Nothing much happens these day. Class started, I gotten degraded to do foundation and it totally sucks. I am like most probably the oldest there since the average age group for the HMC is about 18 and 19. Suddenly feel soooo old.

Birthday's coming up soon. Am really debating if I should have a small gathering. Manage to get my mom to promise me that I get to do a BIG party when I am 21, but I am sure that is just ALL talk. Since I have no idea on what I can do for my birthday, so I guess I am going to stick back to the usual stuff of lunch/dinner and movie. But since everything is still unsure, there's a possibility that I won't have it at all.

Going to foundation classes can sometimes be such a drag. Maybe because I miss my friends in BComm and I really crave to meet them and all, or maybe it's just because this 3 months seems so long because I am mostly alone in class. Whenever I come across something really funny, I have the urge to turn around and tell Michelle, but then I would just realize that she's not in the same class as me anymore. The people I know are only acquaintances and somehow I feel a little weird to approch them. So, I am like the loner in class?? Oh well, I don't really mind except that when it comes to group assignment I might have some problem since I have no group?? Will have to see how it goes then.

Turned out that my Marketing Principles lecturer is Bill Quah, my previously business Admin lecturer when I was studying in ADP. I was so surprise to see him just like he is. Been having random chats with him and like he say, it's only for a semester then I can join my friends again - I hope.

I am still waiting for an answer from HELP's registrar about my next semester subjects. Since I only have 1 more subject in HMC for next semester, I was hoping that they would figure out something for me. The registrar did promise that they would but I still haven't gotten my answer from them yet. Been trying to look for the lady in charge, but whenever i want to drop by, she's either not in, on the phone or there's someone else with her in the room. So there's really no chance of me finding out and i can't wait to get over it. If they say that there have no idea how to help me, I really don't know what to do.

These days, when I have break which is only on tues and weds, both only an hour and half, I would go for lunch and while eating, I would read. If I am lucky, my friends in BComm might finish early and we can meet up for half an hour or more.

Like I say, nothing much has been going on with my life. Questions and unwanted opinions doesn't come much anymore. The people I meeting back these days are more accepting and less judemental, which really make things easier for me. Life's setting into a routine now, I think I can start to unwind and not get so defensive and moody anymore.